Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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why am i still alive?

  August 17th, 2009 by peppermint

hi, i am new here (sorry about my bad english) and i was hoping that i could finally tell how i feel and maybe.. someone would understand and listen. well, i feel like shit and i don’t fit in to my familys perfect world. my friends don’t take me seriously and my grandfather likes to hit me.

i guess this all began when i was 12 because he hit me for the first time (i am now 18) i don’t know why but my grandfather has always hated me. when i was 14 he told me that i am a pathetic asshole and terrible big sister …

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At least here noone actually knows me..

  August 15th, 2009 by Spinni

[I WARN YOU NOW THIS IS LONG]

I’ll explain the tite in a minute. I’ve researched about suicide, understood all the facts. Yet I’m a hypocryte. I apoligise for that but here’s how I am: I’ll use as much logic and try to keep polite to get my point across if I’m trying to make or keep someone reletivy happy. But when it comes to myself. I can’t help but be as pesstimistic as possible.

Now about the title- One thing I heard that helps is getting your problems out. But I don’t trust some people and others I don’t want to worry. So I post it …

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No hope for the heart broken

  August 11th, 2009 by BrodieSwankie

im sorry everyone but i couldnt find another way out life is too hard when every one you love just hurts you in the end life has been hard im sick of being depressed all the time i was only ever really happy with chantal i started to get depressed after peter took his own life i miss him so much i think life would of been good if he was still here i hope to see him in the after life what ever that might be i have tryed to kill my self befor a fewtimes and not just over chantal but im ready …

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it will never be OK…

  August 11th, 2009 by neverbeok

It will never be ok…

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I have a question

  August 6th, 2009 by questions

Is it normal to be having suicidal thoughts?

I’m 18, And I don’t think I’d act on the thoughts, But when I start to think about my future, I see me failing, And sometimes think it would be better to end things now. I want to go to school, And be able to have a future, But I’m so self conscious about my body I don’t want to go to school, Because I don’t like people seeing me like this.

My dad died when I was younger, My brother and the rest of my family dislikes me. Besides my mom, She is all I have but she …

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14 years of there pain in me

  August 5th, 2009 by suicide-princess

i have always hated myself and everything to do with me i cant even look at a photo of myself and i cant seem to do anything right and everyone keeps quitting on me so whats the point in living? sure im only 14 but thats 14 years of pain let me help you understand a little i am a 14 year old girl living in care i have had 6 different placements in seven years and to top it off im bi so nothing seems to be going very well my therapist quit on me today so that makes three  of them  i have …

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i hate myself and seriously wana die……

  August 4th, 2009 by alone_y

i dont know wat da bloody hell i m doing here but it hardly matters to me know as i dont think nething is personal in ma life………
But i do wana express my feelings to so let it be here only.
I m frm Delhi,India i hav had a alot of friends but i dont like any of them know the babe who loved me has only played with my heart nd knw my parents nd sis hates me…..dad thinks i m a dopist which i m nt nd he doesnt let a single moment to skip from his hands to abuse me …… I think …

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Weak and feeling pathetic

  August 2nd, 2009 by Peace

I have experienced too much pain and to little joy in my young life.

i have always feelt unease with myself since aslong as i remember but 3 years ago i had enough, enough of people mocking me or making me a laughing stock, i started to do something i never thought i’d do and that was planing my own suicide and even writing a big letter to people (Family at most) and 4 people that i have keep in touch with thanks to a suicidal chat.

Today its gone 3 years since i planed my suicide but i still havnt done it, im overwhelmed with guilt …

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I can’t live like this anymore

  August 2nd, 2009 by kayceekitten

I can’t live this way anymore. My best friend gave me a lecture about me killing myself, and now hates me. My one friend, Paige, doesn’t even ACT like she cares. I’m probably depressed, I wanna kill myself, and I have thought of running away multiple times (I would have nowhere to go….). My life is one big hell. My dad hit me when I was three, has been verbally abusive since, hit me again when I was seven, and juSt plain pisses me off. My parents argue often now, and I’ve decided next time they get in a fight, I’m running and not coming …

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Looking for people that understand

  August 2nd, 2009 by sumpinstattooed

I’ve been “struggling” with depression since I was nine; I’m thirty-three now. I have been on hundreds of medications and finished sixteen rounds of ECT (8 unilateral, 8 bilateral) in May. Long story short, things are not better.

I feel a huge amount of guilt and fear about leaving my husband behind, but I can no longer distract myself from the fact that I want it to end and it doesn’t seem that is going to happen. I have been severely depressed, unable to go to school, unable to even bathe, for three and a half years now. I love my husband more than I knew …

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Life or death?

  July 31st, 2009 by kayceekitten

I really don’t know what to do anymore. My life is going downhill. My few friends are turning against me. It feels like nobody wants me here, so if I ended my life, everyone would be happier. I want to end my life, but I am too afraid to take the necessary actions to do so. I sleep eleven hours a night, which is three hours longer than I used to sleep, plus i wake up at 4 am and cant go back to sleep for about twenty minutes. I am rarely hungry and last night i felt really dizzy for about two hours. I …

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When the World Doesn’t Let You End

  July 30th, 2009 by Saeide

Well, to be honest I don’t know why I’m here. To be blunt some random guy in a gaming community suddenly linked me to this site out of the blue and I decided that what the heck, I’d share my story since I’ve had self-destructive if not suicidal thoughts lately.

My mother was my world, I was not close to any of my other immediate family members. She’d had cancer for nearly nine years when she finally passed away. My world and life collapsed. I spent a whole week doing nothing but lying in my room, I didn’t eat, I barely slept; I simply laid on …

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I Just Want to Disappear

  July 28th, 2009 by Frazier3

I realize that there are many of you who are in the same amount or worse pain than I am. I need to tell my story, and hope that someone can help me.

The past five years have been a nightmare for me.  One of my very closest friends died at the age of 48 from a brain tumor.  My Mom had a stroke, and then died last year from cancer after receiving a cancer-free diagnosis only a month before.  I lived with her and was her primary caretaker for four years.  I asked my family if I could live in our home until January (I would …

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The most hated person ever….

  July 25th, 2009 by kayceekitten

It’s obvious I am hated by everyone, they just don’t say it. I really wish they would just tell me that they hate me instead of pretending. I mean, who would want to spend their time hearing some stupid retard ***** about her life? I don’t know what to do. I’m always tired, but now I am so tired that I can’t even act happy around two people!!! This school year I’m gonna tell everyone to stay the hell away from me because, again, no one wants to listen to me. I am pretty sure I need help but I’m too scared to try. I …

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My Story

  July 24th, 2009 by kayceekitten

I am a twelve year old girl who has been put through shit in the past few years. I’m not sure where the problem began, but I’m trying my best to find out.

I think it started last August, when my “friend” Shelby and I tried cutting ourselves with sticks. She did it for attention, while I did it because I thought that maybe it might help. Little did I know that I was committing myself to this life (because I’m such an idiot). She made scratches on her arm while I was trying to make it bleed.

In middle school, things started to get worse. I …

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I want to die!

  July 24th, 2009 by jacjacob101

Im about 13, ive been cutting my self ever sence i was 10.

im deeply depressed,

everyone hates me,

no one loves me for who i am,

people dont look at me for what i am, but what i have done,

i have been beaten when i was little,

ive lost over 50 pounds in a month, just becuz i stoped eating,

peoplel dont belive i will kill my self, i have tryed to multiple times.

i sit in class all day ignored

i dont talk to people

im always getting in trouble

i have thoughts of killing my self and others

i never have done anything for the world yet and i wont,  people say i …

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My Story.

  July 23rd, 2009 by th3rdegreeburn

I don’t know what to do anymore. I used to have all the world laying at my feet, and I could pick whatever direction I chose. My life held so much promise, and now it is decaying around me.

In the past two years I’ve been beaten by my parents, taken by CPS, thrown into the real world a month later, and killed myself working ever since. I was supposed to go to the Air Force Academy. I got a full ride to a state college instead, where I found out what I loved to do most. But now I’m sitting in this house, and all …

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I fear the end is near

  July 20th, 2009 by Boondockrod

my name is Rod, i am suicidal..i am diagnosed depression..i am crying as i write this..i am in so much pain..not just emotionaly but physical as well…i want to tell my story but i feel no one will care anyway..i guess i came here to find hope and all i really find is people either worse off then me or people with so much pain i can feel it in my own heart …i hate when people try to tell me its ok and will get better…it has only gotten worse as years go by…i am at my end..there is nothing that can seem to

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  July 19th, 2009 by gini

hi there I’m 28yrs old and don’t know what to do anymore i have 4 kids which at the moment i don’t like I’ve been told that due to depression which Ive suffered for years since being a kid all i want to do is end all this for me and them as i know that as long as I’m here there not going to be happy and i no that wen i go they will all have loving happy places to go to life is so shit i just don’t know how to cope i no how im gonna do it i already told …

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Life and questions

  July 19th, 2009 by jeff24353

im 16 my name is jeff, i am depressed and dont know why, my mom and dad got a divorce when i was 5 and i live with my mom, i am a christian, i hav a fairly good relationship with both of my parents, i’m actually not a bad looking kid, but i havent had a girlfriend in like 3 yrs, i feel very along bc ppl say they are there for me, the they arent. but speaking of girls, there is this one, and i dont know about you other guys (PLEASE TELL ME IF YA’LL DO THIS) but every time you think …

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