Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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Idealization

  March 14th, 2009 by z

How I idealize: a certain member here sums it up perfectly.  So I sat down and idealized more.  And watched a very good film on the subject.

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0477139/

Film teaser: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gn7GVNskKU8

It is about us.  It is a beautiful film that is as funny as it made me cry.  I don’t want to spoil it for anyone, you should just watch it.

This is all I do now, idealize my own death and who I will meet afterwards.  There is a romance to it.  And it’s not to get back at anyone, I just want to reach outward and upward.

My life (oh boy, the “my life story” …

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I feel so helpless.

  March 12th, 2009 by idontknwowhattodo

I dont know what to do. I am 13 years old and I dont know if I can take it anymore. My parents are divorced, my dad has anger issues and yells a lot. I feel like I have to protect my step brother and step sister because my step mom doesn’t do anything. My step mom gets stressed and takes her anger out on me. My mom is also stressed and takes her anger out on me. At school I try to be friends with everyone but everyone just ignores me and whispers behind my back about how I smell and how ugly I …

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This is going to be long.. Sorry people

  March 12th, 2009 by devils advocate

Hi my name is Madelaine and I am 19 years old. Iv been suicidal since I was about 13 years old and it just progressed from there. For 10 years I was sexually assaulted so as I started going from a little girl to a teenager my mind just soared with anger. I was bullied all through primary school and High school. I was the geek, the nerd, the one noone liked because to them I was ugly. It just kinda stuck so I think I am ugly…

My mother never accepted me. I was never good enough for her. So i just wanted to die …

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My story-ish

  February 17th, 2009 by Stonecolddeadinside

I know that people always say, “Oh it’ll be okay” and “Oh I’m so sorry”. They say all these things that just don’t help. But when you need it the most, there’s always one person, who’ll actually say something that helps.

I’ve lost a lot of things, Family, friends, the love of my life, and even the will to live. It hurts when someone you love lies to you, or your family disowns you.

A few months ago, I got in trouble with the law for my brother’s Marijuana in my car. I made the illogical decision to let him smoke in my car before …

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Spiralling downward. I think I’m loosing all I have left.

  February 10th, 2009 by Kuddles

“Is a hug and three short words, really too much? Or am I loosing him, all I have left? After loosing my mother, my father, and being separated from my sister am I loosing him too? I just don’t think I can take it.”

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THE HURT IS TOO MUCH

  February 9th, 2009 by PATRICIA MARSHALL

REJECTION FROM YOUR LEGAL FAMILY IS HURTFUL. REJECTION FROM YOUR ADOPTIVE FAMILY IS EVEN WORSE. REJECTION FROM YOUR CHILDREN IS THE MOST HURTFUL THING IN THE WORLD. REJECTION FOR MONEY AND REJECTION BECAUSE OF BEING THREATENED AND BECAUSE ITS TOUGH LOVE.
TOUGH LOVE CAUSES MORE HURT AND PAIN AND I HAVE BEEN TOUGH LOVED TO DEATH. THAT MESS WENT OUT IN THE 70’S WHEN A MASS SUICIDE WAS DISCOVERED AT A TOUGH LOVE COMMUNE RAN BY SUSAN PALMONDO. SHE SELLS INSURANCE TO YOUR FAMILY. SHE CONVINCED PEOPLE THAT THEIR FAMILIES DID NOT LOVE THEM DIDN’T WANT THEM AND THIS IS WHAT SHE AND HER FAMILY …

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My life has come to this?

  February 4th, 2009 by Terrified

A year ago, I was happy. Good grades, tons of friends, just started middle school. It was good.

Now, at 12, almost 13, I’m cutting myself, and having suicidal thoughts almost every day.

I don’t know how it got here, though.

My grandmother and brother died in the course of one month, but thats not it. Or at least I don’t think it is.

I guess it started as just a spur-of-the-moment thing. I started seventh grade with RSD, RA, Pain syndrome, and fucked-up nerves in my right arm. I’m in pain 24/7. And it’s not just small pain, …

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can someone help me

  February 3rd, 2009 by eric3034

i dont know what to do my step dad is yelling at me when i did not do any thing i am 17 lets see well it starts when i was litel my dad left my mom sexually abused me and my bother was in juvey for drugs and all my friends are neglectful i am picked on and i don’t think i can make it this time and my mom doesn’t care for me i have attempted to kill my self 3 times and faled cus some one walked in i cant see my rist all that i …

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i wonder if she made it

  January 21st, 2009 by estoy_triste

this is in memory of my bestfriend Angel R.I.P i miss u mama

we grew up together. from the time i was born untill i was 14, she was two years older than me but we were bestfriends. i loved her like a sister an she loved me more than words could explain.. her mom did drugs (crack) an angel never wanted to go home.. we would sit outside untill it got dark.. then i had to go home.. as we got older we grew closer.. she was the first person i got high with. she was the first person i ran away with ha …

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My Hamster Wheel

  January 17th, 2009 by btru2utoo

Family – Grad School – Career – Children – Friends – Volunteering – Pets – Chores – Homework

It is like being in a hamster wheel – exhausting – constant – never ending

But, I am all smiles, say the right things, act the right way, look the right way – 4.0 , suck up at work, good to my one living parent, devoted wife, adoring mommy…

Everyone always wants another piece of me. How much can I give? During these times, I turn off my switch. I am in my twenties now and I have learned how to go numb.

Some thoughts you cannot …

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i will never understand why?

  December 11th, 2008 by letticy

i just wanted to write to try and help someone who might be thinking of taking thier own life …. i was 23 when my dad decided that he didn want to be here anymore . I was due to get married 3 months later and my dad had been in the pub the night before (not drunk or so the postmortem said) and was telling everyone how he was looking forward to me getting married . He didnt leave a note , there was no obvious reason why , one day he was here the next day he was gone …..x

Then my life changed …

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hopeless

  December 8th, 2008 by givhana

i am feeling like everything that i do is wrong and my parents are having marrige problems and i watched my momdye and i am still in love with my x girlfriend ai dated for 4 years and my dad and mom think that i can just stop feeling deppressed and my girl now is some help in dealing with my thoughts and i feel like it is my fault that my mom died when i was 16 and then my aunt terri died and my grandparents on both sides of my family died and then my unborn child and one of my x s …

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please

  December 5th, 2008 by ------

people love you
people care about you
people dont want to see you hurting

my dad didnt know that …he was ill, clinically depressed, i couldnt save him

i was only 10 but i feel the hurt every single day and im now 17
i have depression myself …but i refuse to let it beat me …i will not hurt people the way he hurt me … even though i love him i still hate him for what he did ..
i must sound like such a horrible person but i do hate him ='[[ it hurts me so much but i do …i cant help it …

i have an amzing …

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The Unforgiven Father

  December 5th, 2008 by stephanie

Hi my name is Stephanie. My father is someone you cant forgive right away. He’s always on my back, “Stephanie do this, Stephanie dont do that, Stephanie your stupid, Stephanie your an idiot, Stephanie jus go in a corner an die.” he never say;s anymore, “Good job Stephanie, I love you, your gorgeous, or Stephanie your a great sister.” Now it’s, “what’s wrong with you?, why are you so damn dumb?, why cant you jus be yourself anymore?” All I can think about is what is life like on the other side? I’ve tried many times to commit suicide. I havent actually followed threw with …

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Helpless

  November 21st, 2008 by cassie

Helpless was the only word that could truly describe how I felt.
My family never sees the good in me. All we ever do is criticize each other, and trust me- it gets old real fast. no one beats anyone on our family, but sometimes i think it would make things better. the verbal abuse is just… brutal. unbearable even. i often find myself tuning out their voices. telling myself “Its okay, Cassie, soon you’ll be gone. soon you wont have to hear this. soon you’ll be alone.” And i feel like, if they did hit me, i wouldn’t feel like i need to hurt …

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Will it ever end?

  November 17th, 2008 by Broken_wings

At 17, most people still view you as a child. At 17, I am still viewed as a child, even though i’ve seen more than any of my friends, even though i’ve wanted to die longer than anyone i know.

It started at a really young age i guess, i was about 7 when i first tried to hurt myself, my mum had this boyfriend and he seemed to enjoy beating her up in front of me and my brother. he scared me so much. i would cry myself to sleep most nights, rocking backwards and fowards to my mums sobs. One night, i sat …

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Suicide Prevention Day

  October 21st, 2008 by ChrisIris

Today is a day to talk about something people don’t talk about often enough.

When I attempted suicide I was staying in my mom’s basement, temporarily, and I decided it was the final move. I was very depressed, and I didn’t talk about it at all (except to thousands of anonymous faces on the Internet). She didn’t want to read about my disorder, and neither did my stepfather. There was a language barrier. And a willingness – they had their own idea of what bipolar was and didn’t want that challenged.

I had been depressed a long time and part of it was chronic, intrusive …

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Prepare for the Dark Side

  September 28th, 2008 by Christa

The majority of my life was spent in and out of a state of depression (I had my own zip code) and often, I was quite manic. I regularly experienced suicidal thoughts. I spent years thinking life sucked with a big fat capital “S“. In my mind life was a jail and often I thought about breaking free. I generally lived under a big ugly dark black cloud of my own making.

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Time to share my story.

  September 3rd, 2008 by Fay

I’m Fay, almost 18 years old and kind of in a dark place right know. I don’t want to kill myself anymore, but about a year ago I saw no way out anymore.

For the last 1.5 year my life really haven’t been easy, my dad died, my grandfather died, my uncle comitted suicide and my aunt died as well, 4 people I really cared about. And because of that I almost lost all my friends, people don’t like someone who is not simple. It’s really hard to just keep on going but I feel like I have to. I’ve met a girl who …

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very inconsiderate

  August 11th, 2008 by candacef83

so i jsut want all of you to know that suicide is the most selfish act anyone can make…. did any of you know that suicide only hurts the ones left behind???? i lost someone VERY close to me because of suicide… i honetly killing yourself is not the only option… it’s for the lazy, the ones who are not willing to work to make life better, i have been suicidal was for most of my early teen’s but then i realized that there is so much more to life than thinking about death, so take yourself to a dr …

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