Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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  June 15th, 2009 by givhana

i feel like everthing that i do is wrong my brother got married i know that i am suppost to be happy for him but after seeing him get married i just wanted to die and my girlfriend is ackting like i make her so unhappy by trying to provide for her and see a month ago she left me for a woman who could take her to games and concerts and i just want to die cause she acks like she doesnt like me anymore and we were getting married i just dont know what to do

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Cant believe it..

  June 14th, 2009 by hatethisworld

I found out tuesday that my uncle commited suicide…he hung himself from a tree.  God he was brave and the best person in the world. I dont understand why he wanted to die.  I understand why I want to die…I have nothing going for me.  I have thought about killing myself since I was 13… I will be 19 in less then a month.  And I havent thought about killing myself in about 4 months…but since my uncle did it I feel like I want to again. Like I feel like I gave up on the only thing I have wanted to do for such …

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They said it would go away with time…

  June 13th, 2009 by luke5119

I guess I’ll start off with a quick synopsis of who I am before I start explaining what is that’s making me feel suicidal.  To start my name is Luke, I’m 19 and I live in St. Louis Missouri, have my whole life.  I graduated highschool a little over a year ago and I’m currently going to ITT Tech.  I’m overall a middle of the road kinda guy on almost everything.  B average student, somewhat attractive, funny at times, etc.  Just normal.

Anyway as of late I’ve been feeling pretty bad.  Actually I haven’t felt this bad in a long time.  For some reason I’ve been …

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Endless loops of emptyness…

  June 12th, 2009 by Swiz

I guess ill start by stating the facts… Im currently 17, I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes when i was 4, fell into a deep depression in the 6th grade, and am still feeling depressed. although i manage to have an outward appearance of being fine, im not. I was also recently diagnosed with severe POTS… some shitty thing where my blood pools in my legs, so i have a high heart rate but low blood pressure. If i compare my life to others, i know its damn fine. I have a loving mother and three loving sisters. My dad loves me in his …

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Will it ever end?

  June 11th, 2009 by sophiaxx7

I’m not aware of how this whole thing works, and if I’m making a complete fool of myself oh well. I am not begging for sympathy or anything, but i just want to vent.

Please do not message me saying your too young for this. It’ll just support my reasons for committing suicide. Age shouldn’t matter.

I am 13 years old. You all must be thinking what a psycho this girl is. Why would a thirteen year old want to die? Well I’ll tell you.

My family fights. My brother and mother. And there’s not a thing i can do about it.

My brother hits my mom. He’s 18 …

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  June 3rd, 2009 by pammy

I really have no excuse; I have a good job, one I worked hard to get, I have money in the bank and few debts. I am reasonably healthy, although a little overweight! I have two children, boys, one employed one in college. I even own my own home.

So let me tell you a tale of woe, and you can judge me for yourselves.

Fourteen years ago I lost my husband to a sudden, unexpected heart attack. My parents did not bother to offer support until made to by my siblings, who were great at that time.My boys were only six and two.

Then I found out …

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My friend that is my suicide

  June 2nd, 2009 by Suicidal

” I’ve often thought of suicide as my anwser. But now i regret it. I Slit my wrist way to deep all the blood rushes from my gentle body as i lay crimped up on the floor i wonder if anyone even cares. My funeral was horrible no one even bother to release a tear. not one. No one came to claim me as there’s. No boys seem to take a look when i walk by they just go on&on about the measly lives of the tiredness of the others with in the room. No counselor seems to listen when i scream at the top of …

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Broken

  May 31st, 2009 by JessikaBxD

Slowly one by one
All these thoughts they come
Escape is an obsession
All products depression
The world’s frozen still
Broken glass on the window sill
Let go of all you knew
They’ll all forget about you
Can’t hold it together any longer
Thought you were stronger

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mama’s girl

  May 29th, 2009 by jasmine

In 7th grade I had the bestest friend you could ask for, but then, she became a band geek and she just drifted away. Then in 8th grade i made a pretty damn good best friend. But then high school came and my bestfriend went to some other school, and everyone just changed. I started to look at everyone diffrently, and all I saw were inconsiderate assholes. Then I noticed the shit my mom was going through: woke up at 5am, worked ’til 10pm every day, no days off. I feel so useless because I can’t do anything to help her. And she works her ass …

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Help

  May 25th, 2009 by painterofmusic

          Everything hurts. The secrets I can’t tell anyone, and no one cares at all. Who do I turn to? How do I say the words to someone, someone I trust, that is going to make them understand? Who would I tell? Who can I trust? How do I get even one minute with them only three days before school is out? I’m going to die this summer. I don’t know what else to do. I can’t stand my life anymore, my mind… I have secrets that are killing me, literally. I’m going to die because I can’t take knowing the things I know. And even …

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Voices in my Head

  May 19th, 2009 by voicesofdoom

I try to remember why I wanted to kill myself. I don’t know. I can’t recall, but somehow I still know why I want to be out of this “reality”. Sometimes I wish I was in an empty space, where I can hear nothing, not even a sound, not even me breathing, nothing at all.

I was 12. It was long ago now. I wanted to die, but i never found the courage enough, then this person cae to me, she helped me a lot, and I don’t even remember what she looked like. I felt I was I love with her, she took care of …

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He Didnt Know

  May 17th, 2009 by wristcutter

he started at 13

it got worse every year

i guess it was an escape from harsh reality

 

she loved him with all her heart

she wasnt aware of his problem

she really cared

he didnt know how much

 

he was 17

she got a phone call

he was going to jail

she finally saw

the intensity of his problem

 

they didnt see each other for 6 months

she started to care a little less

they wrote

and called

but she was slipping away

slowly going downhill

he didnt know

that he was the source of her problems

 

he came home

she was happy

he had changed

she was glad

he lied

she found out when they took him away

he didnt know how much it hurt her

to see him taken …

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Silver Tongues Speak Only Lies

  May 17th, 2009 by FallenAngel

Ive always lied. Everyone does. At first its just the small things. But then it gets bigger.

Im flunking the 8th grade, but my dad thinks im fine.

Ask me if im ok? ill say sure. ill think, bc im ending this soon anyway

my parents are devorsed and just reasently my dad got into another devorce, but i woulnt use that as a reason. A couple years ago I think I cried so much(EVERY FRICKING DAY!!!!UGH!!!) that i cant do that when im sad anymore… I just always have this door in the back of my mind thats shut with all this negative stuff locked up inside. It …

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ups and downs

  May 13th, 2009 by upliftinglydotcom

I’ve never really understood things the way others seem to and I often feel out of place.  It seems just when I start feeling good about life and feel like there is something I can really get behind and feel proud about supporting, I get shot down by obstacles and people (sometimes those few who are close to me).  I’ve always had a view of the world tinted by dreamer’s eyes, and so realism isn’t exactly always my forte.  I can get passionate about anything, but I can also get down and out about anything.  At the drop of a hat I can turn from …

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Goodbye Cruel World

  May 13th, 2009 by Eddie1331

So is it so bad to be a gay male.. Yes it is, from how I’m treated.  You’d think I was a fucking childmolesting murderer for how the people at school treat me.  But no, just gay.  It’s my senior year of high school too and you think it’d be the best but it has undeniably been the worst.  I never knew that coming out would have such negative consequences. WTF was I thinking!  I live in Montana in a small town FULL of homophobes.  And everyone knows that I am gay so that past five months since I did come out have been hell. Everyday I go through the same ritual …

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Today is the end

  May 11th, 2009 by robins

Every day I feel less like living more like dying.  I feel like a zombie going through the emotions of life only to be grasping.  My husband truly hates me.  How do I know?  He tells me that I am a horrible person who has no redeeming qualities.  All I do I do for him and our child.  He just hates me and I am not sure what to do with that.  We have been together since we’re 18 and I just can’t see how to go on without him.  That’s all I ever wanted to be was his wife.  I really have no life without him.

I …

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7,7,7,0

  May 10th, 2009 by AbsentFeeling

I forgot about everything. Just a total blank out and then I fell apart. Tears were pouring down my face. When my mom finally came back from work we decided to go for a car drive. She said, as she often does, that something wasn’t quite right about me. Then she asked if I was at all suicidal. I quickly told her no, hoping to hear what would happen if I had said yes. She did a small cough/laugh and said that if I said yes I would go straight to the Mental Hospital. I know for sure that I couldn’t talk to her about …

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Untitled

  May 10th, 2009 by painterofmusic

No one is going to read this. I don’t know why I came back here to this website. I figured I never would after I found it the first time, but here I go again… This is exactly like when I found out I was pregnant, to a T; I was going to end my life, but then, an opportunity presented itself. I saw what might be a reason to live. Judging by before, assuming that the past paints a pretty good portrait of the future, I’ll be worse off than before. If I had gone through with everything before, I wouldn’t be hurting this way …

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Untitled

  May 10th, 2009 by painterofmusic

I’m not entirely sure what I’m thinking by posting this. I’ve kept to myself for all this time, no one is going to read this, and no one on here cares anymore than anyone around here. I mean, people say the words, but they don’t really mean them. You can hear, “I DO care about you!” but as soon as they say that, they’re off doing something else. But I guess if I’ve come this far, if I typed the words on the search engine that led me to this website, if this really is some low blow at getting suicidal people reported, whatever the reason …

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  May 8th, 2009 by erased_orion

I dont really understand why i feel this way…come to think of it, i dont really have as much problems as other people, i mean, I’ve never been raped or anything like that….so im sorry for taking your time. It’s just that…i have no other way i could let this out. My best friend doesnt like to let me talk to her about things like this, and i can’t tell my parents…They’re not here. It’s just that i feel so…empty and alone…always. Im also no good at anything…i cant do anything right, and i have average grades, but i know for a fact that that’s …

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