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There is seriously something wrong with me venting to one of my best friends and her just telling me to “Get over myself”….Yeah okay
i feel hopeless and helpless im sure im not the only one but id like to share some of my thoughts and wonders with you im 15 and ill be 16 in august but i dont even know if i can make it to that point.. iv been admitted to the hospital 3 times and it will help for a bit but when out of nowhere you leave and dont have that every day safe feeling that you know you can talk to everyone around you you slowly start breaking down back the the point that brought you there. but this time they wouldn’t […]
Whenever I think of the future, I can’t see anything hopeful. I just see me carrying out a tedious life, even though people tell me my future looks bright. I’m not failing, but trying hard to study and it seems to be paying off. Then go to uni. But afterwards I can’t see anything.
What if I don’t find something fulfilling to do?
I look at some people who lead normal lives, doing a little job that they are genuinely happy with, and I can never see myself being happy with anything, though I’ve said it to be a dream 1,000 times when I was […]
my cuts have gone deep and my scars are raised and WERE slightly purple. ive been using bio oil for only a few days but the oil is causing my scars to turn darkkk purple….is this normal? they have always been really itchy too even before the oil. could somethig be wrong? if so…any ideas or thoughts? pleaseee HELP!!
What to do?
When you feel useless? Â One can no longer find reason let alone reasons to exist.
What to do?
Independence  is lost  see no end of being dependent on people. This is not me!
What to do?
Am alone tonight no will check on me till at least noon tomorrow. Â This leaves me plenty of time. Â Said everything I wanted say to those who needed to hear from me.
no notes
i cut myself
but i try to stop
i have a formal party next week and i can’t have scarfs..
but it seems like a scape way.. I’m frustrated I’m depressed all time It’s not healthy but being sad all day isn’t too
alcohol it’s another scape way but I’m 15 and my parents don’t know tha I drink.. and please I can’t be drunk or drinking all day I’m a teenager without money, in school time and I live with my parents
I’m only 16
I need cutting
maybe It’s time for help.. real help
(sorry if my english it’s bad.. I’m from Chile) […]
There really isn’t that much keeping me sane right now…
Im ready to leavr this world Im no good to any one my credit is shit my daughter depends on me to help her pay for colleage and I cant even pay her car payment they are gonna come get her car Ive always did for her but since my job shut down I cant pay my bills much less any extra Ive let her down Im single and have no one her dad was never there for her till she was a teenager when she became well known and all the sudden hes the best dad in the world and can do no wrong […]
Top Ten List (in no particular order): I can’t be in a relationship because…
1. I’m hung up on my ex. How can I love anyone else? Unfortunately he dumped me during the “honeymoon phase†where everything was wonderful…to me. Obviously it wasn’t so wonderful for him. It felt like we were perfectly compatible in so many ways… one particular way I’d NEVER been compatible with anyone before. No man should have to compete with that. I realize I’m idolizing him, but I don’t know how NOT to. The only thing I can come up with is “he’s not […]
I’m 50, small business owner, two children, one who has graduated and one who is a sophomore. I’ve been married for 30 years and have been my own boss for over twenty.
I’ve had many had many ups and downs over the years, but the writing is on the wall, technology has made my business obsolete. I feel that I’m too old to start over again….. started this a couple of days ago, feel better today, not as suicidal as I was, but it crosses my mind all of the time. One thing I’ve noticed lately, the more I surf online, the more hopeless I feel, […]
Let’s face it, being willing to die is a rare asset. I’m sure there are tons of causes out there I could die for, and maybe then my life would be worth something. Any ideas? Or let me put it this way, if you had to die for a cause, how/what would you pick?
As I lay me down to sleep
I pray someone in my house will sneak
Up to my bed, pillow over my face
Perhaps with a gun make my room a discrase
My blood on the bed her tears on the floor
While my wife gets away and crys for me no more
Her life would be better with me in the ground
I wish to run away and never be found
My life is so hard, no I’m not the only one
Stupid Canada can’t get a gun
A hose to the window as I take a long nap
The engine runs hot I’m sick of this crap
Why death leavs me to struggle I’ll never […]
Today, I’m writing my suicide notes. I figured that even if I chicken out by July, then at least I’ll have something to leave if I do it later. I feel like an awful person for doing this, but that’s why I want to kill myself in the first place.
does anyone know if 1500mg of amitriptyline is enough to induce a  fatal outcome?  This is what I plan to take this weekend but need to know lf it takes a long time as well.  I have limited time alone and going away would arouse suspicion.  I do not want to be saved this time, I cannot fail.
I have read that this pill is one of the most effective but it varies what I read on how much, I just want to know how long it takes before you can be saved and will it be painful.  I don’t mind pain, but again I don’t want to arouse suspicion.  I want […]
I come here tonight to freely express my feelings and thoughts without the fear of being judged and with the hope that someone out there may understand. Okay ….let’s be honest, there’s still a shit load of fear, but I say fuck it.
I’m still having quite a rough time. My depression is weighing heavy in my head. Can barely lift it up. My isolation is at an all time high. The majority of my  “friends” are occupied anyway. I don’t feel like I have any true friends. But I’m sure my isolation had a big part in that. I just have no drive. I’m afraid […]
I have hundred’s of reasons to die, and almost none to live (zero that matter).
Where do I find the courage? Get drunk, drop some pills? I do have a loaded gun in mouth, so that part is OK.
I wish suicide project would have a really rich donor so that they can make a “real” website with nice features. #raamdomthought
You know what’s funny? I’m sitting with a group of people, and none of them have any idea that I’m on a suicide website. My counselor says that I need to find someone that I can trust, but there isn’t anyone you can trust with suicidal thoughts. It puts them in a bad position. They either do nothing and then have to blame themselves when you go through with it or they report you to someone. It’s like, I just want to tell someone without them feeling responsible for me. What they don’t get is that my suicide is not a bad thing. For everyone, […]
im alone. sad, but true.