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by kristink 4/4/2013

written by kristink

love the song. should change my username. had a 3 tissue session with wendy today. discussed what i meant when saying i felt like i was blocked. that my short bursts of intense emotions are maybe cracks in the “wall”. and that is why they come and go so easily. and what is on the other side of that wall? i don’t know. and the thought of finding out is terrifying. wendyÂ says to embrace those emotions and try to see what is causing them. but the “blocking” comes so easily i don’t know how to stop it. i am scared of losing control. i […]

4/4/2013 1 comment

Funerals

by sand_dude 4/4/2013

written by sand_dude

I always get rather jealous at funerals. I wish I was the dead one.

Not so people would weep, so I can be free at last.

What did they do to deserve to die? I deserve it more than they do.

I think I did a lot more to earn it then they did. Why them? Why not me?

4/4/2013 1 comment

One day at a time

by hereWithoutme10 4/4/2013

written by hereWithoutme10

One day at a time Â that’sÂ my new motto I dont think ahead or back and just put on blinders. Im still trying to get everything figured out in my life and still reallyÂ haven’tÂ expressed my thoughts to anyone. It kills me literally to keep these thoughts inside but If I tell someone itll just make everything worse. I dont know why im soÂ fascinatedÂ with suicide and it pops up even when im having a fun time. I feel stuck and that somehow I still havent gained full closure over my accident or my life.

4/4/2013 1 comment

Checking in to say, “I’m Alive.”

by Miss Blythe 4/4/2013

written by Miss Blythe

That’s all I had planned to say here. But maybe I should say something else. My room smells like overwhelming dog piss, because my fucking dog has not absorbed three years of potty training. I think we should put him down.

I’ve been thinking a lot about school shootings lately. Did anyone here about the one in Ohio? TJ Lane? Anyway, it fascinates me. If I could get a hold of the guns, ammo, and confidence, I would do it. I know who I’d take out, and why. Fuck you, for telling everyone that lie about me having sex with that scum. Fuck you, for telling […]

4/4/2013 4 comments

Exchange life

by mrbunnyhead 4/4/2013

written by mrbunnyhead

I wish I have the courage to suicide.

I don’t have any purpose to live.

I want to exchange my life to someone less fortunate than me.

I believe they will be very happy and would cherish all the things I have.

They will use my life to the fullest and give back to the society.

I will be living in their life, rotting by the streets & waiting to die.

That’s one wish of mine.

4/4/2013 2 comments

the cycle of death

by deathblooms 4/4/2013

written by deathblooms

every time i start to convince myself that i have made my way through the pain to the otherside where i can live my life something slips inside my mind and destroys everything. i am a dreadful sack of existence. full of potential, wasted. if i had no talent, then it would be easier to waste away. i am a pitiful and pathetic excuse for life. when i speak, only nothing is made. after all, when the nothing man hasÂ nothing to say he speaks. i tried, yes, i tried to clean myself up, i got two jobs, i’m going to school, im exercising consistently. […]

4/4/2013 1 comment

I want to die today

by acm3001 4/4/2013

written by acm3001

I feel sad. I’m 35, male and I hate myself today. No real reason…. or perhaps too many to list here. Am I depressed yes but today I do not care. I wish it were all over. If I had a gun I believe it would be easy but silly Canadian laws. I think the best way to do it (aside form a gun) is to run a hose form the tail pipe of my car to the window, lay back in the drivers seat and take a long long nap. I often hear of innocent people who get hurt and killed on the news…. […]

4/4/2013 1 comment

:(

by Sam 4/4/2013

written by Sam

I let myself do this. Maybe one day things will get better. Right now I feel really sad over the stupidest thing. I guess it hurts to love and to get attached to someone. The only good thing that’s happened in a while. I miss him already. I need to grow up.. I feel like a danger to myself right now. I’m suppose to tell my parents when I don’t feel safe from myself but I’m hoping today will be the day I finally go through with it. I’m a monster I guess I can be heartless a lot. I don’t want to live this […]

4/4/2013 4 comments

READY

by Cakes 4/4/2013

written by Cakes

Can anyone help me how to use this? I am not exactly sure.I have tried writting here before but I dont know how to publish it or how to see peoples comment (obv if they leave some)I wanted to talk to people anout ideas to suicide. I dont want drastic ones such as loaded guns because i want to be as realistic as possible, and since i do not have a gun that would not be suitable.I know about sleepimg with a bag on your head, OD, cutting and taking some chemicals, but I have tried and it doesnt work.I really wanna end my life […]

4/4/2013 3 comments

I just want to be normal.

by Engeltje 4/4/2013

written by Engeltje

I constantly ask myself: “Why can’t I just be normal?” I mean, I can’t go to school, but normal people can. I can’t call to someone, normal people can. I’m afraid to be outside alone or in the dark, normal people aren’t afraid for that. There are so many things that I wish that they were the same as ‘normal’ people. But probably I can’t be normal, but it’s hard for me to accept that…

4/4/2013 12 comments

by cantcarryon 4/4/2013

written by cantcarryon

I can’t do it anymore.

I don’t see a future for myself like I used to, it never used to be like this. Everything in the last few months has completely destroyed me, I tried to end it and failed. People only want to know if it clears their conscience.

All my life, I’ve had people walk all over me. I’ve been bullied at every school I’ve been to, I’m constantly reminded about how worthless and useless I am by my family, and now I have no one at all to fall back on. I’m sick of this feeling, like I’m just here, existing because people feel […]

4/4/2013 2 comments

How can i stop feeling guilty

by idunno 4/4/2013

written by idunno

How to stop these constant feelings of guilt and patheticness. I feel everything’s my fault, its horrible

4/4/2013 3 comments

pain please just ease off, let me feel human

by idunno 4/4/2013

written by idunno

These emotions,,, or lack of them, they are just as bad as physical pain. This boredom is horrible, adderalls doing the opposite of what it should be and i dont know why: i have no desire to do yoga, make cookies. talk to anybody or ill feel agitated and extremely anxious and robotic like(not fun) i am unable to genuinely laugh or smile or even sing without.

I want to feel joy for one, sweet lasting feelings of wellbeing, confidence, desire. 🙁

4/4/2013 2 comments

Rainy Day.

by Deyanight 4/4/2013

written by Deyanight

I’m sitting on my bed, and all I hear is the rain falling and the wind going crazy. Sometimes I wish there was more sun here. It makes me more depressed looking outside. Today has been another bad day, I feel like I can’t talk to anyone, and I feel so lonely. I’ve lost mostly all my friends because I’ve been with my bf for 2 years and it’s all about him now, which is good because he’s my friend but when he’s not there I feel so alone. Sometimes I feel like he doesn’t understand how much sadness I feel inside, and all the […]

4/4/2013 2 comments

I am not You.

by heartcore 4/4/2013

written by heartcore

Do not hate someone because they are not you. Do not hate yourself because you can only be unique, original, individual You. Stop hatin’. Just a suggestion. Rock on.

http://m.bbc.co.uk/news/magazine-22026044

4/4/2013 0 comment

Depression is winning…

by DeJota 4/4/2013

written by DeJota

I’ve been on medications for quite a while now, and I think they’re becoming pretty much useless… This year I’m turning 25, which is the legal age for being able to buy a gun in my country (Brazil). And I’m planning on buying a gun as soon as I can, and finish this f****** pain once and for all… I don’t even know why I’m saying this here.. probably because there isn’t anyone who I can share these stuff with…. The worst thing is… Even if I do kill myself, nobody will give a fucking fuck…… My mind is a mess, I’m totally lost, I […]

4/4/2013 1 comment

Looking for… ?

by SadBk 4/4/2013

written by SadBk

Still trying to figure out where I fit in the online world. I keep thinking Iâ€™ll just stay offline moreâ€¦but then I donâ€™t. I guess that only works in the real world, where I stick to either the familiar (work, home, favorite coffee shops, etc.) or â€œfamiliar-unfamiliarâ€ (new coffee shops, new hikes, etc.) where I feel comfortable. Poking around at different sites for depressed people, or people with broken hearts, or child-freeâ€¦ nothing jumps out at me in â€œYES THIS IS YOUR PLACEâ€ fashion. Iâ€™m curious about one of the child-free sites, but it didnâ€™t seem very welcoming, and also was […]

4/4/2013 16 comments

Ruining my life

by AemsTheHero 4/4/2013

written by AemsTheHero

My mom is such a fucking *****, I’ve had it up to here!! I can’t stand her shit any fucking more, last week on Thursday, she fucking ruined my plans because one Wednesday she thought I was going to beat up my sister because I complained about her touching my things. She made this HUGE scene on the phone, in the party she was in and at home. She is fucking STUPID, all she fucking does is think lowly of me and I’ve had ENOUGH. So on Thursday, she RUINED my plans because Â she says I MISBEHAVED on Wednesday, so I got SUPER FUCKING PISSED, […]

4/4/2013 4 comments

I don’t get it

by the_unfixable 4/4/2013

written by the_unfixable

life really just makes no sense to me. it’s a never ending circle of hypocrisy, people motivated by there own person agendas with no consideration for how what there doing affects the rest of society. It’s not just politicians or business persons but it’s just about everyone who is willing to sacrifice everything and destroy everyone that has the potential to stand in there way. It’s the bullies in school, the teachers who don’t understand you, the parents who think “it’s just a phase” or don’t even care.
I realize my rant is slightly of the topic this site is intended for but it’s these […]

4/4/2013 6 comments

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