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What are the Pros & Cons to suicide in your opinion? Anyone??????
For general topics related to the site.
What are the Pros & Cons to suicide in your opinion? Anyone??????
A lot of people want to know “my story†and why I self harm and why I starve and things like that. But I don’t have a specific thing that made me who I am. My life had always been shit. So I guess I should just give the over look of it all.
When I was very young, I was home schooled, and an only child. I was completely spoiled. My dad worked and my mom would take me to do tap, ballet, caly pottery, charcoals, gymnastics, karate, and anything else my little heart desired. By the age of 5, I had just about […]
Hi. This is my first time ever posting to this site or anything like this site. I found this site doing research for my suicide, but I’ve come back multiple times just to read the posts because it seems that there are people here I can identify with.
So I suppose that I should tell my suicide story? I will try, but it’s not much of a story. It’s nothing compared to some of the things I read here, or see and hear at school. I know I have no right to feel the way I do, but that knowledge doesn’t change what I feel, it […]
i just started cutting again. word of advice… taking 7 Aleve to get rid of a headache only intensifies it. ugh… i feel awful… i am at school right now. i was about to slit my throat in the restroom but some ***** walked in & i had to hide the blade fast.
This is my first time posting. But I am feeling kinda suicidal right now. I was on medication for like 7 years, I dunno I guess I was just naturally depressed since a very young age, but now it’s been 6 months that I’m off it. I honestly feel like killing myself now, cuz I can’t feel shit in my heart.. I have a girl and there’s lots of people and friends that really care about me.. But nonetheless I don’t feel much.. My daily schedule is like a bit fucked, try to keep busy but not much going on.. Just waiting to go off […]
For all of those people who have commented on my posts. Thank you! I really like this website and I feel like I can share my feelings and people will understand what I’m going through or what I’m feeling.
So today I asked one of my guy friend if he thinks I’ll ever find love. He relied “no offense but no”. I’m going to be forever alone… Why dntni just give up now and end my life? I hate the pain I go threw everyday alone! I can’t take it anymore! I need that special someone to help me… My boyfriends always to busy to talk to me….
I hate this pain.. And there’s nothing I can do….
-Morgan….RawrImaTurtle
Help :C I need your emotional support. it…hurts…so depressed.
This recent days, I’m starting to be able to really cope up and enjoy my days… with my friends who support me emotionally. I am so scared to go home and face the rest of the day alone because of the painful emotions and thoughts I’ll have to face alone… so I spend a lot of time with my friends. I am starting to forget. But now it’s already summer break. I’ll be alone again, if not alone be with my family who doesn’t even know what I’m going through. I’ll be alone with ths books and internet. Ths pain… I still feel it.. I […]
It’s petrifying how little from the world truly exists: only the now.
Such a narrow flickering glimpse.
The past is memory. The future is simulation. And they are both occurring in the now, the recalling of the memory, the playing of the simulation. Aren’t they?
But the mind refuses to admit it. The mind finds this microscopic now terribly boring. How can you compare this skimpy moment to the vastness of the past and the future? it asks.
my mom hung herself from a bike hook in the garage this sept. I miss her. she was in so much pain. she had no hope she talked to me and I talked and read and and we fought and she battled and i searched and she persevered but she couldn’t hang-on any longer. for anyone that is reading this and thinking about suicide please know that you are not alone. please know I care. please know my mom was lost too. please know that while I can accept how you may feel about the world and even yourself- the […]
Is it really ‘pain’ that brings about the desire to kill yourself? I’m not in pain. But I’m not happy either – I feel almost nothing at all, I just think. And my thoughts don’t make sense. It’s just numbness, and sometimes anxiety. Nothing at all or crippling fear and self-hatred. Life is just not coherent. Why is anybody bothering to stay?
Everytying will be ok…. Those 4 words hurt my ears. After everything i have gone through, you are just going to say it will be ok? Spend one days in my shoes so you understand how i feel and then you will understand why all hope is lost for me
Rip my heart out
while you can
And I’ll still call you
Superman
Kiss her like
we used to kiss
And show me that
I wont be missed
Fall in love with her
Go ahead
Just bring her by my grave
when im dead.
Sing a happy song
To my stone
Cause even then
I’ll be alone
Ignore me
as I fade tonight
Take care, love
My last Goodnight…
For I wont see the morninglight
I will be 15 in 3 weeks. My depression started when i was 13. I began to start cutting myself. Now i have scars left on my arms as a memory. The last time i cut was in December. I would cut whenever something would really upset me. Then when i was 13 my mom implied that i was fat so i developed an eating disorder and i lost 30 pounds from that so far. I have not recovered from either. I have a tendency of relapsing. When all of this began someone came into my life and he tried to help me. He was […]
I’ve been depressed and suicidal recently with no one to talk of my issues with. I recently decided to talk to the school counselor about my problems. At first, everything was great, but then from the depression test results she decided that she needs to talk to my parents about my depression (the talk is tomorrow night shit shit shit shit fuck fuck fuck fuck) as well as getting me to see my pediatrician about things I can do (antidepressants stuff).
I’m really starting to regret talking to my counselor and wish there was some other way of doing this without making things more complicated than […]
To sum things up, I don’t like my life.
By no stretch of the imagination is my life the worst. The hardest, the most miserable. But I still hate living.
My childhood was verbally abusive. I live with the constant guilt of driving a loved one to their death because of my neglect. I was molested in the 7th grade. My friends don’t ever invite me to their social gatherings, though I guess I wouldn’t want to hang around with me either.
My family and myself are in deep shit financially.
In school, I have advanced classes. Did well on the SATs, state tests, the like. But […]
I wonder, do you feel cold. I do.
I wonder, are you behind a glass wall in a crowd. I am.
My life feels like a grain of salt in the sand.
In a soundproof glass box.
They can’t hear me.
I feel as a bit of smear in the vastness.
Don’t touch me.
Don’t stand close to.
Don’t talk to me.
Life is better in a book.
Darkness is heavenly.
So I don’t sleep at night.
Daylight, too many people.
I need to hide.
I am alone in my self imposed lonely room
HI. I’m new here. I don’t really know how to open up just yet. The only thing keeping me fro killing myself, I’ll be honest, is my dog. My depression is a daily thing. I hate myself. I don’t believe it when someone compliments me. I’m tired. Of everything. I wish the ground could swallow me up. I don’t know what to do anymore. No one understands.
Just no. I dont even know what to say now. My girlfriend left me. My parents didn’t get me anything fir my bday. No one called. Not one person. So just as I’m about to kill myself, my mom calls me. She bitches at me for 15 mins about failing a class this quarter. I pull the trigger, nothing happens. My dad demilled the gun. There’s no firing pin. So now I’m left sitting here with my wrist gushing blood from my self injury. I don’t even want to try anymore. I want to cut my neck open and die.
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