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You may not believe me, But you will be LOVED by God!!!! you will!!!
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You may not believe me, But you will be LOVED by God!!!! you will!!!
It’s so strange… I mean, the way I feel… Am I depressed? I would say yes, but I ain’t that sure thats the right word to describe it. I got problems, many problems, but I’m forced too much to hide the real me and the things I really feel and I end up thinking that pretending it’s fucking okay for the sake of everyone keeping his quiet balance in his life. That’s fucking unfair, I can’t sacrifice myself just to prevent the people that surround me from breaking their peace.
I can’t convince myself that this is simply my life and this is all about […]
So I just cut like twenty-minutes aqo listeninq to I’m not alriqht (by Sanctus real).I cutted deep but for some reason I bearly bleed and I came out as some baby line’s.Some much for lookinq at my scars to remind me that what I’m qoinq threw Is hard.Alot of people want to stop cuttinq but I like It,It makes me feel qood Inside.I recently relapsed:(I even smoked two hour’s before a biq event happened at my Church.I’m a horiibe person for continuinq to smoke.All I want Is to be loved!It’s the best feelinq In the world.I still remember the feelinq when me and my ex would […]
I can’t face these people of the day
They don’t like me, but that’s okay.
I’ll go to my sanctuary where nothing is as hard as it may seem.
I’ll go to sleep and get lost in a dream.
I’m in a castle. It’s decorated in gold.
I am surrounded by friends, both young and old.
I go to the garden, where the beauty is endless.
The sights are lovely, the feeling is priceless.
I am at peace as my heart erupts
I feel at home, that is, until I wake up.
Glass is fragile
Never let it drop
You will try to pick up the pieces
And you will never stop
Even when you’re cut
And the blood starts to pour
You will continuously try to fix
What can’t be fixed anymore
You can try to put the pieces together
But you will still see the cracks
The glass is gone.
You will never get it back
I used to have a problem with crack/heroin and more than once i was hospitalized because of it. Although at the time it was not an intentional overdose. I still remember before and after it but not during, u just slip away silently. No mess just easy to deal with for those who find me. You don’t feel pain or nausea you just go to sleep and hope that no-one finds you to stop the process. For me its just a matter of when and where.
How can I say it more bluntly.
“I am researching suicide methods. I have found my exit and started buy supplies.”
“Oh…here’s more crack finish smoking and come lay down”
What do I have to do for someone to notce, to care?
Kill myself
I’m afraid to speak my own name
For it has been tarnished.
Life is a stern mistress
And I will forever be punished.
Time can never mend
These broken bones and burnt flesh.
The past is haunting.
It grants me no rest.
My character now is poor
Harsh and uninviting.
Anger consumed my body.
Now, my heart is dying.
The rain casts a heavy weight
On this, my weakened umbrella.
But still, I hope
To reunite with the old Daniella.
I’m trapped!
As I pace back and forth in my cage,
I wondered what I did to deserve such a fate.
A fate that gives me no hope, no pleasure, no freedom.
Freedom to breathe, freedom to live, freedom to be whole.
These bars are cold and binding.
They whisper,
“You have no place to run,
“No place to run,
No place to hide,
No place to go.
You will never be free.”
I recently found out that a friend of the family was killed. It was definitely sad to see how everyone mourned over his passing. Is it wrong that i looked at this experience of losing this friend and took notes on how to make the pain less for my loved ones instead of looking at it as a sign not to do it.?.?.?
Just joined today…. I guess its true what they say about seattle having the highest suicide rate. Ill be the next statistic to add to that list. Its so fucking difficult to have any self confidence or self respect when no one around you doesane the things about me I like get made fun of whenvi share them. I guess it makes sense that the world which I’m in now is too far a cry from me. Like really how am I going to feel suicidale over a drug dealer boy rfriend who hasn’t got shit for himself? He makes me feel lower than scum […]
Anyone? Where n how old?
Crying, I sat on the edge of my bed. 4 guys texting me, but all they wanted was sex. Â Surely I’d be used to it by now. I’m not a human to them, I’m a toy, easily replaced.
Hi, I’m a 16 year old girl. In a way, I feel average. I think every teenager goes through this depression of feeling unloved, unwanted, and ultimately rejected. I feel like I can’t handle it. Walking through school, i can hear kids whispering, “gross” “i hear she smokes pot” “You remember the time she farted in 4th period? so gross” “slut” “smells like poor”….. i could go on. […]
I feel like no one ever listens to me and hear my opinions. Like anything that comes out of my mouth or anything that I think of is just jibberish and not worth anyone’s time. They always cut me off before I finish my thought, judge me from the first 3 words of my sentence, ignore me after a minute. What’s the point in being here if no one really wants the hear what you have to say?
I’m tired of always fighting to have my voice be heard.
Even on here.
Am I just a nuisance to everyone? Does my presence annoy the hell out of you? If […]
Last night my dad went crazy at my mum for no apparent reason.  Its been going on for 15 years and its been haunting me all my life . My dad has anger problems (and also smokes weed) and because of this i am afraid of other people who do to so im afraid to talk to people.  Because of the argument my parents had last night i wanted to run away so my dad could realise that im not happy with the way hes acting but i couldnt run away cause i was too much as a pussey.  Im a very quiet person so […]
Hi,
I’m Arnaud and I’m 20 years old.
If you ask me what I think about my life I can only say that it sucks. I don’t know what to do.
Most people see me as a happy person with lots of humor, a nice smile and lots of friends. That’s nice because it is exactly what I want to show to my friends and family. I don’t want them to worry for me because I know they can’t do anything to help me.
When people ask me questions like: “what is your goal in life?†or “what is your biggest dream?†I reply: “buying an Island in the […]
i’m just tired. i literally came today to a point where i wanted to seriously die. i kept trying to hold my tears back. and i was frusstrated.
i haven’t cut myself in 4 years but today i cut my arm to remember that feeling. the feeling that calms me down.
i spend my teenage years babysitting
monday/tuesday: Â Â Â 9am-10pm
wednesday: Â Â 9am-5pm
friday: Â Â 2pm-10pm
saturday/sunday: Â Â Â 9am-5pm.
babysitting a baby with down syndrome, a 2 year old and a 9 year old isn’t easy. Â sometimes even other kids.
i never have time for myself.. not even for a simple hang out with a friend. my mom always has […]
I thought I knew my husband, but it’s clear I don’t have a freaking clue who he is. We’ve been together 10 years, married 9 and I don’t know this man. He’s been keeping secrets, and I think probably has from the beginning.
A bit of background, mainly for me…I’m trying to makes sense of nonsense. He’s from Nigeria, a doctor, I’m white from the US and a nurse. We got set up on a blind date. Married 5 months later. Me stupidly thinking he loved me. Almost immediately he takes a trip to Nigeria, for over a month, over the next 4 years he probably […]
well i hoped for a new start and i truly believed it would work , but the same as myself that failed , so im screwed i guess what to do now , well theres one thing in my mind and alot of people wont do it but ive heard about the helium hood method , it looks promising….heres hoping
Today i woke up and my mom was gone so I went outside a smoked a joint. Before it finished my mom came home (im not hiding it from her just keeping it to myself) so anyway i quickly put it out and ran inside to my room to put the roach away.. It ended up stinking up the whole house so i went to the bathroom to have a shower and get ready when my mom knocks on the door.. She told me she needs to talk to me and i got scared she found my razors, and when she told me it was […]
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