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lost/trapt

August 21st, 2009by emily25

i feel so lost. my mind is lost in memories of him. im trying to lock my tears inside like my shattered heart. i cant seem to find anything good anymore. i smile but it isnt the same as it once was. it isnt real. it isnt me. i dont know who i am anymore. i still have my life i am just treating it different(as someone told me). i dont want to treat it this way. full of anger, hatred, sadness, envy and tears. i want the friends i had. but i burn everything that is anything to me. i run to the wrong …

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August 21st, 2009by mugs

I don”t know what to write. There must be something wrong with me. No one ever stays with me, I try to be nice to people, but for some reason they just hurt me. I don’t want to write anything now. I think i will just take a sleeping pill and go back to bed. I wish I could sleep forever.

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Why do I even try?

August 20th, 2009by broken_julie

I don’t want to feel pain anymore. The last year of my life has just been spiraling down into oblivion. I lost my job and now work part-time at a grocery store. I make less than half the amount I used to at my previous job. Because of this job, I am in constant physical pain and have thrown my back out more times than I care to mention. I keep applying to jobs and come in as a finalist for those positions, but never make it as the chosen one. My live-in boyfriend of almost 4 years has a tumor in his brain, no …

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Life

August 20th, 2009by Looney

Good evening to all my fellow suiciders and i hope that everything is at your liking.  Times may get a little rough and may cause you to fall short of being victorious but don’t let something as small break someone so big.  Everyone has a special purpose and meaning in life, we all just have to try and solve the mystery before giving up and calling it what it is.  Times may be tough and there are no promises that are promised to you, so don’t wait around thinking that suicide would resolve your issues and cause people to care even more.  Instead write down …

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Louder

August 20th, 2009by mffarrow

Tonight during dinner with my friends I left the table and walked away.  I left my wallet, keys, and mobile phone behind.  None of us realised that I wasn’t coming back.  I don’t know where I went, exactly, but somehow I ended up at home.  I must have broken in.

Why did I leave? Where did I go?  When I woke up, my hands were dirty, and there were scratches on my arm.  There was a knife stuck in the mattress next to me, but no blood.

My brain wants me dead, and I am scared.

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regressing

August 19th, 2009by helper

Hey guys, been off this site for awhile, i was actually pretty proud of myself, been over 2 months since i have self hurt, or contemplated suicide. that was quickly overturned a few days ago, when i learned i was going to a school, a school that contains a girl that used and abused me. she was supposed to be my best friend, and be there for me, i hadn’t had friends in so long, or really ever for that matter, and she was there for me, hung out with me, and made me feel good. but in all this joy, there were tiny red flags that …

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No reason to live, things have only gotten worse.

August 19th, 2009by Krisse

I’m 19 years old, and I’ve been through more than any person should in their lifetime.  I’ve been raped twice, the first was by my “loving boyfriend” when I was 15, he said he loved me, and I believed him.  Because of this, I was stupid enough to stay with him.  As if that wasn’t bad enough, he also physically and emotionally abused me constantly.  My so-called friends knew what was going on, and they just sat there and did nothing.   The best day of my life was October 15th 2006 when I got into a car accident and he was killed.  I thought the …

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Suicide :(

August 18th, 2009by MjLover123

Im 13 years old and ive been thinking about suicide for a while now .. my grandad passed away in april and i was a huge fan of michael jackson who died at the end of june .. i keep crying at the tragic things that have happend to me .. i want to end my life so i can rest forever instead of my friends mocking me and saying that im obsessed with michael jackson .. i cant even talk to my best friend about my suicide attempt because shel just get mad and think im being silly .. ive always wanted a child …

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It’s been a while…

August 17th, 2009by erased_orion

It’s been a while since i’ve been here….i wonder if that’s a good thing or not. Still, im glad there’s some place i can vent all of this.

Really, i don’t know what’s wrong with me. I want there to be a name for this feeling…Im not sure what i should do next.

I still cut. I don’t know why they just set it aside….im trying to ask for help, really i am. It took a lot for me to take that step and ask, but all they did is ignore it and act like it doesnt matter if i disappeared from the face of the planet. …

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to the wounded

August 16th, 2009by Looney

hi to all my fellow suiciders out there.  i would like to encourage you to just read what i have to say.  recently it was drawn to my attention that there were so many suicidal cases through out america even in iraq where all of our soldiers are fighting.   so in all faithfullness i along with many others have dedicated our time to help or talk to those who are going through these episodes.  I am a soldier deploying to Iraq.  please email me when you get the change at virgak47@yahoo.com or google virgak47@gmail.com.  please take this as a way out of realy …

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suicide as a hopeful thing

August 16th, 2009by heidi

Hi all, i’m new. i’m feeling suicidal, having been on and off for some time. But for me it is a source of hope. I feel as if the universe is telling me that my presence is no longer required. I can’t find work, i’m running out of money, i have serious health problems and no insurance and i will probably lose my house. my great fear is that i will be forced to live in my car. i think if i was told today that i had terminal cancer i would kiss the doctor. it would be such a relief.

Planning my death gives focus …

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My Life is unormal

August 14th, 2009by Unormal life

I don’t want to write a long text.

I don’t want to go to school, I am afraid of failing in School in Life ,being homeless..

I got the choice suicide or not?

I am 14 retoke 7th Grade I am now getting in 8th.

Why am I still alive? What is keeping me from suicide?

For a fact from my life now it’s great, but school is startin and I am so scared, afraid of failing.

I am broken down I am forteen and I still wet the bed.\

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into the shadow of darkness

August 13th, 2009by suicide4me

Well I think the time has finnaly come for me to step into the shadow of darkness

I’ve lost my job, I have no family or friends, no pets, no plants, no reasion to live,

obese and 54, no hope for tommarow, I’m broke, soon to be homeless, no sex, no loves, and when I pass no-one will notice till my landlord checks my apartment because I haven’t paid my rent.

Well it’s time

goodbye

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this is it…

August 13th, 2009by cindyinNH

i feel like i am slowly drowning myself in mindless shit… i have settled for a life that makes me unhappy simply because i know there is nothing better for me out there. the only person that keeps me  from doing anything stupid is my son..  but yesterday the asshole i have settled with just reminded me of everything wrong with me.. how i am with him because he was the only one willing to be with me cause i am fat, ugly, and dont have much going for me. how i am thousands of dollars in debt, don’t have a driver’s license, have a dead end …

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what to do…

August 13th, 2009by cook2012

what a life i have. my parents with there sharp tongues and quick jokes. such bullshit they know the impact they have on me its ridicilous i honestly dont know how ive made it this far. and to think when i was 9 years old being called a mother fucked by your own mother who didnt care who didnt think that would do anything to her son. what stopped me from pulling that knife quick across my throat, there are good things in this world but in my case they come rare and often stay short. bits of happiness for me was looking at the …

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i’d really love to help

August 12th, 2009by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God.  so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or …

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Worthless.

August 11th, 2009by GenerationxPlastik

You can choose to read this or not. I know it’s long.

I’m 17.
Ever since I can remember I’ve been witnessing abuse in my household.

When I was 4, I remember seeing my parents fist fight all the time, & I could never understand why. I remember seeing a few relatives standing in my doorway, but I don’t know why they were standing there, or if they really were there at all. I got my first taste of first-hand violence when I was 5. My mom was holding me in her arms while my dad was punching away at her face. & I remember asking him to …

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it will never be OK…

August 11th, 2009by neverbeok

It will never be ok…

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My Gay Ex Boyfriend

August 11th, 2009by eagle7613

Hi,

I hope that someone will be able to help me.   I feel I can’t tell anyone anything and trapped.  I had a child by a gay man.  My daughter is beautiful, and I don’t regret having her.  Now, that I see him come by the house more often it’s usually nice, but there’s one thing that is making me angry.  He has a nice boyfriend who comes over, but I see the two of them kissing in front of me.  His boyfriend used to be me kissing him, taking showers and baths with him, and going out doing things together.   You get the picture.  My …

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what a life.

August 11th, 2009by cook2012

what a life i have. my parents with there sharp tongues and quick jokes. such bullshit they know the impact they have on me its ridicilous i honestly dont know how ive made it this far. and to think when i was 9 years old being called a mother fucked by your own mother who didnt care who didnt think that would do anything to her son. what stopped me from pulling that knife quick across my throat, there are good things in this world but in my case they come rare and often stay short. bits of happiness for me was looking at the …

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