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I would email you but I can’t send emials,not that I know anyway but yeah are you there?
For general topics related to the site.
I would email you but I can’t send emials,not that I know anyway but yeah are you there?
Have not done it for years. Was chopping up some vegetables or my salsa and tried to toss the knife up in a spin and catch it. Needless to say it bit into my hand. But the pain felt good. And the temptation was there. Just like it was when I was younger. After the incidents… made me feel worthless. But the exact things are shadowed…. mental block. Probably for survival because it may make things worse if I recalled it. I know it was when I was a kid though.
The knife just sitting there. Gleaming carbon steel shining like Polaris. Sharp thin edge like […]
Here’s to the crazy ones.
The misfits.
The rebels.
The troublemakers.
The round pegs in the square holes.
The ones who see things differently.
They’re not fond of rules.
And they have no respect for the status quo.
You can praise them, disagree with them, quote them,
disbelieve them, glorify or vilify them.
About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them.
Because they change things.
They invent. They imagine. […]
If I die young – The Band Perry
If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
Uh oh, uh oh
Lord make me a rainbow, I’ll shine down on my mother
She’ll know I’m safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh well
Life ain’t always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain’t even grey, but she buries her baby
The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time
If I die young, bury me in […]
I wanted to try something to get more knowledge of what songs people might like to make them happy..they say classical music stimulates the babies brain so maybe if I listened to good music that makes you happy then we could be on the same page..that’s what friends are for right? I like leona Lewis, footprints in the sand & I like beyonce, I’m here. Now it’s your turn..what songs make you happy?
i hate my anxiety. i hate my mental illness. i can’t work because of it. working terrifies me. every time I’ve went to a job interview I’ve had a panic attack or have had to take an Ativan and have been to drugged to be lucid enough to be interviewed. the older i get and the less work experience i acquire the worse it will get. eventually I’ll be 30 applying for a job. and an employer will see my application and ask why a 30 year old has never worked before. and I’ll have to say its because I’m mentally ill. there’s a lot […]
Nobody knows about my current suicide plans. My family knows about the two preteen/teen attempts but they think I’m all better now. Tell people what they want to hear and… you know the rest. The third attempt they may have found out about except my little brother is listed as my contact and well from what he does for a living I KNOW he will not snitch.
My friend was visiting just to see my place. I rarely have visitors but she kept insisting and since we both dig anime, games, the occult, and dark themed tings I consented. Since I rarely have company I really […]
the only time I feel calm without the influence of drugs, is here. Fuck, what’s wrong with me? :s
I think about dying, and now, what holds me back is that I won’t get to swim in the sadness that I’ll cause with my death. I won’t be able to lick the tears of my loved ones as they wonder why they didn’t notice my derangement sooner. I wanna be like huck finn, fake my death and attend my funeral. The only happiness I have is others misfortune and oh golly would I love to feed off the negative energy that would be radiating from my […]
im so confused about my life right now. i honestly dont know what to do anymore. i came so close to ending my life. but i didnt do it. im not scared or afraid. but i welcome death like you would a good friend. no one understands me or how i feel even though they say that they do. they are just lies. they dont understand what i say or why i do things the way i do. they all try to help me but i dont want their help. i feel unworthy, unloved, uncared for, and misunderstood. i feel like i let everybody down. […]
I feel alone…empty….like nothing matters anymore…maybe it doesn’t matter…..I’m tired…tired of life…tired of people…and their acting. Acting like they care….acting like they want to help when in truth the one they really care about is themselves. Im not stupid. I believe in the truth, because lies hurt. Don’t protect me from the truth with lies and lies. I know better. I’m not a play toy. I have feelings. Humans are liers and sinners. They are worthless. I’m worthless. Even I lie from time to time. It’s hard to tell the truth but I wish that someone could even if it hurt more than the lies. […]
I’m thinking of doing it tomorrow night. 1/21/12 is when I die. I wanted to do it on my birthday. That was three months ago. Should have then. Should’ve done it along time ago. I know some people work through worse pain then I have experienced. I feel hopeless. I used to feel sorry for myself. Realized that gets you nowhere. Thinking about just walking in front of a semi. If I jump just at the right moment I should die. I know that it’s selfish to do. Especially in that way. Can’t really find another way to do it. No car. Can’t find good […]
I can say what’s gone wrong in my life. But feeling depressed has been normal since I was very young. I can’t really remember what started everything but I remember being bullied from age five up until I was sixteen. Sounds pretty sad, not one year of school where I wasn’t bullied and alienated. My parents when I was young, was well great. It’s just my Dad’s temper got worse when my half-sister became a druggie. Heroin, Coke, you name it, the police found it. She would steal from my parents and wouldn’t know me. Got pregnant a few times by druggies and drug dealers. […]
this is what i sent to lauren earlier, it might not make much sense to your guys but its basically wha happened to me today….:/ <3
‘Ok…. So Mr Gregory tried to make me talk to Una when you left, I refused to step into her office, and then Lydia turned up…. I started to break down at this point. We all then went to sirs office and Miss Gentry was there, she said that if it was just about earlier then I should just go back to lesson, Lydia walked me to art and asked Miss Glover if she could take me to talk about […]
Ive been abused as a child…
Ive lost loved ones..family & friends… Ive been divorced twice by the same man & I have no friends cause they just want to laugh at you & tell you your just crazy… I have a gun… […]
Hi all,
As Im approaching dreaded birthday tomorrow,I’m SO tempted to just end it all tomorrow night. I would do it tonight,but have to work:( I could just take off tomorrow after some sleep,check into a remote motel,and just let go…. I get so frustrated,esp. when my bitchy boss just sent me a nasty txt telling me not to be “negative” to the new nurse that Im training tonight. This is AFTER I spent all week letting her vent about her problems,taking time to help her with scheduling everybody,doing extra work,picking up overtime(granted I need it) and,oh yeah,just going over there and offering to do 4 […]
 I just want to fall asleep and never wake up again. I’ve been feeling like this for a while now and I don’t want to be here anymore. Is there such a thing as a peaceful way to go?
It’s true I’m worthless. I’m not going anywhere or doing anything. No one wants me or cares about me. No one really understands me. The people around me like me sure, but they wouldn’t be too sad if I went away. I just cant handle the mediocrity anymore. I feel sick to my stomach. I want to puke my guts out and die. I can’t do this. I can’t keep going through the motions, trying to figure why the fuck I’m here. It’s too overwhelming. It’s too much. I want to curl up in a ball and cry, and I do every night. I know […]
Title says it all.
I’m not saying that SP should be all gloom and doom, but lately, it feels as though no one is really reading the stories of people anymore. From my understanding, this is a site where people type up their stories (stories which, btw, sometimes take a lot of courage to even remember) and hopefully, someone out there in the world wide web acknowledges that someone still bothers, no matter the problem. Most of the people who post here just needs to feel reassured that someone might still care, when in their own real life, it feels like no one does. I perceive […]
My story needs to be told. No one should ever be abused, in any way. It is not only harmful to yourself, but to everyone else around you. This is my story. It is never okay to be abused.
Yes, this is mostly an abuse story. Â But for a lot of that relationship, Â I felt like killing myself. That is NOT your only choice.
When I was in 11th grade, and prior to that grade, I suffered from depression. The “no-one loves me, I just want to die†type. One of my friends happened to be really angry at this one guy so I anonymously texted him […]
I always thought i wasn’t need in life. Like a disease devouring someone until they die. I felt like a disgrace to my family for years, but i don’t know why. My father always told my he will proud of me no matter. Yet i never accepted what he said that day. I wish i was never born to be able to feel this way.  I just want to end this suffering once and for all. If i do go many people will miss me. But if i don’t i I’m going to loss it. I need help… i need an answer. HELP… Should I Go Or No!?
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