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If Life Were Only a Story

November 27th, 2009by Thexter

Hello.

I in the past wrote a post on this website entitled “Endless Future.” I am happy to tell you all, that I am still here, in this world existing as I always have, and always will. I came back, though, not to tell you I am living a wonderful life full of blessings and happiness. My life is as it always has been: darkened by the clouds of misery and misfortune.  I enrolled in a fiction class at my local college. I have been excelling, but I came to the realization that no matter how much I enjoyed writings stories about people who don’t exist, …

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suicidal friend

November 26th, 2009by travishere

hi my friend is suicidal. he talks about killing himself and says that he has made up his mind, it is just a matter of time. do u tink i should tell my parents? what should i do? i do not kno if he is relly serious, but i am beginning to feel like i am losing him already. all our convos are depressing. even when we are having a good convo, he brings back some depressing aspect of his life. wat to do?

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A cancer to go please. Ketchup on the side.

November 26th, 2009by kikidemontparnasse

Sometimes I wish I had cancer just to die without feeling guilty. Sometimes I wish there were no medication to help a little, so that I couldn’t bear living another day in this meaningless world. Sometimes I wish I didn’t constantly dream of not existing too, cause hope is vain when you look at the same ill face every day in the mirror of reality.

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PLEASE LET ME HELP

November 26th, 2009by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or …

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my mental state and personality. LOST

November 26th, 2009by highrise

imagine just running your entire life. fleeing. cowardly. 24/7 and then when you are alone. you tell urself. i can do it. i can stand up and be brave. i’m a good guy but when the moment comes u run again. everytime. and then at times u are forced and it turns out not half bad, but then u look at yourself internally and see that your a horny pervert. and then the whole world sees your a horny pervert. you just want to put your dick in a hole. thats it. that’s it. the end. nothing else interests you nor do you care about anyone …

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Forgotten

November 26th, 2009by zevaztian

It’s pretty hard to find help that actually helps. Everyone has the same advice: seek help, talk to someone, think of the people that love you, change your life, get a better job, find love, etc. These are easy things to say when you are on the opposite of each of these and when you just don’t know what help to seek when the help you get is no help at all. For me, talking doesn’t do much. I have a very hard time trusting people because of the way people have been to me in the past, so any advice, anything a therapist has …

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idk

November 25th, 2009by dm

Can you be happy but want to end your life at the same time? Have a laugh come easily, a smile form on your lips without you noticing but behind all that rooted deep inside you there is a darkness lurking. The only thing stopping it is your smile, but then when you’re alone and let your mind wander you find yourself unlocking that darkness and letting it surge through you. Then before you know it tears linger in your eyes, your heart hurts as if someone is squeezing it and its fighting to keep beating, head pounding in a matter of seconds. Soon your …

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i don’t know what’s going on

November 25th, 2009by emily25

I haven’t been on here in a while an am not so sure what all I want to really say. My life was getting better. A lot of things were going wrong, but I was handling it. I tried to not think of it I think. Maybe that’s why all of a sudden I have been all depressed these past few weeks on and off. I’m not so sure really. It worries me that I am this way. Not for me, but for my mom and my boyfriend. My mom has been busy with the holiday things and the people staying here. I think she …

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November 25th, 2009by Samantha

i keep having thoghts to kill myself and to cut but im trying so har5d not to. there are things that keep me from it but they just keep coming back. idk wat to do. there coming more and more. alomst everyday. it sucks. part of me wants to yet on the same note part of me doesnt…

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nothing can help me

November 24th, 2009by Daniel21

So far i have tried everything 2 get help. I have been 2 psyciatrists, doctors, i just finished a week stay at a mental hospital, im on meds, and i am still so fuckin depressed. Im 14 and have been depressed for 6 years, and it is going 2 be 7 soon. I dont know what happiness feels like and i doubt i ever will. I do cut, but i am trying 2 stop. I just need a way out, and i am starting 2 think about suicide again. I just dont know y i am supposed 2 live. I have no talents or potential. Im …

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I hope this will boosts you up even a bit

November 24th, 2009by LoosingFaith

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I just want this feeling to go away..

November 24th, 2009by TiedTogetherWithASmile05

I don’t think i’m supposed to feel this way. I’m only a fourteen year old girl, and i already hate life. So much has happened to me in the last two, maybe three years. And i don’t mean physically, i mean emotionally.

I guess it all started in seventh grade. I fell in love. I really did, and still am. I fell in love with this guy before i even knew his name! But of course, he never noticed me. In eighth grade, one of his close friends found out i liked him. So she decided to tell him. He thought it was cool i liked him, …

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What will happen after i die?

November 23rd, 2009by mitch

If i do eventually end up killing myself, what will happen.

Is there an afterlife? Heaven, hell?

I want to know that if i kill myself, i won’t just fade out of existence.

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Help

November 23rd, 2009by painterofmusic

I spent time in an adult crisis unit after a suicide attempt. My doctor tried to avoid the hospital. I got out this last Friday. Since I came home, not one of my friends have asked me how I’m doing. Maybe I’m selfish, but I just want someone to ask. I can’t keep doing this by myself, and no one cares. I’m not upset with them, though. I’m such a burden to them, and I don’t want to be anymore. I don’t blame them for being scared of me, because I wouldn’t know what to say to me, either.

While I was there and demanding to …

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So, would you guys think this is good or bad?

November 23rd, 2009by Korpulent

They really should legalize it >_>

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PLEASE let me help!!!!!!

November 23rd, 2009by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or …

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fuck this shit.

November 23rd, 2009by kari

I’m so lost in my mind i don’t know what to do any more dude, my thought’s are literally eating me alive. I just got out of the Pych ward at the hospital after being in there for 72 hour’s, I just dont really feel like it helped me much at all. I wish i could feel the way i did when i was on my anti-depressent’s all the time, but its not realistic i cant take drugs for the rest of my life, so i need to just deal with it i guess, but this is the most discusting feeling ever and i  dont …

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I think this is it

November 23rd, 2009by fortyonedone

This is the first time I can talk about the crap in my life and feel candid about it.

The first time I can talk without someone jumping in and telling me how worse their life is than mine… and that if they can deal with their shit, then I should be able to deal with mine.

Wow… don’t I feel so much better after that.  I’m sure you all know what I’m talking about.

I’m turning 41 early december, and I think my life is pretty much finished.  I don’t see the point of continuing.  If it wasn’t for the fact that my father is still alive …

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everyday I feel like dying

November 22nd, 2009by mushroom88

I often try to endure all the pain that I’m facing by putting on a smile and laughing happily even though the jokes ain’t really that funny, gosh I feel like a hipocrite. Im a popular girl, I have many friends…however am always traumatized by the past events of my childhood. When I was a kid, I was bullied for the way I look, every single day I was bullied in school, and since then I have low self esteem. I’m really very sensitive and understanding, that’s due to my past and my nature. I have a very strong sense of unhappiness though maybe thats …

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Sinking

November 22nd, 2009by estrella

How can this be real
When I can barely feel
The love you claim to have for me
The hate instead you show to me

You know that I love you and how much I care
Yet constantly question if I want you there
Drowning in apathy we both seem to leak
The deeper we go the less we will speak

I can’t hear your voice but give me your hand
Together I know that we can withstand
10 feet under you’re getting colder
Hand in hand, your head on my shoulder

We’ve hit the bottom, our pulses slow
As life escapes us I need you to know
How much I love you and how much I care
Is why …

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