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Remembing…

July 20th, 2010by Broken Dreams

My Chemical Romance Blaned For Teen Death

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lost

July 20th, 2010by starburst86

The person I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with told me he couldn’t be with me. It wasn’t anything I did, he just couldn’t handle a relationship any longer… How am I supposed to be ok with that? Why wasn’t I good enough to stay in a relationship with me? I am horribly depressed because of this now. I want to die and not have to live with this rejection….I am so ashamed, I should be stronger.

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cold

July 20th, 2010by lost_soul

I am numb. I lost all feeling in my body both physically and emotionally. I can still remember the sensation but I just can’t feel anything anymore. I try to remember what being happy felt like or what sadness felt like, but I can’t anymore. I spontaneously cry for no reason, and when something happens that I know will make me happy, I act like it does, though I don’t feel happy. I feel nothing.

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I’m scared of my own mind.

July 19th, 2010by wasit_adream

I’m in a very dark place right now, and it’s terrifying me.  I think of killing myself constantly.  I am in so much pain and nothing is helping me.  I hate that I’m thinking these thoughts, and I hate that I have to come to a website for support, but I honestly don’t know what to do anymore.  I have been on antidepressants for six months and they’re not doing anything; I’ve tried talking to people, tried explaining how I feel but no one understands.  I hate myself.  I hate what I think, what I say, how I present myself to other people.  I hate …

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is it over with?

July 19th, 2010by beautiful disaster

at age 19, it is one of the hardest years of my life. its time to take responcibility even if you dont want to. Its the age where you have to look into the future, and realize what you want your whole life to be about. right at this moment i am mentally and physically depressed. my unkle and my dads best friend that i am really close to both passed away within 4 days apart. right now its the hardest part of my life. My cousins in the ICU and i am very close with him to. all my friends talk shit behind my …

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July 19th, 2010by spoiltgirl50

Tomorrow is my 52 birthday and I wish I was not going to be here. My husband lost his job over a year ago, we lost our home, car and etc…! We had relocated to TX with family and was evicted there. I had my “dream job ” in nursing. Now back in MS staying with friends and have not located a job in 3 months. Did I say no car?
Survived years of sexual, physical and emotional abuse. My first suicide attempt was at 8 years wiyh an overdose of asprin. I can’t go through …

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razor blade

July 19th, 2010by beautiful disaster

The razor blade was nice and sharp

 i wanted to tear my skin apart

i hold it down to my wrist.

i push down hard and give it a woosh.

I cut in every direction till i was sore

the blood poured out to the floor.

i coverd it up with my long sleeve shirt

 hoping that later it wouldnt hurt..

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servere depression

July 19th, 2010by beautiful disaster

the pain strikes my hand.

as the tears run down my face.

all the past memories that i’ve had with the ones i loved.

the ones thats now in heaven watching over me.

looksing back and seeing all the good times we’ve shared.

and now realizing that your no longer coming back.

yout gone forever, till the day i die.

we will reunite again, and i will be in your arms.

and nothing will ever matter but the fact that i get to see you agtain!

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the first last pain

July 19th, 2010by beautiful disaster

as a young kid growing up, life has been very difficult.

everyday of my life, i hold in all the pain and misery that takes place.

i pretend nothing ever happens, and everything will be okay.

but what they all realize soon or later on nothing will ever be okay.

life is full of lies and bullshit.

and nothing will ever come together,

so hold your breath and and dont let go.

because its going to be a hell of a bumpy ride.

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rain

July 19th, 2010by anonymous

It pours, drenching us.

Making puddles .

I can see myself,

In the road,

On the sidewalk.

But not like in mirrors.

It tells the truth.

What we really are,

And what we aren’t.

Some enjoy it,

And others loath it.

But it’s here,

Coming down on everyone,

Make the best of it.

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i feel like death

July 19th, 2010by anonymous

Im trying to be in a good mood today but its not working very well. Ive been totally  faking all of my smiles this morning, and it doesn’t make ME feel any better knowing that im fooling the people around me into thinking that im ok. Maybe they feel better though. So now they don’t have to worry about me and can get on with their day.  I feel like death and just want to get the idea out of the way, maybe by doing it, but idk.

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Nothing seems to work

July 19th, 2010by greebogangster

Since the age of 8 I’ve been depressed, when I was 8 I used to say that I wished someone would come along and stab me, I can’t remember why as I’m now 15 but the problem’s still there. About 4 months ago I overdosed on 12 paracetemol, I don’t know why they make such a big deal about overdosing cause you’ve gotta take like 30 for it to effect you. Last night I cut myself and poured ink into the cuts hoping that’d do something, it didn’t. I need something that actually works? I’m seeing a psychologist but it’s not helping at all.

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bleh

July 19th, 2010by anonymous

I cant seem to get this song out of my head. Its “adams song” by blink 182. It feels kind of perfect for explaining the way I feel. “ I never thought id die alone. Another 6 months I’ll be unknown. Give all my things to all my friends. You’ll never step foot in my room again.” I think that’s the song im going to put on repeat in my room when I kill myself.

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Why can’t life ever become worth living.

July 18th, 2010by october

I want to say that I’ve never been as stressed as I am now but my whole life has always been so filled with it. I grew up with a skitzophrenic unmedicated mother from age 5-16. My two older siblings are mentally slow and one of my younger brothers suffers from severe autism. I spent my whole childhood in fear of my mother and had a constant worry that she would die due to multiple suicide attemps. I have done everything since adulthood to seperate my self from the constant family stress and create happiness for myself. Instead my mother …

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Can’t think straight

July 18th, 2010by harry

I’ve been crying all the time for no reason and can’t seem to stop. Yesterday i purchased a helium canister and other items to gas myself. I just want it all to be over. What’s wrong with me? I don’t even know why I feel this way. I’m 33

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It’s Become A Dream

July 18th, 2010by Codename Dreamer

I have looked through many of these suicide stories. Notes, left from people who were in their final approach to their decisions of suicide. I have read stories of people who have lost loved ones and can no longer go on. I have read about those who have come to the conclusion that suicide is the only way to exit the pain. I decided to share my story. I am now 18. It has been over a year and a half since I had reached my limit.

A few days before my 17th birthday, I had been thinking. You see at the time, I had done …

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Tired of the facade

July 18th, 2010by neila

For years I have not been happy. I put on the fake smile and laugh along with friends and coworkers. I pretend to be having a blast when in fact I feel absolutely alone despite being in a crowd. I hide the cuts and bruises I give myself, or make up excuses (“fell down the stairs again”)

I have always hated my physical appearance. I have never had a serious relationship, likely due to the fact that my father abandoned my mother and I when I was small and I have had little contact with him over the years. I don’t know how to bond with …

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IDK

July 17th, 2010by ckay2

i’m sick of  trying to feel happy and pretending to be happy. I’m just going to go to my f****** doctor and get some depression pills. Maybe they will work can i  even get depression pills at 14 idk but if it dont work I hope i choke on them or i might overdose myself on them.

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someone kill me

July 17th, 2010by maxjib

I can’t believe what is happening to me. I failed my exam for the second time. Why? I’m so ashamed..I worked so hard. I’m so hurt..this has shaken me up really bad. I’ve only got 2 more attempts before I get kicked out. Then I won’t have a job. I’ll be a total loser..even more of a loser than I am now.

How did it come to this? How did my life suddenly spiral out of control like this? I work hard, I try so hard..but it’s not good enough. My heart is broken.

Each day I feel like I’m walking through tar. I don’t want to …

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I tried to commit suicide three times already and need help or advice

July 17th, 2010by lkpuppeteer

I’m going to be 34 soon and don’t ever feel that I will make it. I have this constant fixation on killing myself and cannot afford medications. I have lost my job, have not worked in over a year. I have run out of money, racked up a huge amount of medical debt from being hauled off in a cop car to the hospital and all I want to do is get on medication and get stable. I had to move in with my parents who don’t understand or even really care about my panic, anxiety, depression and isolation. I …

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