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My life…

  October 11th, 2010 by mrlxx13

I have been a christian my whole life, and over the past year, i have grown totally away from god. and in the past few months, i have had some feelings for girls. and i am a 14 year old girl. it says in the bible that its wrong to be gay, but its not like i can help who i have feelings for. and to top it all of, i have no friends. im not popular. i dont belong to a clique. and im annoying, have ocd, adhd, and dont know what im supposed to do anymore. and i kinda like my friends cousin…whose …

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I do not know why….

  October 10th, 2010 by gravyesd9

Im only 14, I get it we all get depressed. We most likely all have suicidal thoughts to. Although I understand this I still feel alone. Even though I know I am not alone at all. I am “popular” in school, girls like me, and I have a crap load of friends. Even though this is true (and you all saw this coming most likely) I still feel depressed because of this one girl. Ive known her sense, like, 2nd grade. She had a huge crush on me sense 6th grade, and I finally asked her out, and she rejected me. I asked why, and she said its cause she wants my best …

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So, you think you’re all alone?

  October 10th, 2010 by S

Well, I’ve got news for you: you’re not.

I’m relatively new to this site, but I’ve posted here before. My other posts were relevant but slightly off-topic, so I’m going to say something a little different here while still getting at the same main principle.

It seems like almost everyone on this site has a completely unwarranted loneliness complex. That is, everyone seems to believe that their depression is somehow unique. Everyone thinks that their suicidal thoughts are too different from anything that anyone else can relate to. People who are depressed and / or suicidal just don’t bother to fully invest themselves in sites like this …

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I dont know what to do

  October 10th, 2010 by silver83

I never thought I would actually think about suicide. I have loving friends and loving family. I am in college and I have everything I could ask for. Still, I can stop feeling depressed. My friends and family keep telling me how wonderful I am. They respect me and even look up to me. Still I never feel like it is enough. It doesn’t even cheer me up anymore. I keep thinking they are lying to me and I don’t believe it. I think about abandoning them and trying to start new but that will probably cause me to go into a deeper depression. I …

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Rating>.<

  October 10th, 2010 by Nikki

Life is getting harder then I thought is would. Friends have left. I knew they would. Because of a b**ch that thinks she is everything I am almost friendless. I know I am ranting again but really? All I hear at school is what a hooker I am. How can someone be a hooker if they haven’t been laded period. I hate this shit. Hell my mom can’t even keep herself healthy. My dad is working 24/7 and my brother can’t even come 100 ft near my mom and I or my dad goes nuts.
Even on top of that I am lonely.
I …

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How do you get THAT lonely?

  October 10th, 2010 by Violet Blake

It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger’s football score
It said he was only eighteen, a boy about my age
They found him face down on his bedroom floor

There’ll be services on Friday at the Lawrence Funeral Home
Then out on Mooresville highway, they’ll lay him ‘neath a stone…

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin’ no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely… and nobody know

Did his girlfriend break up with …

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to SapphireCyanide

  October 10th, 2010 by fireflieslite

SapphireCyanide,
I love your songs. I love your voice.
You’ve got the rhythm too.
And you’ve got the passion and soul.
I listened to it all, 30 of them.
The best I love hearing is “I don’t believe you”, and “Singin X & Y”, and “Mama Who Bore Me”.
And thank you for your sharing.

As a gratitude of pay-back, I’ll tell you what I know.
Hoping that my pointing of direction can lead you further up your stairs.

What you’re lacking in singing is the technique of the breath of air.
The soft sound required during some passages is too weak in voice, and also at some endings of lyrics.
If you can master the …

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and the rant continues

  October 10th, 2010 by 2cankeepasecret

yesterday i wrote my story on here. why i want to go, how far i consierd it and so on. and i find it weird today, its october and 70 degrees outside, beautiful and sunny and all i can think about is how much i’ll miss the warm feeling and the colors of a day like this after i go to sleep..i think i need to talk to someone. anyone. but im scared to. if i tell my friends they might leave me, if i tell my parents they might send me to the nut house. if i tell my boyfriend..idk what would happen then. …

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LifeSuppory

  October 10th, 2010 by fq0001

I am a woman currently living in Canada and I would like to reach out and just be of support to anyone out there who simply needs to talk. Nothing else to it. If you are on the verge of ending your life, please message me and I will listen. I am willing to call and talk as well.

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pointless? perhaps

  October 10th, 2010 by johnnysgonnadie

I’m new here, and still not sure why I’m posting. I can’t leave a tell-all type of suicide note in case I survive, and I have no one to talk to. I have always been a loner – everyone thought I had Asperger’s syndrome when I was a kid because I would run and hide under my bed if I had to meet new people. I guess that was the first red flag. I spent my teen years in lockdowns in Utah away from family and normal life. I never had what it took to get through school or hold down a job. Objectively, my …

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Starsailor

  October 9th, 2010 by Violet Blake

I think it’s about time that I introduce you all to a very special friend of mine.

His name is Nicholas Kyle, and he’s the starsailor.

Nicholas has done many wonderous things already even though he’s only sixteen. He’s become the captain of his father’s old ship, one that flies around the galaxy defending the universe and all that it inhabits while searching endlessly for the lost planet. He’s kidnapped a pretty girl named Stella against her will, fallen in love with her, gotten caught by a nasty band of space-pirates, escaped from the space-pirates, survived a meteor shower, has his ship and crew caught in a …

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I feel lonely.

  October 9th, 2010 by pottyweepotter

Hello! I just want to say that right now i feel like the worlds loneliest person. I have no real friends, and I’m so insecure about myself that I didn’t even go outside today to mow the damn lawn. Let me start from the beginning as to why I’m so upset though. My life was fine and dandy up until the age of ten. When I was ten my dad died and I was closest to him. He was the smartest person I ever knew and he got into Georgetown University at 16, graduated, and went to work for one of the top law firms …

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Hi everyone

  October 9th, 2010 by Fil

New on here, soaking up all the comments and trying to get the feelings out of my head but I don’t think they’ll ever leave as i’ve had them for 25 years but life is going from bad to worse and definitely looks like it’s gonna get even worse but i’ve not done what I wanted to do as it would fuck my kids up.

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“A Permanent Solution to a Temporary Problem” – The Great Analysis

  October 9th, 2010 by schmim64

Suicide is often referred to as a permanent solution to a temporary problem.   I figured the reverse could also be said though.  Whether or not someone chooses to end their life does not change the fact that their life will end one day.  In otherwords, choosing to live is a temporary solution to a permanent problem.  We’re still going to die.

Often I’ll ponder ways that make committing suicide more rational than not committing suicide.  I have not been able to rationalize suicide though.  At best I can say that with a certain value system (a valueless value system) choosing to live is just as rational …

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this is just a rant

  October 9th, 2010 by 2cankeepasecret

Theres a lot of things that i wish i could change or take back. But thinking the un-thinkable is not one of them. Dont tell me im crazy, or insane or wrong to be thinking about sleeping forever. im only 30% sure about it. but thats growing. i think the things keeping me from 100% are 1. leaving my family, my friends, my boyfriend(who i love so much) and 2. the fear of what happens next, after i sleep. is there a heaven? a hell? or do you just dream forever. now i know i said my family, friends, and my bf and your probably …

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You’ll call me crazy, and maybe I am.

  October 9th, 2010 by samriel

I’m not going to bore you with a long drawn out list of reasons why the world sucks, why everybody besides me is bad, or anything like that.  I won’t do that because that’s not the reason I want to die.  I want to die because of what I believe is next.

I believe that when a person dies, Death comes for them.  This isn’t your grandma’s grim reaper.  She’s a beautiful, kind woman whose sole purpose of existence is to comfort you and take you where you are headed.  Though you think you’ve never met her, you can feel that the two of you are …

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this so-called “real world” and humans

  October 9th, 2010 by niki

This so-called “real-world” is too dull and uninspiring and even obnoxious to my very vivid imaginations and dreams.

Human beings -the Earth’s “oh-so-special” species- largely is stupid and moronic, not even that, but they’re also largely ignorant, and then escape to religions and shits like that for “feel good”, “everything is alright”. No it’s not, dumbasses. Until when you all want to play this obnoxious ignorance game? oh sure, ’till our planet and what’s actually really ESSENTIAL for Earth’s life is destroyed to ashes?  then I pray for the End of the World to come fast, because I just fucking hate humanity and its obnoxiousness.
Everybody seems …

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It’s all the doctor’s fault

  October 9th, 2010 by ImTired

When I was younger I thought that physicians were like God.  They seemed to know everything and there was nothing they could not fix or cure.

Then I grew up.  Doctors are nothing but very well pain morons who know nothing; they are anything but like God.  They give people false hope that all will be okay, all the while thinking about their big pay check while I am in pain and severe distress.

Time to go to sleep and forget these useless beings called Doctors.

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Im sick and tired of being sick and tired

  October 9th, 2010 by ImTired

I’m just about finished with my plans to finally go to peaceful sleep.
The doctors, hey they don’t care, never have. Too much in a hurry to see the next dope come in with another fee for them to pay for their swimming pool.

I went to a new doctor who seemed so different, seemed caring. NOT
He told me that all the constipation, pain, spasms of intestines, vertigo, these are just an anxiety attack. Up to then I cared about his diagnosis but after I decided its time to go to that eternal sleeping peace. The place I was before I ever …

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Living Life Till The End.

  October 8th, 2010 by Emma-Bug

mine will be short.
it won’t be grammatically correct.
i’m writing this only as an outlet.
ihave never slit my wrists, or inflicted pain upon myself at all to be honest. not on purpose anyways. i used to really hate myself. i used to loathe waking up. i hated the people around me, and i wanted them to dissappear. except my family, they were always there and always will, i love them for that.
i didn’t have many friends, i was lonely, i was hating EVERYTHING. but then i met my bestfiend, her name will be Kall (fake names) and she changed me. i never told her i …

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