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There is no point.
She swallowed them down to the very last pill, she cut up her arms until you couldn’t see flesh, she scratched up her legs for just being her, because she longs for the day when she’s happy with herself. She’s waited for so long, could it be the night? The night she’s been waiting for all her life? She leaves a note on the window sill, and goes back to her bedroom to do the deed. After the last bottle of pills, she tucks herself into bed and knows that better is yet to come. No more loneliness. No more misery. As she closes her […]
The depression comes and goes. Each time it comes it’s more intense. I’m 56 and feel like a total failure, pointless and useless. A burden. I’ve been watching The Bridge again, wishing I had the strength to make one last visit and end this. All I really want is to go to sleep and never wake up. But the bridge seems like it’s my only real option. 4am and I can’t sleep. So lonely, so tired, such a misfit in life. Please….Sleep, come and put me out of my misery.
Hi this is my second post on this site. I’ve been trying for so long to get better, to stop cutting, to stop drinking but it’s just getting worse. The only person that kind of helps is my doctor who I can’t stand being around because he’s so perfect and has the best job, best car, best body, best life and I feel like every time I drag my sorry ass in there, he just thinks I’m disgusting and useless. I can’t stand it. I don’t even know how to talk or even how I feel anymore..I don’t know if I want to get better […]
Did anyone see my post on a page called suicide. Where I wrote to go to suicideproject.com, did any of you choose to go to it, cuz it seems like there’s a couple new faces…
Today, my mom took me to get a haircut. I got out of doing it when I told her the hairstyle I wanted from Heroes, Peter Petrelli. We went to Gamestop and bought 2 games and a mic, went to a secondary store and I bought five tom Clancy books. Played one new game and it sucked, second one was good…. Wait this isnt a fucking journal… Hmm… Wish it was… Still actively suicidal and depressed… Voices echo in my head from encounters today, mostly my mom n uncle screaming at me, uncle flicking my ears, and even my own voicE yelling back. My uncle […]
hi, I’m new on this forums and I stumbled across it after I was thinking about killing myself but I just need to talk to people that could just help
She is so beautiful. Â I dont really know her, but Ive talked to her a little. Â When I tell her goodbye at the end of the day and she says it back I get a big dumb smile on my face. Â But shes from a different world and my chances with her are at 0%. Â Then again my chances with anybody are 0%, so my chance with her is as good as with anybody else. Â But it doesnt matter because Im me. Â And thats not fair.
I’ve been having panic attacks for quite a while now.. Heart beats fast, numbness, shortness of breath, dizziness light head.. And I had the worst one of my life yesterday. Saw a girl have a seizure and it traumatized me.. I’ve been having them non stop pretty much all day today and I need help… This is ruining my life.! I hate the feeling I can’t do anything.. I’m scared to do anything its not fun.
Well so much for my happy day. Yesterday was amazing i felt like i could conquer the world, i felt as if I could see the world in color again. Today i feel depressed, sad, alone, dying inside. I want to cut so bad. I want to take those scissors and drag it across my wrist. I dont know what to do. I miss my grandmother alot today ( she died four years ago). If i coulf just have one last moment with her i would want to say, its going t be ok nanny, you have touched so many peoples lives, more than you […]
I have a beautiful wife and two children. I stopped really connecting with my wife about 5 years ago. I love her, and she’s a great loving person. Her intentions are always good, and she has a good head on her shoulders, but like I said, I don’t have the same connection with her. I’m no prize, I’m a solid 60lbs overweight, and recently was laid off. Most people would probably say I’m out of my league with her. Despite this, I feel I’m trapped.
I could stay here the rest of my life with the security of the marriage, but it isn’t fair to either […]
i woke up that morning feeling great a very pieceful day. but the happenings of this day were not what i felt. first i heard mommy crying i wondered what was wrong, so i left my room and found her on the floor sobbing harder then i could have ever imagined. at first the paper in her hand didnt stand out but then i noticed it what was it so i grabbed the paper from her hand. it read: to my loving family, these years despite your effort have been very trying and now i guess its just too much how can i explain how […]
hung from a noose is how he found his daughter, the pain ripped him away then the thoughts brought him down. at first he just sat there deathly silent, then came the sound of her voice so real it rocked him back.it was the third day with out her seeming to last forever but the silence would soon be broken. the first thought was how to have her back? his baby now dead the vision of her hanging there still lingers in his mind driving him madder and madder to the brink of psychosis tonight he was sitting at her end table writing her a […]
I’m just wondering how old you guys are because i think maybe depression and suicidal thoughts might be more common in the younger ages but, maybe I’m wrong What do you think?
Depression is loneliness.
You know that feeling, the one right where your heart is, it feels like something is missing. Like someone took half of you heart out of your body and has it locked away in a high tower, and it hurts so bad that your chest feels like it’s being weighed down by the one half of your heart you do have, yearning for the missing piece?
I’m pretty sure that’s what loneliness feels like. I don’t think it’s just that yearning either for a romantic someone, although that loneliness is sometimes just as unbearable, but it is also that loneliness you feel ALL THE […]
I’m trying to cut ties with people, be it personal or professional. I realized that I go days without talking or seeing “friends” and that used to bother me, now it makes it easier to write ppl off. Had a drink with a friend last night, one of the few true friends I have, and he remarked that I was melancholy. I thought I was just mellow (big difference) but apparently not.
Cutting ties with people is not as difficult as I thought it would be. I guess I kinda don’t care anymore what others think so it’s easy to not call, […]
how we thought it was easy to not comit wrong durring life but as i understand hell i think of the real shit life will endur but most play with it likes its a joke i see it as the worst to experience. but hell its life right, so let the thoughts die and slip in to a coma of mass expectation. a dream it is the thought a good life one not this but i think different every day maybe one or three here there but damned. hell isnt the day that you get a prize unless your the grand winner at the victim […]
No one knows how I feel anymore.
No one cares.
I guess thats life, death is getting closer now and Im not scared.
I can talk to the animals
walk with the animals
Been watching the most horrible videos ever recorded including pain Olympics. Why? Because I’m curious and mentally fucked up. I’ve seen a woman drowning while tied up, it happens for 5 suspenseful fucking minutes. Saw shootouts, a cop shit to death by what looks like a M1A1 Carbine, old World War II era weapon. There’s also the suicide of Ricardo Lopez and other shit. SP administrators, in case I have broken any rules of whom I haven’t read, well sorry just showing what a suicide looks like and imagine the look on your families faces when they see an eyeball strewn across the room along […]
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