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I haven’t had anyone to talk to at all. I feel like hanging myself but I can’t. I’ll probably try to overdose later. But ideally I wish I had a gun.
For general topics related to the site.
I haven’t had anyone to talk to at all. I feel like hanging myself but I can’t. I’ll probably try to overdose later. But ideally I wish I had a gun.
Hello, the title says all.
I tried the Helium hood method. I thought I had planned it carefully enough. I put the bag over my forehead and opened the gas valve of the helium bottle. There was a regular, quick flow. Then, I removed all the air in my lungs and put the bag over my head. I didn’t pass out, even after three minutes. Could it be because I was breathing Ballonium instead of Helium ? Where can one be sure to find PURE helium ? Where can it be bought ?
It reads “Helium” on the bottle, so it cannot possibly be a mix of […]
I am a 54 yo man who lives in northern New England. I have no living relatives that I actually know(phone numbers, addresses, etc..) I have no friends other then the people I see at work. I do not socialize and when I am not working, I sit in my small 1 bedroom apt.
I work in a manufacturing plant driving a fork truck. The job sucks. The company sucks. The pay sucks. The benefits suck.
But I am trapped here now due to socio-economic conditions. I would so love to leave and return to the World. This has been an Evil place for me ever […]
I’m so pathetic. I really wish I had the guts to go, but I don’t. I have everything I need for any method I wanted because of all of the ridiculous plans I’ve made that I could never go through with. Well, I mean, I have everything I need but courage. Unfortunately, that’s the most important thing to have…
I don’t know if I’ve said this here yet, because I’ve written so many posts and so few say anything about me, but I think I might suffer from a minor form of social anxiety. Today I was at a gathering for my graduating class before college […]
rivers of blood flow today after all those who disfigured enough to flood our ground. the death toll rose in months to the point of decay
covering the earth. cemeteries over capacitated and lands were turned into body grounds. amongst the death and rot was disease.
the flesh that once had a sight and smell of freshness now clutter the ground diseased scared disfigurement was the new vice of the depressed
depression the mind disease that spread like a virus. bloody lakes and oceans fill the world conquering the land. mutants grow under disguise
as the flooders re inhabit and spawn a new masochistic generation. […]
Hi is anyone here around los Angeles?
I need someone that I can talk to who feels the same way
That I do… Suicidal.
Thanx
I have it all planned now. Only a lack of braveness or a failure with my overdose will save me.
I’ve spent the best part of 10 years fading in and out of depression, dipping into the thoughts of suicide, even attempting twice. Both times unnoticed by the outside world, although both times fucking my already fucked up body somewhat more.
But this is it. Twice the antidote this time and a plan B. I do not want to survive again. I will not survive again.
But the date of destroyal is a few weeks ago. People need to get to places first. Doses need to arrive.
So I […]
Right, I will just say why and how I am planning to kill myself. Simple…right?
The why:
Have felt like a zombie all my life. I have always felt like I am braindead for as long as I can remember, my concentration is nil, fatigue and sleepiness ALL the time. A pretty nice and simple way that my counsellor put it was as beng “detatched from reality”. I am now 20 years old, and I still have no idea who I am, I look at myself on the mirror 50 times a day, not because I am in love with myself, but to remind myself of who […]
I was in a really bad place last night, just freaking out and over whelmed. i tried to call friends, and nobody answered. I tried to call the suicide hotline and was on hold too long. I tried to distract myself and failed. I ended up cutting a lot. Now I’m covered with cuts, I probably should have gotten stitches on one of them, but I didn’t. I can’t wear long sleeves at work, and I work all weekend. I’m trying so hard to keep people at work from finding out, and maintain a “normal” facade. I think I’m probably failing on all accounts. Really […]
I promised myself that I would never make another human being feel low about themselves ever again, but you have taken things too far, and now I’m left with no choice…
Are you REALLY that much of a pathetic, attention-seeking, little brat that you need to post rude and obnoxious thing on suicidal stories that way someone will notice you? What, do mommy and daddy not love you enough? Are you not getting enough attention at home?
Oh, well I’m sure all the people on this site that you’ve treated less than human will be here for you!
The people who post their stories on here […]
so i decided to cast a spell. each day for a month i put my focus into building my death. i was over life on earth, it hurt too much. love seemed missing, everyone was feeding off everyone else and society was mad. about a week in and i found myself booking a flight, a month later and it was christmas, and i was in new zealand. the spell was supposed to go like this: i would be swimming in a warm sea, surrounded by dolphins with a warm sun shining. i’d then dive down and at the deepest i could swim, take a breath.
ive realized recently that i most likely have an anxiety disorder and depression. when i think about anything changing in my life i get this panic in my chest. it makes me feel physicly ill. when i wake up for school this dread washes over me. i dont know why i love school i get to see my friends and i get to do things that i enjoy. but every morning i get this terrible feeling in my stomach and i usually feel like im going to puke. its not like i get bulllied at school i have a pretty good school life. but the […]
My parents are kicking me out of my house. I’m eighteen and about to start college next week. They said that I can stay here until September, to find a new place to live.
What did I do to make them so mad?
I stayed out all night without letting them know where I was. But, I promised my friend that I wouldn’t leave his side. He called me and needed me to be there so I left. I held him while he cried and told me how much he wanted to die. I rocked him to sleep, safe in my arms.
So, screw my parents. It was […]
A lifetime of Fear and loathing… Self Rejection, Low Self Esteem, not knowing how to deal with hurt emotions nobody could understand cause everyone else was as heartless and shallow as I was… I am coming to a fork in the road of my life… i post on here to experience my emotions… something I was not taught by my dad… one thing my dad wasnt was a emotionally mature Man… my dad would beat me with jump ropes, fists, bang my head against the wall… verbally, mentally and physically abused… then tell me to stop crying or he would give me something to cry […]
I want God to kill me. Â I want to be struck by lightning or hit by a car or something. Â Nothing ever gets better. Â I like to pretend one day a pretty new girl will show up at school and maybe she’d like me and we could become friends and then eventually she might want to be my girlfriend, but that won’t happen. Â There will never be anybody out there for me. Â I’m gonna die the way I lived, alone. Â My family and I have never gotten along and my friends seem like they don’t like me, they just hang around me because it would […]
So, here’s my tale of woe. I’m 40 and everyone in my family is dead. I have Asperger’s syndrome, which makes it almost impossible for me to interact with others or form anything like a close, meaningful relationship. My life seems so empty and pointless—one struggle after another with no break and no reward. I’m not really sad or hurting anymore (now I’m mostly numb) but I am so very tired!
I want the sleep that Hamlet craves:
“To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, ’tis a […]
Well yesterday was an horrible day. It was the day i found out my best friend died and i wore all black for him. Got sent to guidence where they knew i was going to commit suicide and they knew my plan. Send my mom to the office telling them everything. Offer calling the criss center and now i had a criss person in my home trying to help me :L. Now its today im stuck at home cause i didnt want to go to school and i sitting here thinking is it worth all the trouble to save my life. I just found out […]
I’m a regular university foreign student.
I’ve been spending on credits and the debt is now gone to $6000, which I must repay by next month or legal action will be taken.
with only $700 in my bank account, I do not know what to do.
As a student, I do not know how to repay the debt by next month… as a foreign student, I do not know who else i can depend on too.
I’ve been in denial stage for quite sometime, which causes this debt to grow.And I find myself going into denial again,with my brain telling myself everything is fine and ok…
I think I need […]
I feel so odd at the moment.
My ex has been talking to me somewhat lately, he was talking to me more than usual a couple weeks before but now he’s just scaring me.
He went to bluesfest with some friends and two of the friends who were with him (also very good friend of mine we’ll call them Sally and Tom and my ex Matt) and some random person randomly bumped into Matt.
Tom and Sally both told me at different times but had the same story and others agreed with them, that Matt turned around and punched this kid and knocked him out cold.
Matt and I […]
I’m not going to get into everything that has gone wrong in my life during the past 10 years. Trust me, I was one of the strongest. I was one of those who lusted after life. That was then, now is now. I will cease to exist soon. And no one will even know I’m gone. No friends, family, nothing…. Hoping to have all my materials tested and ready to go for a Sept 5th Departure. Wish me luck. I am genuinely excited.
Feel free to email me or message me w/Yahoo Messenger. Â Think they are on my profile. Â But please no matter how well intentioned […]
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