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i have no idea what im supposed to put here…. if youre reading this you already know whats going on.

  June 29th, 2009 by nate

might as well share my story… this is gonna be rambling and probably not very cohesive, fyi. ive commented on a lot of other posts on this site. i go on here multiple times a day, to check and see whats new here. my goal in life is to help people. specifically, keep depressed people from killing themselves and hopefully get rid of their depression. i have dedicated my life to that goal. so far i have been very successful at keeping people from killing themselves, but not so good at ending any kind of depression… as far as i can tell i just drag …

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ranting

  June 28th, 2009 by helper

How absolutely sick is it that I find comfort and safety on a site that people tell you about how they want to die? Oh now you are probably thinking to yourself, well it’s probably because you need to know that there are others like you. Yes that’s right I have a logical mind. I am not mad at you, whoever you is, I’m mad at me, for being me, but then for being mad at me, because I know how it is more for a lot of people with personality disorders, except I feel what I should feel, then have not the feelings

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cadys story

  June 28th, 2009 by cadys-story

i have posted this before, but i really think this is the perfect site to help people on… so here we go.

hello, i am here today to tell you about my site… you see, i grew up in a family where my mom and dad were fighting constantly, my mom cheated on my dad and that just lead to a down  fall… anyhow, when i was five, my mom left my dad and i went to live with her, i never knew my dad growing up which could have helped me as my mom was an alcoholic drug dealer… and well that should say it …

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the last resort………………

  June 28th, 2009 by distorted

This is very hard for me to write this out, but I felt I had to just release what has been on my mind for over ten years and I happened to come across this website and here I am, took me a long time to admit that I hate life and to admit I have a serious problem here if I hate life, I never actually attempted to hurt myself but the thoughts are always there and my thoughts are getting stronger day by day, well the reason why I am like this I say to myself is a legitimate reason to hate life …

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cheap wine

  June 27th, 2009 by archaic

My fiance has left me. Again. This isn’t something that has been ongoing. But, it’s happened about three times now within the past month and a half. Every time hurts more than the last. This time started because we got into a fight in the time between him coming back from running errands and me heading off to work. We probably fought for about two or three hours. I had found out while he was out that my period was late. I wanted to tell him, but as soon as he got back we started fighting, so I didn’t get the chance. I knew it …

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my life (advice)

  June 27th, 2009 by oliviabee

im new to this site so i dont really no what to write but ima start out with
this im olivia im 16 years old and i dont really have a lot of friends i choose
to be that way and it sucks on me.i have soical phobia disorder so its really hard
to make friends or even go to school in middle school every thing was great and now being in
high school sucks i came from a very small private middle school and everyone called it
so call rich white poeple school i dont liek dat becuz i am …

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Untitled

  June 27th, 2009 by Jeane

I’m the last person anyone would think to be like this. People think I’m everyone’s weird, wild, funny friend…and that’s what hurts the most. And it’s so hard to tell someone you’re depressed. I told some of my friends and they thought I was crazy or stupid. I remember getting really, really hurt by what someone said to me… Try being depressed when you start at the age of eleven.
There used to be a feeling that I could not describe, but it happened to me daily. It wasn’t normal, I knew that. I don’t know, it felt like someone was sitting on my …

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ok…

  June 27th, 2009 by LGchica

I don’t know, I just need some advice I guess.

I lie too much and am trying to break that habit with all the will I have but can’t seem to… I know that is contributing to my depression but I don’t know how to stop.
My therapist isn’t really helping on that matter and the meds I’m on can’t stop me from lying.
Anyone have any advice how to stop?

I also know I wallow in my problems too much but always want to talk them out but then people just tell me to “scrub my past and be happy” but I don’t know how. I try to …

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  June 27th, 2009 by nebdy

there have been lots of times when i have been depressed, i cry sometimes. like uncontrolably for hours, but that hasnt happened in a while. i usually do that when i know no one can hear me, because i dont think they would really get it. like most people i know they turn around and go “well you have it a lot better than some.” my best friend, and in some ways my only friend called me a spoilt bratt, when i was depressed on monday.  thats why i  dont trust her enough to talk to her, thats why i’m here.

i dont sound all …

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Guilt

  June 26th, 2009 by dreyaFR

I think it started when I was a lot younger than I am now. I now realize that in the past I fed off of guilt. Somehow, I liked the feeling of making people feel guilty, making them feel regret. And I was that way because I was sick and tired of myself being a magnet for those emotions. Maybe then, I wanted people to feel what I felt. Every little event that happened to me always started to build up through the days into something big, and I would always just look at the things I had done, and just say ‘Man, my life …

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A question

  June 26th, 2009 by overstayed

Ok I  read here a lot and have posted here when  I have been feeling way off he planet, which is increasing often now. I feel “ok” right now. But there are some things I want to know.

1st this is how it is:

Not always but in the mornings when I wake up can feel like a light switch in my brain has been switched off.     Feels/sounds like dousing a match in water like. Like  waking up and then just deflating  (Always Followed by nonfunctional bad days)
Generally  allways being “aware” that im sad / horrible / hurting all the time. Not fitting in.( I would call …

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  June 26th, 2009 by Lauraaaa

Hey if anyon needs any help or advice im always here and my e-mail adress is lollypop2694@hotmail.com so feel free to contact me any time. xx

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Maybe I am in hell. I’m in hell.

  June 26th, 2009 by mffarrow

When I was a small child I prayed many times to disappear into my Winnie the Pooh books, where I could be happy forever. That was a dumb prayer, though, and anyway it never happened, so I’m still here. I kept a knife under my mattress for a week, after I had a dream that a psychopathic killer was coming for me. In the dream, I decided that the best thing to do was to kill myself before the murderer got to me, as I could give myself a quick, easy end with the knife and spare myself a torturous death. As an

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I might kill myself.. who knows..

  June 26th, 2009 by theonlypie

Hello. I am depressed. I need to go to a place where no one can judge me and yet I can tell anything too. In short, I messed up, I messed up my whole life and future. I was dating a boy for a year and a half and he didn’t receive enough attention from me. I was being beaten a lot from my father and I did not want to tell him because I was ashamed of it and I did not want him to get hurt as well. I wish I told him so we might still be together. After he broke up …

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Help for a plan to kill myself?

  June 26th, 2009 by youngblood

I’ve tried to kill myself so hard! In many times. I just wanna die, but I don’t know how. I mean, I need a plan to execute. Make a plan, I don’t know.. Some times life is a fuck contest of status, or beauty.. I can’t see my life better than.. that. My whole life was a fuck lie, and I have never seen one reason to live. I have never a relationship goodness, I don’t have friends, I mean.. I do, but its not the point. Isn’t my life, I don’t have plan for the future, I aways think in die, or something like that. I …

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I Plan but I don’t Execute

  June 25th, 2009 by bigred1221

I’ve thought about committing suicide for the past year of my life.  I’ve thought about cutting my wrists but have decided that would be too bloody and painful.  I’ve thought about jumping in front of a Semi, but then I couldn’t do it because of the compassion I felt for the poor sorry bastard driving the truck.  I’ve thought about shooting myself, but the only guns in the house belong to my dad, and I sure as hell am not dying by embedding one of his bullets in my brain; he got me here in the first place, and I won’t give him the satisfaction of knowing he has succeeded in killing me …

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should i take these anti depressents?

  June 25th, 2009 by nebdy

in responce to that first comment on my last blog (sorry about the spelling): i didnt mean for it to sound like i was competing, or even to insinuate that this is, somehow a competion. just that i got the feeling that my last post was being pooh- poohed as unimportat. any way. i cant talk to my friend (we’re 17), thats really the whole problem, i dont know how to express my self (hense competition thing), i either underestimate the whole situation, and then people dont belive me, or i go ott, and end up getting really defensive. 

i cant talk to my mum or dad, …

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runs in the family

  June 25th, 2009 by deja

I tried to commit suicide in 2002. My children were young at the time. My daughter was 11. My boys were 6 and 7 years old. My daughter has since been affected by this. She is now 18 but had tried 2 times. Hospitalized both times. Now, today, she is suicidal. crying and sad. Not feel like eating. She doesn’t want to eat, can’t sleep and doesn’t want to feel like this anymore. I don’t know what I can say to her anymore to help her. I want her to feel good and alive again and not go through this feeling anymore. She is on …

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  June 25th, 2009 by Lauraaaa

Ok a lot of people may think i’m pathetic because i’m only 15 and i am already thinking about suicide… well i just don’t know what to do, i’m pretty much never happy i have so many bad memories in my past that i cant let go of… Up until about 2 years ago i always thought suicide was just an easy way out of things because that’s what my uncle did was take the easy way out of his problems by taking his life.

I now understand why some people think that is their only option, if you think you have nothing to live for then …

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  June 25th, 2009 by nebdy

ok. last post was a little vague i guess.

i was sexually abused when i was 6 till i was about 7/8 ish, by some boys in my primary school. (i’m a girl). I am absoulutly terified of people touching me now, anywhere. i csnt really get close to peoplr, obviously i have trust issues.  when i get upset, depressed – i cant talk to anyone, my friend gets really anoyed and angry.  she says i act like a spoilt brat, and i make her think we’re not really best friends. i told her about what happened to me. doesnt really look like she took it …

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