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Im littered with cancer.

  February 12th, 2010 by Trent

And i give up. I can’t watch all of the sorrow i create around me. I have ruined so much. I’ve used up my attempts at having a good life, being a good person. I go through the work week so numb and on the weekends i sit alone, numb, in bed. I drink till i fall asleep. and then do it again. i can’t go on with this garbage. and so i deserve death. no more pain for those around me. no more wasted time and others money. Ill live alone and die alone. goodnight.

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To No where

  February 12th, 2010 by Kira

Please someone read this and give me feedback

my name is Ciara and i am 19 yrs old, Ever since i can remember back to when i was 5yrs old my life has been one snowball effect that just keeps growing larger as the years go by. i was sexually molested by two of my cousins when i was between the age 7 and 9. i never spoke up because i thought it was okay in the sense this was the way my family showed they loved me. in a real fucked up way i allowed it because better to be negatively loved than not to be …

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im sick of life

  February 12th, 2010 by steph_123

im sick of everything and everyone i want to hurt myself but everythime i go to i get scared and i dont want to do i jujst wish some1 could shoot me , easy death im sick of having to pray but no outcomes god dosent seem to care anymore ever since my brother tried to commit sucideand ended up being paralysed everything seem to gets worse and never improve with my mum being so stressed and taking it out on me  and im sick of it i try to put on a brave face but i cant anymore im sick of life i just

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Need an angel to heal me

  February 11th, 2010 by iNsOmNiAc

I feel so subdued, though I can hear my heart’s still beating but I can no longer feel a thing. My mind finally stopped wandering but my soul ceased to feel any kind of desire – everything inside of me is almost frozen and eerily still. I hardly recognized my own self, the me I know bleeds emotionally to death but now I’m just almost hollow.

The scars engraved on my wrists no longer remind me of my pain. They’re just as insignificant as my futile suicide attempt & as pointless as my life. It feels as though I’m in a buffer zone where everything is …

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  February 11th, 2010 by jack.

fuck you all, i hate everyone.

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i was alone

  February 11th, 2010 by Garth

It seems like everyone ive ever been close to or trusted has has betrayed me. My friends, my family, mom ,dad..everyone. I used to think my family was a happy family with nothing to hide, man i was wrong. It turns out just about everything i knew growing up was a lie. The person i believed to be my best friend betrayed me and Lied to me more times than i can count. I used to have love for these people i trusted and was close too. But now im just empty inside.

So after everyone i love or trusted betrayed me i Closed myself in …

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I Give Up!

  February 11th, 2010 by Daniel21

Hi, im Dan and im 14. I have suffered from chronic depression for seven years of my life and i am not sure how much more of it i can take. I have attempted suicide multiple times, and i almost hung myself just a few minutes ago. The only thing that is keeping me here is my friends….but im not sure how much longer i will be in this world with them. I just cant take this pain much longer. I hope that my friends will be able 2 forgive me for this, but i doubt it. I know killing myself is selfish but i …

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Life is a *****

  February 10th, 2010 by seithkein

I’m just tired of experiencing the pain, guilt and hate over and over again. When will things ever be okay for me. Perhaps Death seems like a logical choice. Really though I just want the pain to stop.

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murderers and suicide

  February 10th, 2010 by 77evergone77

imagine a young girls body in a tub filled with blood and water and the smell of alcohol and gun smoke in the air. imagine a hole in her chest where her heart should have been and words cut into her skin. words like: ALONE. FAKE.MISUNDERSTOOD.HATED.FORGOTTEN.ENTITY.EVERLOST. and many more. you see her long dark brown hair float along the glassy water. Her dark, almost black eyes staring back at you. asking, “why? Why did you kill me?” you know it was your fault. you knew that you venomous words and cold eyes would break her. But you didn’t know that it would kill her.

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Please Read

  February 10th, 2010 by asprin

Do you believe humanity (or your community) is deserving of life?

Do you believe you deserve life?

Is there anything worth dying for? Why?

Are you dying for it now?

For some of you, your religion, your beliefs, give you hope. It is valid. This is not for you.

I remember loneliness so deep it was physically painful. I remember when I would hear someone talk, especially if they said something nice, the noise was deafened by the silence of its inevitable death. All possible good was nothing but a sick tease.

This is the past.

You crave the void, but you do not need to physically kill yourself yourself to touch …

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I just want to be in heaven all ready.

  February 9th, 2010 by Aril

I’m only in 9th grade, yet every year of school I’ve been bullied. I respect everyone I come in contact with, yet still in the end I’m crying in my bed at night, trying to forget each day. In my mind at least, I’m a nice girl, and I’m not asking for the world to love me. Just to stop bringing so much pain, please, please, please. My eyes hurt from crying.

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IDEK WHY

  February 9th, 2010 by 77evergone77

Im gonna skip the explanation, the pointless rant, and the self loathing because i have enough of that in my head. I’m just gonna go ahead and write a poem that i hope will let u know how i feel. Thanks for bothering to read this. That means you care more than most others. Because most others don’t know the pain of not killing yourself. And they don’t know the feeling where the dreams in which you are dying are the best you’ve ever had.

“i wish
i could read your mind
but im afraid
of what ill find
inside

its always
so much different
than the rest.
sometimes
they’re the same.

But those people
never last
long enough
to

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Nothings changed and Ive had enough

  February 9th, 2010 by rampside-girl

Right, I haven’t been on here for a while. My life has not improved despite everyone saying it would. I hate it, I hate it all. My head is a war zone, I hate who I am because Im not me anymore, Im a freak, Im going through hell because of thingsout of my control, things inside my head that I can’t cope with. I don’t care about anything anymore, so many things, have happened that I never want to remember, I thought it was just a phase I was going through but as time goes on Im realing that without noticing Im planning my own …

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Want to go… im not even asking alot

  February 9th, 2010 by blaze of glory

huuuuh i hate this … i just want not to exist..not go to heaven not go to hell just erased…

Im 21 years old and have never really asked lot all ive ever wanted is to just be happy how hard is that to ask really. I recently split up with my girlfriend of 4 years who i loved to pieces and adored i treated her very well and did all i could.now she doesnt love me has left me and is being so horrible. we have had problems before but not this bad. She lives miles away from me but still insists on going out on the …

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don’t underestimate me.

  February 8th, 2010 by silent

Just been allowed out of hospital, i don’t understand why i fail everytime. And whoever is emailing me saying that i’m only 15 and don’t have any real problems, i hope you die a slow and painful death. I don’t want to deal with you. Does it make you feel big? Harassing a 15 year old girl, telling her she deserves to die so no one will have to listen to her complaining anymore? You don’t know one single fucking thing about why i’m this way or why i try and escape. The amount of other people that have come onto this site since i …

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fucked up so badly

  February 8th, 2010 by jeremybw1

I don’t know why I’m posting here, it’s just more of the same self-pity I don’t need. But here goes anyway: I was accepted last year to a one-year grad school program for something I really wanted (and still want) to do, but for various reasons I have effectively dropped out, have a chance to return but it would be part-time I would know no one and get shitty classes. I found a wonderful girl here and have driven her away; on Monday am moving back to my mom’s house, a place where I know I will be bored and evermore depressed. I think about …

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Back again

  February 8th, 2010 by Ryuu

This is my third post here on this site. Honestly, I love this website. It has saved me from resorting to more foolish coping mechanisms. This time around I find myself faced with…an abnormal (for lack of a better term) amount of stress. I am hoping to study abroad in Japan next year, but have no money to do so. I need scholarships for the trip, but my grades have been slipping lately. My grades continue to go down the drain because I’m lacking motivation. I lack motivation, because I, like many of the rest of you here, can’t seem to stop thinking about how …

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Mermaid

  February 8th, 2010 by mermaid

Hi- stumbled across this today. Had a hard life growing up, Mom a schizoprenic, dad an alcoholic, murdered in jail at the age of 46. So lot’s of people had it tough too I guess. Did all the right things, went to college, got married, had a house, dogs, and husband.

Had a good paying professional career. Got divorced, bought my own place, got laid off, lost my house, sold all my stuff, moved to a different state to start over. Credit ruined now. I live in an extended stay hotel. I look for work but am so damned depressed I would pay someone to kill me …

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I Can Help

  February 8th, 2010 by sarah200782

Suicide can be prevented. If anyone here needs to talk, I am here for you. I am currently going to school studying the human brain and anthropology. I would be very willing to assist anyone that needs help or just wants to talk. I have been down the suicidal road before- I want to prevent another family from going through what I went through. Please let me help you. Contact me on this website or ask me for my email. Thanks. You are not alone.

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Somebody loves you!

  February 7th, 2010 by JTomcan1

I lost my brother in law sept 8, 2009 to suicide, I remember being at home starting to cook dinner,and the phone rang, it was my sister she was frantic just screamin he’s dead, he hung himself, he’s dead! I didn’t understand it took a couple minutes for it to sink in before i started to puke from the shock. She was crying hysterically, He had committed suicide and nobody knew, they found his body a day later. My sister and I were married to brothers, so as soon as I got off the phone with her, and told her i would be there for her …

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