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blah. im alone in the world

  May 25th, 2008 by emilyyyy3

ok, so i am 14 years old, a freshman in highschool. my father died when i was three years old and i have been trying to deal since then. i have been depressed for about 6 years. i try to tell my mom but she just doesnt get it. i talk to this lady at my school but she doesnt know the whole truth. i started cutting at the beginning of second semester and i havent stopped since. i dont try to hide them cuz i just want someone to notice and to care. but no one has said anything yet. i used to have …

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limits

  May 25th, 2008 by Georgia

everyone has limits. I’ve spent most of the past ten years close to mine. I’ve reached them a few times too. I’m sick of being the one who helps everyone else be happy, get things fixed and such. I get the message though. Someone out there has decided things shouldn’t go right for me, I shouldn’t be happy. I’ve had enough of being miserable, putting on a brave face and being there for everyone else.

I have HIV, i’m the most careful person iknow when it comes to condoms, and i still managed to get infected. most of my …

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A Happy ending

  May 21st, 2008 by ncemtchick

I have suffered from depression all my life. It wasn’t until age 34 that i was finally diagnosed with Bipolar II. I first tried to kill myself when i was 20 yo. Then I went into a drunken and medicated rage when i was 34. I attempted suicide 5 times during a 2 year period. Fortunately my life has turned around and I love life now. I haven’t done this by myself. I have a wonderful psychiatrist that has literally saved my life. I also have a therapist that has saved me from myself. I just wanted to share this and hope it can …

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13 and not sure about life

  May 20th, 2008 by ilovejames

Hey im 13 years old turning 14 in july and i have had so many thoughts of suicide i have been through so much crap already in my life i dont tell my parents im scared that they will think im crazy or something i talk to a counslor at school i just dont know how much more i can take

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suicidal intencions

  May 20th, 2008 by nicu

hy my name is nicu im from romania 🙁 im 17 and i have some problems i have suicidal thoughts like now for example i failed an exam a car exam so i can get my licente and i failed im so afraid of what my father will say that i was thinking of killing myseld i cant keep this hate and this pain in me i have 2 do something this is my 3 time that ive donte the exam and im so angry and afraid :(( pliz help me :(( send your advice on trinkib0y@yahoo.com :((

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endless misery

  May 18th, 2008 by empty-and-dead

my experience is that there is no-one who will really help: I am bright and educated (IQ of around 140) and have all the insights anyone could want, need or imagine (bright, workaholic, alcoholic bipolar father, hysterical, self-martyring self-obsessive Aspergers syndrome mother, lots of domestic violence and punishment for not being’ what they wanted’ just for a start) …I fully understand the whys and wherefores of my depression and suicidal feelings…but understanding it changes absolutely nothing. The levels of my insight and self-awareness are such that when I have talked to the various counsellors, cognitive behavioural therapists, psychotherapists, clinical psychologists and well meaning …

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Seeking help takes courage.

  May 18th, 2008 by thankful

I don’t know who will read this.

In part I’d like to thank the people\persons responsible for this site. I found you when I needed you the most. Glad you took the time to be here for me.

October 30, 2006 almost became the last day of my life. I was at a fork in the road of life. On one side was death by my own hand, on the other, the unknown. Would seeking help cost me my job, my career, my house, everything I’d worked so hard to achieve? Although not much …

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I’m still here, and fighting for myself

  May 16th, 2008 by kitwit

Hi

Four years ago, I wanted to end it. But the love of my animals, and the love for my dreams, kept me going. Now I have a friend who is going through a bad time. But I survived through the ugliness of it all. And so damm happy I chose to stay-no matter what!

Fight for your life!

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I guess I’m a Suicide Survivor

  May 15th, 2008 by Brooke

OK so I’m “Brooke” and I am 16 years old, 17 in September. I come from a very wealthy and affluent family and I seem to have it all. Yet deep down inside I am absolutely insane and dark. I’m not afraid to show people this side of me but I know If I were to show people this side of me I would be completely misunderstood and I would rather not have people try to understand me. It’s a natural human characteristic to over analyze situations and ask the question “why.” Sometimes there just isn’t a “why” for things. I would just rather have …

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I guess I’m a Suicide Survivor

  May 15th, 2008 by Brooke

OK so I’m “Brooke” and I am 16 years old, 17 in September. I come from a very wealthy and affluent family and I seem to have it all. Yet deep down inside I am absolutely insane and dark. I’m not afraid to show people this side of me but I know If I were to show people this side of me I would be completely misunderstood and I would rather not have people try to understand me. It’s a natural human characteristic to over analyze situations and ask the question “why.” Sometimes there just isn’t a “why” for things. I would just rather have …

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Getting Help is a bad idea

  May 14th, 2008 by gemblon

Everybody says, “If you think about committing suicide, you should get help.” ::: so i am thinking, if you want help, ya, get help. or walk into a hospital, and ask for some pills so you can get some pills and a 3 day lockdown. but, really, you don’t want to commit suicide. you just want life to change.

a person that really ants to commit suicide, would never, ever, tell anybody. when they are ready, they do it.

if you tell somebody, that you are thinking of suicide, they will never have the same opinion of you …

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  May 14th, 2008 by anapurna

I can’t write about it.
A problem has grown into a mountain.
I feel hurt and have no one I can share this feeling with.
Why am I here and what is my purpose in life?
I have failed and failed and failed agin.
How can I tell someone what I truly feel,
when the world around me has such a different picture of me.

Once I was called, I felt I made a difference
and now it looks so bleak
I feel abused – I feel used

My Lord, my God
I need you more than life itself
you are all I need – you are my sustainer
even in my darkest hour I know you …

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witness

  May 14th, 2008 by Survivor

Today happens to be my 34th birthday. I have been a survivor of debilitating depression since I was 19. I have forgotten the person I was. After 14 years of severe depression and all of the questions all of the odd looks all of the hopelessness and pain. All of those wasted years and potential. I am starting to feel better. Dr.s seemed to always give me a drug of limited effect in an insufficient dose and left me out to pasture. Higher doses of prescription drugs are what is helping me.
How the heck do I know how normal I should feel now after …

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What is Life?

  May 13th, 2008 by miss-understood13

Life . . . What is it?

Your born kicking and screaming into a world that might not always accept you.

Icolation confinds me to my own persoanal buble.

What is the purpose of life?

Does anyone truly know?

What are you supposed to do with the time given to you?

What if the time isnt enough?

Its a constant ticking at the back of my mind.

You could die today… One second walking down the street, next? Hit by a car, lying bloody on the side walk. People running and crying, friends you never had saying, “She was so young…”

____________________________

Those are my constant thoughts.

I dont know if anyone else shares …

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How much of a bother…

  May 11th, 2008 by Reeshi

does someone have to be before the world would be better off with out them?

I have five friends. I love them; I would do anything I could to make them happy. I feel this isn’t enough, however. My flawed personality and value isn’t worthy of these people – and they’re aware of it. They have to be. That’s how I feel, anyways.
After all, these are all great people. My friends are kind, funny, smart…

I am insecure, with my friends – I believe that because I am so flawed, I will eventually screw everything up, they will leave and never talk to me again. When they …

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So Very Tired

  May 10th, 2008 by TiredOne

I’m not planning anything right now, just longing for rest and peace from this weary old life. I’m worn out–mentally, physically, emotionally. My brain and endocrine system are broken down, and it’s hard as hell to get any help. And it’s lonely because so few people know what it’s like to be so deeply exhausted and weary.

On my best days, I can put on a smile and can almost care about what’s going on around me. On those days, when I get out around people, I look and act pretty normal. That makes it all the harder for people to understand how little life …

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When Will I Feel Good Again? Where Did I Go Wrong?

  May 10th, 2008 by DyingInside

Basically My Life Story, Reasons For Being Suicidal.

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Hard to describe

  May 9th, 2008 by daerp

I notice that another writer is only 13. I am 60 years old (more than 4 times your age) and have been suicidal in various levels of intensity for the past 3.5 years. Lately I came finally to the realization that I am a jumper. I want to climb a 50 storey building (near our home) which is still under construction. I want to break through late night security. I want to climb all the way to the top. I can feel the air, and I can see the security lights on throughout the as yet unopened building. The smell of wet concrete. The air …

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Will it ever end?

  May 9th, 2008 by monica

I’ve been considering suicide for some time now. Three years to be exact. And the fact that I’m thirteen years old is what scares me the most. I’ve been depressed for so long and im tired of being tired! (in other words, im always about to fall asleep even if i just slept for 20 hours) I took therapy for a while, but then my family couldn’t afford it. My family doesn’t know that I still want to end my life. Basically, I feel like a loser and no one gives a damn about me. Literally, I think the world …

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When you know you are ready

  May 8th, 2008 by gemblon

When you wake up each day, and realize, you don’t want to go through the day.
When you realize, all the wonderful concepts you learned as a child, are wrong.
When you realize the world really is an ugly place, full of people getting what they can.
When you realize you had no training for picking a good mate. So you picked the prettiest.
You paid for picking the prettiest, the rest of your life.
That another man will be raising your kids.
People worship money.

Our stars are jerks. Even Barbara Walters dates married men. And brags about it. She should be shunned. Instead, they all …

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