I Will Survive

I did this, you can too.

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My whole story. . .

April 22nd, 2011by Kai

I’m not gonna say the whole bad things. I’m going to sumerrize my life. Now before I start, I’m a terrible speller, und I’m sorry about that.

I was 12, living in Germany, happy as can be. ‘Til October 21 201o. That was the day, of the accident, the accident. Were my brother Edwen und sister Becca, Mother und Father died in a car accident. I am the only survivor. I moved here in America when I was adopted to this family. But this family is poor, I have 2 siblings. Maxwell, und Emma. Were on foodstamps, were in so much shit right now. When I first moved …

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Me

April 21st, 2011by dntknowme12

I live life day to day ive always been the one to be happy and stay strong for others and be a good friend. I hold in my anger i hold in my thoughts and feelings becasue i fell like theirs not to many that understand i know its bad for the mental state but its the best way for me to cope and deal with things in my life ive had people that have treated my like crap and talked shit but still i say the same becasue its not worth the fight and the argument im learning to grow and speak my mind …

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Eternal Damnation

April 16th, 2011by WithoutADoubt

This is my first and possibly last post. I actually stumbled on to this site not because of suicide, but rather because I’m trying to figure out how to get rid of other self-destructive habits. I bite my nails, scratch at my body and face, and this isn’t even the full extent of it. I was suicidal for a long time for various reasons, and I’m only now coming to realize that even if I get a long pretty well in the world, I still have scars to hide. There are still things that make me cry uncontrollably, but it’s ultimately the most calming thing …

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I Just Couldn’t do it

April 14th, 2011by Dreyy

Today i felt would be a good day to plunge the knife into my heart, i have been in a dark place for so long dating well back into my childhood, years of countless bullying, failure attempts at trying to renew my life and the endless discust of what my mind has now become.

For a long time i blamed the world, i suppose truthfully deep down i still do, though as time has moved on and my 23rd birthday passed me by i slowerly stopped hating the world and instead just accepted maybe i was the broken one. I had lived with the idea of …

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Lizzie

April 11th, 2011by RogueShadow1281

I’m talking to my girlfriend right now on the fone. She sounds so cute and I love her with every passing moment. She makes me feel good. Except she’s a rare drug, (sorry I haven’t slept all night, talking to her on the fone) and She fell asleep. She sounds so cute when she’s asleep :). Too bad when I leave my moms house and I don’t get Internet. I can’t call her and talk to her. I will miss her and my depression will come back. She lives in Fillmore, closely to Six Flags Magic Mountain and that’s like an hour and a half …

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Thank You..

April 9th, 2011by Silent Screamer

I just want to thank you.

I want to thank you for all the comments, the caring.. Everything.

Really,

Thank you.

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Closed Doors.

April 8th, 2011by Latika

Behind these closed doors

i smash everything against the walls

i scream and cry

till it all comes out.

Behind these closed doors

i whisper your name into the darkness

i whimper and hide

till its washed out.

Behind these closed doors

i scratch and rip open myself

i curl up and try

till my hopes no more.

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Just wanted to introduce myself/what’s happened to me

April 6th, 2011by Nickd944

I’m 20 years old, from the UK.  My parents divorced when I was young, maybe 5, but I’ve always had a loving relationship with both of them.  My Dad still loves my mum, and has told me so, but my mum has always spoken badly (to put it mildly) about my dad.  I was too young to know what happened between them, and I don’t like to bring it up, to find out what happened, in case I upset them.  A few years after the divorce, I’m not sure how many exactly, between 4 and 6 years, my brother, who is 13 or 14 years …

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On My Mind..

April 5th, 2011by Silent Screamer

Death is on my mind.

The other side.

Crossing that thin line of life and death.

I just, want to be there.

Its not good. To some people.

Not me.

Why does it seem so, inviting?

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i’ll survive… i geuss

April 4th, 2011by ashes2011

hey, i am 16 years old TODAY!:) happy birthday to me… but i have been really depressed latley and i am hoping that the new year will like, help me start fresh or something. i am ashlie allred, i am 16, and i am a suicide survivor… if i survived through all the shit that i had to go through, then you can too. there is hope… you just ahve to hold on long enough to find it. if you make it that far, then you can go as far as the mind can percieve. i know you can do it, just let go and …

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some inspiration and happiness.

April 4th, 2011by Amofaze

A bit too gloomy here for my taste.

To anyone who thinks they have it bad.

click here.

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I Won’t Quit

April 3rd, 2011by tryingtohangon

I used to think that I should just give up and quit. To be honest, that was all of five minutes ago. I was ready to break down and die, leaving everything and everyone I tried to support alone. I mean, I was supporting my family, my boyfriend, myself, just a lot of people. I felt like the only person who even bothered to support me was God. I was ready to give up everything I had worked for and just lay down and die. Instead, I mustered up my courage and called a crisis hotline. I didn’t want them to call an ambulance (I …

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I’m back???

April 2nd, 2011by RogueShadow1281

I don’t know if I feel better or not. School, I’m failing most, if not all, of my classes, but I’m happy that I finally have a girlfriend. Except I am preoccupied by the fact she’s kinda chubby. But I still love her. Lizzie, she’s still cute, but sometimes I want someone hotter, but I’m human, I think? So, my depression is almost gone, comes very rarely, but all I want to do is go with my cousin jasmine, because she has a bf now, Im worried because the idiot thinks losing your virginity with someone means you love them. He’s a guy, I’m a …

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Try and try again

March 30th, 2011by titan.knight

I feel like my life is limited. I have to suffer things that only few people have to go through.epilepsy. But in a way, I’m lucky. I have only the slight version, while others have to suffer worse kinds than I have too. CImbibed with epilepsy, I have to go through pain induced seizures. So today, I was just under so much stress. I was tired, didn’t get any sleep last night, and at the end of the day, I had a sharp pain in my stomach. On a scale of 1 through 10, it was a four. So not that bad. But because of

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Want, but can’t…

March 29th, 2011by GypsyGene

It’s one of those mornings. I haven’t slept at all, and I should be at school. I can’t even be bothered to take a shower, despite the odor in my bedroom. I only leave my room to eat, piss, shit, or to grab a smoke. The last couple of months, I’ve been tying and untying a noose every other night. Some nights, I get as far as standing on a chair, with the damn thing around my neck, ready to jump. Then, panic and the instinct of self-preservation kicks in.

The thing is; I’m not sad. I don’t feel depressed. I don’t want to cry. I’m …

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dealing with the loss of my father and brother

March 29th, 2011by jjalkaline

the thoughts never subside, and he still haunts me.

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To those who think they are alone in pain.

March 29th, 2011by Latika

To all of you who have experienced heart ache, disappointment, abuse in multiple forms, and raised in drug centered families. I know you. Not personally, but emotionally. I was suicidal since I was  a toddler, but at that point my actions weren’t consider to be that of a depressed child. Doctors said I was just a frustrated child with pent up energy because i wanted to hurt everyone, including myself. I was too young to realize what it is i felt and why.

Growing up my dad wasn’t there, mom said he was a work-aholic, while he says she was a drug addict. Both were true. …

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Olive Eyes

March 29th, 2011by Latika

Oh, olive eyes of drowning seas!

Please, don’t stare

with such intensity…

The hurt and pain,

the endless guilt

that those soothing eyes

soon smolder silt.

Heat and passion

ask such a toll,

calling for my endless role

in hate, fear, and desperation

Relinquishing my compensation.

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Motherhood

March 28th, 2011by Latika

They never knew

and never saw

the endless fear

engulfing us all.

A fear that stuck

and stained like ink,

rich with worry,

lies and deceit.

She lied to me

and also to you,

knowing we were all

just empty fools.

Willing to ignore,

forget, and abuse

that happiness she once knew.

She gave and gave,

while i just took.

A little fool

who was easily shook.

She finally gave

one last time,

but instead gave herself

that bloody …

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i’m nothing

March 28th, 2011by seespoombah

I have been depressed since the 9th grade, and I’m 21 now. It really blows. I think about killing myself often. I honestly don’t know how I am still alive

I got in a pretty bad car accident in January, but I didn’t die. I didn’t even get hurt. I felt bad then, because the night before I had been thinking about killing myself…I didn’t do it on purpose

I’m an awful person. My therapist tells me otherwise and logically, I know it’s not true, but I can’t help believing it.

I don’t have many friends. I used to have some friends, but now I’m living at home …

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