I Will Survive

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Of dilated pupils.

December 18th, 2010by marlajade

the punch is shit. I dont wanna be at this party any more. I want my old friends [these boys and girls are slaves][ifeel like throwing up]. I want to collapse and wake up in hospital. At least one of these people will drive me there, right. If i die in public, its murder. The police will say it was drug related, and place blame. That I was a normal happy party girl, sucking cock on MDMA. [which was my fairly broken way of showing affection]. I like it when my pupils dilate. at four in the morning . The nurse shines a light in …

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i am black silk sticky taste

December 17th, 2010by marlajade

Yeh pretty much the whole world has fucked up since you left.

My own mother hates me[find me].

I am black silk cigarette smoke. tarnished sticky suicide addict. I refuse to move. I cant breath. I cant understand these people. and lets face it why would I. I havent washed in ten days. My hair is greasy. I’m unemployed. I cut it off some weeks ago, so its not like, getting in my tired face or anything. I sleep all day.  [pretend to be dead girl cause the woman inside is dying to leave]. In New York the temperature is three degrees below zero. Maybe i tried …

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Journal Entry #3: December 15th 2010

December 15th, 2010by hollydaze

Today has been interesting, I’m in a funny mood. I just got home from school and had oatmeal with banana and cinnamon and vanilla yogurt in it, It was really good. I feel very full now, and I ate lunch today as well, I had a rice cake, two crackers, and some carrots and some pumpkin seeds, not too much, but filling.

Im afraid, I have work in about an hour, and I don’t want to binge, I binge at work usually, and it helps the time go by faster, but it ruins my day. I dont know how to control it. I work at a …

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Journal Entry #2: December 14th 2010

December 14th, 2010by hollydaze

Today I have decided to do this first,

Today is kinda my relaxed day. I dont have work, so I most likely wont binge, my 21 year old sister is coming home and I only have one thing I must do, which is read fifth business, the whole book, for tomorrow.

I woke up this morning late, and was late for first period, I had english and presented a project that I had no idea what I was talking about, it was on The Scarlet Letter, which is probably the most boring book I have ever read other than Fifth Business.

After I had Leadership, and I was …

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journal entry #1 Dec. 13/10

December 13th, 2010by hollydaze

I found this website while feeling quite depressed this afternoon, it was not a good day: I fucked up my antidepressants and I need somewhere to vent, so this will be my kind-of blog, or journal, somewhere where others can read it, or they can keep living their lives.

Today was a tough day. I live in a quite elite aria, where social status is everything and money is important. I am one of the more popular people at my highschool, and I am in grade 11. Im a quite good student and achieve around an 80% average every semester.

I have bulimia, which has transformed into …

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SCREW THIS LETS ACTUALLY DO SOMETHING!!!!!!!

December 13th, 2010by satans_princess

On here we all talk about how this place has helped us so much and how these people uderstand us. we should start an organization. With all these people on here it could spread so FAST! help people see tha light come out of he dark and make bliss seem more reachable.

ifyou think it’s a good idea and would like to help me ge this going email me at:

rosealcorn@live.com

the more the better!

lets make a diffrence!

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Sunshine after the rain.

December 12th, 2010by betterthings2come

Hi i’m a 25 year old female living in Australia since the age of two. I write this post for everyone but particularly for those young teens out there who feel helpless and alone and feel that the only way it is a self inflicted death, please read on…
I was born in a third world latin american country from parents who survived war and famine. I was blessed to have been brought here and forever greatful I will be. A year after coming to Australia my dad suffered a horrific work accident that left him physically and mentally scarred for life. He became a monster …

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What should I do?

December 11th, 2010by bookies

Ok, I’m not depressed all the time, in fact I am pretty optimistic about life. However, I have times when I want to die- seriously die. I have seriously contemplated suicide for more than two years, but as the years go on, more and more work and stress are put on me. I have considered hanging myself or jumping off a building many times, and was at the potential suicide sites (places I could die, not any special place, but just where I was sure I would die if I hanged myself or jumped off, without anyone interfereing) just because I wanted to die. I …

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Then end to my new begining

December 10th, 2010by skylerl817

My whole life I was the fuck upp my parents were and still are crazyy but they are still here for me. Except for the fact my dad has ms and is disabled and he has been married 7 times. My mom has been married 2. I know your probably thinking why are you writing a story about how good your life is?! Well itt all fell down the drain I lived my life in a kid body with the responsibility of an adult I raised myself basically from 12 till now and FYI I’m 17 I know Im still young but nvm my age, …

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I have it all but it’s not enough in Sunny California

December 9th, 2010by thexwolf

I’m  33/Hispanic/male in Southern California. I’ve always done good and people say I got it better than most. I worked for the same company from 21-30 years old and made good money, then I got my DREAM job. Although things are slow because of the economy, I know pretty soon things are going to get better. I work in the international cargo trade industry. And although I have good friends and family, buy nice things and go out pretty often, I’ve never felt whole. I feel so sad, so often, as is i’ve missed something good by mere moments. I wish all people were good and …

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I Love You

November 27th, 2010by Emo_Elmo

my fiancé saved my life. I’ll love him forever.

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Over and Over agian

November 21st, 2010by sayummm

I find little comfort these days. I am only 19 but I have thought about killing myself for years. I think I  was 11 the first time  I have thought about it, but my parents told me since I was four I have always said things like I wish I was dead or I want to die. So I guess I have always thought about it. I have never tried because I know deep down I couldn’t do it to my mom and my dad how terrible would that be. But the thought has over taken so many that it scares me that one day …

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If you want to talk, I’m here.

November 20th, 2010by avriel

am here to talk

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Worth Loving

November 19th, 2010by Gorilla Biscuits

I see a lot of young people posting on this site, venting their frustrations at the world that seems cruel and callous to them.  I’m not much older, I’m only 21, but I’ve survived multiple suicide attempts and dealt with self harm issues both physical and mental.

It seems trite, especially when talking about suicide to say, ‘stick through it, it’ll be better soon,’ but often that is the case.  Depression makes us myopic.  Depression and dark thoughts stop us being able to see beyond the next painful day of humiliation at school, the next day of living without a recent – or not so recent …

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someone to truely care :(

November 12th, 2010by jareth1slipknot7

i’m new to this ive never really told many about my problems but i really have noone to talk to about it so why not to other people who may can help or care. well im 20 year old male who i think im gay ….well now it started i believe in middle school i was never a happy person growing up although i didnt have a bad childhood i was tubby sorta but i knew many people i somehow got so scared of people i developed social anxiety disorder which i struggle with still today i remember staying out of claases going to take …

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Will things ever be the same?

November 9th, 2010by LosT.in.This.World

well lets see… my name is Eric. i’ve never really had good social skills throughout my life i’ve always been the more quiet type who needs a little extra motivation to come out and talk to people. Im 16 years old, im on the high school wrestling team, i have a good amount of friends i could say, im not bad looking but i have always been very self consious about myself with small things such as not being very tall (5’5″) , having bony wrists and being rather slender due to my metabolism, and some minor acne that just wont seem to go away …

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A different philosophy wants death.

October 31st, 2010by Ijustwannaknow1

Hi, firstly this is no my first language, so I’ll may have mistakes, anyway; I’m feeling suicidal right now, but sadly I feel stupid trying to suicide, first thing: I have a very good life, and second thing: I don’t want to; so what I think that’s because I’m alone;but I have a lot of friends, so I’m sure you’re asking why I want to suicide, this is fun; I never tell everyone the truth, but I’m exploding; I’m a zoophile, and I feel quite bad because I got in-love with a animal that’s far away of me; far, far, really far; I only want …

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I hope…

October 26th, 2010by almostthere

So today is day 1, I think…  I told my boyfriend yesterday that I need help, because I want to die.  I don’t know, he was busy or something, and told me no you don’t, lets go to the cinema, the kids are waiting (his kids not mine by the way).  So after that, the day got worse.  I went to visit my parents, and was feeling better, until my partner came to pick me up, he told me he likes visiting my parents as my mom knows how to “deal with me”

By the time I got home last night I was ready, I wanted …

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Find a Way

October 24th, 2010by loreildarksky

I’ve been suicidal and depressed for years. But now I think I may have a way to start healing.

My mom just brought home a kitten, and we’re going to try and save it. It’s so tiny… I want to help it, to grow.

I think having this little kitten may be the thing I need, because it’s a purpose. I never had one before.

If you’re suicidal, maybe you should consider getting a pet and raising it. At least try it once.

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seventeen

October 21st, 2010by thegirlwhostoppedtheworld

saturday is my 17th birthday. . . i honestly am surprised. . i am happy at last. . it is amazing to have finally found people who love me and who i love. . its out there for everyone, if anybody needs to talk im here. . im real. . i have made it.

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