I Will Survive

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Goodbye life

  March 12th, 2011 by What the hell happened to me

I’m going to kill myself. I don’t know when. I don’t know how but Im going to end this. I just have to write it all down for my 2 sisters that I’m not related too. That’s all that’s keeping me here now. I was religionish before but god’s gone silent.

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Maybe this isn’t the answer

  March 12th, 2011 by Quiet.Star

Life’s a *****. I know that, yet I still sat on my ass and hoped for change. Life’s a harsh mistress and shows no mercy; yet I recently learned I want to live. Watching the images of the tragedy in Japan makes me realize how lucky I am regardless of how shitty my life is now. I think I’m going to become an activist or journalist; it’s the only way to repay the kindness I’ve recieved here on SP is to persevere through obstacles, excel in life, and help others in need.

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Leave me out with the waste.

  March 6th, 2011 by lixie

Now, I’ve heard by many that if you write a diary, you get your thoughts sorted out on paper, and you can look at it afterwards, and it’s supposed to be good therapy.

So this will be my diary.

Today I felt really happy. My favourite football-team won against a rival that they haven’t beaten for a long time.
I smiled, I laughed.

Now I’m unhappy, and keep finding excuses not to cut myself, although I haven’t cut in almost 2 years now. I wanna cry, cuz I think maybe that will release some of the stress I’m getting because of this.
But I’m broken. I can’t cry. I’ve been …

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Value of Life

  March 6th, 2011 by Heldogtertjie

I was planning to commit suicide for quite some time. And on the 17th of February 2011 I decided that it was time. I arrived at college at about 13:00, just before my class started and told my friend I was going to the bathroom. I sat on the toilet and took a handful of my anti depressants with some alcohol.
When I noticed it wasn’t acting quickly enough, I decided to cut my jugular with the blade of an NT cutter. All this time my friend got pretty worried about why I was taking so long, so he asked the receptionist, who was sitting outside, …

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Demise

  February 27th, 2011 by RogueShadow1281

My demise… I wish there was something I could do to be remembered, but I am just lost. I wasted so much precious time playing video games, going to school, all that crap. That doesn’t mean I’m already past all that. I’m still wasting time. Wish I could go down with a bang, but I won’t, unless I suicide with a pistol of some sort. Hopefully a Colt… Or maybe a Revolver, just so my neighbor will remember how his favorite gun killed someone he knows. Ha, anyways I want to live and die fighting. I want to lead an army of outcasts(or some army) …

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Suicide

  February 25th, 2011 by Kizzy

When I don’t take my Meds I lose track of my myself. I sink in to a depression. The darkness takes over. All I can think of is my demons. All the mistakes I’ve made, the people I’ve hurt, those who I’ve lost are stuck in my head. The memories replaying again and again until I want to die.

I hate all those how rant about how suicide is a sin. I think they just fear death and that makes them feel weak. They hide their weakness behind walls of hate.

Suicide is not a sin. It is not a weakness. It takes strength to do. So many times I have …

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I’m so lost.[rant]

  February 24th, 2011 by LessWorse

I feel hopeless. I’ve known about this site for awhile and I tend to use it to help myself out of my bind. Mostly, I read some posts and if I get the nerve I’ll … rant. It seems theraputic, and after almost a dozen ‘strangers’ emailed me when I choked on a bottle of sleeping pills… Well, only a select few would bother emailing. And I mean a select few were honestly being supportive and so I reciprocated. Its overwhelming, but it was awesome. Unfortunately, this is a scar in my spirit, so it will literally never go away. Memory is like that. And …

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When the mind can hold no more…

  February 22nd, 2011 by TranslucentMuse

I just wanted to share this…I know I am not perfect and although I think of suicide all day long, and fantasise about how I will do it, and though I can almost taste the sweet rest I long for…I know I will survive this. And one day, I will be happy. Not the fake phony kind of happiness…but the kind that all of you have ever dreamed of like me. And I hope that together we will all see this day. I wrote this a year ago. I still feel this way every waking day of my life and I am still fighting.  I

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i fell in love

  February 21st, 2011 by loveinrain

today i fell inlove with my brothers bestfriend, not because hes cute or smart, or ive known him since i was 4 years old. but i fell in love with him as a person. because he is wonderful. kristian you saved me today because you saw and never judged, you helped and never asked and i have never felt closer to anyone in my life before, i fell in love with you and im proud to say that you showed me ther is a light, you just have to get to it. by just seeing me you saved me from myself because before you said …

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We all have the choice

  February 17th, 2011 by Tina Bryan

Surviving suicide

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a glimpse of hope

  February 9th, 2011 by apfriedm

I have just recently found this website. I navigated around on it a little and decided to make an account. For now I don’t want to share my full story but maybe one that will help bring at least a little hope to some people out there.

Ever since I was younger I had depression issues. I remember the times where the worst when I was probably in 8th or 9th grade. It got to the point where I would play games with myself, I convinced myself that no one cared about me and therefor my existence was pointless. I would go to school and actually …

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  February 5th, 2011 by notoveryet

Can you lable what I have become?

I am everything you know shouldn’t be

Watch me, as I slip further

Can you see the emptiness ahead?

If your rope could reach me, would you pull me in?

Observe me in this ocean of despair

Am I a waste of flesh and bone?

An existence of suffering is not a life

I am but Dead wood drifting away

Falling further behind the pack

This runner is out of the race

Don’t look back as I fade away.. A loser from the start

To push on through this purgatory

Leave this pain and emptiness

Onwards,  the other side of mystery and uncertainty awaits

Fear and anxiety won’t alter my course

As nothing unknown …

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tit smacker

  January 21st, 2011 by marlajade

you must be three hundred feet high. it must be the

lonliest place in the city. so open. buzzing with

industrial noises. human traffic. delivery vehicles

hundreds of miles from their destination. three cars

parked above the city. somewhere where the owner

thought nobody would break in. i dont break in. i

wanna break free. this so called life in this so

called city or anywhere. youd think that the buzzing

would notice me but it doesnt. i could have

swallowed paracetamol. or aspirin. or sliced my

wrists instead of my legs. but i didnt. i chose to

find you. up so high. high in your so called

acceptance. of friendship and money and shadows and

god. of …

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It gets better

  January 13th, 2011 by lolabirdie

I’m just trying to give a little hope

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My Story and My Dreadfull Life..

  January 13th, 2011 by Dead Like Me

Sooo this is my story i live with my mother father 5 brothers and 3 sisters..i know big family but really annoying yea so back to me i always love drawing its soo peacefull and awsome and it calms me down from all the drama im going thru but the truth is my mother and father are a bunch of dam retards they annoy me everysingle day amd they never shut up today in school a bunch of my papaers of my drwings fell down and the one i hate the most stepped on them i was reall mad.sigh plus when i get home my parents nag me …

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If you need someone to talk to or want to help others, read me.

  January 13th, 2011 by hollywood1919

I am not a psychologist, or a doctor, or a social worker, or any of that. But I’ve been through enough sh*t in my life to know what it’s like when you think you have nowhere else to turn, and you think it is time everything should end.

If you want advice, or just someone to talk to, I am here. You can also email me at cutecopper19@hotmail.com, or IM me on AIM: artzygrl1919.

If you would like to let others know that you are here and they can talk to you when they need help, comment on this and reply “I am here to talk and …

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i just need strength

  December 29th, 2010 by heartbroken18

so yeah here goes, okay I’ve just turned 18 days ago, had the worst Christmas ever. I’m not here for sympothy or anything like that i just need to tell my story. Well i haven’t had a bad life, I’ve a mummy and family who i love but they just don’t understand, well enough off my rambling. 12th of June – the day i met HIM. I was at a concert and it was just by chance that we met, we were strangers, litterally bumped into eachother…we just got talking you know just asked where he was from his age(17) you know just small talk …

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the vicious cycle…

  December 28th, 2010 by mylo

hey i’m (mylo) and i have been diagnosed with clinical depression and ocd, and suffer greatly from them daily. its a constant bother and can become horrible especially when one disorder feeds the other.

the disorders interfere with my life to the point that i’ve used numerous legal, prescription, and illegal drugs to feel relief from them and am medicated with effexor 75mg and risperidone .5mg daily. i’ve also had a history of suicide attempts ranging from overdose to wrist-cutting. i feel like i can’t really live a normal life. i have very few friends and constantly get in trouble with my family because of the …

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You are not alone.

  December 27th, 2010 by NeverGiveUp4

Im a 13 year girl. I live in Puerto Rico. I go to school. My Family: Mom, Dad, Brother(older)and my grandparents(divorced)ect… My Mission is helping other that have been through the same pain, anger, hatred, and sadness which that cause Depression or Suicide Attempts. The most important thing is to reach them out and say ”Never Give Up” because you are not alone, If you need someone to talk to, to hear you, I’ll be here. Remember ”Never Give Up”

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Journal Entry: 10/18/2007

  December 27th, 2010 by hollywood1919

10/18/2007 2:45 pm

There are 3 reasons why I haven’t tried it yet:

a) I wouldn’t really know how

b) I’m afraid it won’t work

c) I’m afraid I’m gonna miss out a reason to stay alive.

I’m not afraid to die. I’m afraid to live.

Looking back:

That night in my junior year is when I almost committed suicide. I took a 2″ wide sewing ribbon, looped it around the top of my closet door, and tried to hang myself. But I didn’t expect it to work, it scared me that it would have. Something stopped me and made me step off the chair and go to bed. I guess I …

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