I did this, you can too.
To many people, my life seems like a fairytale. I have an adorable boy friend, get straight A’s, have friends, have an okay family, and nice clothes. Countless people tell me I am beautiful but that doeskin make up for the haters who call me names and say im “easy and slutty” every day. I’m only 12 and I have had 5 boy friends. 3 of them were serious boyfriends and we went our for 3 or more months. I fell for them so easily and i regret doing that. My current boyfriend flirts with girls all day but says im “the only one who matters to him”. I don’t believe him, but i keep him around because I feel lost without him. My grades are basically the only thing that I feel proud about and I try to do anything to keep them in the A range, and recently they started getting worse and it tore me down so much I couldn’t believe myself, and I finally got them back up to A’s. My friends have started turning away when I want help and no body even understands how I feel anymore. I have more people who hate me than people that love me. My family life sucks. My brother smokes marijuana and I am depressed because of HIM. He doesn’t seem to notice and he could probably care less about me. My mom doesn’t trust me and I don’t get along with my dad. My Grandpa died a few months ago and I feel lost all the time now that he’s gone and I feel like I didn’t spend enough time with him and I absolutely hate myself for that . No one loves me. My clothes, everyone loves them. They don’t understand it either. I pay for all my clothes with my own money, my parents don’t support me very much. I’m only 12, and they treat me like im 18 and leave me to do a lot for myself. My life consists of worrying about my weight, and I get crushed when I step on that scale and break down every time. I’m 120 pounds and only 5′ 1″. Some adults weigh the same as me and are over 5 inches taller. I don’t understand. I try to tell my mom I’m depressed and she tells me to stop overreacting and suck it up and im not overwieght,or ugly.I’m fine. I feel like everything bad happens to me and I want to die but I would never let myself commit suicide. I’m too young and I thought things could change. I’m starting to think they never will change and no one cares anymore but I can’t kill myself. I dont have the nerve to do that. Please help, I need someone to talk to.
-I will survive. </3