My Suicide Note

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The perfect suicide method

January 8th, 2014by Engeltje

Everyday I feel worse, but there are days that I feel really really bad. Like today. I constantly think about suicide, which is driving me crazy, because somewhere I know I’m not able to die, no matter how badly I’ll try. But still I’m searching all over the web to find ‘the perfect suicide method’, but I know somewhere that ‘the perfect suicide method’ doesn’t exist. But still I’m searching for it (man, i feel like an idiot now). No, my suicideplan isn’t completed yet, but in days like these, my suicideplan gets completer and completer, which actually gives me rest.

I haven’t found ‘the …

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A metaphor for my life…

January 6th, 2014by johnwhogivesashit

If my life were a video game. I would be playing halo on legendary only to spend 30 minutes trying to beat “the library” 5 levels of nonstop killing and traps up back and front in under 30 only to get killed by the last shit enemy and 1 step and second from the finsh. Round 1000 here we go. Eventually you give up and throw the xbox through your flat screen. Or you kill yourself. I’ll probably just kill myself soon and save all the supense. Why hope. Why try again. The game kinda sucks after a while anyway.

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Who said it was a rose garden?

January 5th, 2014by HealingInHisWings

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Don’t give up!!!!!

How will this little pain you feel compare to ETERNITY?

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IN LOVING MEMORY OF MY RACHEL BAER

January 5th, 2014by bryan higgins

dream catcher <3

I DONT KNOW WHERE TO GO FROM HERE.

IT ALL USED TO BE SO CLEAR..

IM FINDING  I CANT DO THIS ON MY OWN.

AS LONG AS I KNOW THAT YOU ARE NEAR…

IM DONE FIGHTING THIS WORLD

.. IM FINALLY LETTING GO.

..I WILL TRUST IN YOU..

YOUVE NEVER FAILED ME  BEFORE….

.I WILL TRUST IN YOU…

IF THERES A  PATH I SHOULD WALK ….                                                       HELP ME FIND IT..

..IF I NEED TO BE STILL,

GIVE ME PEACE FOR THE MOMENT

BEFORE MY DEATH   ……

..AND MY RE BIRTH TO

MY REAL JOURNEY ..

..IN SRIRIT….

.FOR EVERY STEP YOU TAKE ..

YOU WERE NEVER ALONE…

.EVEN WHEN WE WALK IN THE VALLEY OF SHADOWS AND DEATH…

…. I …

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Its going to happen soon Goodbye world

January 4th, 2014by Solitude

I honestly hate myself more than someone could ever do 🙁 Why did i have to be born in this place and body , why do i have to suffer so much. I am not a normal person anymore, my body is starting to slowly die. I am pale and always cold, i dont go out anymore , all i do is lock myself in my dark room and barely eat anything. I am scared that it will hurt when i do it, but i decided that there is nothing left for me.

I hate looking myself at the mirror , it just reminds me of …

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I’m a monster

January 4th, 2014by smelting

Surely some people deserve to die – like me. I’m a monster.

I did some terrible things. I hurt people more than anyone could believe. It’s not possible to fix any of it.

Most would want to see me die in prison.

I’ve chosen suicide because the pain is too much.

I wish my parents had taught me about the world. I wish I had had friends who loved me.

I blame myself and I blame them.

Knowing that Hitler and other evil people killed themselves gives me some comfort.

I must be lonely to want to have fellowship with other evil spirits.

 

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And so it ends.

January 1st, 2014by IslaIsDamned

I’m not entirely sure why I’m bothering to do this but I reckon I owe the tiny bit of the world I know an explanation. By the time anyone notices I’m gone (and I hope it takes a reaaally long time.) and reads this, I’ll be swimming with the fishes or gracing a page of the rag as one unidentified female whose tobacco tainted blood has slowly coagulated on the sidewalk. Somehow, I’ve always known this day would come. Perhaps even before I was fully aware of the concept of death, I’ve always had this feeling that I’m not like other people, that I was …

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another year of zero karing but …

January 1st, 2014by YESCHUkrist

PSYOP’ZX

 

 

JUST DONT KNOW Y IAM HERE IF IAM THE PURPOSE > NOT SURE Y THIS DONT END BECUS IM SICK OF BEING A CONTARD TO EVERAE AND NOAE…………

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Can’t say I didn’t try.

December 31st, 2013by _L

Tried it all: talking, counseling, therapy, asked my doctor what meds would work best since many could practically cripple me (he still hasn’t gotten back to me). No matter what I do, I see everything and everyone as less than perfect and therefore a burden to the universe and everything in it.

…I think too much. New lesson, kiddies: don’t think. It’ll do things to you.

Anyways yeah. Would a 20ft drop head-first be enough to kill me?

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2B or Not 2B….???? The Fight Goes on…&on…&on

December 31st, 2013by abbastanza

Thanks 4 the welcome-was intrigued and saddened by some of your stories-I wanted to especially thank you all for your openness-nothing like Xmas & the New Year to bring up the same old same old same old——what the hell is the point of me  staying 1 more minute on this benighted planet???? a burden to the Health/mental health/& social welfare systems – I am lucky enough to live in a country that provides that for useless people like me. the last month has been almost totally unbearable. I totally understand what everyone says here- & its so nice to be able to say that here …

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Need encouragement for suicide.

December 31st, 2013by _L

I am writing to seek help committing suicide.
I have a very black-and-white personality. Either all or nothing.
Either good or bad. Either something is or it is not. There is no
middle ground. By itself this is not such a bad thing, but I also have
had on-off depression since 2nd grade (I’m now in 9th) which has been
constant in the past few weeks. I see everything as pathetic and
everyone as awful. If it is fair to say that for most, good and bad is
like a scale, hoping the good outweighs the bad, for me it is like a
drop of bad dye in a glass of good water: …

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3:05 am

December 30th, 2013by hellblau

I wish I could tell how I feel, I wish I could let someone in. I’m on the mix of loneliness and illness, I miss talking to the person I used to know. And I’m not gonna lie, it could be hide inside, but a part of me still wants you. The other part is telling me to let you at “platonic love”. Cause I know you and I will never be. It’s hard and it’s wasting me. I’m slowly losing this fight. The fight against myself. Eventually I will give up, as my mind sometimes does. If you look deep inside you maybe you’ll …

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December 30th, 2013by hellblau

I wonder why Before I met him, I would dance in the shower. When he was in my life, I would think about showering with him. After he left, I would sit on the ground in the shower and cry. When I got over him, I showered so quickly there was no time for dancing, fantasies or tears. Someone can invade the smallest part of your life, you won’t even realise it, until you dance in the shower again, and wonder why you ever stopped.

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my girlfriend left me and I don’t feel I can live anymore

December 30th, 2013by kingdomFife

My girlfriend broke up with me about 2 and a bit months ago and I’m really struggling to carry on living. Our 3 year anniversary was December 11th and she left in October, I had just spent a months wage on taking her out for her birthday to a nice hotel etc and then when I saw her 3 days later she spoke about breaking up. The week she broke up with me I was made redundant at work, it was the anniversary of the death of someone who was like my big brother, it was a week or two before my own birthday and …

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Sorry…

December 28th, 2013by unsocialfreak

I feel the need to say sorry.

I’m sorry for all the pain I have caused you.

I’m sorry for ever letting you into my secret life of despair as I have tainted your happy life with my depression.

I’m sorry for ever thinking you’d care about me.

I’m sorry for barging into your life.

I’m sorry for not being there for you when you were there for me.

I’m sorry for the way I treated you, as my diary.

I’m sorry for thinking I’m the only person with problems not realising that we were both facing the same issues.

I’m sorry for becoming so sad all the time, ruining any chances of …

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need an solution

December 28th, 2013by darkclouds

Daily i wish i could find a way to kill myself. Tired of this life. You trust people with all your heart and they end up back stabbing you. You lose hope from humanity. There is nothing that can give you hopes to survive. I have put all my heart my life on a person. fought with my parents ignored my friends and at the end now i am left here all alone. I cant explain to people what happened and why. He still comes to me to say he cares but he likes someone else. tricky.. i get hopes and and then next minute …

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The Burden Has Lifted

December 28th, 2013by kurdt kobian

I’ve been spending the last few days with relatives. You know, for the holidays. I gotta say I’ve been having fun. Maybe it’s because the burdens of my MDD feel lighter. It’s quieted because I’ve accepted my suicide. I’m happier because I know in about two weeks I’m going to be gone. I know this happiness can’t last and once they leave it’ll all be back. But I’m at peace with my decision. I’m just happy to be done with the world and my failure of a life.

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Final Words

February 5th, 2013by HunterNightshade

I have been holding on for too long and I am slipping. I have no one up top to reach down and grab me, pull me up; and I have no one to catch me when I fall. I was once on the edge now I am dangling and ready to fall. I thought I could handle the weight of the world, fight on towards my future until the day I die. But I can’t. The world is depressing even-though there is so much fun around. I am so heart-broken even though I have friends, family, and a boyfriend who love me dearly. You may …

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