My Suicide Note

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What else is there to say or do.

January 27th, 2014by ivy.seashell

I dont want to die. I dont want to live. I’m terrified of it all. I’m conflicted, i’m incomplete and I’m suffocating with this desperate need to be loved and yet I do not trust or accept a single persons love.

How do you live when youve lost the desire to live but are haunted by the things you need??

How do you live with emotions that were never tended to.. such important steps that were ignored. I’m in pain and i’m empty. I am exhausted of this world. I’m 20 years old, 21 in march. I’m a light skinned female with, ive been told, attractive lips, …

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I like being alone

January 27th, 2014by hellblau

I like being alone, I like when I have my own.

I can think enough to talk to myself,

But not enough to forget how I felt.

He still remains on my mind,

Like I can’t take him apart.

I like being alone, cause I can talk to him,

I can hear his voice on my head, telling a verse,

but somehow I forget,

How to make him go away.

 

 

27/01/14

9:23 pm

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2k14

January 27th, 2014by youwouldntrealise

havent been on here since last year. I’ve been to hell and back

i want people to know they can email me if they need someone to talk to or advice.

naomirogers1996@yahoo.co.uk

 

xo

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My suicide story.

January 26th, 2014by Generic Nobody

I don’t know, I’m bored. I slept all day. I have nothing to do. So I guess I’ll tell you my story. I’ve been cutting for 4 years now, it started out as something small. Just one cut, then two cuts, and then before I knew it I was cutting all the way up my arm and on my legs and thighs and my stomach. It’s now an addiction. Wether I’m feeling shitty or not. I need to cut. I want to cut. But I’ve tried suicide multiple times, I’ve chickened out a couple times, I’ve failed a couple times. But I woke up one …

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long story

January 26th, 2014by Ch3rryb36r

sister became rebellious. i got punished for her actions. moved away to another counrty. dad didnt come with. got bullied at school. girls acted like friends but stole from mw.  i switch schools the nwxt year. sister rebells smokes weed and does stuff with a boy. mom hates me . she hits us , and makes us do everything by ourselves. its like we have no mom. at school no one stalks to me for months they think im emo.  everything okay for awhile. dad comes home. spends 20000 dolars all of our savingz. on a lady he cheatdd on my mom multiple times including …

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very long story. plz read

January 26th, 2014by Ch3rryb36r

sister became rebellious. i got punished for her actions. moved away to another counrty. dad didnt come with. got bullied at school. girls acted like friends but stole from mw.  i switch schools the nwxt year. sister rebells smokes weed and does stuff with a boy. mom hates me . she hits us , and makes us do everything by ourselves. its like we have no mom. at school no one stalks to me for months they think im emo.  everything okay for awhile. dad comes home. spends 20000 dolars all of our savingz. on a lady he cheatdd on my mom multiple times including …

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Why?

January 24th, 2014by hellblau

I’ve been so close to almost call him or text him saying that I love him, so much. That I miss him so much. I thought that being drunk would help me to do that, cause I get more sensible, thought that would help me to do it by impulse, but not even drunk I can. I’m such a coward and I’m so fucking afraid.

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May Join a Suicide Pact

January 23rd, 2014by Pbsmurderer

Give me a valid reason to live and I wont go, simple as that. Please don’t give me that “You’re family and friends will miss you” bullshit. All my family is dead, all my friends left me, there is no one who loves me or cares  about me. Do you understand why I’m so bitter? Fuck living, I’ve had enough of this shit! All my life has been pain! My parents beating the shit out of me and molesting me, all my ” friends” making fun of me, I’m glad my family is dead! I’m glad I have no friends, all people do is hurt …

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i just don’t understand

January 21st, 2014by bye_bye

i don’t get it. why am i not good enough? why does he not tell me he’s cheating. he is. i know he is. he knows i know, so just admit it. why can’t i break up with him? he was supposed to be my sanctuary. now he’s my pain. i can’t go or be anywhere with him because i know what he’s doing. this sucks. can’t i get some peace? happiness? should i leave? it’d probably better – for both of us. he could be with the person he wants to be with. he won’t have to worry about hurting me. he can be …

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Hello, nice to meet you…

January 20th, 2014by zeldaxlover24

Hi, my name is Dallas, nice to meet you.

I’ve got a secret to tell you, but first, you must hear my story

I am 15 years young. “I’m fine” is my favorite thing to say. I bet you’re a bit like me. I’ve dealt with depression, anxiety, insomnia, and minor PTSD. They’ve treated me like a lab rat. I’ve been on almost every psych medicine you could possibly think of. I’ve been hospitalized 20+ times in the past two and a half years, because people freak out. I’ve been to 2 residential placements, Valle Vista and Allendale. Have you heard of them? …

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Unyielding Sorrow

January 20th, 2014by lilbird

Something akin to a smoker with no cigarettes

a junky with no junk

My soul is unsatiated, a hollow heart for a friend.

This pain is ongoing, unending, unyielding, unceasing

Carving away at an already empty vessel.

If this body could lie down and never awake

If this soul could fly up and out and on

Into the darkness

The vast darkness.

There is comfort in an enveloping never ending darkness

A place with no pain.

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???kontard’z

January 20th, 2014by YESCHUkrist

ME OPS????fed up with refelctional frens(acts like ur therpist of sleeps ell except u to set u  up with someobodi compley wrong for u)/karoolivigians(wutevre it is u like coming to suemthing …)… I JUST WISH I EXISTED IN SUMBD,IS HEART….

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My one, and only, post

January 20th, 2014by Silverbird

Since my ‘time’ has finally come, its only suitable that I contribute something back to this site after reading however many posts over the past few months. Months, that’s quite a long time from my perspective, when I don’t even remember what happened a few days ago (I’m sure it was the same nothingness that every day of my life is). In an attempt to not make this dwell on for too long I’ll try and cut it short…it is the internet after all:

TL;DR: Dead now, shotgun-to-backOfThroat

As far as my childhood goes, I had a few friends here and there, got upset relatively often (like …

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Christopher Mccandless aka Alexander Supertramp

January 18th, 2014by HealingInHisWings

Many of you guys have heard about this guy…  There was a book and movie written about him…  “Into the Wild”:

  • Christopher Johnson McCandless was an American hiker who adopted the alias Alexander Supertramp and ventured into the Alaskan wilderness in April 1992 with little food and equipment, hoping to live simply for a time in solitude. Wikipedia
    I admire this guy for who he was and for his ideals and adventurous spirit and relate to the guy.  If you haven’t heard of him, see the movie.  There are some lessons to be learned about self isolation and other things.
    He basically starved to death out there, supposedly

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Photograph

January 17th, 2014by __D__

I drank the last sip of wine, and set the bottle down. My medicine was failing me, my loved ones had failed me, and lastly, I had failed myself. Tonight was the night, I told myself. I had no desire to stick around any longer. I had only caused myself misery, and made everyone else’s lives complete shit. I was a heavy weight on everyone’s shoulders, a boulder, weighing down until I was dropped so suddenly to the ground. I looked at the fireplace and closed my eyes. I could hear yelling and screaming inside my head, visions of violence played out over and over …

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What do I do?

January 16th, 2014by lilynothingleft

I will start by saying I am confused, I’m a girl and I’m 12 years old. Until a couple weeks I lived in the country side with my father, my mother and him divorced when I was younger. I don’t have any siblings. I’m generally a happy child, wow I don’t think I’ve used the word happy in a while… 3 weeks ago my dad committed suicide. I was at school when I got pulled out of class. I don’t want to say how it happened it’s hard to think about. The problem is my life i was really close to my dad and I …

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HELLO, MY NAME IS

January 16th, 2014by HealingInHisWings

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Chris.  My email is cdgibson875 at  gmail…

If anyone needs someone to talk to, anyone at all…  I want to help.

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My Last Post

January 15th, 2014by kurdt kobian

I just wanna say that this website has helped me stay around this long and was a great place to let myself out. That being said, it seemed fitting that my last post be my suicide note. So here it is. Goodbye.

To Whom It May Concern…
If you are reading this than I am dead. This may come as a shock to most who know me. If you want to know why, it’s basically because I hate myself. I’ve actually vomited because I hate myself so much. I loathe myself. I’m tired of being mediocore. I’m tired of being a failure to everyone around me. I’m …

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a nobody

January 14th, 2014by borntolose

I think it’s quite sad that I have resorted to posting on a website like this.

It’s hard to put into words. I don’t know why I keep doing what I do. I wish I was normal. I wish I didn’t have the urge to cut myself everytime I get upset. I feel pathetic. Everytime I do it. I wish I could be normal. All this is so exhausting.

It’s exhausting pretending everyday that I’m okay. That I’m that perfect student, perfect daughter, perfect friend. It’s mentally exhausting.

My brother comes home from the Marines today. I really want to tell him my secret. I’m very afraid he’ll …

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Stargazing

January 14th, 2014by toxicluminoth

It’s partly cloudy and chilly. I can see a few stars out there. My time is up. I’m scared and sad but relieved. I wander into the dark woods.

Could be 10 minutes, an hour away maybe. If I do make it, I will be sure to let you all know what happened.

Thank you all for the kind words and support. It really does help. Keep doing helping people fight this before it is too late for them.

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