My Suicide Note

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Goodbye Everyone

January 14th, 2014by johnwhogivesashit

Eventually you realize you might as well stop gambling when the casino is rigged. The dice are loaded. You can only lose so many times… The roulette wheel always lands on zero… Eventually you just got to stop the insanity of it. Why spin again? Eventually I always lose. The house always wins…. Gotta do what any gambling man would do in my position… Raise the stakes…all in…the hand ………….loaded:6

I’ll get lucky eventually       John G.

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January 14th, 2014by Pacific

You tell them that you want to find a beautiful place to die in. They question your motives. You say it’s simply because you’re tired. They tell you that maybe it’s because you never sleep. You tell them that you are worn out. They don’t understand why you’re upset. You tell them that it’s just who you are. They bring up the fact that you smile everyday. You try to explain to them that you smile to remind yourself of who you are. They’re confused that you’ve suddenly become a different person. You apologize for being a burden. They tell you not to worry but …

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Final Straw

January 13th, 2014by Pbsmurderer

I’ve been pondering this for over a year,  I told myself that if life didn’t get better by the new years came, I’m killing myself. I’ve got no reason to live, I’ve got no motivation to do anything more than stay at home, at school I’m failing every single one of my classes, I’ve got no friends, my family is gone, my teachers hate me, people in school hate me, and I hate myself. Today was it, someone useless like me is better dead anyways, I don’t even know anyone who could possible care about this suicide not.

So tonight, I’m gonna drink all the pills …

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January 13th, 2014by hellblau

I can’t sleep, I just breathe, I am afraid of nights, That’s when they come around, I don’t want them in, I want them to leave, and it hurts like hell, it hurts like hell…

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Someone who was MORE shit out of luck

January 13th, 2014by HealingInHisWings

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You know what makes me feel better sometimes when I’m feeling down?

Reading a true story about someone who is up shit creek farther than me.  At least I have a paddle.

Adrift is a great true story about Mr Callahan, who was trapped on a rubber ducky life raft in the ocean for 76 days.  Here is a link to the eBook download (mods, I believe the author made the book public domain at one time)

Callahan_Steven-Adrift.epub:

http://easyfilesharing.info/file/1550/callahan-steven-adrift.epub

Here is a link to the authors website.  He worked on the movie Life Of Pi as well:

http://www.stevencallahan.net

 

 

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In the depths of anorexia… I am now choosing to die by dehydration.

January 12th, 2014by disappearinggirl

I feel as though I need to express my final words somewhere. I clearly cannot reach out to loved ones about my decision, but I feel the need to write a final “goodbye” so to speak. I have been suffering from anorexia for 7 years. It has truly been a coping mechanism for the deep depression I feel and being unable to process my emotions in a healthy way. Without it, I cannot function. With it, I cannot function. There seems to be no winning for me. I have tried treatments and therapy and medicines, it doesn’t work. I am scheduled to be admitted to …

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I’m so confused

January 11th, 2014by lonelyyforever

I feel like ending my life. I feel like I don’t deserve to live because I’m not a good person I’m always unhappy even when things are good. I’m 19 and I recently won a scholarship to go to
School & at first I was super happy but now  I’m about to start in 2 days but I’m not excited anymore (btw it’s my first semester) but it’s like there was so many problems with getting the scholarship in my funds and I had so many issues understanding the the whole process of what was going on with my enrollment and all that stuff. Ugh my …

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That Awkward Moment

January 8th, 2014by Poptartz24

If you have a long life line on on your hand, don’t try to commit suicide. For there can’t be a way to do it. This is how I prove it.

Like my other post this evolves me cutting my wrist.

I was listening to the Lavender Town theme. (pokemon) I was only 11. I was so scared I cut my wrist were my veins are, it didn’t work. I saw my line was rather long. I knew what that meant.

If you prove in any way it’s wrong, I’ll believe you.

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Mental Problems

January 8th, 2014by Poptartz24

Don’t get mental problems it could lead to this.

I have mental problems. I go to therapy alot. But still I cut myself. I make attempts to kill myself. Everyone thinks I’m crazy. I can’t sleep. I don’t talk to anyone at school. (I’m in high school). My mom talks to me and I feel uncomfortable when she does that.

The way I try to kill myself is like this: I take a razor and cut my wrist. It dosen’t work though. Maybe I should use a knife. Once I get the chance I’ll do it.

You might think I’m crazy, or I need to …

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The perfect suicide method

January 8th, 2014by Engeltje

Everyday I feel worse, but there are days that I feel really really bad. Like today. I constantly think about suicide, which is driving me crazy, because somewhere I know I’m not able to die, no matter how badly I’ll try. But still I’m searching all over the web to find ‘the perfect suicide method’, but I know somewhere that ‘the perfect suicide method’ doesn’t exist. But still I’m searching for it (man, i feel like an idiot now). No, my suicideplan isn’t completed yet, but in days like these, my suicideplan gets completer and completer, which actually gives me rest.

I haven’t found ‘the …

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A metaphor for my life…

January 6th, 2014by johnwhogivesashit

If my life were a video game. I would be playing halo on legendary only to spend 30 minutes trying to beat “the library” 5 levels of nonstop killing and traps up back and front in under 30 only to get killed by the last shit enemy and 1 step and second from the finsh. Round 1000 here we go. Eventually you give up and throw the xbox through your flat screen. Or you kill yourself. I’ll probably just kill myself soon and save all the supense. Why hope. Why try again. The game kinda sucks after a while anyway.

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Who said it was a rose garden?

January 5th, 2014by HealingInHisWings

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Don’t give up!!!!!

How will this little pain you feel compare to ETERNITY?

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IN LOVING MEMORY OF MY RACHEL BAER

January 5th, 2014by bryan higgins

dream catcher <3

I DONT KNOW WHERE TO GO FROM HERE.

IT ALL USED TO BE SO CLEAR..

IM FINDING  I CANT DO THIS ON MY OWN.

AS LONG AS I KNOW THAT YOU ARE NEAR…

IM DONE FIGHTING THIS WORLD

.. IM FINALLY LETTING GO.

..I WILL TRUST IN YOU..

YOUVE NEVER FAILED ME  BEFORE….

.I WILL TRUST IN YOU…

IF THERES A  PATH I SHOULD WALK ….                                                       HELP ME FIND IT..

..IF I NEED TO BE STILL,

GIVE ME PEACE FOR THE MOMENT

BEFORE MY DEATH   ……

..AND MY RE BIRTH TO

MY REAL JOURNEY ..

..IN SRIRIT….

.FOR EVERY STEP YOU TAKE ..

YOU WERE NEVER ALONE…

.EVEN WHEN WE WALK IN THE VALLEY OF SHADOWS AND DEATH…

…. I …

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Its going to happen soon Goodbye world

January 4th, 2014by Solitude

I honestly hate myself more than someone could ever do 🙁 Why did i have to be born in this place and body , why do i have to suffer so much. I am not a normal person anymore, my body is starting to slowly die. I am pale and always cold, i dont go out anymore , all i do is lock myself in my dark room and barely eat anything. I am scared that it will hurt when i do it, but i decided that there is nothing left for me.

I hate looking myself at the mirror , it just reminds me of …

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I’m a monster

January 4th, 2014by smelting

Surely some people deserve to die – like me. I’m a monster.

I did some terrible things. I hurt people more than anyone could believe. It’s not possible to fix any of it.

Most would want to see me die in prison.

I’ve chosen suicide because the pain is too much.

I wish my parents had taught me about the world. I wish I had had friends who loved me.

I blame myself and I blame them.

Knowing that Hitler and other evil people killed themselves gives me some comfort.

I must be lonely to want to have fellowship with other evil spirits.

 

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And so it ends.

January 1st, 2014by IslaIsDamned

I’m not entirely sure why I’m bothering to do this but I reckon I owe the tiny bit of the world I know an explanation. By the time anyone notices I’m gone (and I hope it takes a reaaally long time.) and reads this, I’ll be swimming with the fishes or gracing a page of the rag as one unidentified female whose tobacco tainted blood has slowly coagulated on the sidewalk. Somehow, I’ve always known this day would come. Perhaps even before I was fully aware of the concept of death, I’ve always had this feeling that I’m not like other people, that I was …

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another year of zero karing but …

January 1st, 2014by YESCHUkrist

PSYOP’ZX

 

 

JUST DONT KNOW Y IAM HERE IF IAM THE PURPOSE > NOT SURE Y THIS DONT END BECUS IM SICK OF BEING A CONTARD TO EVERAE AND NOAE…………

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Can’t say I didn’t try.

December 31st, 2013by _L

Tried it all: talking, counseling, therapy, asked my doctor what meds would work best since many could practically cripple me (he still hasn’t gotten back to me). No matter what I do, I see everything and everyone as less than perfect and therefore a burden to the universe and everything in it.

…I think too much. New lesson, kiddies: don’t think. It’ll do things to you.

Anyways yeah. Would a 20ft drop head-first be enough to kill me?

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2B or Not 2B….???? The Fight Goes on…&on…&on

December 31st, 2013by abbastanza

Thanks 4 the welcome-was intrigued and saddened by some of your stories-I wanted to especially thank you all for your openness-nothing like Xmas & the New Year to bring up the same old same old same old——what the hell is the point of me  staying 1 more minute on this benighted planet???? a burden to the Health/mental health/& social welfare systems – I am lucky enough to live in a country that provides that for useless people like me. the last month has been almost totally unbearable. I totally understand what everyone says here- & its so nice to be able to say that here …

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Need encouragement for suicide.

December 31st, 2013by _L

I am writing to seek help committing suicide.
I have a very black-and-white personality. Either all or nothing.
Either good or bad. Either something is or it is not. There is no
middle ground. By itself this is not such a bad thing, but I also have
had on-off depression since 2nd grade (I’m now in 9th) which has been
constant in the past few weeks. I see everything as pathetic and
everyone as awful. If it is fair to say that for most, good and bad is
like a scale, hoping the good outweighs the bad, for me it is like a
drop of bad dye in a glass of good water: …

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