My Suicide Note

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This Life I Hate

  February 14th, 2014 by Jovahala

Do you remember those summer childhood moments spent carefree and happy, when you were filled with hope for your bright future?  I do.  I look back, and think, where did I go wrong? What did I do wrong to make it get this bad? I also remember a childhood gone wrong – a childhood of sadness wishing it would all just go away.  I remember a young me, not too long ago, wanting it all to end.  And that’s still the me today.  I’ve always felt like I were on the outside looking in.  I’ve always felt somehow different – as if there were something setting …

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Too weak, no love.

  February 13th, 2014 by Emlar

There’s no such thing as love; what we refer to as love is usually just pain, deceit, lies, broken promises and false hope.

No matter how many times you think you find love, you haven’t, because love doesn’t exist. People are all the same, always have been always will be. So don’t make the mistake of thinking you love someone, it’s just desperation of the soul needing something to cling onto.

What do you do though, when you’re weaker than desperate? When you can’t even kill yourself, when you can’t even achieve the easiest thing possible for man to do? You want to play God, you want …

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Its Over

  February 12th, 2014 by xjamaican

So, basically this is one of my last chances until suicide is my last option. I’ve been thinking about suicide since i was probably 14. I just turned 16 two weeks ago.  It feels as if, I’m just a waste of matter. I feel like I’m just taking up space. I can’t do anything and I won’t ever be anything. When I’m gone, I won’t leave a mark on anyone’s life. If they were able to survive without knowing me, then they’ll still survive when I’m gone; they’ll only feel grief for about a week. I’m always being pushed down in life, and there isn’t …

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When I Realized Darkness Was My Friend .

  February 12th, 2014 by darks0ulss

Fairytales aren’t real … the stories you read in the books when you were little , they’re all lies to. There’s no happy ending , no prince charming and there’s no one there to save you when you need to be rescued. There’s just the darkness and its there to eat you alive , to remind you that your life sucks. It pushes you until you break down , it breaks you until you are completely broken. People say that if you fall 10 times you get back up 11 times well here’s the thing … that darkness knocks you down 12 more times. Sooner or …

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Nothing is right

  February 12th, 2014 by b5544

A little over a year ago I met the love of my life. We had everything in common, he made me laugh, and I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. For a few months, he seemed to be in love with me, too. But after a few months, he just lost interest in me. He stopped wanting to have sex and acted like he was annoyed of me and that I was a chore. We broke up and 2 months later he was dating someone else. The girl he started dating is beautiful, smart, and has lots of friends. They are …

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F*** You ‘Mom’ and ‘Dad’

  February 10th, 2014 by xsaetocoehnehrasyedax

Dear ‘Mom’ and ‘Dad’,

I’ve always hated you.  I’ve never trusted you with anything.  All you’ve ever done is beat and criticize me.  Hey mom, remember that time you accidentally threw me down the stairs when I was four?  Hey dad, do you remember that time I came back home from first grade one day and you started yelling and hitting me?  What about that time when I couldn’t go to school for a week in third grade because you burned my fucking arm?  You remember how making me scream in pain became a routine for you?  Do you both remember all those times you called me whore, …

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Just another story

  February 10th, 2014 by sheddingtears

Hi.

I started writing down my feelings in  journal but I thought it would be nice to share with people finally.

I don’t know it all started but what I know is that I’m messed up. My family, my body, my mind, and my emotions. I’m not going to say I’m in this emotionless trance.

I still have friends but I hid my true feelings. It’s all starts with my family and how my mother is this fucked up parent. You can basically say I live by myself , but my dads the only one who supports me. He has to work all the time and my mom …

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I still see a lot of familiar nicknames

  February 8th, 2014 by givemesomepeace

so I guess that many of you found some meaning to stay alive.

I don’t know what else to say. Keep saving people. It’s truly a good project.

I’m not too well in describing, words, reasons… I just wish u all the best. Goodbye

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falling apart piece by piece

  February 7th, 2014 by Honey_bee00

when people say stay strong things will get better i promise.. it never turns out to be like that in my case i get over everything. and it comes back cuz of something else happened to top that problem..
feeling like shit and nothing going right in your life. called whore by your dad and telling him to pack your things cuz she dont want you living with him anymore. then moving in with my mom everything starts getting better then BAMM you get raped by your step dad then end up getting a bf that same night and scared your gonna lose him your …

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I feel so sorry for the people who died :'( let them rest in peace

  February 6th, 2014 by snowflake

This is too sad… Suicide is sad… It actually brought tears to my eyes.

advice: watch this before you kill yourself. (and u won’t)

Click this link below to watch:

 

This is such a good video for people with depression and thinking about suicide to see. Gives ya hope:)

 

I truly respect the man in this video, he is awesome & kind-hearted man. I only wish there were more people like him in the world.

<< Your life is a precious gift from your parents. Please think about your parents, siblings and children. Don’t keep it to yourself. Talk about your troubles. >>

<< Nobody is alone in this world. We have to coexist …

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few months later and I still feel horrible

  February 6th, 2014 by kingdomFife

This is my second post on this site and again I am speaking of my girlfriend that broke up with me a few months ago. For a background on the situation please read my previous post to save me explaining it in this one.

So far life has got worse and worse, the last time I was happy was October 19th last year when I took her to a hotel and the rest for her bday which was on the 6th but I was busy working (to get more money to spend on her for her bday). I hadn’t spoke to her since the 12th of …

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So close to letting go

  February 6th, 2014 by rprp98

I’ve been having a lot of problems at home and nothing seems to be going right for me. Today, my nan.. the person i love most in this world, the one who’s ever stopped me from doing anything (killing myself) told me to go kill myself. It honestly broke my heart so much and i’ve selfharmed, ive seriously got no reason to keep going. It is so hard to carry on when you have no one on your side, no one understands me. I dont know what to do anymore, everything i do always turns into a bad decision which i end up

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31st of May 2014

  February 4th, 2014 by Feeblefish

I’ve given myself until the above date to find some meaning and joy in my life. If I can’t find it. Then that’s it.

I’m not gonna sit on my arse and mope. I’m going to try. I’m going to pull my soul apart with every second in attempt to find my meaning. This way I know I tried my best and have no regrets.

I’m not an attention seeker. I will follow through with all that you read. But I want some sort of record of my decision.

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Is it today?

  February 2nd, 2014 by blacksheep989

I have spent a long time reading through this site. But never posted.

For the last 3 years now is struggled with depression, caused by job stress, relationship etc. Over the last two month I hit a patch where my job and my boss brought me right down. I’d entertained the idea of suicide, but could never go any further than that because of my partner, whom I love very much.

So for two months I’ve fought back, getting back to a healthy state, then on saturday night, after a good day in the sun, drinking and enjoying my time with my partner and friends, I go …

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Just some insight….

  February 1st, 2014 by TheFadingEcho

Joshandi

 

 

Ever try to explain to someone why youre sad and you simply have no words?

This is a conversation I had last night with a friends of mine.

Its the truth though, I went on to tell him that its easy to fake being a “good person”

I have everyone around me fooled, thinking that I’m happy with the life I live.

Truth is the only thing I wish for when I close my eyes at night, is that they wont open in the morning.

 

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My Attempted Suicide Story…

  February 1st, 2014 by DanielleTerri_x

I’m Danielle, 16 years old and suicidal…

I guess it all started when I got bullied in primary school because of my weight and the people I used to hang out with. I was basically a tomboy, always wearing jeans or tracksuits, never skirts or dresses… I wasn’t the skinniest or prettiest of kids back then, but there was this one group of girls that would pick on me constantly… I was 10 and depressed… I was stupid enough to pick an all girls secondary school and got bullied there for being a tomboy. it was the beginning of year 8, and I woke up at 5 …

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Tedium.

  January 30th, 2014 by Feeblefish

This isn’t really something I usually do, I’m more of the “bottle it up” kind of guy, but I really need to get this out and Google led me here as an appropriate place to do so. It’s up to you if you want to read all this, but at least if you do, I have some validation of my efforts. Which I imagine would be nice.

Well… here goes.

I should be happy or satisfied enough really, shouldn’t I?

I mean, I did life right. I left school, got a steady dead end job and got myself a place to live independently. In this …

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Nothing is Right Anymore

  January 30th, 2014 by tateej

I’ve been laying on a bed for hours contemplating shooting myself in the head. I had a beautiful life in which I was attending school, a beautiful wife, and teaching music my passion. Now I’ve graduated, I still kinda teach but my best friend since high school doesn’t want me anymore. I’ve done so much to hurt her and I can’t ever tell her how I feel. She wants us to be divorced now so she isn’t reminded of me. I don’t blame her but this is really baring down on me. I’ve cried for two months now about every other night and I want …

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My Story

  January 29th, 2014 by MissPandemic

Well, I guess you can say I’m contemplating suicide. I’ve been through a lot I suppose and I’m not sure how to handle it anymore. I’ve attempted suicide before, when I was around 11 or 12. I was too young to realise it took more effort then what I put in. And now that I’m older I realise that it might be best to just end my life. I know that I will hurt people, and that isn’t my intention, I love my friends, my family, my boyfriend. But I don’t want to lose my grandparent’s trust, or ruin my boyfriend’s life or not be …

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New here! These Lyrics Tell you how I feel now.

  January 29th, 2014 by DontReallySeeThePoint

I remember when I was a very little girl, our house caught on fire.
I’ll never forget the look on my father’s face as he gathered me up
in his arms and raced through the burning building out to the pavement.
I stood there shivering in my pajamas and watched the whole world go up in flames.
And when it was all over I said to myself, “Is that all there is to a fire?”

Is that all there is, is that all there is
If that’s all there is my friends, then let’s keep dancing
Let’s break out the booze and have a ball
If that’s all there is

And when I was …

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