My Suicide Note

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The End.

  March 24th, 2014 by Lunae

Suicide Note

Before reading this, I need you to promise to God that you won’t blame yourselves. It’s not your fault. If you can’t accept this, you may not read any further.

I love you all. And I know that I’m loved. I know you did your best. Thank you for that. But just go on about your daily lives. Please. Take care of your other kids. Take care of your spouses. And, most importantly, take care of yourselves.

I’m just so tired. I don’t know how I even made it this far, honestly. So count that as a blessing. I wrote this note so that I could …

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  March 23rd, 2014 by hellblau

And in the darkest night
If my memory serves me right
I’ll never turn back time
Forgetting you, but not the time.

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Late night thoughts

  March 23rd, 2014 by anonymous.

I was told once, before we’re born we choose to come into this life. Told the possibilities of life are endless, you can do anything you put your mind to. Why is it that life contradicts that very statement. From a young age were forced to see the realities of what this life really is. A place where judgement of others is more important than judgement of one’s self. Where the rich strive and prosper and the poor struggle. Where the only peace you can find is in the bottom of a bottle. Or with a complete stranger, it seems the closest to you have …

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dreams….alive or dead…..

  March 21st, 2014 by KIARA

Dreams, a reason why we all work hard to conquer then,to live them.there is always a stage in our life when we let go of our dreams and our aspiration and that point of time we all lie to our ownself that maybe it was not in our destiny or maybe someting better is planned for us. Thats where we lose control over our fate…after this phase is over we all pamper our self make up stuff to satiate our pinching mind which makes us realise that we had done wrong…after all this will be over we again dream but this time its in our …

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Looking for assistance, shared experiences, dispersonalization

  March 20th, 2014 by amity

I’m entirely new to this.

I’m 23, and for as long as I can remember, things haven’t been quite right.  It’s not sadness, there’s no apparent cause for the way that I feel, nothing that makes me a particularly high “risk” for suicide, that is obvious from the sheer facts of my life.  I was beaten and generally abused as a child, but I feel at peace with that and have reconciled with the offender.  But, there’s this ever-present feeling of not-being.  This sense that I’m watching myself live, that I’m a passive spectator in all the things my body does, the words I speak, the …

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yust let me dissapear

  March 20th, 2014 by maui

i feel like i cant become anyting like there is no hope for me no future
it seems like im a dissapointment to everyone
why wont i be a good person and take my own life it feels like thats the way to go then i cant dissapoint anyone then i cant hurt anyone
the pain of my loss will fade, the pain if i will stay will be worse
the only reason im still here is for her the one person in my live, but she is 4000 miles away

the power of a single person kept me alive while the poeple near me dont seem to care
how can …

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My life is nothing but never-ending nightmare. Time to wake up.

  March 19th, 2014 by crvalid2

I was born in broken home. My father was an alcoholic. He is clearly a psychopath without having any sense of empathy. While being alcoholic he tried to kill my mother. She born me sometime around that. She compensated her broken marriage with me, she got me emotionally overattached. She made me sexually uncomfortable by talking about sex. She severely abused me.  Once a week she was crying, screaming, shouting at everyone. She was coming to me and saying things I couldn’t even remember. She made me cry and she didn’t stop there, she just kept going and going. She was screaming she was going to …

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My suicide.

  March 18th, 2014 by suicidal_chick

ive sat in this tub for hours trying to figure out a way to tell you. im sure you are confused as to why i did this to myself. Ill start out with school. I get bullied constantly. everyday im there. i get teased for how i dress and look. how i act and more. I came home crying almost everyday but you never seemed to care. you always told me that it would get better. well 5 years later it never got any better. it just got worse. from a scratch to blood all over my arm and floor. here i lay in a …

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My Life So Far

  March 17th, 2014 by iliveinsidemyhead

Hey,

So this is my story of my Depression and search for help.

I live in London and when I made the transition to year 7 it was very hard for me as I’m not great at changes and my aunt died of cancer recently, so I started seeing the school councillor. So it was all going well and helping with the death of my aunt, but after about two year when I was in year 9 another of my aunts died this time it affected me hugely so my mood dropped, so with this I started self harming. So I kept up with the self harm. …

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worthless

  March 16th, 2014 by survivingonfaith

Title says it all. Worthless. Im done.

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My suicidal story…

  March 13th, 2014 by DanVald

I was born some time ago. I never had any friends. Because my father was never there(he was always drinking and fucking anything with two legs), and I was raised by women, I was a serious wuss. Girls never liked me. But, I did have 1 chance that I didn’t take. Because I am a wuss. I never had any friends and barely went out if ever.

I will describe myself. I am skinny and ugly. About 5 11 , which sucks, cause I am neither tall nor short. I have to sit and listen to God saying suck it up. I have a huge nose …

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You <3

  March 13th, 2014 by will_piece_of_shit1170

You are the only reason I’m still alive, everyday I wake up for you. I wake up so that I can call you once more so that I can hear your soft voice, or your pissed off grunts in the morning when I awaken you from asleep that is so much more important then me. I’m crazy your crazy, but together we are we’ll not completely normal but less crazy. You are my light at the end of a dark long tunnel, if I didn’t have you I would have nothing. Your brown/red/blondish hair is beautiful and I love running my fingers through it and …

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Worst and last day EVER!!!

  March 13th, 2014 by will_piece_of_shit1170

today is probably the worst day of my life. My girlfriend a few months back charged me with 6 different offenses, and that caused a lot of stress on me and one day I just got to the point I couldn’t take it anymore. I went to hang myself and just before I jumped I called her and she picked up as said she would come see me, and at no point did I think the cops would come because we’ll I trusted her, and she saved my life and after 4 mon this of that it was over but then she wanted to become

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I’ve been considering suicide for a long time.

  March 12th, 2014 by jessvhp

Hello. I’m jess. I’m fourteen years old, and I’ve gone crazy.

I found this site when I was looking for ways to commit suicide. I thought it would be nice to finally talk to someone, and explain my madness to them.

I’m going to list all the reasons why I want to end my life.

1. I live in a country that’s incredibly corrupt. I don’t see a future for me, and we’re going through so much pain right now… that I want to end it. I’m filled with rage.

2. I know I’m young, but I’ve done things I shouldn’t have and my anxiety is killing me because …

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  March 12th, 2014 by jondoe

i am over 50 years old and depressed i am out of work broke sleeping on a pile of sponges in my mothers covered driveway i’ve never married have no kids, i have no money and i really just can’t continue living like this. most things i read online suggest getting medical attention immediately, however having zero funds makes this an impossibility. is it reasonable the solution to my situation be to end my life?

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My life crumbling away

  March 12th, 2014 by MonsterInside

It started when I was really young. I started writing suicide letters to my mother at the age of 5.  Around age 7, I wasn’t very smart and I attempted to choke myself with my own hands not knowing it wouldn’t work. Around age 11, I took sleeping pills and then took a bath lying on my stomach, hoping I would drown as I slept. Since then I haven’t attempted suicide but I have frequently thought about it. I started cutting myself last year. I never ever cut deep because it scared me but I enjoyed the pain. I started cutting because I truly hated …

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The nightmares I’ve been having have arrived

  March 10th, 2014 by hellblau

Visions I’ve been dreaming are coming down. They’re changing my future.
Visions I had buried underground. Returning to abuse us.

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FML (fuck my life)

  March 9th, 2014 by CaliBrand187

It’s always on my mind to end my life.. I was in a really bad accident that caused permanent brain damage.. I can not remember many things now.. I know my daughters bday is Halloween but I have to do the math to know what year she was born. I suffer from horrible pain.. Migraine headaches, throw up blood, I use to be able to do so much now I can hardly do anything 🙁 Life without health is no life at all.. I tried to end my life I took 80 Xanax & every other medication I can get my hands on. I woke up …

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For you and only you.

  March 9th, 2014 by hellblau

There’s blood on my hands, and the killers not my enemy. It’s all for the sake of love, it’s all for you.

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not worth it

  March 8th, 2014 by LucaLovato

I’m not going to say i had a such a horrible life, because i have never truly been hungry, never been homeless and got a lot of things i wanted. What i didn’t really have were supportive parents and friends. Majority of my life i was sheltered from things in life which made me oblivious to a lot of things. for example, i literally don’t know the barriers of conversation and cross them constantly, when i needed new tires i thought they came with hub caps, etc etc. I’m just dumb, and it shows in my work place, and since i fix aircraft lives literally …

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