So this is a suicide letter I wrote to my best friend (Leaving her unknown because I’m protecting her identity. So lets just call her Anne and call me Rose. And if I say “I love you”, its friend love.) because I was really thinking about it that day.
February 8 2014
I honestly do not want to say this one word that means so many things, but this is my goodbye. I love you so much and I know you’re hurting too, but please don’t make the same mistakes that I’m making. I don’t want you to turn up the same way that I am. Dead. You have so much to live for. You are a beautiful young lady and I hope you know that. You have so much to live for and I don’t want you to throw it away like I am. Please don’t be sad and do what I have just done, and if I have a funeral, don’t come to it. Because I will be there to see who will lie and say I was ‘Beautiful’ and ‘Amazing’ and I just don’t want to see you in even more pain. I know I should have thought about others before I made this decision, and I did. I knew the world was better off without me because, everyone hates me already, except for you. So thats why I’m writing this letter. Because I don’t want you to be the one who texts me and I don’t reply, you going to m school and me not being there, you trying to get ahold of me by phone and my mom lying and you believing that I’m out with friends, you trying to skype or facetime me, and I’m not there to pick up or call back, and I really don’t want you to be the one to come over and find me hanging by a rope in my room with my most favorite song blasted on my stereo on repeat. I want the best for you so this is why I am writing this letter, Anne, to show you how much I will miss you and how much I love you. So please, please, PLEASE don’t make the same mistakes that I have. I want you to learn from this.
I will always be watching over you. Goodbye, my friend.