My Suicide Note

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long story

  January 26th, 2014 by Ch3rryb36r

sister became rebellious. i got punished for her actions. moved away to another counrty. dad didnt come with. got bullied at school. girls acted like friends but stole from mw.  i switch schools the nwxt year. sister rebells smokes weed and does stuff with a boy. mom hates me . she hits us , and makes us do everything by ourselves. its like we have no mom. at school no one stalks to me for months they think im emo.  everything okay for awhile. dad comes home. spends 20000 dolars all of our savingz. on a lady he cheatdd on my mom multiple times including [...]
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very long story. plz read

  January 26th, 2014 by Ch3rryb36r

sister became rebellious. i got punished for her actions. moved away to another counrty. dad didnt come with. got bullied at school. girls acted like friends but stole from mw.  i switch schools the nwxt year. sister rebells smokes weed and does stuff with a boy. mom hates me . she hits us , and makes us do everything by ourselves. its like we have no mom. at school no one stalks to me for months they think im emo.  everything okay for awhile. dad comes home. spends 20000 dolars all of our savingz. on a lady he cheatdd on my mom multiple times including [...]
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Why?

  January 24th, 2014 by hellblau

I’ve been so close to almost call him or text him saying that I love him, so much. That I miss him so much. I thought that being drunk would help me to do that, cause I get more sensible, thought that would help me to do it by impulse, but not even drunk I can. I’m such a coward and I’m so fucking afraid.


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May Join a Suicide Pact

  January 23rd, 2014 by Pbsmurderer

Give me a valid reason to live and I wont go, simple as that. Please don’t give me that “You’re family and friends will miss you” bullshit. All my family is dead, all my friends left me, there is no one who loves me or cares  about me. Do you understand why I’m so bitter? Fuck living, I’ve had enough of this shit! All my life has been pain! My parents beating the shit out of me and molesting me, all my ” friends” making fun of me, I’m glad my family is dead! I’m glad I have no friends, all people do is hurt [...]
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i just don’t understand

  January 21st, 2014 by bye_bye

i don’t get it. why am i not good enough? why does he not tell me he’s cheating. he is. i know he is. he knows i know, so just admit it. why can’t i break up with him? he was supposed to be my sanctuary. now he’s my pain. i can’t go or be anywhere with him because i know what he’s doing. this sucks. can’t i get some peace? happiness? should i leave? it’d probably better – for both of us. he could be with the person he wants to be with. he won’t have to worry about hurting me. he can be [...]
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Hello, nice to meet you…

  January 20th, 2014 by zeldaxlover24

Hi, my name is Dallas, nice to meet you.

I’ve got a secret to tell you, but first, you must hear my story

I am 15 years young. “I’m fine” is my favorite thing to say. I bet you’re a bit like me. I’ve dealt with depression, anxiety, insomnia, and minor PTSD. They’ve treated me like a lab rat. I’ve been on almost every psych medicine you could possibly think of. I’ve been hospitalized 20+ times in the past two and a half years, because people freak out. I’ve been to 2 residential placements, Valle Vista and Allendale. Have you heard of them? [...]
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Unyielding Sorrow

  January 20th, 2014 by lilbird

Something akin to a smoker with no cigarettes

a junky with no junk

My soul is unsatiated, a hollow heart for a friend.

This pain is ongoing, unending, unyielding, unceasing

Carving away at an already empty vessel.

If this body could lie down and never awake

If this soul could fly up and out and on

Into the darkness

The vast darkness.

There is comfort in an enveloping never ending darkness

A place with no pain.


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???kontard’z

  January 20th, 2014 by YESCHUkrist

ME OPS????fed up with refelctional frens(acts like ur therpist of sleeps ell except u to set u  up with someobodi compley wrong for u)/karoolivigians(wutevre it is u like coming to suemthing …)… I JUST WISH I EXISTED IN SUMBD,IS HEART….


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My one, and only, post

  January 20th, 2014 by Silverbird

Since my ‘time’ has finally come, its only suitable that I contribute something back to this site after reading however many posts over the past few months. Months, that’s quite a long time from my perspective, when I don’t even remember what happened a few days ago (I’m sure it was the same nothingness that every day of my life is). In an attempt to not make this dwell on for too long I’ll try and cut it short…it is the internet after all:

TL;DR: Dead now, shotgun-to-backOfThroat

As far as my childhood goes, I had a few friends here and there, got upset relatively often (like [...]
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Christopher Mccandless aka Alexander Supertramp

  January 18th, 2014 by HealingInHisWings

Many of you guys have heard about this guy…  There was a book and movie written about him…  “Into the Wild”:

Christopher Johnson McCandless was an American hiker who adopted the alias Alexander Supertramp and ventured into the Alaskan wilderness in April 1992 with little food and equipment, hoping to live simply for a time in solitude. Wikipedia I admire this guy for who he was and for his ideals and adventurous spirit and relate to the guy.  If you haven’t heard of him, see the movie.  There are some lessons to be learned about self isolation and other things. He basically starved to death out there, supposedly [...]
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Photograph

  January 17th, 2014 by __D__

I drank the last sip of wine, and set the bottle down. My medicine was failing me, my loved ones had failed me, and lastly, I had failed myself. Tonight was the night, I told myself. I had no desire to stick around any longer. I had only caused myself misery, and made everyone else’s lives complete shit. I was a heavy weight on everyone’s shoulders, a boulder, weighing down until I was dropped so suddenly to the ground. I looked at the fireplace and closed my eyes. I could hear yelling and screaming inside my head, visions of violence played out over and over [...]
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What do I do?

  January 16th, 2014 by lilynothingleft

I will start by saying I am confused, I’m a girl and I’m 12 years old. Until a couple weeks I lived in the country side with my father, my mother and him divorced when I was younger. I don’t have any siblings. I’m generally a happy child, wow I don’t think I’ve used the word happy in a while… 3 weeks ago my dad committed suicide. I was at school when I got pulled out of class. I don’t want to say how it happened it’s hard to think about. The problem is my life i was really close to my dad and I [...]
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HELLO, MY NAME IS

  January 16th, 2014 by HealingInHisWings

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Chris.  My email is cdgibson875 at  gmail…

If anyone needs someone to talk to, anyone at all…  I want to help.


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My Last Post

  January 15th, 2014 by kurdt kobian

I just wanna say that this website has helped me stay around this long and was a great place to let myself out. That being said, it seemed fitting that my last post be my suicide note. So here it is. Goodbye.

To Whom It May Concern…
If you are reading this than I am dead. This may come as a shock to most who know me. If you want to know why, it’s basically because I hate myself. I’ve actually vomited because I hate myself so much. I loathe myself. I’m tired of being mediocore. I’m tired of being a failure to everyone around me. [...]
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a nobody

  January 14th, 2014 by borntolose

I think it’s quite sad that I have resorted to posting on a website like this.

It’s hard to put into words. I don’t know why I keep doing what I do. I wish I was normal. I wish I didn’t have the urge to cut myself everytime I get upset. I feel pathetic. Everytime I do it. I wish I could be normal. All this is so exhausting.

It’s exhausting pretending everyday that I’m okay. That I’m that perfect student, perfect daughter, perfect friend. It’s mentally exhausting.

My brother comes home from the Marines today. I really want to tell him my secret. I’m very afraid he’ll [...]
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Stargazing

  January 14th, 2014 by toxicluminoth

It’s partly cloudy and chilly. I can see a few stars out there. My time is up. I’m scared and sad but relieved. I wander into the dark woods.

Could be 10 minutes, an hour away maybe. If I do make it, I will be sure to let you all know what happened.

Thank you all for the kind words and support. It really does help. Keep doing helping people fight this before it is too late for them.


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Goodbye Everyone

  January 14th, 2014 by johnwhogivesashit

Eventually you realize you might as well stop gambling when the casino is rigged. The dice are loaded. You can only lose so many times… The roulette wheel always lands on zero… Eventually you just got to stop the insanity of it. Why spin again? Eventually I always lose. The house always wins…. Gotta do what any gambling man would do in my position… Raise the stakes…all in…the hand ………….loaded:6

I’ll get lucky eventually       John G.


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  January 14th, 2014 by Pacific

You tell them that you want to find a beautiful place to die in. They question your motives. You say it’s simply because you’re tired. They tell you that maybe it’s because you never sleep. You tell them that you are worn out. They don’t understand why you’re upset. You tell them that it’s just who you are. They bring up the fact that you smile everyday. You try to explain to them that you smile to remind yourself of who you are. They’re confused that you’ve suddenly become a different person. You apologize for being a burden. They tell you not to worry but [...]
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Final Straw

  January 13th, 2014 by Pbsmurderer

I’ve been pondering this for over a year,  I told myself that if life didn’t get better by the new years came, I’m killing myself. I’ve got no reason to live, I’ve got no motivation to do anything more than stay at home, at school I’m failing every single one of my classes, I’ve got no friends, my family is gone, my teachers hate me, people in school hate me, and I hate myself. Today was it, someone useless like me is better dead anyways, I don’t even know anyone who could possible care about this suicide not.

So tonight, I’m gonna drink all the pills [...]
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  January 13th, 2014 by hellblau

I can’t sleep, I just breathe, I am afraid of nights, That’s when they come around, I don’t want them in, I want them to leave, and it hurts like hell, it hurts like hell…


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