Rants

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how the hell

March 31st, 2018by iamdarling

how the hell is it already april?

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They ask

March 31st, 2018by Rosesareblue

They asked me.

“Why do you cut yourself?”

They asked me.

“Why are there scars in your body?”

They asked me.

“Are you crazy?”

They told me.

“Attention seeker at its finest.”

And i sighed. Breathed heavily and walked away.

Whats the good in telling them what my demons tell me what to do, it’s better to keep my insanity to myself.

Because it’s better keeping everything inside rather than telling the world who doesn’t know how to listen.

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The only one you can trust is yourself

March 31st, 2018by Rosesareblue

I’ve never believed this before.

So naive of me.

Naive enough to settle around with the idea that people are to be trusted and to be humbled the fact that they will always keep you sane.

Never believed in such saying until friends turn to enemies and laugh turns to frowns and until then when my heart has been shuttered by the awful truth that friends can be a sharp tool towards the breaking of your own sound mind.

And so when i felt my world crushing down, I came to the standing ground of believing that the only one you can trust is yourself.

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Desperation.

March 30th, 2018by Octr

It’s fun isn’t it? To be consumed with frustration due to an immense feeling of “desperation”

Desperate to get out of a depression cycle,

Desperate to make friends,

Desperate to find love,

Desperate to become a better artist,

Desperation to be and do better,

Tired, exhausted, desperate.

A vicious cycle of undoing my seams in a desperate plight to reach a better place.

 

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scared

March 29th, 2018by iamdarling

i’m so scared.

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Problems

March 28th, 2018by Unsheard

This probably isn’t uncommon but i drink more then i should, no one knows i hide at night with a bottle of vodka and drink until i can’t feel or don’t remember. I also smoke weed, people think i do it to be cool but i really do it because i want to escape the pain and again. All of this started after i stopped cutting so i think i should go back to cutting but i really don’t know. Is all this really bad considering that i’m 15 i really don’t know and i don’t know what to do anymore.

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i just want someone?

March 26th, 2018by sleeprii

i just want someone who can understand?

if anyone is interested , i’m 14 , female , and my name is riley

talk to me

please.

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Same night..

March 25th, 2018by nonexistingsoul

I thought it would be a long time before I come back here again. But here I am typing while watching my wrist bleed. I want to cry but I can’t cry. I guess all my tears were long gone. All I can do is sigh. It stings. my wrist stings.

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Here’s my deal

March 25th, 2018by tunah8u

I’m 19 and I’ve had mental health issues all my life. I’m dumb and lazy, I’m not very good in school. Well I used to be, I was home schooled, but it sucked because my mom is kind of a shitty parent and an especially shittier teacher, but I’d teach myself things and read all day never going anywhere. I didn’t really have any friends and the one’s I did got ripped away from me or beat me up or spread lies about me. I only really knew christian people in the hack job of a church we went to. I convinced my mom to …

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What the fuck is the point

March 23rd, 2018by plastictrees

I don’t know why I’m here and I think the best thing would be to just off myself. I feel like I’m in the bottom of this black pit and the murk and tumultuous grime is seeping into me. Nothing matters. Nothing matters. I’m tired of being here I just wanna die.

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Things I hate hearing when telling people I want to commit suicide

March 22nd, 2018by IMDeadInside

I’m still here, for now. First let me apologize in advance if anyone is offended by this post. Bitter sarcasm is about all I’ve got left. So here are the things I hate most when telling people I want to commit suicide.

Drum roll please…

1. Telling me that suicide is a sin and that I will go to Hell.
Wow, awesome. You just made me feel so much better. Thank you, mighty infallable one! Passing judgment and acting morally superior really turned my life around! How about instead of criticizing me and telling me how awful I am just for entertaining the thought of suicide, you could …

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Woke up today

March 20th, 2018by Unsheard

I was in class and people were complaining about their day and i said” i was having a good day and then i woke up.” I said it with a straight face and people laughed and the only thing my teacher said was “don’t say that” which i know for a fact he is supposed to have a talk with me to see how i’m doing.

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Thinking.

March 20th, 2018by MidnightGlade

I still remember when I first found this page, and well, so many things have happened since then. When I look back at the past years, it gets blurry. I can remember some events, and it is hard to explain, but it’s like they are just there. I feel dissociated from them. And it is like I forget about them unless I am really thinking about them or I have one of my off days. I thought that I had gotten better at handling myself, and for a while, it was true. But this year, as well as the last months of last year, have …

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March 19th, 2018by Unsheard

if i killed myself tonight who would really care?

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leave me alone

March 18th, 2018by trashcan

I want it to shut up I want it to leave my head I want it to let me be happy i want it to go away but it fucking won’t

it wont leave me alone

i just want to spend one entire day without hearing it

i want to happpy
I can’t take this anymore I need to be free from it but I don’t know how to get away from it if it’s in my head
The only way to make it stop before it starts up again is if I’m asleep but I can’t sleep my life away not anymore

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Where do I belong?

March 17th, 2018by TheRoadSoFar

I am currently on a vacation, and for some reason I thought that going out a full weekend with some “friends” would be a good idea. Naturally, it wasn’t a good idea at all.
It’s been just one day, and I already feel left out. I feel really sad and I don’t want to say anything because it will ruin everyone else’s weekend. I feel I need new friends (again), but I’m positive that I will feel the same way. It’s always the same. I don’t belong anywhere. I just want to die. Like, really hard. Harder than ever before.

And for the first time, I …

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Annoyed by my regression

March 17th, 2018by BPSTSD

So I’ve been dealing with PTSD for quite some time now, and been in therapy for almost 2 years now. In the last few months my situation got worse again, got completely disconnected from everyone around me(like really everyone, besides from people from work that I have no choice but to spend my days with). Probably due to some stuff that came out in therapy that I was really trying to avoid bringing up. I knew I wasn’t ready to deal with those skeletons for various reasons but I felt cornered and it just got out.

Along with that I also really tried getting better – …

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Just trying to live

March 16th, 2018by lostdamagedsoul

     So I’m trying to get better. I’m trying to fine the purpose of this life. Trying to understand what makes people want to live. But I don’t see it. We live in a world that is so ugly. Us as humans destroy everything we see, touch, and feel. We hurt others, and we hurt ourselves. Love is a rare thing to see. And so is happiness. I don’t get the point in living. I’m loosing hope in that things will get better. But there is something inside of me that tells me that things will get better. But there is a

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No way out.

March 16th, 2018by MariannaMoonChild

Well I’m not exactly suicidal anymore it’s just that im sick and I thought I could just let myself go. I’ve already attempted suicide 3 times and I wouldn’t recommend anyone do it because the feeling was so strong and awful and the next day you will have stomach pain and throwup. The third time […]

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What’s the point?

March 15th, 2018by HilLokk

Why refrain from suicide because of supposed love ones? why hold on to human emotions if my wish is to be dead? and if I don’t commit suicide? then what, live the rest of my life doing a bunch of things that’ll mean nothing after I reach my inevitable death anyway?

If my goal is to die, then the last thing I should hold onto is things that only matter to living beings, love is a chemical by any other name, whether it is directed towards a person or a hobby.