Rants

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Just sharing

  June 11th, 2018 by idoztknoe

I dont want to talk about it.
I wake up every day with this gnawing feeling. I try to push it away, but it gets worse.
It doesn’t stop. This feeling.
It hurts. It stings. All the heartache, the stress…it gets to you.
But all I ask, is that you understand.
Its deep depths of darkness, and loneliness. Like a boulder of weight always on your back. Slowly hurting you.
It doesn’t stop unless you make it.
When you die you cease to exist, so why fight if when your dead it ll all not exist.
Some took the leap. I really do envy them.
Please just understand that I’m not trying to be …

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Pointless

  June 11th, 2018 by numbanddontcare

Everything has become meaningless. Today I tried to get out and apply for jobs but I can’t even do that. I got so lucky my friend gave me a place to stay for free till the end of June but then I’m homeless. I don’t have motivation to keep breathing. I don’t know why my body even keeps going. I am stuck not wanting to exist. I can’t choose between life and death. I come here to try to find courage to off myself. I try really hard to find it. I’ve been depressed for years now. I have no family that I talk to …

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Indescribable

  June 9th, 2018 by TheRoadSoFar

I’ve been going on and off this site for the past 4 years as a way of letting out everything I’m not able to say to others. However I think I’m reaching the point of no return where what I’m feeling is something I cannot describe. Whenever I felt like things were about to overflow, I just wrote it down and allowed myself to calm down a little. However for the last week I’ve been feeling very uneasy on that regard, unable to explain what I feel.

Summer breaks from college are the worst since people are no longer “forced” to see me almost daily, so …

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i fucking hate my life

  June 8th, 2018 by tearsgirl

i’m a fucking loser and i want to die. my mom makes me go to the church but i fucking hate that place. i’m so sad and i hope a meteor fall on me.

 

xx, tearsgirl.

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Dizzying effects

  June 8th, 2018 by mo992

So far I’ve been chasing myself and trying to keep distracted. I’m failing.

My health is failing. I feel nauseous and wonky. I act as though everything is fine and my life is faultless.

My heart is racing in my chest. My arms are weak and my eyes burn to the back of my skull. I am restless and yet empty.

I’m failing. I just can’t see myself carrying on like this.

I’m so tired of being tired. I would like death to come and embrace me now but I am in too much pain to go and seek it.

Damn chronic illness. Why me? I would not wish this …

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The noise won’t leave

  June 8th, 2018 by sansfranzdeput

I have Tourette’s Syndrome; OCD; light Autism; chronic and crippling depression, anxiety, and various medical differences/flaws/disorders. My Tourette’s- or tics, as they are often called-. manifest themselves mostly in my mind. With the exception of a few verbal tics, and a plethora of motor/physical tics, I can hide the urges and pain which plagues and afflicts me at my every waking moment. My wife and the rest of my immediate family are all well aware of my suffering; they, unfortunately, however, realize or wish to realize the full extent to which I am truly in pain. The only spans of consciousness wherein I draw pleasure …

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  June 3rd, 2018 by Ree1222

I don’t like the feeling that I’ve lost. I’m overweight and it’s not easy finding a method for me. Not interested in a failed attempt and excuse me if all I talk about is wanting death because I never thought I’d turn out like this. I look at my few immediate family members, with a small hole in my heart by not wanting to be here. My body aches, my head aches, I have to work, no close friend’s anymore; it hurts to look my mother in the face because I know she wants the best for me, success in all but I know I …

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All I want

  June 3rd, 2018 by Lovebug21

  1. Honestly I don’t want to die. I just want this pain that I feel bury me, to go away .I want to truly be happy .That’s all I want .Juat to be happy, and the people around me to be happy. I only want true happiness. Do I have to die to achive that?
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im high

  June 2nd, 2018 by Unsheard

simple as that

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What can I do?

  June 1st, 2018 by just.idk

For the last year or so I have trying to get help. I told my doctor how I was feeling and she recommended therapy and my mother refused. I trashed my room and in her anger she took me to the hospital trying to scare me by saying they are going to lock me up or drug me up. She called me a spoiled brat and attention seeker while taking me there. I got a therapist but had to drop her because she was racailly insensitive. But I ask for help and no matter what I say it ends in a yelling match with me …

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Why do I keep going back?

  May 31st, 2018 by Justaclique

So, idk how to start this but here goes.

(Sorry it’s so long)

I keep going back to this same guy just because he’s the only person who’s ever really liked me for me. He doesn’t ever want a relationship but I always have, but when I bring it up he pushes it aside and doesn’t want to talk about it because he always has an excuse. I know what some people are gonna say, that it’s a toxic relationship or that he doesn’t give a shit and ik all of that but, I can’t get him out of my head. He’s the only thing stopping me …

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Petty

  May 30th, 2018 by Anonymous

I am petty.

My problems are petty. I should be okay. I shouldn’t want to die. I have a loving family. I have people who care about me. I have love and support, but I still wish I was dead.

I have friends who have actual problems, and they’re okay. There are people in the world who have it worse than I could imagine, but they manage. There are people on this website who have actual, significant problems. Yet, I still want to die, even though my problems are stupid and insignificant.

I don’t understand why I feel this way, or why I can’t be okay. I don’t …

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I wanna give up

I wanna give up

  May 29th, 2018 by unicornkitty20

I just want to give up.. I tried killing myself a couple weeks ago but my bf took me to the hospital and they saved me. I just want it all to end! I’m so done with this place !! The only thing keeping me here today is my 2 precious kittens. I don’t know what to do..

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Lost

  May 27th, 2018 by CGI

Stopped talking to people around me , I constantly seek to them to help me but they don’t understand the way I feel . I will not burden them any further . It’s hard to watch others concern over something they can’t control . They will understand . I feel like they’re just waiting for the day . So am I . I don’t have the courage . Every day gets harder and harder to live through . Problems arise faster than others can be solved . I don’t trust anyone and I can’t rely on myself .. I am stuck in a puzzle that …

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Love

  May 25th, 2018 by alienCY

I think that living is loving. And true love isn’t just a couple or something. True love is sacrifice. If you try to take love from others to fill your gap then you end up emptier and the others are missing the love you took. If you give love to others though, even if you don’t have love, if you give a piece of you away; you will find yourself more full than before. Loving is giving what you are missing. Love is really beyond logic, it doesn’t make sense, just like life. However, at the end, love is the only thing that remains and …

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Life

  May 24th, 2018 by alienCY

What if Life has no meaning without being meaningless?
What if Life is the meaning?
What if we are meant to be alive?
It may sound obvious but are we really alive?
And if we are not, isn’t it time to become?

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  May 24th, 2018 by marsmission

I am failing college because I am pathetic. Had to do a machining class and get some training from the head of the shop. I went at the later portion of the week to the machine shop to start on my parts but he said we dont have enough people to help. You need some friends because nobody can work alone and you are supposed to be here in a group, you got bad work attitude yada yada yada. He was right so I just went home. Haven’t gone to that class since. I wanted to cut myself after that but like a little ***** …

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Much more than sadness.

  May 22nd, 2018 by strawberrycrown

I have so many problems and things wrong with me it’s hard to keep track. I know that this site is for things to do with depression, anxiety, suicide or similar things, but this one is more about other things I struggle with and could maybe find others who can talk to me about it.

So basically it all started that I was born 6 weeks early, a tiny underweight baby who “died” and got resuscitated or whatever 3 times. I mean, bad start right? Well, since then I was sick in hospital for a few months and then still sick after that, just in my …

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I am a bad thing

  May 20th, 2018 by Triste Foi

I am a bad thing, I think I’m going crazy but I’m too afraid to talk about that to anyone. I am afraid I am going to slowly become something truly awful and dark. And I feel like part of my wanting to die is that I owe it to the world to not make them suffer if I do become something of a monster. You know how when someone gets bit by a zombie so they shoot themselves or something for the greater good of the rest of the survivors and so that they don’t become that? That’s how I feel. I have …

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  May 19th, 2018 by Zigzag

I want to go to sleep and not wake up. I just want it to fucking stop.

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