Rants

5

Regrets …

July 18th, 2017by Birdy

I’ve made too many mistakes today. Top two: 1 Getting my hands on a razor blade and cutting my wrist, which I now have to cover in this hot weather 2 Reaching out to someone who I knew would ignore me. Ending my day feeling extra extra hateful towards myself. It happens, I guess.

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Ig this is me

July 18th, 2017by firefly11291998

Well this is my hello, might as well be my goodbye. I am a teenage girl. Recently…or maybe not. 6 months ago my mom had a stroke….fell into a coma. Has been in the hospital ever since. Being a already depressed, lonely, alone, suicidal teenager..it was extremely hard on me. I was sent to live with my sister who I was not close to at all. Here no one ever cared abt how I was feeling or if i was down bc there was so much other things to worry about. My mom could not walk, talk, move, eat, and was in a coma for …

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I’m here for you

July 18th, 2017by firefly11291998

Hey guys, if you see this and want/need to talk. I’m always open to talk. I really want to make someone(anyone) feel like they are worth it….

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July 18th, 2017by kamidaka

Game of thrones is so grotesque, it feels like taken out from the deep web

Don’t ever bother replying, I won’t enter here ever until my day comes.

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15

Anyone wish they could start over?

July 17th, 2017by Black Holez

Anyone wish they could start their life all over again? I’m not talking about arbitrary change personality type, far deeper than that. I’m talking about going to a new place and start over with a new identity, community, new set of friends. A total makeover if you will. I have no hope in this place. Sometimes, the only way to solve problems is to run away from them.

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What do I do?

July 12th, 2017by Isolated

Okay so usually the depression and anxiety is constant without any particular reason as to why I feel that way. I’m sure you all get that and know what it’s like. However I currently have a problem and I don’t know how to fix it. I have been isolating myself, trying to ignore it but obviously this is only making me feel worse. So please tell me what the right thing is to do. I am already a piece of shit and I don’t fancy the idea of hurting those around me.

They story begins with me and my best friend. Everyone thought we were an …

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1

Lost

July 11th, 2017by Birdy

I’m not sure if everything has hit me so hard these past few weeks because I spent so long hiding everything from myself . I rarely admitted to myself how much I was hurting, because I didn’t want to believe I was capable of going back to that place I was in so long ago. I got so involved and put so many responsibilities on myself as a distraction. But I feel everything right now and it’s too much. This is a really hard week and it’s exhausting for me to stay strong and show up for everything. I know what people expect of me, …

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Does anyone listen 2 matchbox 20?

July 10th, 2017by ILoveMyDog

“I don’t know if I’ve ever been good enough
I’m a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in
And I don’t know if I’ve ever been really loved
By a hand that’s touched me, and I feel like something’s gonna give
And I’m a little bit angry”. I am really confused and reaching out for help, I dont know if my boyfriend is truely abusive or if its me, if I should kill myself over it or the stuff that’s gone on in my life or if anyone would ever love me, if I have anything redeeming and if I care, I would really like …

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I really want to die

July 8th, 2017by Demonqueen

… But I’m scared of failure.
Will I be paralysed?
Brain damaged?

Fail and I’ll be watched and not able to reattempt.

………………..

Vent.

I have mental health, undiagnosed… But imo it is severe.

Vent.

I’m almost 26. Literally everybody I’ve met this year thought I was 12.
When I was 15…. Everybody thought I was 10-12.
You get the picture.
I’m paedo bait.
Not everyday you get to legally “bang” a “12” year old.

Lost count of the times middle aged men have tried to prostitute me and continue on to tell me they thought i was 12-14.

Walking home today with my mum and her partner and two men …

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Shit

July 5th, 2017by Wtfihateusernames0

I work at Dairy Queen. It sucks. I want to die. I don’t even need a job. Why did I even get a job in the first place. Like seriously this job makes me want to kill myself I need to quit. I also have some fucking mental disorder and I literally can’t handle shit. Im literally the shittiest fucking person there is. Im 17, don’t have a license let alone a permit. Not to mention Im an actual fuck boy and I hate myself for that. I let people control my actions and its fucking disgusting. Everyone thinks that I have it so easy …

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am 11:11

July 5th, 2017by mynameisnight

“you’re ugly. and fat. and disgusting. like the shit of a pig. and no one is gonna love you.
how so silly. why do you think somebody will loves someone as ugly as you, when even your very own mother does not?
you’re such a waste of space and time. you should’ve died when your mother tried to aborted you 26 years ago. why do you have to be born? why do you have to life? you don’t deserve happiness. you don’t deserve to be loved. you’re that one child that was not supposed to have been born. you’re a huge mistake. unwanted, even by people you …

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What’s the point?

July 4th, 2017by xstayalivex

I don’t see the point of trying anymore. I’ve been suffering from some form of depression and anxiety since high school and that was seven years ago. And nothing seems to have helped/gotten better. The past year and a half especially has been a struggle. I’ve been in and out of the hospital for suicidal ideation, self harm, and failed attempts. When am I going to get a reprieve from these dark thoughts? I’m tired of wanting to kill myself.

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I Fucked Up

July 1st, 2017by TheRoadSoFar

Losing a true friend always hurts. No matter how many times it has happened to me, I can never get used to it (especially when you have like 3 friends and you can’t afford to lose anyone, like me). Worse of it all, if it’s my fault. Here’s the story of how it happened…

What started like a fun party turned for the worse, when one of my closest friends started feeling pretty bad because of the alcohol. In the end, he suffered an alcohol overdose and was rushed to the hospital. We all hoped we would hear from him that week. But we didn’t.

Today I …

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Is this a reason to stay?

July 1st, 2017by themessenger

Since I was thirteen, I struggle with depression and anxiety. When these problems started, it was not that big, it was just feeling down and sad more than others do. I had suicidal thoughts back then, but it was just the “well it would stop if I killed myself” and I didn’t seriously consider committing.

But with time it has gotten worse and right now I feel so heavy and awful, carrying on with my normal days is really hard and my anxiety is so bad. I see suicide as the option and I have it planned, I just am afraid of the consequences of my …

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Please Pray that my Ovary Tubes Disappear

June 28th, 2017by BlueDiamond

I know it’s the stupidest thing ever. Doesn’t matter, if you believe God or not just do it, or better not, come down here, and operate on me, and rip these son of bitches out of here, and even better, kill me by ripping my heart out or something. Pray that my ovaries with all my eggs catch on fires and that any guy who lusts at me may his dick shrivel so far that it ends up next to his anus. I’m serious. The world might be a better place, maybe you might save some lives.

I got into an argument with my dad and …

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xx

June 26th, 2017by Folfanda

Yesterday was my birthday, things weren’t looking up so I took about 20 of the only over the counter sleeping pill my parent’s had (they don’t take much) and I swallowed them down with a soda. I though it would be a peaceful, surreal, almost lovely experience, but as I sat outside on the hammock I started to feel dazed and tired, my body just kind of bobbed around for a few minutes, I thought I could just lay down and drift, but the feeling only intensified, and though its what I wanted, naturally my body responded negatively to the effects of the pills, and

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Horrible Grandmother

June 26th, 2017by Sad Song

Longtime lurker, first time poster. The first few times trying to log in were unsuccessful. Well, I’m fed up, and just thought I could post here. I tried the blue whale game to kill myself, didn’t work.. The curator gave up on me. Anyyyyway…. I just got done listening to my racist, emotionally, verbally abusive grandmother rant about how my sensitivity to gluten is fake… Bullshit. I throw up like crazy and get sick. Fake my ass. I started cutting, and stopped, and started again today.. She treats me like human garbage. My brother is… Different to say the least. She compares him and his behavior …

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40… still breathing

June 25th, 2017by Milestiba

I don’t write much because it takes my phone forever on this site to type on a post. Infuriating!! Commenting is easier. So my post is in comments below.

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Drama

June 24th, 2017by calisto131

Being back home from college…it brings back bad memories. And Im reminded how toxic my family can be. I ache to get the fuck out of here but that’s not until September. Relapsing hard.

Going back to drugs.

Going back to my ex who dumped me.

Letting myself be mislead by a boy who has a girlfriend.

I’m a horrible person. We all are.

I try to ignore it all and act like it’s whatever. As if I’m going along with everything that’s going on and see where it takes me but…I’m too fuken sensitive for that.

I just want to escape all the drama. End it all.

Realized I measure my …

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why God tortured me like that?

June 24th, 2017by an_old_child

after years of suffering, it’s getting good at last.

i think i’m feeling happy and it seems to last for a while. the question here is, why did God tortured me like that?

i know that the day would come that everything will turn upside down again and i will feel down and suicidal -since no happiness is everlasting and no sadness, too- and i think that i’m not ready for that day.

i definitely feel stronger than before all these things happened to me – i don’t really want to say what i’m referring to by “these” – but i don’t like the idea of being put …

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