Rants

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Am I selfish.?

  October 7th, 2018 by Virus.Found

I can not get over it, that things will never be fair. I’m too sensitive about everything. I’m in chronic pain and Doctors could never help me. Or maybe I think I just couldn’t help myself. For 9 years I’m into this Depression and it just got worse. It started early in school, that I realized that something was not right. About me and the tiring reality to go to school everyday. Other Kids seemed so careless. I came too late everyday. It started with 5 Minutes, then 10, then 30 and sometimes I missed the first period. I think I must be a broken …

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Numb

  October 6th, 2018 by Undecided13

I’m in that point of life when I could no longer feel the sadness, no longer feel the pain. I could no longer feel anything. Its like I’m just numb. Just drifting into the darkness that had broken me more times that I could count. So much pain, I wished for it all to disappear. I wanted to escape, because I am too much a coward to face it. I guess I got my wish, then.

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I have no one

  October 4th, 2018 by Itscolourlife

They said your family, friends, or someone in this world
There must be someone who can help you
No..
Ive tried it..

I try to tell them but they are not there
I try to tell my friends but they got annoyed and leave me at the end
I try to tell my mom but she just said get over it
I try to tell my sister but she just said im stress too
I try to tell my dad but he said you are worthy try your best

Im trying but i never been there
What I want to be
What I want to have
Kill me
Please kill me
Please

They said the one you left will have …

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“People are allowed to hate/dislike/criticize you.”

  October 3rd, 2018 by JustSomeGuy4455

No they’re not.

If you ever try to criticize me for advocating for myself, whether it be through feminism or something else, I’ll make you pay.

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If you have ever been to the hate-group known as DeviantArt, you’ll know what I am about to get into.

I am an autistic asexual, and I am full of ideas. I dream everyday and night of worlds where nothing exists and yet everything exists. I dream of worlds that defy logic and characters that follow their own reasoning. For example, what if there was a world out there that was basically a living videogame? What if this world was in a …

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70k+ posts

  October 2nd, 2018 by Yikrens

i know a music thread with 60000 posts.

this page here is different. 2 user do not make of about 20% of that entries, guessed.

it is impossible to have a overview about. do you think that’s with the no partners rule?

i’m critical about if I use this page right or if the support can explain me. i maybe just lack suicidality and fear of free things..

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This is why I have trust issues

  October 2nd, 2018 by GerbzBaby

When I finally think I found the person(s) in my life to help me through hardships and show me that I can trust others again, I’m let down. Again. And again. And again. It’s to the point we’re I’m completely numb to it. I tell myself “You know it’s coming, it’s only a matter of time.” Then, eventually it happens. I tried to tell him that what he thought wasn’t true. That I just want him to understand. That I did appreciate him, but I need time for myself. He keeps thinking I’m making excuses not to talk to him. “You just don’t want to …

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My own rant about my brother owing me money

  October 2nd, 2018 by SuicidalThoughtsButRefuseToKillMyself

This isn’t about suicide but this is more or less a rant about my older brother owing me money that he’ll never be able to pay me back which I am tired of having an older brother who can’t be responsible for his own actions and keeps asking me for money I am tired having to see things from his perspective about the choices which led to his mistakes which has its own consequences one thing we humans don’t always realize is that yes we choose our own mistakes due to our own poor reasonsing or judgement or whatever the point is that it is …

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I don’t care for “free speech.”

  October 1st, 2018 by JustSomeGuy4455

For decades now, people have asserted that I have the right to be abused, misrepresented, and et cetera.

This pisses me off so much.

I have been demonized for who I am since elementary school for my autism. I’ve been demonized since middle school for questioning my sexuality. I’ve been demonized since high school for not believing in God.

Now, that I’m in college and have to deal with the “alt-right” calling me a “millennial special snowflake triggered cancer SJW” for just being who I am, I’m going to say loud and proud that I HATE FREEDOM OF SPEECH.

Here come the mobs calling me a Nazi.

I say thanks …

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Im garbage and that is all

  October 1st, 2018 by maddie_kay

I was helping some newish people at work last night. This girl was doing extra work for no reason, i told them nicely that they didnt need to do that (didnt explain that we didnt have time to clean that spot for ao long, we were pretty busy).The chick stared at me, mumbled and continued to take her sweet ass time. Im tired of being disrespected. Im a senior worker. I thought that would mean something to someone, but it never does. It just makes me over think my life. Ive stayed up all night. I coulsnt sleep so now i had to go have …

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I’m Sorry

  September 30th, 2018 by impuretama

I’m sorry I’m ugly

I’m sorry I’m useless

I’m sorry that I’m not smarter

I’m sorry that I’m not more athletic

I’m sorry for being so annoying

I’m sorry for being a piece of shit

I’m sorry that I’m not better at my job

I’m sorry that I’m fat

I’m sorry that I can’t cook better meals

I’m sorry that weak

I’m sorry that I’m emotional

I’m sorry that I’m so pathetic

I’m sorry to anyone that has to deal with me

I’m sorry that I exist

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Can People Please Shut Up About “Bad” Fandoms?!

  September 30th, 2018 by JustSomeGuy4455

Seriously.

Shut up.

There is an old quote that I have very easily warmed up to, and it goes that smaller minds discuss people, things, and events while the better minds discuss ideas. I don’t know who originally said this, but I feel that is strongly correlates to a number of issues I’ve got with certain forms of entertainment. I may sound like hypocrite because I myself am discussing a certain type of people, but the idea behind it bears word that needs to be spoken now more than ever.

You read the title of this rant so I am going to cut to the chase. Can people …

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The times of my family and husband

  September 27th, 2018 by angeldiamond

I’ve been beatin

I’ve been shamed

I’ve been lost for so long

My family doesn’t know me

My friends aren’t there anymore

I don’t know where to go

I don’t know…………

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Inner Dialogue

  September 27th, 2018 by FairFairAndCold

This conversation took place in my mind today:
Me- Wow, this Jell-o sure is tasty.
Ideation- You should definitely kill yourself right now. With that spoon.
Me- Literally??? I was talking about Jell-o??? Why are you like this???
Depression- No, no, he has a good point.

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questioning

  September 26th, 2018 by undoubtedly

do these countless hours and years of self-deprivation mean anything?

do i not matter if i was not thin to begin with? do i not matter if i eat?

is my sickness real? am i sick at all?

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i cant tell my friends these things

  September 23rd, 2018 by amesstoconfess

i need to cut now
but i have a thing next weekend that has me showing my arms, and i dont want to cut anywhere else
it feels good to cut my arm
theres still scars from 8 months ago
i dont know if the boy i think i love cares enough
i want to delete all my social medias and stop talking to people
i want to sleep
and not have to worry about school or work
or family
we are dying
i hate it here

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I Hate My Parents

  September 23rd, 2018 by robieli

I hate my mother. She among others say life is worth living, however from what I see and what I am, I cannot imagine a greater punishment than can be inflicted on a person than life itself. I wish I was that baby she aborted, I’d prefer them to deal with life’s awfulness, instead of me. Why did I have to be born, I don’t understand. I definitely hate my father. He is a foul, lowlife, useless piece of trash that disgraces the concrete and carpet he walks on. That fact this fraud is my father is shameful and disturbing. I hate them for creating …

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The despair is starting to lift a bit.

  September 22nd, 2018 by NiceGuy2001

When New Years Eve arrives, IF it arrives for me, I think I will be very happy to say goodbye to 2018, because this year has been the most difficult and painful year of my entire life.

The despair hit me again a couple of days ago. Every time the despair hits, it wears me down a little bit more, and sometimes I think there will be nothing left. And this time the despair was pretty bad. On the one-to-ten scale of despair, this was about an eight. But it’s starting to lift a bit. I hope I can hold on. If I don’t, I think …

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Shit, I want to die so much now

  September 22nd, 2018 by lostallhope123

He kept asking me to leave him and move, he wanted me to break up with him first and he did not want to end it first. He told me he can take the blame even if I leave him first. Because, we don’t have a future together. He is not ready to think of even giving it a try, instead he wants me to accept the reality and move on.

He says we both knew it right from day 0 when we started this relationship. He stopping coming near me even via texts, he is now ready to turn back and leave. I’m trying so …

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Out of My Face Boy

  September 20th, 2018 by Itscolourlife

I will never ever try to or fall in love again to anyone
Cause no one will understand the pain I got
Even tho I tell you all about it
You still dont understand
Am I to selfish to you??
Yes I am
Am I too moody?
Yes I am
Im already told you THIS IS ME
Im still under depression and still hating everyone around me
You said I LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE
But YOU DONT
Look what you have done ?!
You make it worse
Just go away from my life
Im not here to share happiness with you
I cant give happiness to you
Cause I dont have one
Im not like the other
I cant cry even …

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I wish I was stupid

  September 19th, 2018 by RelicThinker

I don’t believe I’m “good” person, if there’s such thing as being good. I believe I am the furtherest thing from it, despite what others tell me.

I’ve tried to be the “good” person I dreamed of and what people wanted me to be, yet I fall back on my annoying habits. I’m lazy, manipulative, unhealthy, very paniky under stress, and my most disliked, fortgetfull.

Being forgetful has been a blessing and a curse, the blessing is when I have a bad day I can go to sleep and wake up refreshed, forgetting what happened yesterday. The curse is I start to forget the simplest things when …

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