I’m not sure why I bother

May 24th, 2010by pointlessburden

I think I’m here hoping that venting out some of my feelings might help me make it through. Maybe make me feel better. I won’t say happy just better.

I’m 37 years old and I’m a screw up. I’m finally the end of  horrible 10 year marriage, with a mentally ill person.

In the past few weeks I’ve seem to have lost just about everything.  The worst being the most perfect person I’ve ever met. She made me feel happy and content in ways I can’t explain, and I thought it was the same for her. Our only problem was distance. And in truth me, I screwed up …

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May 21st, 2010by erased_orion

I’ve been a member of this site for a while now, and really…I haven’t been on this page for about 5 months because I thought everything was going to be fine. Someone helped me stop cutting, I was doing okay at school. And then today, my stupid dad just…

My parents want me to stop going to school because we just can’t afford it right now…heh. It’s nothing new, I’m pretty sure tons of students are facing the same thing. It’s just that…I was going to be a junior in high school. I was so excited for everything, prom and thinking about college. And now, just 3 weeks before …

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My Life is a Failure

May 19th, 2010by A Lonely Soul

Through out my whole life I was that kid over there. No one ever seemed to like me so I was forced to create an entire personality and live a lie. The one thing the brought me joy was being praised for my intelligence. I even recieved 2 schoarships to my current private school. Well my family is kinda poor so that helped a lot and they bragged about it and I felt a little good. Now I am failing out and might have to leave the school. I’m just a dissapointment again.

Since I was little my only goal was to graduate highschool and then …

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May 17th, 2010by nicky

Me at my school seeing my dead boyfriend. i think im going crazy.

me: Why did you leave?

him: Because you wouldn’t listen to me.

Me: that didnt give give the right to do it.

Him: yes it did. i told you not to go.

Me:  Come back. I wont do it again i promise.

Him: Its to late im gone. you should have thought twice i just did that to protect you and you just went behind my back and did what you always have done.

Me: But i had to i didn’t do anything wrong you were just to scared to do what anyone else would have done. you …

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exactly nothing left just one more to go..me

May 17th, 2010by nicky

What if it happens again. What if everything changes. Everything’s gone down a big hill and now its almost over. Since you left every things changed everything including me. Nothings the same i feel nothing sometimes its so hard to see. i do so many things that you would be ashamed of things that you would stop me from doing. But not now anymore no ones going to stop me. i want to die i just want to leave this world full of lies people that cant control anything. i thought that i would never be like this again i promised myself but that doesn’t …

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Life is a game.

May 16th, 2010by Rockstar8587

You know, why go on living right?

Though I have tried suicide, and was given another chance to live. I am still miserable every now and then, yet there are ways to get over it. Forcing yourself to smile, actually does work; it is scientifically proven. The mind and body work together.

But I don’t know if it is just me, or some of you may think the same. But life is pretty pointless; existentialist make it seem pointless to the extreme, yet are they correct? Even though I may agree, I still see life as an immense possibility. You and I were created, thousands of things …

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May 12th, 2010by SempaiRuinz

Yes, sir.

No, sir.

Yes, ma’am.

No, ma’am.

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writer with no voice

May 10th, 2010by darkgermandeath

You write down how you feel. but people dont really know how hurt you are cause they cant hear your voice the tune the stutter the pain. suicide is the right thing to do.

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Those people…

May 8th, 2010by Lock and Key

What’s their problem?
What do they know?
It might not seem like a big deal to them,
but maybe it’s because they don’t know the full story
and haven’t been through anything close to as heart breaking as it.
Some kid comes up to me and says “When someone gets bad grades they cut themselfs or for any stupid pointless reason” I felt so agrivated and sorry. I was agrivated because of him, and I felt sorry because his girlfriend was a straight up cutter like me. I wanted to bash his face in so much, but since I can’t risk gettig suspended I didn’t. He’s extreamly lucky. I hate …

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my suicidal tales

May 5th, 2010by death4life

i have been depressed for years…since i was 11 and started middle school. god knows, it started with ‘voices’. that’s the lie i’ve told everyone and to this day it haunts me how i can look someone straight in the face and tell a dark and deep lie.

many attempts were made…all included pills of some kind. it didn’t matter which ones…advil, aleeve, tylenol, parents prescription pills, solodyn, sleeping pills, anything.

but now…after years of attempts, about 2 months ago i was admitted into the psych ward emergency room at new york presbyterian hospital and i stayed there for 4 days (it was a cell…literally a three …

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Sleeping Pills = Yum

May 4th, 2010by Anna

An internet relation of confusion.

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Just Some Thoughts For You To Consider

April 28th, 2010by veronica

After briefly browsing through the posts on this blog, I immediately became panicked at the number of people who want to kill themselves.

And I’ve been there. I’ve been to that place where your chest feels like it weighs a thousand pounds, where you feel dark and cold and numb and totally alone. Where you feel like no one’s there to help you, no one wants to help you… I’ve been there. And I’ve come back, though still affected.

Depression happens, just for some (like us) it takes a stronger toll. It’s been almost 4 years since my depression first started due to bullying at school. However, I …

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April 22nd, 2010by searching4life

I wonder if there is any impact of me in this world.

I wonder if anybody cared for me.

I wonder if it would matter to anyone, if I am no longer here in this world.

Everyday, my mother will show how much she disapproves of me. Although I was a first class student.

I don’t understand how to cope with my working life, although it’s been 3 years that I am working. I cannot feel my value.

The only person who seems to show some care is my boyfriend, but I think my negativity is so strong that it burdens him.

And sometimes, listening to his dreams and plans, I …

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The romance of it all…

April 14th, 2010by z

I am in another sway of emotion these days, seeking the idealization.  There are so many people left behind, the suicide survivors that voice this sadness and displeasure, while never really comprehending our lifetime of sadness and displeasure.  I wasn’t cut-out for all of this.  So when I think of suicide, I tend to not think of the disappointment I will cause the people in my life…I mean, I do, but–lately–there is a bigger chunk of me that idealizes the perfect moment.  That peaceful fade that I have afforded myself–through careful planning–sometime in the near future.  I have my way out, just waiting.  Not and …

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I know it’s nothing, but..

April 7th, 2010by unsuresoul

I actually am quite unsure about what to do. My life seems so normal on the surface, and I don’t have any mental problems (at least I think so.)

But I lost my dad two years ago, he killed himself with the exhaust fumes of his car, not telling anyone what he was going to do before. All he left was a note saying ‘I’m sorry.’ and his flat keys.
And ever since that, I haven’t been the same. Sure, I guess I can still talk to people normally and am fairly intelligent, but everything inside me just feels so numb. Most of the time I am …

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Permission To Commit Suicide

April 6th, 2010by z

So I finally move out of a horrible living situation and move into a new apartment and bam! I find a roach in my bathroom, albeit small one, but still, a roach.

Derailed my whole “new reality” I was trying to create. Lame. Deflated.

So a couple of weeks ago I told my mother I had a psychologist put the diagnostic manual to my brain and it turned out I have borderline personality disorder and severe depression. She told me not to take such tests. Good advice. But when I told her I was on anti-depressants at one point–a year prior,

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March 25th, 2010by magp1001

I’ve watched everything I do fail.  Every attempt I’ve made to make this pointless, bullshit, unfair thing I have called a life liveable has backfired, leaving me in worse shape than I was before I started.

As it currently stands, I freak out 10 times a day, and I spend hours every day lamenting and bemoaning my position.

Blaming me for this is like throwing gas on the house, throwing a match on it, then saying that the house was faulty.

This happens *every* time; not just once or twice, but *every* time.  I’ll admit that I’m less-than-perfect, and I’ve made mistakes, but I can’t, for the life …

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#2. Sunday and Monday’s suicide attempts.

March 24th, 2010by loopey

Someone please help… I am stuck and in distress and running out of options.  This is me, and I am breaking down. Since I last wrote, I decided to kill myself.

Spent days thinking about it, that it was the right thing to do.  Decided on a method that I could actually realistically do.  There are many places I could jump from, but none were as reliable and surefire as the place I had in mind, because it’s a ridiculously fatal cliff and a place of outstanding beauty.  On the morning of the attempt, I text a friend who I had met in …

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I’m Done

March 19th, 2010by dasw13

I done with of this.I going to end it all on the Monday we come back from spring break on the 29th….I want some people to feel bad for what they could have done to help.I’m planing on taking about 50 Tylenol pills with some wine……not much like a little less than a cup…..I’ve already taken about 20 Tylneol three different times so who knows how bad my liver is now……I wonder if anyone would even care…
Probably will but I don’t care that much.No would even care after awhile.Let alone even notice I was gone after a few days.Oh well I guess I’m

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Desolate, hopeless, desperate. My inevitable suicide.

March 19th, 2010by loopey

Hi.  My name is Lucy, I am 20.  I feel much older.  Before dismissing me as an emo teenager, please read a little of this.  I might be 20, but I’ve been through more than most people ever do – both good and bad things.  But it’s the bad things that get to you, wear you down.

I don’t know where to start – it seems like there have been so many starts, so many horrible life events and so much negativity.  I am currently actively suicidal.  The thought of dying will not leave my head – I’m pretty sure by this point that I only …

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