Rants

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Its always darkest before the dawn right? Where did the fucking Sun go?

July 19th, 2009by Stoshua18

Well it’s been an interesting time in my life. I’ve spent almost 2 months of it in a mental hospital separated with a girlfriend of almost 3 years, mother of my third son who will be 2 tomorrow.  Started a relationship with another woman who I have to say, I love dearly.  I just don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I can’t bring myself to live a ‘normal’ life where I am a responsible adult and 9-5 and family one weekends. I left out in disability in December of last year about 3 months after FINALLY seeing a psychiatrist and being diagnosed with …

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Help

July 15th, 2009by painterofmusic

Does anyone have skype that I could talk to? I really need someone. And please, if you’re just going to call 911 or someone and turn me in, don’t bother. You’d be hurting far more than you’d be helping. But if anyone can and they’re online right now, my URL is trippingovercrazy. I don’t have any friends, or I’d go to them.

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Feeling despondent..

July 14th, 2009by Adelleda

I’m not even sure how to describe my feelings at the moment…
I feel like a complete failure, I’m feeling dejected and empty.
It seems that everything I attempt ends in failure or misery, due to lack of motivation
and just feeling completely worthless. I’m not even sure why I have suicidal thoughts once in a while.
I think I just like to entertain the thought in order to help me feel ‘comfortable’.
I don’t think I would ever act upon it because I’d be too afraid to carry it out and I would not like to burden
any of my immediate family. When I read others stories I can’t …

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Need to get it out

July 12th, 2009by LostInDarkness

I was wondering have you ever written in a journal everything that you are thinking to get it out to someone, feel better and then throw it away?  I was reading an article in the newspaper and it’s all about mental health in Canada and how the system sucks.  It had some people’s stories.  The more I read it the more I realized that post partum wasn’t the begining for me but a trigger.  Now I think about all the nights up in the middle of the night just writing and writing until I finally fell asleep and when I got up and read …

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Mind Over Matter

July 11th, 2009by Smilegoddammit

I wanted to stop hurting. Things werent getting better fast enough so i though they never would. So i pressed fast forward and sped things up a bit.

I was dying. and oooooh, it felt nice. I had just invented my very own coctail and oh it was to die for.
Heres the recipie in case you wanna try it;

*20 over the counter sleeping pills
*20 Vicodin
*20 Tylonal 3 (thats the good shit with codiene)
*and god knows how many ibprophen (i had a botttle of 500 but didnt take them all…)

*drink soda (it makes the pills less sticky) and enjoy!!

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pls help

July 10th, 2009by neeraj

im a 17yr old boy i a came to a new school after passing out 10th grade that yr i fall inlove with a girl .she showed intrest in me but and said she loves me but fter a month or so i found out that she was in a relationship with some one else ,after knowing this i cried ,creid like any thing cause i had lots of trust upon that girl .even after this i stayed with her  but again she cheated me . for her i sacrifised everything but she still cheated me till this time 1yr passed away ……..after this also …

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My World

July 10th, 2009by bjs22

I am a 26 year old guy that came from a great family, married an incredible women, and fathered the most precious little girl 2 years ago last month! My life was amazing and then I became addicted to prescripton drugs. My entire world has been turned upside down and I have deeply deeply hurt my amazing wife (who left me in Febuary) my parents, my siblings, and my baby girl. I have gone through rehab and I go to meetings, but tonight I found out that my wife is ready to move forward with her life and that I am not included in those …

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the Past

July 7th, 2009by icedullieth

I’m not sure how to really do this but here I go:

My senior year of high school was the worst year ever. I was struggling in my classes, it wasn’t looking like I was going to graduate, my parents were constantly disappointed in me, tellling me to grow up, and I had few actual friends. My stress level day after day just kept rising and rising, until it hit the point where I had to cause pain to myself to lower it. I started cutting myself. For a while the cutting really helped. Then a friend saw the cuts and freaked out. She went around …

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DONE WITH THIS SITE

July 5th, 2009by darkgermandeath

I’m done with this site all it has done is give me false hope for happiness when the only way i’ll be happy is if im away from every one except for my future wife i feel she believes i dont love her and that im talking to nothing but girls so this is the last time you’ll here from me Goodnight to all

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VISIT TO THE HOSPITAL TONIGHT

July 4th, 2009by darkgermandeath

I WENT TO THE HOSPITAL TONIGHT IF YOU WANT TO KNOW THE WHOLE STORY EMAIL ME AT MEINREICHISTWUNDERBAR@GMAIL.COM

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Fake

July 2nd, 2009by Jeane

It’s so messed up. I don’t even know why I’m doing this. I guess the reason I want to die is because metaphorically I’m dying inside already, and I want life to end before I’m dead in there.
I’m an angry teenager too young to be classified as a teenager. The pain hurts. I want to cut myself like I did before when I had no reason to, and now I have reasons to and somehow I can’t bring myself to do it.
My relatives hate me because I’m silent, “unfilipino”, different. I can’t count how many times I’ve seen them ignore me. Ironically, I’ve

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Helpless.

July 1st, 2009by Jess66

I don’t know what to do anymore. Last night I sat there in my room in my closet with the scissors to my wrist cutting.. not very deep. and i just kept imagining me going a little bit deeper and slowly dying. I don’t WANT to do. I want to escape what I’m feeling and I can’t find a way to do that, my only outlet is death. I try so hard to be stable it’s like I’m either SUPER happy, SUPER sad, or SUPER something and all I do is get yelled at for it by my mother. I’m trying so hard I don’t …

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even at the Top im at the bottom

July 1st, 2009by darkgermandeath

When i feel im doing something good with my life something happens that shoots me into the ground.Being the youngest of five most would think i would be the babyed one the spoiled little bastard that gets what ever i ask for.And where i have received the things i had wanted im told its just because im the baby one,not that i had done something good enough for a reward.Always being told that beauty is the only way you’ll make in the world is depressing when you find your self disgusting at times i will act as if im happy so i dont bring …

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fuck it

June 29th, 2009by forgetkaitlin

you cant just fucking sit around for one god dam day and just feeling sorry for your self for a little bit

no not with out someone bitching at you saying its your own fault your life is shity

and that one person who says it is some stupid ***** who could give a fuck less about me but is sapposidly

sapossed to love me idk…… honestly im so angry at the world that i dont give a fuck about anything or any

one any more. Its like i cant show emotions

so i hide them become angry but have no one to take it out on…..

I just really dont …

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Guilt

June 26th, 2009by dreyaFR

I think it started when I was a lot younger than I am now. I now realize that in the past I fed off of guilt. Somehow, I liked the feeling of making people feel guilty, making them feel regret. And I was that way because I was sick and tired of myself being a magnet for those emotions. Maybe then, I wanted people to feel what I felt. Every little event that happened to me always started to build up through the days into something big, and I would always just look at the things I had done, and just say ‘Man, my life …

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Help for a plan to kill myself?

June 26th, 2009by youngblood

I’ve tried to kill myself so hard! In many times. I just wanna die, but I don’t know how. I mean, I need a plan to execute. Make a plan, I don’t know.. Some times life is a fuck contest of status, or beauty.. I can’t see my life better than.. that. My whole life was a fuck lie, and I have never seen one reason to live. I have never a relationship goodness, I don’t have friends, I mean.. I do, but its not the point. Isn’t my life, I don’t have plan for the future, I aways think in die, or something like that. I …

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I Plan but I don’t Execute

June 25th, 2009by bigred1221

I’ve thought about committing suicide for the past year of my life.  I’ve thought about cutting my wrists but have decided that would be too bloody and painful.  I’ve thought about jumping in front of a Semi, but then I couldn’t do it because of the compassion I felt for the poor sorry bastard driving the truck.  I’ve thought about shooting myself, but the only guns in the house belong to my dad, and I sure as hell am not dying by embedding one of his bullets in my brain; he got me here in the first place, and I won’t give him the satisfaction of knowing he has succeeded in killing me …

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How Do I [Title] Depression?

June 22nd, 2009by semicharmdlife8

I’m new here. But I’m not new to the concept. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of cutting. I’m tired of pulling my hair out in frustration. I’m tired of being hated. I’m tired of walking into a room and wanting to run out for fear of people thinking I’m crazy or annoying.

I hate me.

I’m a 19 year old girl in college persuing an astrophysics and math double major. Yeah, I know. Same reaction I get from everyone. “Do you have some sort of death wish!?” If they only knew the truth in that question.

I’m not going to list the reasons that I feel sorry …

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Done.

June 20th, 2009by Jess66

Hello there. My name’s Jessica. My age, ill say is under an adult, by far. Any ways, im here to tell you. if there is any listeners. i suppose not. but i will go on. im at quite a young age, and im very depressed. i was led to fall in love with this amazing girl. yes, girl. and she played to love me bakc for a while, and i had to sit there and watch her get like 3 different boy friends and after each one crushed her i was there to lean on for a bit. and that was that. i got so …

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*Sigh*

June 18th, 2009by CJ

I just ate something that I really don’t feel like throwing up. I’m just sitting here, not knowing what to do. And its not just for the moment. It’s not knowing what to do with my life. Who says I can’t play God with my own life? Nobody. I already have a huge bag full of aspirin in my room. I have a bottle of soda too. I know it probably won’t work like the two other times I tried it, and I will just silently throw up my guts in the bathroom while everyone is sleeping.

I read the one comment I got on my other …

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