Why do people even get depressed? I feel awful thinking about the many people who die per day from the cause of bullies. Or anything that will cause the fact of suicide.
Rants
Please give advice: Do counselors help you at all during times of loss, like 2 years ago? I was told that i sleptwalked down the stairs and was found with a knife in my hand. That was after my big sister ran away and we were told that she died while crossing the highway. I still cry. Why would she try that to me? She knew that if she left, I would do something drastic. I can not live with my parents, they never understand me. Only she does. Then she left me… please give advice. I need it. Apparently, when my teachers offered to […]
Last night I was warned again.
 Last night i was dancing on the line.
They’ve had enough.
I’m going back.
I won’t go quietly.
I’d rather die than fade
I watched for a while a string of “It gets better” videos. I kept thinking to myself – does it really get better? I think that through time, I have fooled myself into believing that for some, and perhaps for me it can actually get better. I don’t believe that anymore.
You don’t have to identify as a member of LGBT to feel the social isolation, the loneliness and the despair that this world brings to some in great amounts, and to others so little. I know now that some people are just simply meant to be happy, while others have to fight everyday to convince […]
I just want to sleep forever, is that too much to ask for?
I haven’t taken in fresh air for four months now. I haven’t even gone outside to take the trash out.Every day I order take away and I distract myself by playing my video games and watching my shows. I haven’t spoken to anyone except for the delivery guys. I’ve shut myself off from everything. None of  my friends can contact me now, nor can they physically come to me. I did this all so I would have no other alternative.
Can it really be called living, when every second, all you can think about […]
For a boy of 22, I have much more than most have. I am a full-time student, full-time worker, and I just recently won the heart of a beautiful girl, whom had given up on relationships years past. It seems really nice, doesn’t it? That’s because it is….
I have come to the conclusion that the happier I get, the greater the self-affliction thoughts pour into my mind. I’m sure I have some sort of mental ailment. In 2011, I started losing weight…almost 100 lbs gone since last April! I got a job finally (no longer a bum), full-time student now, and I caught my dream […]
Idk why but today i just really want to kill myself,i am in real need of someone to talk to
I just can’t stand another day living my life. I’m at my lowest and I think if I die my mom would be happy. Or not, ‘cos she and my stepfather and also my lazy half-siblings treats me like  I’m their cleaning lady and they won’t even give me a dime for everything that I do for them.
My mom says I can’t have a bad attitude because I’m not pretty, that everyone leaves me because of my sucky attitude. It’s sad that the person who should tell you that you’re beautiful is saying the opposite thing, to think that she’s my mother, and almost everyone […]
I feel as though i waited long enough and im ready to die.so.i.have a plan dont know when.im.going to exacute it but i know it will be soon
I grew up an average child, but gradually becoming more and more overweight as I grew. I talk to people about this, very few people I might add, but they keep giving me the same bullshit answer. “It gets better.” Well, I don’t think it’s getting better after 3 fucking years! I started cutting 3 years ago, during summer. I was on vacation and a fight went on between me and my mom, and I left, took out my knife and cut my throat. Ever so slightly. I didn’t want it to end this way. I wasn’t going to go down after the first cut. […]
It’s been so long.
Yet here I am, back where I started.
I can’t believe that a person could say this to me, with the knowledge that my brother is austistic…
“Respecting retards isn’t respectful. putting them out of their misery and doing them a favor, however… is.”
With that one sentence; that person has hurt me in every way possible.
He could have called me every name in the book: whore, dyke, ****, slut, *****, etc. and I wouldn’t have cared.
But having the balls to say that to me…to my brother…someone he doesn’t know….
How could someone say that?
How can they sleep at night knowing that by saying that they […]
Today had been a rather uneventful day. It was long, boring and full of drama only known to those who remain in schooling. Started off ok, but the abysmal ending left me in tears. It started off with my friends and I going to the plaza to find some thing to eat and just look around. At six or so, a group of guys we didn’t know started to flirt with me and my friends. They asked us to go out with them. We had said no and walked away. We bumped into them later and found ourselves getting followed around the place. We tried […]
I don’t know why but recently I do want to just disappear. Recently I have so much stresss from for finding a new job. Also my wife is not helping at all. She works, but she keeps on pushing me. To a point i just want to end it. Sometimes I just want a divorse and sometime I just want to end my life because of so much stress. I don’t know what I should do. Sometimes I pray that I won’t wakeup in the morning. That my life will end in my sleep. I don’t want to kill myself, because I think its wrong. […]
I can’t do any of this anymore. I tried so hard to do something new, to make myself happy. And guess what? It blew up in my f*cking face. Excuse the language. So, now I can’t see my best friend without wanting to cry my heart out. Long story short, I broke up with my boyfriend because I wasn’t happy, in general (not unhappy with him) and wanted space. Then, I find out my best friend is in love with me. A couple weeks later he has me wrapped around his little f*cking finger. Guess what I find out two days ago? He doesn’t want […]
I surely don’t. That is I don’t care about myself. I care so much about the people around me. The people I love. But why can’t I love me?? It just doesn’t happen for me. I try to think “of everything will be alright and I’m gonna love myself and how I look”. No. That’s not happening. I’d rather not love myself and suffer than lose the people I love the most. It takes me a lot of time to open up to anyone. It took me like over a year to open up to my best friend. But I did it. And now I […]
(I was going to put this as a comment under my picture but, I didn’t really want to start a big discussion there about jobs and the economy)
Please, would someone just listen to me? Sometimes I feel like I’m talking to a brick wall.
I really, honestly appreciate the thoughts and ideas for what I can do. However, I am not stupid. I KNOW my options. I know what to do and how to be and what to say. Even though I’ve talked about myself in a few posts and comments here doesn’t mean you really know me or what my life is like.
I […]
December 17th, 2011 at 2:31 am
im not sure what to say other than i know all your going thru seems like alot right now but life will get better for you it will just take time. I offer this to you becouse i dont want you to kill yourself, wich puzzles me becouse i am thinking of killing myself also and if i am going to end it why care if some totally random person on some blog does the same thing? I think its becouse my life has alot of simularities to yours except it was a long time ago that i […]
I’ve been calling people, reaching out for help, but all I get is a voice telling me to leave a message. Wait… hold on… I just heard gun shots. Two. They sound kind of far. Sorry about that, anyways back to what we were talking about.
At the beginning of 2012 I wrote a post, telling everyone here that I wished them the best, that we would get through all of our troubles together. I want to keep that promise, I want for all of us to find a light, a single light, and hand in hand, pull out of this darkness. Not that darkness is […]