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Liontamer

  July 27th, 2010 by droznig

“If you place something at the centre of your life that lacks the power to nourish, it will eventually poison you and destroy everything that you are.

As simple a thing as an idea, or your perspective of yourself or the world around you, no one can be the source of your contempt, it lies within, in the centre”

Lyrics to a song i heard once.

Lion tamer – Faithless

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searching for anything..

  July 27th, 2010 by thegirlwhostoppedtheworld

I’ve never done anything like this, expressed my emotions to strangers, well hell i’ve never expressed anything to any one but my one best friend. He knows my secrets, my darkness, and my occasional brightness.  It makes me wonder how many people there are out there, real people. People who can feel things who can understand.

I am not suicidal, nor do i have suicidal thoughts, but I’ve let it cross my mind once or twice.

I am not happy, Im not sad, not in love, not skinny, not fat, not tall, nor short.  i am average. I feel things very much the same way everyone else does. …

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Still Alive

  July 23rd, 2010 by anon81710

I think I should say this off record.
Dear Destiny.
You are the best thing to happen to my life.
You are the only reason I decided to live past that year.
You despise me now.
But you will be in my heart.
Forever.
I love you.

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Still Alone

  July 22nd, 2010 by anon81710

Still alive. A couple more days to make my choice. I’m calm now. I can cope with my anger. I just wanted a friend. I can just put on my happy face now, that’s normal. I sit in bed. In my small 2-bedroom apartment and I just can’t sleep. I just think about how lonely I am, how everyone around me glows with self-indulgent happiness. I just want to make them suffer sometimes. But that wouldn’t be fair at all. My life sucks, they know it, and it’s not their problem. Death is my choice this month. Next month I decide. Wonder what happens when …

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I’m not paranoid

  July 21st, 2010 by LessWorse

…I’m aware, and too many people are ignorant. The difference between ignorance and innocence is that innocence doesn’t last. Sooner than later someone realizes that there is something very very wrong with the world in general. When that happens, you cross the line forever: either you ignore that knowledge or you keep your innocence and you do something with that knowledge.

I have concluded that what’s wrong with the world is that there are evil monsters in the guise of humans hell-bent on killing as many of us as possible. And so, finding myself as powerless as the next blogger, I struggle with either hoping that …

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Another story for the site.

  July 16th, 2010 by Nikki

Another day of feeling like shit. What can I say I’m good at it? All I ever really here is how bad I am and can do. Here is my story.
When I was little life could do no harm. Ya there were a …

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homosexuality or death?

  July 14th, 2010 by flip92

So I’m a Christian….who happens to have homosexual desires. Why? I don’t know. Time and time again they have driven me to suicidal thoughts. Will this cycle ever stop?

I want to be straight. I really want to be straight. I want to be able to live my life just like any other person out there…but it’s so hard when you’re in a closet wondering if a lake of fire is waiting outside the door. I try so hard to believe that I am straight….just to please God. After all, I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve …

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crisis in midlife

  July 12th, 2010 by Alright23

Last October, after 10 years of being together and 3 kids, My wife and I split. We were and remain pretty toxic towards eachother. I was her enabler, and she was my reason to limit myself.
Let me clarify:
As a husband, I believe it is important to take into consideration the path which your decisions will take your family. With a partner I think one should make those decisions together.
After 9/11 I went to enlist. The reaction I got from my newly-wedded spouse was, “I don’t want to be a military wife. I know there re benefits, but I don’t want to be alone. If you …

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In my heart I begged her not to go (revisited).

  July 1st, 2010 by Vincent

My story of survival from suicide after my break up.

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ranting after braking up with BF

  June 30th, 2010 by Nikki

Has anyone ever had to see the one they love.. love someone els. do u know the heartbreak an the tears that come with it. i think that everyone who has felt this dose one of two things
One: die inside but show the world that ur ok
or
Two go insane.
why dose this heart ripe apart and shatter into a million shards.
“I love you!” is a sick ass joke that asshole made up. there is no love there is no soul mate and there sure as hell no one that can protect you. so i say dont trust and so what if the world fucks …

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Have you seen?

  June 30th, 2010 by Nikki

Ppl will fall and ppl will rise. the good thing is there are then ppl who will not only help but lift you up with here own problems.the light of the world grows on that and if you are good and the angels are nice that day then you will grow with the world. but then if the angels never come around and the demons seem to pile up then the only thing to do is fight back. No mater what it is not right to surender and lay down. if by surendering you give up what make you you then your squewed.

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So tired

  June 30th, 2010 by rollergirl1234

I’m new to this site. My name is Hannah. I’m a severe self-harmer. I cut, burn, hit, anything to feel pain. I’ve been hospitalized 3 times because of it. I’ve also been hospalized for Bulimia Nevosa, which I’ve been suffering from for 2 years. I have Bipolar-depression, GAD (generalized anxiety disorder), acrophobia, and PTSD. I’ve been having a hard time lately. Schools ou, which means nothing can distract me from my life. My addictions. My “drugs”. It seems like everything is spinning out of control. Emotions turning left and right and left again. I’m keeping secret after secret after secret. I’m lying about everything. My …

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i can’t do this anymore.

  June 30th, 2010 by tallibee

Everytime I have a moment of happiness, a moment of peace, it is taken from me.

I was in love with a friend who I only knew for a short amount of time, but above that he was someone who I let in behind the masks. Of course he broke my heart. I don’t know what I expected. No one wants a worthless screw up like me…. no one wants a girl who is ugly either.

and I dont just mean on the outside. Inside I’m ugly. I’m filled with such venom. Such hatred. for everything. for everyone, but mostly for myself. I hate when people say …

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fragile

  June 28th, 2010 by nwinn5

why does it only take one small thing to demolish all the hard work you have done to get to the mental point you are at, at this very moment in time, one hurtful comment or slip in judgement could be the thing than pushes you over the edge, the person could have no idea how you are feeling inside but still chose to say what they feel like. another thing that can sets me off is listen to music that is about relationships, the one thing that used to make me happy now kills me deep inside, but there is nothing I can do …

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The stress and pain increasing to high level

  June 28th, 2010 by Wahunter2008

Today, as I talked to my wife how to save our marriage, I poured out my deepest thoughts to her, as she listened with little or no compassion . My heart just cracked in a millon parts and the small light I did see at the end of the tunnel was destroyed. All the thoughts of ending my life came running back faster than. Ever.

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I’m tired of this shit

  June 25th, 2010 by Amulet09

I hate my fuckin’ life. I normally don’t ever cuss (actually I never do in real life), but the itnernet is a unique place for this sort of venting. First off, what triggered me to write this post is the fact that I’ve been really depressed lately so I’ve only been living off of caprisuns since last friday. Since then I’ve lost 8 pounds and am now 104-5ish. That’s not the problem. My mom ever since her dad went to live with my aunt with their new baby I’ve been picking up more chores around the house lately. Everyday, my mom keeps screaming at me …

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Had enough of everything- I just want out :(

  June 25th, 2010 by gilmoregirl

Okay- I may only be 17 so some would say that I am too young and have my whole life ahead of me, but right now it honestly doesn’t seem to be worth it. I’ve already half heartedly attempted to overdose twice but I’ve always made sure that the amount I take is relatively small so that deep down I know I probably won’t actually kill myself- I just go through the process.

My whole life I have aimed towards becoming a vet and recently, I’ve realised that this probably won’t happen because I’m not accademically strong enough- I’m close and its literally probably only by …

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Can’t take much more!

  June 22nd, 2010 by ChangingSlowly

I just want to vent and hopefully get some input from some complete strangers with the hopes that you can picture what I’m saying and be completely honest.

First I’ll start with a little about me, I’m a single parent of three kids…..ages 3, 4 and 5. I’ve been unemployed for fours years and have no income at all. I was let go from my job right after my second child was born but had an excellent employment record with my employer.  My kids and I live with a friend and I completely feel like I’m free loading. I do odd jobs here and there to help out

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Am I not worth it?

  June 20th, 2010 by loreildarksky

I have a family. My parents are still married, and no one has died. No one is on drugs… (or at least I’m pretty sure that no one is…). But I hate it.

We say we love each other, but do we? I’m thinking it depends on what we’re thinking love is. If love is putting someone down, then saying, “Just kidding, I love you,” and laughing about the hurt look on your face, then maybe we do.

Or maybe we are just ignoring how we feel. Both ourselves and our family.

Personally, I don’t know, and I don’t really care, which actually scares me. Not caring about …

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way away, away from here i’ll be.

  June 16th, 2010 by careex

i’d like to get out of my house.

my father is extremely verbally abusive. more than a year ago, he lost his job. he’s only gotten worse since then. i often get out of the house & walk to my best friend’s house, makeup completely washed away from tears. too bad i always have to go back. i’d do anything to stay at my friend’s house; her family actually likes me. they care about me.

i grew severly depressed 2 & 1/2 years ago, and for a few months it dissipated as i fell in love. but later, i realized it was just a distraction. and now

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