Rants

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A long road… approaching a dead end?

  July 28th, 2009 by convict

I’m a twenty year old in college… and there’s a lot that’s happened in the past few years that has made me question life in its entirety. Prior to my senior year in high school, my father was diagnosed with lung and esophagus cancer. It was a difficult struggle to see the dramatic changes my life took in terms of my family, friends, and my responsibilities. I took it upon myself to acquire a job and help with the family. I fought and struggled and did my best to help with the family in hopes that my father would get better. …

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Jaded

  July 28th, 2009 by TWonline

I never thought things would come to this… but here I am, writing.

At age 25 I found out that I had to have urgent open heart surgery to replace my aortic valve. I was in 60% heart failure without even knowing it and could have died at any time. I had the procedure done, and am alive and kicking… though I opted for a tissue valve (so I could enjoy a higher quality of life) and was told that it would only last roughly ten years. It is now three years later, I just turned 28, and post-traumatic stress disorder finally kicked in. I moved …

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  July 22nd, 2009 by CoryJK

Dear Suicide Project,

FML.  I want to kill myself, but my fear of eternal damnation in hell keeps me from doing so.  Would someone kindly shove a knife through my heart.

XOXO’s

Cory

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Love?

  July 22nd, 2009 by Jess66

Ok, so life hasn’t been so great lately. So there’s this girl who said she loved me a few days ago, and I LOVED her for months and months and watched her get boy-friend after boy-friend while I’m almost certian she knew I was in love with her, so I was basically nothing to her when she had a boy-friend and when they cheated on her or broke up, Of course I was “the best” and “super amazing” because I’m so soft harted I CAN’T not forgive some one. And I just kept loving her. And now recently I knew I would never have her …

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  July 19th, 2009 by gini

hi there I’m 28yrs old and don’t know what to do anymore i have 4 kids which at the moment i don’t like I’ve been told that due to depression which Ive suffered for years since being a kid all i want to do is end all this for me and them as i know that as long as I’m here there not going to be happy and i no that wen i go they will all have loving happy places to go to life is so shit i just don’t know how to cope i no how im gonna do it i already told …

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Life and questions

  July 19th, 2009 by jeff24353

im 16 my name is jeff, i am depressed and dont know why, my mom and dad got a divorce when i was 5 and i live with my mom, i am a christian, i hav a fairly good relationship with both of my parents, i’m actually not a bad looking kid, but i havent had a girlfriend in like 3 yrs, i feel very along bc ppl say they are there for me, the they arent. but speaking of girls, there is this one, and i dont know about you other guys (PLEASE TELL ME IF YA’LL DO THIS) but every time you think …

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Its always darkest before the dawn right? Where did the fucking Sun go?

  July 19th, 2009 by Stoshua18

Well it’s been an interesting time in my life. I’ve spent almost 2 months of it in a mental hospital separated with a girlfriend of almost 3 years, mother of my third son who will be 2 tomorrow.  Started a relationship with another woman who I have to say, I love dearly.  I just don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I can’t bring myself to live a ‘normal’ life where I am a responsible adult and 9-5 and family one weekends. I left out in disability in December of last year about 3 months after FINALLY seeing a psychiatrist and being diagnosed with …

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Help

  July 15th, 2009 by painterofmusic

Does anyone have skype that I could talk to? I really need someone. And please, if you’re just going to call 911 or someone and turn me in, don’t bother. You’d be hurting far more than you’d be helping. But if anyone can and they’re online right now, my URL is trippingovercrazy. I don’t have any friends, or I’d go to them.

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Feeling despondent..

  July 14th, 2009 by Adelleda

I’m not even sure how to describe my feelings at the moment…
I feel like a complete failure, I’m feeling dejected and empty.
It seems that everything I attempt ends in failure or misery, due to lack of motivation
and just feeling completely worthless. I’m not even sure why I have suicidal thoughts once in a while.
I think I just like to entertain the thought in order to help me feel ‘comfortable’.
I don’t think I would ever act upon it because I’d be too afraid to carry it out and I would not like to burden
any of my immediate family. When I read others stories I can’t …

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Need to get it out

  July 12th, 2009 by LostInDarkness

I was wondering have you ever written in a journal everything that you are thinking to get it out to someone, feel better and then throw it away?  I was reading an article in the newspaper and it’s all about mental health in Canada and how the system sucks.  It had some people’s stories.  The more I read it the more I realized that post partum wasn’t the begining for me but a trigger.  Now I think about all the nights up in the middle of the night just writing and writing until I finally fell asleep and when I got up and read …

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Mind Over Matter

  July 11th, 2009 by Smilegoddammit

I wanted to stop hurting. Things werent getting better fast enough so i though they never would. So i pressed fast forward and sped things up a bit.

I was dying. and oooooh, it felt nice. I had just invented my very own coctail and oh it was to die for.
Heres the recipie in case you wanna try it;

*20 over the counter sleeping pills
*20 Vicodin
*20 Tylonal 3 (thats the good shit with codiene)
*and god knows how many ibprophen (i had a botttle of 500 but didnt take them all…)

*drink soda (it makes the pills less sticky) and enjoy!!

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pls help

  July 10th, 2009 by neeraj

im a 17yr old boy i a came to a new school after passing out 10th grade that yr i fall inlove with a girl .she showed intrest in me but and said she loves me but fter a month or so i found out that she was in a relationship with some one else ,after knowing this i cried ,creid like any thing cause i had lots of trust upon that girl .even after this i stayed with her  but again she cheated me . for her i sacrifised everything but she still cheated me till this time 1yr passed away ……..after this also …

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My World

  July 10th, 2009 by bjs22

I am a 26 year old guy that came from a great family, married an incredible women, and fathered the most precious little girl 2 years ago last month! My life was amazing and then I became addicted to prescripton drugs. My entire world has been turned upside down and I have deeply deeply hurt my amazing wife (who left me in Febuary) my parents, my siblings, and my baby girl. I have gone through rehab and I go to meetings, but tonight I found out that my wife is ready to move forward with her life and that I am not included in those …

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the Past

  July 7th, 2009 by icedullieth

I’m not sure how to really do this but here I go:

My senior year of high school was the worst year ever. I was struggling in my classes, it wasn’t looking like I was going to graduate, my parents were constantly disappointed in me, tellling me to grow up, and I had few actual friends. My stress level day after day just kept rising and rising, until it hit the point where I had to cause pain to myself to lower it. I started cutting myself. For a while the cutting really helped. Then a friend saw the cuts and freaked out. She went around …

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DONE WITH THIS SITE

  July 5th, 2009 by darkgermandeath

I’m done with this site all it has done is give me false hope for happiness when the only way i’ll be happy is if im away from every one except for my future wife i feel she believes i dont love her and that im talking to nothing but girls so this is the last time you’ll here from me Goodnight to all

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VISIT TO THE HOSPITAL TONIGHT

  July 4th, 2009 by darkgermandeath

I WENT TO THE HOSPITAL TONIGHT IF YOU WANT TO KNOW THE WHOLE STORY EMAIL ME AT MEINREICHISTWUNDERBAR@GMAIL.COM

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Fake

  July 2nd, 2009 by Jeane

It’s so messed up. I don’t even know why I’m doing this. I guess the reason I want to die is because metaphorically I’m dying inside already, and I want life to end before I’m dead in there.
I’m an angry teenager too young to be classified as a teenager. The pain hurts. I want to cut myself like I did before when I had no reason to, and now I have reasons to and somehow I can’t bring myself to do it.
My relatives hate me because I’m silent, “unfilipino”, different. I can’t count how many times I’ve seen them ignore me. Ironically, I’ve

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Helpless.

  July 1st, 2009 by Jess66

I don’t know what to do anymore. Last night I sat there in my room in my closet with the scissors to my wrist cutting.. not very deep. and i just kept imagining me going a little bit deeper and slowly dying. I don’t WANT to do. I want to escape what I’m feeling and I can’t find a way to do that, my only outlet is death. I try so hard to be stable it’s like I’m either SUPER happy, SUPER sad, or SUPER something and all I do is get yelled at for it by my mother. I’m trying so hard I don’t …

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even at the Top im at the bottom

  July 1st, 2009 by darkgermandeath

When i feel im doing something good with my life something happens that shoots me into the ground.Being the youngest of five most would think i would be the babyed one the spoiled little bastard that gets what ever i ask for.And where i have received the things i had wanted im told its just because im the baby one,not that i had done something good enough for a reward.Always being told that beauty is the only way you’ll make in the world is depressing when you find your self disgusting at times i will act as if im happy so i dont bring …

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fuck it

  June 29th, 2009 by forgetkaitlin

you cant just fucking sit around for one god dam day and just feeling sorry for your self for a little bit

no not with out someone bitching at you saying its your own fault your life is shity

and that one person who says it is some stupid ***** who could give a fuck less about me but is sapposidly

sapossed to love me idk…… honestly im so angry at the world that i dont give a fuck about anything or any

one any more. Its like i cant show emotions

so i hide them become angry but have no one to take it out on…..

I just really dont …

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