Rants

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Punks

December 19th, 2017by lonewolf23

I hope nobody hurts my mom. She drives for Uber and she makes some nice money doing it. I just hope none of these butt-hurt taxi cab drivers do anything stupid that’ll piss me off. I understand that Uber and Lyft is kicking taxi bumpers left and right but there’s no need for these taxi drivers to take out their frustrations on my mom who isn’t trying to hurt anyone.  She’s just trying to make a living just like they are. My mom tells me stories about how taxi drivers ***** and complain to her about how they ain’t getting as many customers as before …

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you

December 18th, 2017by lonelygirl645

you made me happy. I was dumb for letting you go. I was dumb for not making time for you. I was dumb to set my feelings aside because I was scared of what we could be. When I finally wasn’t scared, and i told you everything I felt, I found you moved on. With another girl. It’s been a month, I should be over you. I’m not. I’m nowhere near over you. Why can’t I let you go? Why did I let you go?

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Her Timeline

December 16th, 2017by SilentVoices

Before she was aware, she moved across seas. Of course she wasn’t aware, she was only 3.

By the age of 5, she knew something wasn’t right. Protecting her siblings while her parents fight.

From K to 12 she struggled without support. But even with uneducated parents, her grades were in good report.

Her home-life however, left much to Desire. Constant fighting and screaming and emotional fire.

At the tender age of 8, she would lie in bed, wishing she were dead.

Withdrawn and silent, she turned 14. Dragged to the psychiatrist for her mind to be seen.

Finally diagnosed with Severe Clinical Depression. She was given drugs, but to her …

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Old Grouchy Douche Bags Rant

December 16th, 2017by lonewolf23

A message to the asshole who will never read this. “FUCK YOU!” i can’t stand assholes like you who believe the world revolves around you. I apologize if your too brain dead to answer a simple question but its my fucking job. I ask if you have a Safeway card and you react like I just asked you to solve the worlds most difficult riddle. Its a simple yes or no question. I ain’t asking you to wipe my ass! Oh and if pulling your card out of your pocket is too hard then why even waste your energy driving to the grocery store? I …

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that time of year

December 14th, 2017by dietcigarette

i feel like i’m going to implode if i don’t get this out somewhere. here feels like the safest place. it’s gonna be kinda long, and a heads up for mentions of self harm and disordered eating, i guess.

lately i’ve been preparing myself for what i’m calling my families own civil war. it’s been creeping up on us the past few years and this year is the year when everything is going to go to shit. my brother is likely being placed into foster care, my dad needs to move but everywhere is far too expensive, my grandma is dying and her medical bills are …

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I was already bad, and then he died

December 14th, 2017by SunshinesBlackhole

So, I first wrote on here in 2013 talking about my budding depression.

I’ve had lifelong issues: chronic illnesses, abusive parents, bullying, many sexual assaults, death of family members, panic attacks, self-harm, suicide attempts.

I wrote in here when I was fourteen. I’m nineteen now, a sophomore at a good college. Decent GPA. I haven’t cut myself in years, I was seeing a therapist, on some helpful medication. I was better, never good, but better.

I had a bad breakup a few months prior. I was getting diagnosed with yet another a new chronic illness. I was estranged from my friend group because of said breakup, and my …

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December 13th, 2017by aphids

my name is payton andrew, well- on the internet it is that. it’s currently almost 9 pm,,,such a weird time it is. i’m always tired at 9 yet i’m never tired enough to fall asleep. but then again alot of time it’s like that

i’m sounding dramatic, aren’t i ? well,,i’ll just get to the point on telling my life story. i want to get this out in case anything happens to me in the next few days.

everything that has made me as fucked up as i am now is because of my family. when i was 7 i had to watch my mom beat my …

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December 13th, 2017by aphids

i used to look to the stars and see them as a source of hope. of dreams that i could follow

i don’t do that anymore. now the sky is full of stars but all i can see is darkness and i want to disappear forever. theres no hope for me, theres never been any

i’m prolonging my death because maybe that hope can come back. people say christmas brings hope and joy and maybe that’s true

but for now i’ll just ?? sit in the darkness and wait. theres nothing that i can do as i’ve tried and tried and tried to get help but every attempt …

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being your illness

December 12th, 2017by onemorehour

 

 

i lost my grip about 5 years ago, i started thinking that everyone i loved hated me, that they would leave me, and so i pushed them away.

 

i had been through a lot of trauma with the people i loved, people we loved had killed themselves and as we always took life as it was a little harder than the rest, i thought they would understand, that they would stay by me as i had stayed by them, that they might help me out. they could not handle it and i manifested the abandonment through my paranoia and dramatic cries for help that no one …

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Empty Promises

December 10th, 2017by AZSAM

If you believe in God, I want to know why.  I’ve tried, hard.  It all seems like lies and empty promises.  I’ve done what was asked.  I followed the rules.  Nothing good ever happens.  The love of my life just walked away after 2 years.  I’ll never get over her.  She’s not perfect but sure as hell was perfect for me.  In every way.  For 2 years, I prayed, cried, kicked and screamed.  I begged God to find a way to put us together for forever.  Ultimately she decided God didn’t want us to be together.  What!?!?  He never talked to me about it.  Church …

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Considering it

December 8th, 2017by fumperthucker

Recently I’ve begun to feel as if my life were stagnating. I’m somewhat physically attractive and monetarily successful to a degree but my entire life I’ve always been kind of depressed and alone feeling. Western society tells us that to feel fulfilled we need a loving romatic companion. But modern day society destroyed that. Everyone trears eachother like shit and all men care about is sex and all women care about is the objective gain they can get in a social ladder from dating the most attractive man. Every once in a while nice girls will come along that I share much in common with …

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Death or Love

December 6th, 2017by xoamaro_

I wanted to die, I planned everything. Then I crossed paths with a guy.

It’s death or love. I don’t want to live, to barely survive. But this desire of love is growing bigger inside of me. Would I want to live to love? To truly experience what it’s like to love and to be loved? Because I want to die. Death is so much more bearable than life, I don’t know why this is making me doubt. I know I’m not loveable and that I’m only fooling myself. But it feels so real. Would this one reason be enough to make up for all the …

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Disorganized thoughts

Disorganized thoughts

December 6th, 2017by RiloMor

 

  • It’s not like I haven’t tried to speak my mind to, tell someone. In fact I have been hospitalized for my depression, 7 day lock up with medication and a councilor to ‘talk about it.’ But why did they believe me when I told them it was because of some random girl making fun of me for being gay and trans-masculine. I don’t know why I’m depressed, or why I panic when I’m near people or feel the need to just scream for no reason. Why did they think it was another person hating me when I was hating myself for not knowing why

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Oh. My. Fucking. God. (just a rant)

December 5th, 2017by can't be helped

Just as the title says. Oh my fucking god!!! Why can’t people just see that I want to be left alone?! I never get ANY peace and quiet around here! There’s always yelling and shouting and everyone being too damn loud and ignoring their basic preschool training to use their inside voices. Ignorant cretins constantly in everyone’s faces like attention seeking toddlers! These are fucking teenagers for god’s sakes who should have basic manners and common sense but DON’T! No, I don’t want to try and run away with you!

No, I wont give you any food!

No, I won’t let you use my school chromebook or …

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December 3rd, 2017by My Name Is

Everything about me is wrong. Every inch of my skin and hair is messed up and imperfect. Every thought I have is impure and every idea I have is bad. Every drawing I draw is too dark and every note I sing is off pitch. Every word I write isn’t placed right and every song I listen to is written strangely. Every book I read is weird and everything I touch disintegrates. Every person I know sees me as imperfect and wrong. Everything about me is wrong and I know it as well as anyone else who has the misfortune of meeting me or even …

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Expectation

December 3rd, 2017by My Name Is

I have a 4.2 GPA. I am on the varsity swim team. I am an honors student right now and there’s not a single class that I’m taking that isn’t advanced. I have a good amount of friends and my teachers like me. I live in a good stable family it looks like with two parents that are still together along with a brother and a sister. My family can afford to go to the beach in the summer for the weekend and allow me and my siblings to have out own rooms. I have a seasonal job that paid really good this year and …

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Plan

December 3rd, 2017by Lastdaysoon

The next few weeks will determine if I stay or go. I’m not one of the lucky ones so getting ready in case life craters again…

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Iron Pills Suicide Attempt

December 2nd, 2017by Spit

So I took an entire box of Slow Fe iron pills. And nothing has happened in over 36 hours. Don’t know why.

Don’t know

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i don’t know what to do anymore

November 30th, 2017by aphids

tw : torture, m*olestation mention, abuse, lots of swearing

i just,,,don’t know what to do anymore ?? i try and i try and i try and nothing fucking helps and i just want to fucking disappear and never come back to this shitty planet

what even happened to me isn’t even classified as a bad thing because “it’s just water” ***** do you really want to find out how it feels to be drowngin because sure, go ahead on your shitty fucking youtuve channel and waterboard yourself and then complain about how you were wrong

i’m so fucking weak it’s pathetic and i can’ty help but feeling like …

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November 30th, 2017by ALLbeletsHAPPY

I don’t know what to write anymore. There’s no way to say my thoughts beautifully. I don’t want to breathe anymore, my lungs don’t deserve it, I just want to bleed and since the scar tissue on my legs are so fucking strong I don’t bleed. It just bleeds enough to clot the cut and nothing more. So I wrecked my arm and it was the most satisfying thing I’ve experienced. My blood ran red down my arm and left drops on the sink. My heart is beating but broken. All I can think of is drowning myself in cocaine and whiskey
I hate my life …

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