Dual Persona

  June 26th, 2018 by rikuleventis

I’m not diagnosed with DID but I started giving my other persona a name.

I am becoming a demon — literally. My other persona started seeking solace and comfort with violent thoughts like murder and torture. And this “reasonable and good” persona comes out and starts screaming and is getting scared at my demon persona.

I’m literally getting crazier day by day.

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Human nature

  June 25th, 2018 by fakehappy

If there’s no love, what’s the reason to live? What’s that?..’learn to love yourself’? Being human contradicts that.

Even nature would agree we are selfish. Willing to suck the life out of all things, demand everything serve a purpose. It’s slightly terrifying.

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I just cause stress and problems

I just cause stress and problems

  June 25th, 2018 by Krystami

I don’t know what to do or anything….I’m lonely, alone, worthless, not anything but a waste of space, time, effort…anything. I would give my life story but have so many times, would also be a book…i type too much. I annoy others I just gwt in the way. I have tourettes, as well as many mental issues some self diagnosed, others not,

I have many health problems like celiac disease, back issues, jaw messed up, etc.


I try to make friends, but everyone gets tired of the way I talk or I’m plain boring. I’m married and trying to get divorces…middle of it. He is extremely narsisistic …

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Most ideal

  June 25th, 2018 by Agonizing

I was intensely suicidal for months until two weeks ago when i started feeling better and life became worth it. I want to carry on living and recovering for now but im also very keen on making sure i can readily kill myself when i feel to in future, the option needs to always be there so when times get tough or pointless or if i just feel like its time to go, i can do it painlessly and possibly in comfort. I want a suicide kit, everybody should have an escape plan, how naive and irresponsible it is not to. What if i became …

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  June 24th, 2018 by SilentVoices

The medicine is like a bandaid.

After months of crawling in the metaphorical dirt, my physician got fed up and referred me to a psychiatrist. I didn’t fight it, I gave up.

I’ve given up for a while now. I’m in a mental limbo: I care… but I don’t.

How may times have I cycled through the mental healthcare system? I’ve lost count.

Have a crisis… see the Doc… meet the new Psych… get meds… ignore everything…. Have a crisis- again.

I thought I was doing well. I always think I’m doing well. The medication slaps a lid on my emotions, muffles the voices… for a while. But when the …

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I Don’t Know Anymore

  June 24th, 2018 by Jabadamazo

I didn’t really know where else to turn at this point. I’ve attempted suicide in the past but haven’t succeeded.

I do have a small will to live but so many things just bring me down. I’m sure many on here already know that feeling when your life is static and you just aren’t happy with your present situation. No boyfriend, no friends, everyone seems to be repelled by me even though I try to be respectful and optimistic. I feel as if I’m just disliked and unwanted. Everything I do is unappreciated. My life is going no where.

I’m a 26 year old still living at …

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  June 24th, 2018 by sadgirlxx

Have you ever been afraid to reach out to someone? to anyone?

Have you ever experience opening up to someone and you do your best to make them understand what you are going through and what is going through your head and yet you can’t seem to make them understand regardless of how much words are going out of your mouth on how you carefully choose words to explain to them what is what?

I don’t think anyone can understand. ‘Cause myself can’t understand it too. Do you?

Before i try opening up, there’s a lot of what ifs in my head.

There’s so many thoughts in my head …

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Something’s Different

  June 24th, 2018 by Inconceivable

Something changed. I don’t think it was me, at least not to begin with.

Now I’m planning an idea so far out of my personality; something that feels like I’m retaliating. I’m not sure if I care either, Maybe it’s just an excuse to do something crazy.

What else is there to say.

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I’m fine. Leave it.

  June 20th, 2018 by ariusversea

So if you see me walk down the hallway and you want to ask me if I’m okay…

While you refuse to believe me when I whisper yes…

Just know that I’m thinking about how you’d react if I told you I wanted to die.

You wouldn’t want to help me then.

That’s a promise.

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  June 20th, 2018 by ariusversea

“You got an 86% on your final exam” is what my dad texted me this morning. I can tell from the text that he’ll call me to his office, grill me about how stupid I and the rest of the infantile population is, then proceed to tell me how SHE’s doing everything better. How SHE’s going to have the best grades in the grade. How SHE’s going to get the governor’s medal in 12th grade because SHE’s organized, SHE’ s a hard worker, and SHE doesn’t settle for under 95%. But I do, he’ll say. I’m settling and failing and letting myself fail, he’ll say.

I …

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I don’t know anymore.

I don’t know anymore.

  June 20th, 2018 by anindividualgoingthroughanexistentialcrisis

I want to die so bad. I just don’t get how others can wait for a tomorrow? Or how they have something that they’re working towards. I don’t have anything. I’m only 17 but I feel so lost and life’s being a *****. I’m so scared. I was going to end my life today. I decided on going for a walk. To get my head clear. I know I’m not ready to attempt cause I’m scared of failing. 

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Why cant it stop

  June 19th, 2018 by LonelyWitch

Every time I let myself feel anything I get fucked over. Every relationship I’ve been in before my current one I’ve been cheated on. Now my current SO is talking to and hanging out with a girl who up until 2 weeks ago was sending him nudes (We’ve been dating longer than 2 weeks, it was going on well we were dating). I want to trust him I really fucking do, but when every single time you’ve trusted in the past you’ve gotten hurt its so hard. Its getting harder and harder to feel anything. I am so numb. Being numb is better than getting …

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  June 19th, 2018 by unreaLily

I’m so fucking alone. One can’t just spout “I wished I was dead” to others. This is my first post here, it’s a bit ramble-y.

I don’t know what to do anymore. The suicidal impulses got better with medication, but I can’t move on and work and live my life like a normal person. Almost every day I hope to die.

I lived multiple suicide attempts, but I feel like I didn’t deserve to survive. I can’t support myself- why should I live? I feel like a disgrace of an adult. I only got a few years to get better, before my brain decides to quit trying. …

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I can’t eat

  June 18th, 2018 by Jasper

I don’t really know why but recently I’ve noticed that I don’t eat as much as I used to, whenever I was having an especially bad day I’d usually eat more then normal. I was recently put on some medication (2 weeks ago) so I thought maybe that could be the reason but I noticed that I started eating less over a month ago so that can’t be it. I used to weigh 114lbs and now I’m down to 105lbs and people keep commenting on my weight but it makes me really uncomfortable. It’s gotten to the point where I had to force myself to …

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Done. Fucking done

  June 17th, 2018 by NumbExhaustion

So I want to die. Like honestly. I’m so done with everything. Mom’s banning me from watching Criminal Minds (Because it’s “corrupting my mind”) and my parents took all the locks off my doors and I really just want to cut. I’m tired of living here and I’m already sick of summer break. Goddddd. Just frustrated.

I can’t figure out my gender either. Like I thought I was agender but then what if I’m FTM trans? I dunno. I’m just realizing this now too. It’s not something I ever knew from a young age. Is that even possible? Also, can you be FTM trans without bottom …

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Never felt more prepared for death

  June 15th, 2018 by AngerBreaks

I haven’t posted here for ages, the last time I was having the worst time of my life (so far). Due to certain circumstances, I was so suicidal back then, but I feel like I’m there once again. I’m 18 years old now, and I feel like my life is a shambles, something that’s just destined to fail.

I’ve become so self-loathing, just looking at myself in the mirror makes me feel such shame and like I want to end it all, there’s not much I can do to change my body. My voice is too high and annoying, I’ve developed spots and scars on my …

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I cant anymore

  June 15th, 2018 by ctrz

I’ve sat here, countless days, haven’t left the house, haven’t DONE anything, I have no purpose, nobody is willing to hear my cries, even my best friend, whom I thought was exactly like me cant see anything wrong. Im leaving to go to Japan in 12 days, and after that, when I get back, Im going to go see her and then, then Im done. Im done not having a reason to live, im done being hurt by everyone, im done with my deadbeat family who always bash on me. there is no way that im going to sit here and let this happen. so, …

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Waking up miserable

  June 14th, 2018 by thatboyneedstherapy

I have been struggling with bipolar disorder since I was twelve years old

I can’t count on my fingers and toes how many times I’ve self-harmed, attempted suicide and been hospitalized.

Lately my thoughts of suicide have grown much more frequent for the first time in years.

I thought with age, these feelings would decrease or maybe even diminish but alas, here I am.

Everyday is a struggle to combat the “voices in my head”.

I wish I weren’t so logical as to combat these thoughts.

I’m exhausted. I just want to sleep forever.

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******** Hypoxia

  June 13th, 2018 by kirlin.blair

If you let me fall in love with you like I want to, I’d do anything for you. I mostly want to massage you, eat you out, give you the best food and drink, and remember the smallest things about your personality.

I’d even help you enact a painless and undetectable suicide, if you were completely sure that’s what you wanted. It’s your right and I would never assert otherwise. I would bury your secret and cover it with a nonplussed veneer. I signed up for the whole woman with all her flaws and self-doubt, just so I could find joy in giving. Obviously I’d rather …

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Just sharing

  June 11th, 2018 by idoztknoe

I dont want to talk about it.
I wake up every day with this gnawing feeling. I try to push it away, but it gets worse.
It doesn’t stop. This feeling.
It hurts. It stings. All the heartache, the stress…it gets to you.
But all I ask, is that you understand.
Its deep depths of darkness, and loneliness. Like a boulder of weight always on your back. Slowly hurting you.
It doesn’t stop unless you make it.
When you die you cease to exist, so why fight if when your dead it ll all not exist.
Some took the leap. I really do envy them.
Please just understand that I’m not trying to be …

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