Rants

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I really want to die

July 8th, 2017by Demonqueen

… But I’m scared of failure.
Will I be paralysed?
Brain damaged?

Fail and I’ll be watched and not able to reattempt.

………………..

Vent.

I have mental health, undiagnosed… But imo it is severe.

Vent.

I’m almost 26. Literally everybody I’ve met this year thought I was 12.
When I was 15…. Everybody thought I was 10-12.
You get the picture.
I’m paedo bait.
Not everyday you get to legally “bang” a “12” year old.

Lost count of the times middle aged men have tried to prostitute me and continue on to tell me they thought i was 12-14.

Walking home today with my mum and her partner and two men …

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Shit

July 5th, 2017by Wtfihateusernames0

I work at Dairy Queen. It sucks. I want to die. I don’t even need a job. Why did I even get a job in the first place. Like seriously this job makes me want to kill myself I need to quit. I also have some fucking mental disorder and I literally can’t handle shit. Im literally the shittiest fucking person there is. Im 17, don’t have a license let alone a permit. Not to mention Im an actual fuck boy and I hate myself for that. I let people control my actions and its fucking disgusting. Everyone thinks that I have it so easy …

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am 11:11

July 5th, 2017by mynameisnight

“you’re ugly. and fat. and disgusting. like the shit of a pig. and no one is gonna love you.
how so silly. why do you think somebody will loves someone as ugly as you, when even your very own mother does not?
you’re such a waste of space and time. you should’ve died when your mother tried to aborted you 26 years ago. why do you have to be born? why do you have to life? you don’t deserve happiness. you don’t deserve to be loved. you’re that one child that was not supposed to have been born. you’re a huge mistake. unwanted, even by people you …

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What’s the point?

July 4th, 2017by xstayalivex

I don’t see the point of trying anymore. I’ve been suffering from some form of depression and anxiety since high school and that was seven years ago. And nothing seems to have helped/gotten better. The past year and a half especially has been a struggle. I’ve been in and out of the hospital for suicidal ideation, self harm, and failed attempts. When am I going to get a reprieve from these dark thoughts? I’m tired of wanting to kill myself.

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I Fucked Up

July 1st, 2017by TheRoadSoFar

Losing a true friend always hurts. No matter how many times it has happened to me, I can never get used to it (especially when you have like 3 friends and you can’t afford to lose anyone, like me). Worse of it all, if it’s my fault. Here’s the story of how it happened…

What started like a fun party turned for the worse, when one of my closest friends started feeling pretty bad because of the alcohol. In the end, he suffered an alcohol overdose and was rushed to the hospital. We all hoped we would hear from him that week. But we didn’t.

Today I …

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Is this a reason to stay?

July 1st, 2017by themessenger

Since I was thirteen, I struggle with depression and anxiety. When these problems started, it was not that big, it was just feeling down and sad more than others do. I had suicidal thoughts back then, but it was just the “well it would stop if I killed myself” and I didn’t seriously consider committing.

But with time it has gotten worse and right now I feel so heavy and awful, carrying on with my normal days is really hard and my anxiety is so bad. I see suicide as the option and I have it planned, I just am afraid of the consequences of my …

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Please Pray that my Ovary Tubes Disappear

June 28th, 2017by BlueDiamond

I know it’s the stupidest thing ever. Doesn’t matter, if you believe God or not just do it, or better not, come down here, and operate on me, and rip these son of bitches out of here, and even better, kill me by ripping my heart out or something. Pray that my ovaries with all my eggs catch on fires and that any guy who lusts at me may his dick shrivel so far that it ends up next to his anus. I’m serious. The world might be a better place, maybe you might save some lives.

I got into an argument with my dad and …

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xx

June 26th, 2017by Folfanda

Yesterday was my birthday, things weren’t looking up so I took about 20 of the only over the counter sleeping pill my parent’s had (they don’t take much) and I swallowed them down with a soda. I though it would be a peaceful, surreal, almost lovely experience, but as I sat outside on the hammock I started to feel dazed and tired, my body just kind of bobbed around for a few minutes, I thought I could just lay down and drift, but the feeling only intensified, and though its what I wanted, naturally my body responded negatively to the effects of the pills, and

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Horrible Grandmother

June 26th, 2017by Sad Song

Longtime lurker, first time poster. The first few times trying to log in were unsuccessful. Well, I’m fed up, and just thought I could post here. I tried the blue whale game to kill myself, didn’t work.. The curator gave up on me. Anyyyyway…. I just got done listening to my racist, emotionally, verbally abusive grandmother rant about how my sensitivity to gluten is fake… Bullshit. I throw up like crazy and get sick. Fake my ass. I started cutting, and stopped, and started again today.. She treats me like human garbage. My brother is… Different to say the least. She compares him and his behavior …

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40… still breathing

June 25th, 2017by Milestiba

I don’t write much because it takes my phone forever on this site to type on a post. Infuriating!! Commenting is easier. So my post is in comments below.

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Drama

June 24th, 2017by calisto131

Being back home from college…it brings back bad memories. And Im reminded how toxic my family can be. I ache to get the fuck out of here but that’s not until September. Relapsing hard.

Going back to drugs.

Going back to my ex who dumped me.

Letting myself be mislead by a boy who has a girlfriend.

I’m a horrible person. We all are.

I try to ignore it all and act like it’s whatever. As if I’m going along with everything that’s going on and see where it takes me but…I’m too fuken sensitive for that.

I just want to escape all the drama. End it all.

Realized I measure my …

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why God tortured me like that?

June 24th, 2017by an_old_child

after years of suffering, it’s getting good at last.

i think i’m feeling happy and it seems to last for a while. the question here is, why did God tortured me like that?

i know that the day would come that everything will turn upside down again and i will feel down and suicidal -since no happiness is everlasting and no sadness, too- and i think that i’m not ready for that day.

i definitely feel stronger than before all these things happened to me – i don’t really want to say what i’m referring to by “these” – but i don’t like the idea of being put …

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2

when will this end

June 24th, 2017by nonexistingsoul

the longer I live
the worse I get

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What Next?

June 23rd, 2017by Lutefisk

I just don’t know what to do with myself now. I’ve pretty much completed the biggest part of my bucket list (somewhere I traveled) and now I can’t seem to motivate myself at all. I know what I would want to do in the future, but now it feels like whether I make it to that point or not doesn’t matter at all. I have a wonderful life filled with supportive and kind people who tell me daily how much potential I have, but I have nothing to show for it. Guilt and a vague but almost desperate feeling of “there’s surely something left for you …

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To Stay…

June 21st, 2017by Mehikka

I wish I could stay here…

However, talking to you all and reading

All of your stories…

Makes it harder for

Me

To Stay

I’m always going to be falling

Apart.

And yet, I post this and you people try

To make me stay…

Yet that decisions isn’t yours to make…

I try to make wishes to stay

I have so much going on I have a feeling that

I won’t make

It to the end of summer,

Unlike what my friends

Want me to

Do…

Even though

We do nothing together

They make it harder for me to stay…

Alive…and well and a whole bunch of random crap…

My life is

A

Bunch

Of

Random

Crap…

Nothing to see here…

I’m done…

Just

Plain

Done…

Sorry Farah

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Note to self:

June 18th, 2017by PrismaticGreyZone

You must first fail to succeed, everything in life.

Like your first step as a baby, you try but fall so many times over, but eventually you learn to walk, and then run. That was your first challenge in life. If you decided to quit then, you wouldn’t have learned to walk at all. Sometimes we forget the very first lesson we learn in life: Baby steps.

With every stage in life, it presents different levels of challenges; fighting to survive your unfortunate circumstances or fighting to defend and accept yourself or fighting your dissatisfaction. These challenges help shape the person you had become and will become, …

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How do you guys cope?

June 18th, 2017by Black Holez

So how do you do it? First off, some background. I’ve come to the realization that everything that has transpired in my life for the last 4 years has led me to being down, depressed and unable to socialize and do ordinary day-to-day tasks. I just sulk around the house unable to do anything, thinking about things like how worthless I am, how abandoned and rejected I truly feel. If I do go out and try something new, I’m unable to function and do ordinary tasks, making people view me as some kind of failure or a retard because I make a mistake. It doesn’t …

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June 18th, 2017by Milestiba

I don’t matter here

I don’t matter there

I don’t matter anywhere

Hope I never wake up again

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i am sorry….

June 17th, 2017by Butterfly904

I’m sorry to all of my friends for lying to you and telling you many things I should have. For pushing you out of my life and telling you nothing is wrong and I am fine. I know they will NEVER be on this site, but I really truly am sorry. But not for this one friend. I  not sorry for being shit to her. She never cared about me and when I would actually tell her something that has been on my mind for two fucking weeks she would just brush it off like it is nothing. IT IS SOMETHING THAT HAS CONCERNED ME …

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How do you people go through with this?

June 16th, 2017by Black Holez

I’ve come to the realization that everything that has transpired in my life for the last 4 years has led me to being down, depressed and unable to socialize and do ordinary day-to-day tasks. I just sulk around the house unable to do anything, thinking about things like how worthless I am, how abandoned and rejected I truly feel. If I do go out and try something new, I’m unable to function and do ordinary tasks, making people view me as some kind of failure or a retard because I make a mistake. It doesn’t help that they view me as some kind of mentally …

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