Stories of Hope

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Little Victories

September 15th, 2012by help wanted

You walk by me as I sit, unnoticed, in the secluded corner of the school. You came with her to have some alone time. Understandable. You saw me in the very spot you wanted to be. You wouldn’t have that. You tell me to move. I’m still in shock that someone is talking to me. You get no response from me. You grab me by what would be the collar of my jacket if it had one. You tell me again to move. But I’m sick of being pushed around. Sick of letting people like you decide how I feel and what I do. “Make …

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I’m not sure anymore

September 15th, 2012by Goody79

Before I post this please everyone understand I’am at a point in my life where I just don’t know so please don’t judge me – I don’t judge others as each person I believe has the right to do what is best for them in life.

My name is Sammi,I’m 32 years old I live in the UK.I have had a few heartaches in my life and I’m left today with a question mark in my head..do I want to carry on in my life where I can only see it spiral out of control or do I do what I feel is the best option …

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4

Release

September 14th, 2012by BonesAndBloodMakeAButterflyDie

Okay, so I’m writing a book. It’s going to be one of those depressed suicidal teen books. But better because it’s written by me, someone who’s going through the same stuff and some different stuff than a lot of you. I just started writing today. I want to try to get it published when it’s finished. I’m really passionate about this. There’s so many books that bullshit you about what it’s actually like. They don’t include the voices, the cutting, the demons, the suicide attempts. Comment on this and tell me if you’d read it. Thank you <3

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Dark Days…

September 14th, 2012by blacklicorice

Hey there to whoever is reading this… My name is Sammie and well I deal with depression, bi-polar disorder, and a mild case of PTSD. I’ve gone through a lot in my life to make me this way, but I work everyday to get better… I even have this chart on my wall where I write something nice about myself once a day then read them before bed till I smile.

My dad went to Iraq when I was young and when he came back he changed. He was an alcoholic and the daddy I used to have was no longer there. He’s so cruel all …

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My story

September 12th, 2012by itslovedarling

My Junior year of high school, i used to perform self harm to myself. I had a lot of boyfriend trouble and my friends had completely stabbed me in the back and I just couldn’t take the humiliation anymore. Cutting became an overwhelming addiction and I couldn’t stop. Eventually my parents caught on to my behavior and one day my father came to me and asked if i wanted to wake up tomorrow and i said no. I was taken to the hospital so that i could immediately talk to psychiatrists about how i was feeling. I figured when i was done I would just …

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Rage, Rage Against The Dying Of The Light – Dylan Thomas

September 12th, 2012by Bodhisattva

Please take this with you, & also pass it on to others.

Do not go gentle into that good night, Old age should burn and rave at close of day; Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise people at their end know dark is right, Because their words had forked no lightning they Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good people, the last wave by, crying how bright Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay, Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

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If You Want Me

September 12th, 2012by ravenstorm

I know it’s not my place
To tell you what you’re doing wrong
Sometimes I think about your face
And there’s times that I don’t think of you at all

So tell me you need me and I will stay
You believe me and I will wait
That you’d come back for me every time I fall
In your heart there’s just no place
There’s no room to make a mistake
And with one wrong turn you would never make it home

I know you would never say
What I did that made you feel so small
Spent the whole year on my face
Now with a little help I’ll stand up on my own, my own

So tell …

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Homeless.

September 12th, 2012by azurexdragon

So, I’ve gone through a lot lately, I was enrolled to college out of high school, as are most people these days.

I was promised a job, a house, a roof over my head, and all the things that go a long with moving from one parent to another.

As soon as I made the journey from my Grandparents to my fathers, I knew something wasn’t right though.

The job my father had promised me, it never existed.

Even after not dropping a dime to child support for the last 18 years of my life, he still complained when there was another person under his roof.

The second I couldn’t …

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2

It gets better.

September 11th, 2012by SurvivingLife

I am fourteen years old.

I have depression, I am bipolar, I have borderline personality.

I take medication for what doctors have diagnosed me with.

I do not let these diagnostics define me.

I’m a past self-harmer. I’ve attempted suicide 4 times in the past 2 years.

I was admitted into the hospital for destroying my home, and attempting to end my life.

I’ve attempted to OD on Tylenols, and Ibuprofen.

I didn’t take enough, I woke up in the morning, with a raw throat, unable to swallow and eat.

 

I just want you guys to know something. Those who are depressed, feel alone, helpless, just know, IT WILL GET BETTER.

 

I started …

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The epitome of hope

September 11th, 2012by BrimestoneKH

I am a person who has been through so much in my 24 years of life. When I was 17 I was told told by a phsycologist that I have been through more than most 80 year olds go through in there life time and that he was amazed that I didnt having a severe mental illness like schitzaphrenia or bipolar. If you want to know about my story read my post, “crushing lonleness”.
However I believe that I would not be there strong, brave and socialy gifted person that I am today if it was not for all the pain that I have not only …

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I’m a waste of space

September 11th, 2012by teamore

I’ve been having depression since the end of 6th grade. I’m now in 10th. I don’t take anti- depressants anymore because they don’t help. Let’s start with the fact that- my family is fucked up. My dad used to beat my mother infront of my brothers and I, and then a few months after, he just packed his things and left us. I haven’t seen him since. He’s a stranger to me – and even though I still have this despise towards him for hurting my mum, I miss having a dad role in my life. The other thing is – I’m overweight. I’m 5’3 …

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Confused and Mindless .

September 10th, 2012by emptyhaleey

I use to be so happy and so inisent , so mindless and careless , then came grade 2 . I just moved into a new place with new people and a new school , a new everything . I remember I didn’t even want to go , I begged and begged my mom to let me stay home , but she wouldn’t let me , so I walked inside while everyone was outside , then when everyone came back in , I just couldn’t even say anything to anyone , I didn’t fit in at all , I felt like a little kid standing …

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My Girl <3

September 9th, 2012by Tammie Louise

Sitting here, thinking about how sweet release from life would be fantastic right about now… But then I think about my girl and as much as we fight, she’s still the only thing keeping me from killing myself…

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Am I Crazy?

September 8th, 2012by justy

I’ve had a very dark past week and a half. Some nights I wasn’t even sure if I would make it until the morning.

I’m not saying I’m better, because I’m far from it. But I’m fighting. Every minute I’m fighting that darkness that’s creeping around the edge more often than usual. I don’t want this. I don’t want to be… this anymore.

I’ve made a decision. And I know it’s a pipe dream, I know it’s so far fetched it’s bordering on insanity – but there’s this little voice inside me telling me, “What if? But… what if?” It’s been there before, this little voice, but …

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I did it :)

September 7th, 2012by mysmilecoversalot :)

Sometimes, when I walk down the driveway to get the mail, I imagine walking away from everything. Away from my past, away from the pain. When I’m driving, I imagine driving until everything makes sense, driving until everything is fixed. But that’s no way to live, so then I walk back inside, I drive back home, and I realize that I’m okay and I have a million things to be grateful for. We all do, really.

Earlier this year the only thing that soothed me to sleep was the thought of suicide. Everything was out of control. I was sixteen years old, I didn’t eat, I …

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Hope

September 7th, 2012by SearedWithScars

Alone in the darkness, I ask myself if tonight is my last. But I take a picture to remind myself that if anyone can find the beauty in this life of hopelessness and guilt and heartache, it’s me. So I stare into the face of sadness and instead of looking for flaws, I look for elegance. Sometimes pain masks the grace in each of us, but sometimes, if we look hard enough, pain reveals it.

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The Reason

September 6th, 2012by Tempman

Now before I start, this isn’t a story about how I’m depressed or anything, but, in fact, I’m not depressed anymore, well at least not as much, thanks to you guys. I want to return the favor. Right now I’m working on a project (movie) that will help others just like you and me, struggling to get by day by day, and I need YOUR help. I want a video of YOU telling your story, your story of struggle, but also, telling us what makes you happy, what keeps you going, or even a video of you doing what you love to do, whether its …

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I just want to give up!

September 3rd, 2012by igiveup101

I can’t take this anymore. I can’t deal with the pain, the tears, the pressure. I just can’t! I’m not used to this life. I’m not used to this life of having a family. I didn’t have a family for 13 years and now all of a sudden I meet them. They want me to be happy but I can’t. I try to  pretend like everything is fine but it’s not! I cut myself! I was never ever that person who was so scared and lost that she would self-harm. I was always strong. I had a 4.286 GPA. I was captain of the cheer …

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Not today..after all

September 3rd, 2012by Russianboy91

Well that is it. I skipped class today after just another shitty day without talking or knowing noone in this huge class of over 100 students and already by now everyone has study groups. After that moment something glitched in my brain and I simply did what I always do. Escape. So I took the first bus home. I was so pissed off at myself that I turned to the closest mall and told myself that I would not be a ***** any longer and go through with taking my life today..so I bought a six pack of ice cold Heinekens and a bottle of …

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Trying to get better

September 2nd, 2012by verylittle

I appreciate the ability to come here and vent, where I don’t have to worry about how what I say affects anyone.  I don’t know anyone on here and that’s okay.   I’ve been trying to get better…I’m going to be starting school this week and while I’m pretty freaked out about it…I’m also kind of excited.  I cut off all ties with my ex-boyfriend which makes me feel better about myself because I didn’t like how we were using each other for sex when there was no relationship there.  I tried going to group therapy, I don’t know if you’ve ever found it helpful but …

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