Stories of Hope

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Confused and Mindless .

September 10th, 2012by emptyhaleey

I use to be so happy and so inisent , so mindless and careless , then came grade 2 . I just moved into a new place with new people and a new school , a new everything . I remember I didn’t even want to go , I begged and begged my mom to let me stay home , but she wouldn’t let me , so I walked inside while everyone was outside , then when everyone came back in , I just couldn’t even say anything to anyone , I didn’t fit in at all , I felt like a little kid standing …

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My Girl <3

September 9th, 2012by Tammie Louise

Sitting here, thinking about how sweet release from life would be fantastic right about now… But then I think about my girl and as much as we fight, she’s still the only thing keeping me from killing myself…

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Am I Crazy?

September 8th, 2012by justy

I’ve had a very dark past week and a half. Some nights I wasn’t even sure if I would make it until the morning.

I’m not saying I’m better, because I’m far from it. But I’m fighting. Every minute I’m fighting that darkness that’s creeping around the edge more often than usual. I don’t want this. I don’t want to be… this anymore.

I’ve made a decision. And I know it’s a pipe dream, I know it’s so far fetched it’s bordering on insanity – but there’s this little voice inside me telling me, “What if? But… what if?” It’s been there before, this little voice, but …

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I did it :)

September 7th, 2012by mysmilecoversalot :)

Sometimes, when I walk down the driveway to get the mail, I imagine walking away from everything. Away from my past, away from the pain. When I’m driving, I imagine driving until everything makes sense, driving until everything is fixed. But that’s no way to live, so then I walk back inside, I drive back home, and I realize that I’m okay and I have a million things to be grateful for. We all do, really.

Earlier this year the only thing that soothed me to sleep was the thought of suicide. Everything was out of control. I was sixteen years old, I didn’t eat, I …

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Hope

September 7th, 2012by SearedWithScars

Alone in the darkness, I ask myself if tonight is my last. But I take a picture to remind myself that if anyone can find the beauty in this life of hopelessness and guilt and heartache, it’s me. So I stare into the face of sadness and instead of looking for flaws, I look for elegance. Sometimes pain masks the grace in each of us, but sometimes, if we look hard enough, pain reveals it.

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The Reason

September 6th, 2012by Tempman

Now before I start, this isn’t a story about how I’m depressed or anything, but, in fact, I’m not depressed anymore, well at least not as much, thanks to you guys. I want to return the favor. Right now I’m working on a project (movie) that will help others just like you and me, struggling to get by day by day, and I need YOUR help. I want a video of YOU telling your story, your story of struggle, but also, telling us what makes you happy, what keeps you going, or even a video of you doing what you love to do, whether its …

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I just want to give up!

September 3rd, 2012by igiveup101

I can’t take this anymore. I can’t deal with the pain, the tears, the pressure. I just can’t! I’m not used to this life. I’m not used to this life of having a family. I didn’t have a family for 13 years and now all of a sudden I meet them. They want me to be happy but I can’t. I try to  pretend like everything is fine but it’s not! I cut myself! I was never ever that person who was so scared and lost that she would self-harm. I was always strong. I had a 4.286 GPA. I was captain of the cheer …

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Not today..after all

September 3rd, 2012by Russianboy91

Well that is it. I skipped class today after just another shitty day without talking or knowing noone in this huge class of over 100 students and already by now everyone has study groups. After that moment something glitched in my brain and I simply did what I always do. Escape. So I took the first bus home. I was so pissed off at myself that I turned to the closest mall and told myself that I would not be a ***** any longer and go through with taking my life today..so I bought a six pack of ice cold Heinekens and a bottle of …

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Trying to get better

September 2nd, 2012by verylittle

I appreciate the ability to come here and vent, where I don’t have to worry about how what I say affects anyone.  I don’t know anyone on here and that’s okay.   I’ve been trying to get better…I’m going to be starting school this week and while I’m pretty freaked out about it…I’m also kind of excited.  I cut off all ties with my ex-boyfriend which makes me feel better about myself because I didn’t like how we were using each other for sex when there was no relationship there.  I tried going to group therapy, I don’t know if you’ve ever found it helpful but …

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People “Death” is just

September 2nd, 2012by JackismyShephard

i understand anyone whos feeling suicidal. im right there with you. ive been dealing with this thing since i was 16. maybe even longer than that, but at 16 the latent became concious for me. I posted earlier this day (that is day in danish time), there was one nice comment from a guy who i had trouble commnucating with but other than that nothing. My immediate response was dissapointment but i guess thats the general feeling when youre depressed. you’re waiting for something and you want it NOW. and you keep asking everyone, even yourself “How soon is Now” (yes the reference is intentional)”.

Maybe youre already …

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Who wants to DO something then?

September 2nd, 2012by blackstone

OK – I feel exactly the same as many of you. I have been totally fucked by mentally ill parents in complete denial of reality. I must endure the results of having my mind twisted and broken as a little child. I must go on with my ‘life’ without the support network of normal people, and I see the unappreciative shitheads who were fortunate to end up with a decent life having gotten off on the right foot. I have put a lot of energy into ‘being positive’ and making something good for myself but the battle is uphill and very difficult to win. Little …

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CRYING OUT

September 2nd, 2012by possitive2013

There’s no better than crying out.

When you cry out to God, something happens.

Tell him all you really feel, your fear.
Try to listen DRAW ME CLOSE TO YOU by HILLSONG, and try to write anything on a paper and keep it, that’s what i always do at home, every night.

Thanks for reading. Some other time I will post again.

My name is Jane.

You may response here or email me @ possitive2013@gmail.com :))

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I think I’ve found my way

August 31st, 2012by RJo

It’s been a long struggle but I’m willing to make it. Choose to live. For that I’m going to change my life even if it scares me to death, even if it’s going to be hard, even if chances are I’m not going to make it, even if many many people say I won’t make it. It’s gotten to a point in which I can’t lie to myself anymore, pretend that I’m someone else.

I read somewhere that instead of killing myself I should help others. Volunteer, help sick people that would give anything to have my health. I want to do that. I stopped caring …

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I need help.

August 29th, 2012by Faithanney

So , Its for me to believe that everyones sorty is differnt. This one..Well its beyond that.
I dont know how to explain my thought really, But im going to try to put you in my shoes, My state of mind.
*Big breath* Alright. . So sometimes that thing called Depression hits me, Makes me want to go home and cry, yell at everyone about my problems and just throw my hands around hoping that they will hit something to take away this pain.. This pain of loss. The pain of never being loved. Always getting walked out on, or forgotten. Im the type of person that …

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Last night i wished i wouldn’t wake up

August 26th, 2012by IfYouWantIt

yesterday i set out with my bestfriend for her graduation party hungout with all of our close friends… night time came and i went to a party where i hoped id be meeting my boy, i was already mad at him for not getting ahold of me for a week and i find out hes with his two boys and 3 girls = instamadness. anyways he gets there to the party and im already a cup down of jungle juice we kinda talk nothing big… i decide to go pull him aside so we can talk he says no i dont feel like (looking at …

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Not the same person

August 26th, 2012by ChokingChandler

Just warning you I’m a bad author so

Well during the school year I was a loud, bubbly, never-cry-in-public, person. But since summer got out and I haven’t been around many people  I isolated myself from everything and I felt fuzzy about everything all the time, and I started thinking. and since then I’ve been a lot more sensitive and I would cry about nothing and I felt really weak. I always was the friend that talked with my friends about their problems and tried to help, but now I’m the friend that can barely pay attention in conversations in general. So everytime someone would call …

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life expectancy

August 26th, 2012by gerlisur

My name is Kerli. I am 29 year old woman. I lost a close relative who was my best friend. She died at the age of 7. I miss her so much. I remember the day i found out she was dead. I could not cry. I was so shocked. I thought about everything and I realized that it was very odd that she had died. I looked at myself and could not imagine I would die young. It just FELT that I would not die young. Then I figured there was something wrong with her that drove her fate to be dead at 7. …

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The pain remains

August 25th, 2012by PerpetuallyEvanescent

The last words he ever said, were said to me; his little princess, I had been.

I know it has been years but all the pain is still here

and all I bottled up keeps flowing out in never-ending tears.

I’ve used a blade and I’ve used pills but I’m filled with all this fear.

So I keep on breathing, dead and alive at the same time.

All I want is to make it stop, not my life but the feelings

Erase the scars and form real smiles

Because I really do want to stay here for a while.

 

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Help ? I hate feeling like this</3

August 24th, 2012by Unknown.

Ever since I was born life has never been easy for me.  My mother suffers from a mental Illness, my father was abusive and my uncles where thieves and drug dealers. I can’t remember back to when I was young, but I still have a few very vivid memories. When I was two one of my brothers and one of my sisters passed away. When I was three my mother and father split up.  My sister and 2 brothers and I got put into foster care only a year later. We moved on to abusive carers who beat us and punished us harshly. I remember being …

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The Going Got Though; && iFeel ( First Suicide Attempt )

August 22nd, 2012by kylie_leighann

i Never Thought i Would Ever Think of Suicide or Self Harm, But When i Finally figured out i Was All By myself in a world full of non Understanding People, i Was left with Self harm, Daily. At First no i Didnt want to Kill myself it was just a stress release, i Was Only 13, My Mom was Never Around, && i Was Diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, & Put on Meds For that.

i Didnt Want to Kill Myself until the Day i Went And Asked my Dad for help, i Felt worse that day, && i wasnt Just going to cutt, of corse he didnt believe me. …

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