My name is Kerli. I am 29 year old woman. I lost a close relative who was my best friend. She died at the age of 7. I miss her so much. I remember the day i found out she was dead. I could not cry. I was so shocked. I thought about everything and I realized that it was very odd that she had died. I looked at myself and could not imagine I would die young. It just FELT that I would not die young. Then I figured there was something wrong with her that drove her fate to be dead at 7. I continued wondering about her for years. I looked at pictures of people who had died young. I looked at their eyes and wondered what went wrong with them, because I was absolutely sure I would live till i am old..
I noticed that the peoples eyes who had died young their eyelid slides right down without making a little arch in the outer corner of the eye and people who live in the old age have a little arch on their upper eyelid in the outer corner of the eye. I also discovered people who die young were not loved unconditionally by their same sex parent. For some reason they did not share that love bond, they were not connected.
Years passed. One day I was shown pictures of the most beautiful 4 year old living girl. To my horror she had those eyes when the eyelid slides down. Then I met her. She was the most beautiful curly hair blue eyed girl. I knew she was gonna die before she got 50 in some accident. I was so sad. I was walking on the street and thought ….ok if your mother does not love you unconditionaly, if you donÂ´t have that bond with you, I will love you just as if I was your mother. I imagined what I would feel if I was her mother. I felt something changed in me. Soon I met that little girl again and I noticed she had changed. She did not have those dead persons eyes anymore. I knew something big had happened.
I have changed about 30 people like that only now I donÂ´t think of them as my children but I just say….`Whatever you are, whatever you become and whatever you do, I still love you. `
Michael Jackson died when he was 50. I am not sure but I have a bad feeling he too had those dying persons eyes. And Whitney Houston too and Anna Nicole Smith too….i did not notice their eyes in time. If I had they would be alive today.
I am so sad about those who I did not notice. But I am so happy about those that I had a chance to save.
Here is a home page that I made about my gift and burden and about what I have discovered. Please check it out. Its interesting.