so this is my last post, and it my goodbye post. i guess this just got to hard and all hope inside has died. to all you people out there do not give up fighting you deserve to be happy and live, but i on the other hand do not. ive planned how and when as the last time i did not plan failed. i am doing it in 4 days as i need to get ready and write my goodbyes to family and make things right. the reason why im doing it is because im in physical and emotional pain nd its to hard, and […]
Stories of Hope
On a large enough time line, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero
Chuck Palahniuk/Tyler durden
Human mortality explained withouttaking into question of life after death. Everyone is going to die. But thats ok, I survive because I want to. there’s no logic in survival , it’s pointless. But who gives a fuck I’m going to live, get better and anyone who says different can tell it to someone who  gives a shit and that person is not me.
HI everyone, im 15 and im in my final year of secondary school. Last year i got really stressed with my exams that i started getting depressed and having negative thoughts which sometimes led me to cry. Lately me and my best friend had a little fight and we wasnt talking for a while and i realised that majority of the people around me did not like me, so i started getting trust issues because i didnt know who were my true friends and who wasnt 🙁 Me and my mate are now friends and we call eachother “sisters” etc. But lately ive seen shes […]
there was i kid i knew at my old middle school. he had aspergers. he couldn’t write or read very well. he was extremely tall, a ‘giant’ as others had called him. He was such a sweetheart, but nobody seemed to care. they judged him because he had a disorder. he had close to no friends…
he met me when we were assigned to be in a group together. he told me that i was the first person to actually care what he had to say. i felt super bad for him.
days went by, and we would hang out. we talked, laughed, made jokes, he showed […]
I have the perfect life. the loving mother, the adorable sisters and the caring friends. what was wrong was always with me.
I hated my dad, he practically abandonned me, its a long story that i dont feel like talking about because ive finaly gotten over it. everytime i was angry, even if it wasnt because of him, i would always end up cursing his name. but then i learned that whole reason he broke his promises, never called and abandonned was because he was scared of my mom. he had such of a vivid image in his head of my mom as a monster […]
Okay so I won’t tell you my name just incase someone reading this knows me. I randomly found this website just before searching up suicide things on google. Anyway I am a seventeen year old girl living in New Zealand. I have been diagnosed with depression by a doctor and people tell me all the time they think I suffer from other disorders like bipolar and OCD and others like that.
I have three half-brothers and one half-sister as well as a full sister. I have met two of my half-brothers about three time. My other half-brother and my half-sister don’t even know that I exist. […]
I’ve been browsing here for some time now and I have to say each one of your personal stories have always helped me in some way so much obliged I strongly believe that expressing how you feel can assist you in finding a way to continue if it may only be for a few extra moments. Let me first say you can just call me Chance is a name I’ve aquired over the years for all the triumphs I’ve overcome over the past 10 years or so. I’m like everyone else I’ve loved I’ve lost overcome miscarriages with past relationships, […]
Ever since we met (my wife) and decided to stay together, we always have arguments everyday and it seldom happened a day with it. Until we decided to get married, we’re 4 years now and have one 3-year old son. But the state still goes on and sometimes we’re temporarily separated, sometimes I opt to suicide and sometime I leave them for few day to ease the pain.
I love her so much and I don’t want to leave her or get legally separated (in our country there’s no divorce). My problem now is how to handle her everyday since we have a lot of differences […]
On the 16th, Tuesday, I attempted to kill myself by overdosing on pills. By the time I was done taking what I had, I had taken approximately 60 pills. I woke up at 4am Wednesday morning puking my guts out. It felt crappy. Let’s be honest puking until; you have nothing left to puke up and then still puking anyways isn’t fun. I didn’t go to a doctor. I was pretty scared to tell my mom that I tried to kill myself so I just kept quiet and said I had the flu. I stayed home for the rest of the week then spent the […]
Last year I was suicidal, but it went away. I’m not sure how. I don’t know what I did to make it go away, but I would like to know.  It’s coming back. Suicide is in my head again. Today I was home all day, in my bedroom. No one came inside, no one talked to me. I was crying, not because no one was talking to me, or wondered why I haven’t gone outside, I was crying because it hurts. What hurts? Everything hurts. Not anything physical. Emotional and mental pain. Lately, my parents have been cruel to me. They don’t hit me. I know I haven’t done anything to make them so […]
I feel so depressed right now…my dreams are becoming more and more of a nightmare…pulling me into a web of confusion, fear, and paranoia…my inner demons are starting to come out to play, more and more…howling for me to end it…to end my life…the hell I’m living is my life…no one cares anymore…not even her…nobody would miss such a shallow, depressed being…so why live anymore when the knife is just a couple of inches away from me…? It’s taunting me…wanting me to reach over and grasp it, to see if I have the guts to do it…one day…I might just do that…but for now, I’ll […]
so last night i had a terrible night my anxiety kicked in and i could do nothing but cry. my bf was being a bit of an ass and my mother had nothing better else to do but yell at me. its been 3 days since i last ate and i can already feel myself wasting away. i looked in the mirror last night hoping to see a better me then what i was. i saw the same old self. i just cried. feeling so fat and ugly i tried to throw up anything that was left in my system. it was 3 in the […]
I´m 16 now and I´m writing here first time. I really thing about suicide somethimes but I think i cant make it. I can´t die with feeling I didn´t tried I surrendered to death to life to all people and whole my family.I dont want to run awayand I´m gonna fight. That is what i was telling for myself a lot times. But when i think about it now i can see a spark of tightly hidden will to live.Why? because of her. really old lady. For someone a purpose to live and for the others a reason they decided to die for.Love. Nope noone […]
i just wanted to say thank you to you guys you have helped me with soo much it. talking to you guys masde me feel like im not alone adn that other people feel the way i do too:). I’m trying to be happy i tried to do it awhile back but someone thing happended and i cracked</3. I’ve decieded not to tell my parents that i probally have reacurring deppresion becasue… well 1 i ont want them to think im screwed up and 2 im afariad of’ve what everyone else will think of me…. anyway THANK YOU GUYS SOO MUCH!!<3333 I PROBALLY WOULNT BE […]
I’m so sick of people acting like they know me…. They don’t. They think they do but they don’t. And I really just need someone to know my story. Sometimes it’s comferting knowing someone has your story.
It started when I was 4…. my parents got divorced. When I was 5 my dog died… no big deal right? Wrong. I was 5, my dog was my best friend. When I was in 2nd grade me and my mom moved to Tennessee over the summer. I thought we were just staying for the summer. No. We were moving… To get away from my dad. Since […]
Hi, i’m 15, I’m a girl, and I’ve been through hell. I’m a sophomore, and I know what its like to lose everyone you’ve ever had. My mom had me at 16, and starting at three years old, my mom was dating around a lot, got hip on drugs and alcohol. Both of my parents were VERY bad alcoholics. My mom was dating this guy that beat her, and made me watch, then my sister was born, I was three, taking care of a baby my mom couldn’t take care of.. We got evicted and lived in a car for a week when i was […]
It all started at the beginning to high school, 9th grade.
I fit in perfectly, I made new friends everyday, hung out, went to parties, dated. Normal stuff that people would expect a normal teenager girl to do. But…I wasn’t exactly happy. Sure during the moment of all those parties and drinks and even experimenting with weed a few times (nothing I’m proud of anymore) I was happy. But after that adrenaline rush went away, and I sat in my bed looking up at my bedroom ceiling, I knew I wasn’t happy.
I guess I could say it started when I met Joe. He wasn’t someone that went to my […]
last night i took a knife, went up to a nice quiet spot on the hills, rolled a spliff and proceeded to not cut myself. i’ve still not. since i “broke” the other day i’ve been cutting a LOT. but last night… last night i said no. and i’m still saying no 🙂
fuck you SI!
hi there, yes you, the one reading this dont stop now i know you want to. life is really UN fair and u know it but don’t give up now, there may be a lot of pain in your life weather its emotional or physical but don’t stop trying. if you want to die just please don’t give up, if i can fight through this you can…. but I’m not out of the woods yet i feel suicidal everyday i feel im worthless, screwed up and an abandoned lonely teenaged girl, so me you and anyone else can fight through this togeher and if you need me ill be there for […]
Thinking of suicide ? You’re sitting in your room ~ door locked ~ with a pen in your hand and a blank piece of paper infront of you. Your hand is shaking, and the tears begin again – for the third time in the past hour. ‘To my family’ you write at the top of the page, but decide it’s a bad way to begin your letter ~ your suicide letter. You try again, start over ~ again and again, but you don’t kn
ow where to begin. No one understands you; no one knows what you’re going through, you’re alone or at least that’s what […]