Stories of Loss

For those who have passed on.

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Financial Loss Causes Much Grief

  September 1st, 2009 by Jason80

After a few months I grew tired of feeling sorry for myself so I started developing a website to help myself keep busy in my spare time, but to also inform others of the dangers of spending money foolishly without thinking. Econochristian.com is my website. As you can see, I somehow discovered a path to religion when all of humanity seemed to have failed me. I guess this happens quite often, but it does help to rely on a religion with many followers to help you get back on your feet.

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Daddy Gone… Forever.

  September 1st, 2009 by itszyahgirl

I was 13 years old and about to finish up my 7th grade year. It was March 10, 2004 when my life changed forever. It was in the evening after dinner when my ma got the call. My sister was on the other line, sobbing and very hard to understand. She told her what had happened, as I sat back and wondered. I was way to young to understand what was going on. I had never experienced anything like that before in my life. My ma hung up the phone and said “I will be back.”

About 2 hours later, my ma shows up with my …

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Numerous Attempts

  August 31st, 2009 by imissjess12707

To start off, i’ve had a history of mental disorders and depression issues for countless years of my life, but never thought of committing suicide. My grandmother committed suicide before i was born, and i saw how it effected my mother, and my grandfather, and never ever wanted to do that to someone else. No matter how bad it got, i stuck in there.

On December 7, 2007, My best friend committed suicide. I wasn’t aware of any deep trauma or depression in her, so of course, it came as a total shock. I can still remember where i was, what i was doing, and

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  August 31st, 2009 by liveinlight

this is to hard . why make it so difficult

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I failed

  August 24th, 2009 by Euca

I met my man bout 9 years ago in an online game,i visited him a few months after and it was love at first sight. We been happy as humanly possible for 8 years,we was 1,never fought never argued,we were so close. Till he told me on aug 6 2008 ,outta da blue, he was gonna go back to UK,alone. Everyone around us were jealous of our relationship it was that good. I begged him to why, took him some days to say anything and he just said i love you but it aint enough. Them last 10 days he was with me i could

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No hope for the heart broken

  August 11th, 2009 by BrodieSwankie

im sorry everyone but i couldnt find another way out life is too hard when every one you love just hurts you in the end life has been hard im sick of being depressed all the time i was only ever really happy with chantal i started to get depressed after peter took his own life i miss him so much i think life would of been good if he was still here i hope to see him in the after life what ever that might be i have tryed to kill my self befor a fewtimes and not just over chantal but im ready …

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it will never be OK…

  August 11th, 2009 by neverbeok

It will never be ok…

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I have a question

  August 6th, 2009 by questions

Is it normal to be having suicidal thoughts?

I’m 18, And I don’t think I’d act on the thoughts, But when I start to think about my future, I see me failing, And sometimes think it would be better to end things now. I want to go to school, And be able to have a future, But I’m so self conscious about my body I don’t want to go to school, Because I don’t like people seeing me like this.

My dad died when I was younger, My brother and the rest of my family dislikes me. Besides my mom, She is all I have but she …

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14 years of there pain in me

  August 5th, 2009 by suicide-princess

i have always hated myself and everything to do with me i cant even look at a photo of myself and i cant seem to do anything right and everyone keeps quitting on me so whats the point in living? sure im only 14 but thats 14 years of pain let me help you understand a little i am a 14 year old girl living in care i have had 6 different placements in seven years and to top it off im bi so nothing seems to be going very well my therapist quit on me today so that makes three  of them  i have …

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i hate myself and seriously wana die……

  August 4th, 2009 by alone_y

i dont know wat da bloody hell i m doing here but it hardly matters to me know as i dont think nething is personal in ma life………
But i do wana express my feelings to so let it be here only.
I m frm Delhi,India i hav had a alot of friends but i dont like any of them know the babe who loved me has only played with my heart nd knw my parents nd sis hates me…..dad thinks i m a dopist which i m nt nd he doesnt let a single moment to skip from his hands to abuse me …… I think …

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Weak and feeling pathetic

  August 2nd, 2009 by Peace

I have experienced too much pain and to little joy in my young life.

i have always feelt unease with myself since aslong as i remember but 3 years ago i had enough, enough of people mocking me or making me a laughing stock, i started to do something i never thought i’d do and that was planing my own suicide and even writing a big letter to people (Family at most) and 4 people that i have keep in touch with thanks to a suicidal chat.

Today its gone 3 years since i planed my suicide but i still havnt done it, im overwhelmed with guilt …

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When the World Doesn’t Let You End

  July 30th, 2009 by Saeide

Well, to be honest I don’t know why I’m here. To be blunt some random guy in a gaming community suddenly linked me to this site out of the blue and I decided that what the heck, I’d share my story since I’ve had self-destructive if not suicidal thoughts lately.

My mother was my world, I was not close to any of my other immediate family members. She’d had cancer for nearly nine years when she finally passed away. My world and life collapsed. I spent a whole week doing nothing but lying in my room, I didn’t eat, I barely slept; I simply laid on …

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A long road… approaching a dead end?

  July 28th, 2009 by convict

I’m a twenty year old in college… and there’s a lot that’s happened in the past few years that has made me question life in its entirety. Prior to my senior year in high school, my father was diagnosed with lung and esophagus cancer. It was a difficult struggle to see the dramatic changes my life took in terms of my family, friends, and my responsibilities. I took it upon myself to acquire a job and help with the family. I fought and struggled and did my best to help with the family in hopes that my father would get better. …

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I Just Want to Disappear

  July 28th, 2009 by Frazier3

I realize that there are many of you who are in the same amount or worse pain than I am. I need to tell my story, and hope that someone can help me.

The past five years have been a nightmare for me.  One of my very closest friends died at the age of 48 from a brain tumor.  My Mom had a stroke, and then died last year from cancer after receiving a cancer-free diagnosis only a month before.  I lived with her and was her primary caretaker for four years.  I asked my family if I could live in our home until January (I would …

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help the hopeless…

  July 27th, 2009 by lillyla

I don’t know where to start. All i know is at 29 i should be further in my life than this. I’ve had SEVERE anxiety issues since i was in elementary school. I had to quit school and get my GED because of it. I went to cosmetology school and didn’t take my test because i was too nervous and was scared i was going to make an a** out of myself. Anyway, my dad who has cancer pays my rent. They denied me for food stamps so i have no food and no way to pay my bills. I’ve tried to work but because …

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My Story.

  July 23rd, 2009 by th3rdegreeburn

I don’t know what to do anymore. I used to have all the world laying at my feet, and I could pick whatever direction I chose. My life held so much promise, and now it is decaying around me.

In the past two years I’ve been beaten by my parents, taken by CPS, thrown into the real world a month later, and killed myself working ever since. I was supposed to go to the Air Force Academy. I got a full ride to a state college instead, where I found out what I loved to do most. But now I’m sitting in this house, and all …

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Its always darkest before the dawn right? Where did the fucking Sun go?

  July 19th, 2009 by Stoshua18

Well it’s been an interesting time in my life. I’ve spent almost 2 months of it in a mental hospital separated with a girlfriend of almost 3 years, mother of my third son who will be 2 tomorrow.  Started a relationship with another woman who I have to say, I love dearly.  I just don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I can’t bring myself to live a ‘normal’ life where I am a responsible adult and 9-5 and family one weekends. I left out in disability in December of last year about 3 months after FINALLY seeing a psychiatrist and being diagnosed with …

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Eighth grade and more hell along the way :)

  July 17th, 2009 by X bf calls me suicide

“No one is worth your tears…… Then why do we cry when we lose them?”

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lost forever

  July 16th, 2009 by X bf calls me suicide

people people pls

hear my tears ive cried

Im 14 and living with my mom brother and dog

i have a scar on my arm im contemplatin to cut open again ive cut my wrist 3times took 8 advils and choked my self with a belt twice

life for me is hell im scared to die but im ready

i hope someone here  i dnt care how old what gender suicidal or not I NEED HELP

Someone hear my heart i cry in my sleep i lost my great grandmother been heartbroken three times twice  by the same guy i cry alot

smile less im so ugly im scared to look decent …

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Help

  July 15th, 2009 by painterofmusic

Does anyone have skype that I could talk to? I really need someone. And please, if you’re just going to call 911 or someone and turn me in, don’t bother. You’d be hurting far more than you’d be helping. But if anyone can and they’re online right now, my URL is trippingovercrazy. I don’t have any friends, or I’d go to them.

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