Stories of Loss

For those who have passed on.

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is this it?

  February 5th, 2009 by meggzieMasqueraded

is this it??
is this all we have,, all we live for??
sometimes,, it doesnt seem quite enoughh..
also,, if it is,, then whyy do we suffer like this??

im now going to bore youu withh myy storyy althoughh i hope some people realise theyy are not the onlyy ones out there& if anyone ever needs anyyone to talkk to,, im here..

it started when i was about eight.. i was myy birthdayy& i went swimming withh some of myy friends.. it was great fun,, until myy mum got called out… i will never forget the tears& the lookk on here face when she came backk.. a lookk of pure

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My life has come to this?

  February 4th, 2009 by Terrified

A year ago, I was happy. Good grades, tons of friends, just started middle school. It was good.

Now, at 12, almost 13, I’m cutting myself, and having suicidal thoughts almost every day.

I don’t know how it got here, though.

My grandmother and brother died in the course of one month, but thats not it. Or at least I don’t think it is.

I guess it started as just a spur-of-the-moment thing. I started seventh grade with RSD, RA, Pain syndrome, and fucked-up nerves in my right arm. I’m in pain 24/7. And it’s not just small pain, …

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can someone help me

  February 3rd, 2009 by eric3034

i dont know what to do my step dad is yelling at me when i did not do any thing i am 17 lets see well it starts when i was litel my dad left my mom sexually abused me and my bother was in juvey for drugs and all my friends are neglectful i am picked on and i don’t think i can make it this time and my mom doesn’t care for me i have attempted to kill my self 3 times and faled cus some one walked in i cant see my rist all that i …

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Suicide.

  February 2nd, 2009 by Dave.

I feel out of options. I am a 16 year old guy and I am actually thinking of suicide. It’s ridiculous, and I know this, but I am in a lot of pain.

On April 27, 2007, (during my freshman year of high school) I began dating a girl. She was a senior at the time, and is beautiful. I didn’t know at the time, but I would eventually fall deeply in love with this girl. She was my first everything. Real girlfriend, kiss, and she even took my virginity. This girl was my world.

Flash forward to January 3rd, 2009. Out of seemingly nowhere, she breaks …

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i wonder if she made it

  January 21st, 2009 by estoy_triste

this is in memory of my bestfriend Angel R.I.P i miss u mama

we grew up together. from the time i was born untill i was 14, she was two years older than me but we were bestfriends. i loved her like a sister an she loved me more than words could explain.. her mom did drugs (crack) an angel never wanted to go home.. we would sit outside untill it got dark.. then i had to go home.. as we got older we grew closer.. she was the first person i got high with. she was the first person i ran away with ha …

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My Hamster Wheel

  January 17th, 2009 by btru2utoo

Family – Grad School – Career – Children – Friends – Volunteering – Pets – Chores – Homework

It is like being in a hamster wheel – exhausting – constant – never ending

But, I am all smiles, say the right things, act the right way, look the right way – 4.0 , suck up at work, good to my one living parent, devoted wife, adoring mommy…

Everyone always wants another piece of me. How much can I give? During these times, I turn off my switch. I am in my twenties now and I have learned how to go numb.

Some thoughts you cannot …

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Same Story Different Verse

  January 9th, 2009 by lyra

Does suicide haunt some families? Like a theif in the night, stealing the sanity of it’s victims. In 1975 my grandfather died by suicide. No warning, no goodbyes. That very day I told him I was going to give him his first great grandchild. He told me he wanted a 9 lb baby with the family dimple in the chin and he wanted a boy. He hung himself that night with his own belt in the downstairs shower. We were all devastated. I had that 9 lb baby, a boy, with the family dimple. I named him after my grandpa that I loved dearly. …

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i will never understand why?

  December 11th, 2008 by letticy

i just wanted to write to try and help someone who might be thinking of taking thier own life …. i was 23 when my dad decided that he didn want to be here anymore . I was due to get married 3 months later and my dad had been in the pub the night before (not drunk or so the postmortem said) and was telling everyone how he was looking forward to me getting married . He didnt leave a note , there was no obvious reason why , one day he was here the next day he was gone …..x

Then my life changed …

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hopeless

  December 8th, 2008 by givhana

i am feeling like everything that i do is wrong and my parents are having marrige problems and i watched my momdye and i am still in love with my x girlfriend ai dated for 4 years and my dad and mom think that i can just stop feeling deppressed and my girl now is some help in dealing with my thoughts and i feel like it is my fault that my mom died when i was 16 and then my aunt terri died and my grandparents on both sides of my family died and then my unborn child and one of my x s …

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please

  December 5th, 2008 by ------

people love you
people care about you
people dont want to see you hurting

my dad didnt know that …he was ill, clinically depressed, i couldnt save him

i was only 10 but i feel the hurt every single day and im now 17
i have depression myself …but i refuse to let it beat me …i will not hurt people the way he hurt me … even though i love him i still hate him for what he did ..
i must sound like such a horrible person but i do hate him ='[[ it hurts me so much but i do …i cant help it …

i have an amzing …

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The Unforgiven Father

  December 5th, 2008 by stephanie

Hi my name is Stephanie. My father is someone you cant forgive right away. He’s always on my back, “Stephanie do this, Stephanie dont do that, Stephanie your stupid, Stephanie your an idiot, Stephanie jus go in a corner an die.” he never say;s anymore, “Good job Stephanie, I love you, your gorgeous, or Stephanie your a great sister.” Now it’s, “what’s wrong with you?, why are you so damn dumb?, why cant you jus be yourself anymore?” All I can think about is what is life like on the other side? I’ve tried many times to commit suicide. I havent actually followed threw with …

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Prepare for the Dark Side

  September 28th, 2008 by Christa

The majority of my life was spent in and out of a state of depression (I had my own zip code) and often, I was quite manic. I regularly experienced suicidal thoughts. I spent years thinking life sucked with a big fat capital “S“. In my mind life was a jail and often I thought about breaking free. I generally lived under a big ugly dark black cloud of my own making.

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Time to share my story.

  September 3rd, 2008 by Fay

I’m Fay, almost 18 years old and kind of in a dark place right know. I don’t want to kill myself anymore, but about a year ago I saw no way out anymore.

For the last 1.5 year my life really haven’t been easy, my dad died, my grandfather died, my uncle comitted suicide and my aunt died as well, 4 people I really cared about. And because of that I almost lost all my friends, people don’t like someone who is not simple. It’s really hard to just keep on going but I feel like I have to. I’ve met a girl who …

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  August 24th, 2008 by bo noyes

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IN LOVING MEMORY OF BY BEST FRIEND BRANDEN WOODS

  August 24th, 2008 by bo noyes

TODAY IS AUG.24TH,08
I AM WRITING THIS ENTRY BECAUSE TODAY I HAD TO SAY A “FINAL GOOD-BYE” TO MY FRIEND BRANDEN. BRANDEN WOODS TOOK HIS OWN LIFE ON AUG.18TH,2008…HE WAS ONLY 30 YRS. OLD.
I PROBLEY SHOULDN’T BE WRITING THIS STORY ON THIS WEB-SITE,
BUT I HAVE SO SO MANY QUESTIONS & I’M SO MAD RIGHT NOW!!!

NO ONE REALLY STOPS TO THINK ABOUT WHAT WILL HAPPEN AFTER THEY ARE GONE-THEY ONLY WANT “THEIR” PAIN TO GO AWAY…NOT REALIZING “ALL” THE PAIN THAT THEY WILL CAUSE EVERYONE ELSE IN THE AFTER MATH!!!!
MY FRIEND BRANDEN WAS GOING THROUGH …

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very inconsiderate

  August 11th, 2008 by candacef83

so i jsut want all of you to know that suicide is the most selfish act anyone can make…. did any of you know that suicide only hurts the ones left behind???? i lost someone VERY close to me because of suicide… i honetly killing yourself is not the only option… it’s for the lazy, the ones who are not willing to work to make life better, i have been suicidal was for most of my early teen’s but then i realized that there is so much more to life than thinking about death, so take yourself to a dr …

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Brooke’s Story

  August 4th, 2008 by X_Anonymous_X

Author’s Note: Everything in this story is completely true, including all the dates. Names have been changed to protect the privacy of those involved.

Brooke’s Story

So there’s this girlie Brooke. She’s my best friend, and she means the world to me. There’s no one else in the world who has her laugh, her smile, or her personality. She’s one of the best peeps ever, and I’m so glad to have her as my friend. She’s like, the happiest person that I know; always cheerful and ready to make you smile. And she wants to die.
See, Brooke is really depressed. Her dad’s death when she was …

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My life…ruined. Poor, pity me as my Dad says.

  June 26th, 2008 by ShunBlue

About 2 years ago, my husband and I had begun having strainful marital difficulties that are too numerous to mention. We really had a wonderfu life beforehand. I had worked my whole life, going to college (not graduating, but choosing work instead), dated, and found my soul-mate at 23. What are soulmates anyway? This is such a long, long story so I’ll try to give it a Reader’s Condensed version. I held a job as a CSR/Analyst with a Petrochemical Marketing Firm and my husband worked his way up in his Oil Company (large one) to a Geologist Tech. …

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love of a lifetime loss

  June 20th, 2008 by MJ

For the past 18 years I have been depressed off and on. I am now 31. Never been married and I don’t have any children. I am actually pretty successful compared to my friends and relatives. 8 years ago, the love of my life passed away suddenly from a motorcycle accident. The pain– the pain– the pain. I hurt everyday. I don’t think that I can have a “normal” romantic relationship with anyone because I still love him. He was the love of my life. I never told him how I really felt. Nor have …

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I’m Sorry

  June 12th, 2008 by pauldugan13

HAPPY FATHER’S DAY

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