Stories of Loss

For those who have passed on.

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i wonder if she made it

  January 21st, 2009 by estoy_triste

this is in memory of my bestfriend Angel R.I.P i miss u mama

we grew up together. from the time i was born untill i was 14, she was two years older than me but we were bestfriends. i loved her like a sister an she loved me more than words could explain.. her mom did drugs (crack) an angel never wanted to go home.. we would sit outside untill it got dark.. then i had to go home.. as we got older we grew closer.. she was the first person i got high with. she was the first person i ran away with ha …

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My Hamster Wheel

  January 17th, 2009 by btru2utoo

Family – Grad School – Career – Children – Friends – Volunteering – Pets – Chores – Homework

It is like being in a hamster wheel – exhausting – constant – never ending

But, I am all smiles, say the right things, act the right way, look the right way – 4.0 , suck up at work, good to my one living parent, devoted wife, adoring mommy…

Everyone always wants another piece of me. How much can I give? During these times, I turn off my switch. I am in my twenties now and I have learned how to go numb.

Some thoughts you cannot …

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Same Story Different Verse

  January 9th, 2009 by lyra

Does suicide haunt some families? Like a theif in the night, stealing the sanity of it’s victims. In 1975 my grandfather died by suicide. No warning, no goodbyes. That very day I told him I was going to give him his first great grandchild. He told me he wanted a 9 lb baby with the family dimple in the chin and he wanted a boy. He hung himself that night with his own belt in the downstairs shower. We were all devastated. I had that 9 lb baby, a boy, with the family dimple. I named him after my grandpa that I loved dearly. …

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i will never understand why?

  December 11th, 2008 by letticy

i just wanted to write to try and help someone who might be thinking of taking thier own life …. i was 23 when my dad decided that he didn want to be here anymore . I was due to get married 3 months later and my dad had been in the pub the night before (not drunk or so the postmortem said) and was telling everyone how he was looking forward to me getting married . He didnt leave a note , there was no obvious reason why , one day he was here the next day he was gone …..x

Then my life changed …

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hopeless

  December 8th, 2008 by givhana

i am feeling like everything that i do is wrong and my parents are having marrige problems and i watched my momdye and i am still in love with my x girlfriend ai dated for 4 years and my dad and mom think that i can just stop feeling deppressed and my girl now is some help in dealing with my thoughts and i feel like it is my fault that my mom died when i was 16 and then my aunt terri died and my grandparents on both sides of my family died and then my unborn child and one of my x s …

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please

  December 5th, 2008 by ------

people love you
people care about you
people dont want to see you hurting

my dad didnt know that …he was ill, clinically depressed, i couldnt save him

i was only 10 but i feel the hurt every single day and im now 17
i have depression myself …but i refuse to let it beat me …i will not hurt people the way he hurt me … even though i love him i still hate him for what he did ..
i must sound like such a horrible person but i do hate him ='[[ it hurts me so much but i do …i cant help it …

i have an amzing …

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The Unforgiven Father

  December 5th, 2008 by stephanie

Hi my name is Stephanie. My father is someone you cant forgive right away. He’s always on my back, “Stephanie do this, Stephanie dont do that, Stephanie your stupid, Stephanie your an idiot, Stephanie jus go in a corner an die.” he never say;s anymore, “Good job Stephanie, I love you, your gorgeous, or Stephanie your a great sister.” Now it’s, “what’s wrong with you?, why are you so damn dumb?, why cant you jus be yourself anymore?” All I can think about is what is life like on the other side? I’ve tried many times to commit suicide. I havent actually followed threw with …

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Prepare for the Dark Side

  September 28th, 2008 by Christa

The majority of my life was spent in and out of a state of depression (I had my own zip code) and often, I was quite manic. I regularly experienced suicidal thoughts. I spent years thinking life sucked with a big fat capital “S“. In my mind life was a jail and often I thought about breaking free. I generally lived under a big ugly dark black cloud of my own making.

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Time to share my story.

  September 3rd, 2008 by Fay

I’m Fay, almost 18 years old and kind of in a dark place right know. I don’t want to kill myself anymore, but about a year ago I saw no way out anymore.

For the last 1.5 year my life really haven’t been easy, my dad died, my grandfather died, my uncle comitted suicide and my aunt died as well, 4 people I really cared about. And because of that I almost lost all my friends, people don’t like someone who is not simple. It’s really hard to just keep on going but I feel like I have to. I’ve met a girl who …

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  August 24th, 2008 by bo noyes

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IN LOVING MEMORY OF BY BEST FRIEND BRANDEN WOODS

  August 24th, 2008 by bo noyes

TODAY IS AUG.24TH,08
I AM WRITING THIS ENTRY BECAUSE TODAY I HAD TO SAY A “FINAL GOOD-BYE” TO MY FRIEND BRANDEN. BRANDEN WOODS TOOK HIS OWN LIFE ON AUG.18TH,2008…HE WAS ONLY 30 YRS. OLD.
I PROBLEY SHOULDN’T BE WRITING THIS STORY ON THIS WEB-SITE,
BUT I HAVE SO SO MANY QUESTIONS & I’M SO MAD RIGHT NOW!!!

NO ONE REALLY STOPS TO THINK ABOUT WHAT WILL HAPPEN AFTER THEY ARE GONE-THEY ONLY WANT “THEIR” PAIN TO GO AWAY…NOT REALIZING “ALL” THE PAIN THAT THEY WILL CAUSE EVERYONE ELSE IN THE AFTER MATH!!!!
MY FRIEND BRANDEN WAS GOING THROUGH …

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very inconsiderate

  August 11th, 2008 by candacef83

so i jsut want all of you to know that suicide is the most selfish act anyone can make…. did any of you know that suicide only hurts the ones left behind???? i lost someone VERY close to me because of suicide… i honetly killing yourself is not the only option… it’s for the lazy, the ones who are not willing to work to make life better, i have been suicidal was for most of my early teen’s but then i realized that there is so much more to life than thinking about death, so take yourself to a dr …

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Brooke’s Story

  August 4th, 2008 by X_Anonymous_X

Author’s Note: Everything in this story is completely true, including all the dates. Names have been changed to protect the privacy of those involved.

Brooke’s Story

So there’s this girlie Brooke. She’s my best friend, and she means the world to me. There’s no one else in the world who has her laugh, her smile, or her personality. She’s one of the best peeps ever, and I’m so glad to have her as my friend. She’s like, the happiest person that I know; always cheerful and ready to make you smile. And she wants to die.
See, Brooke is really depressed. Her dad’s death when she was …

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My life…ruined. Poor, pity me as my Dad says.

  June 26th, 2008 by ShunBlue

About 2 years ago, my husband and I had begun having strainful marital difficulties that are too numerous to mention. We really had a wonderfu life beforehand. I had worked my whole life, going to college (not graduating, but choosing work instead), dated, and found my soul-mate at 23. What are soulmates anyway? This is such a long, long story so I’ll try to give it a Reader’s Condensed version. I held a job as a CSR/Analyst with a Petrochemical Marketing Firm and my husband worked his way up in his Oil Company (large one) to a Geologist Tech. …

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love of a lifetime loss

  June 20th, 2008 by MJ

For the past 18 years I have been depressed off and on. I am now 31. Never been married and I don’t have any children. I am actually pretty successful compared to my friends and relatives. 8 years ago, the love of my life passed away suddenly from a motorcycle accident. The pain– the pain– the pain. I hurt everyday. I don’t think that I can have a “normal” romantic relationship with anyone because I still love him. He was the love of my life. I never told him how I really felt. Nor have …

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I’m Sorry

  June 12th, 2008 by pauldugan13

HAPPY FATHER’S DAY

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I’m Sorry I am NOW Happy

  June 3rd, 2008 by pauldugan13

I’m Sorry..

EAT DOG SHIT FOREVER !!!!!!

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Untitled

  May 28th, 2008 by TkElle

I’ve literally been aware of this website for no longer than five minutes, but I can’t explain how relieved I feel for having typed ‘suicide’ in a search engine. Some of the stories I scanned are heart-wrenching and I don’t feel I can compare (even though that isn’t the point), or even justify why I feel so awful. I’m 15, and in the midst of my examinations. I find it impossible to revise for them, maybe because I have a constant thought of how I may fail if I don’t revise. But that makes the process worse. I feel pressured by myself – guilt-tripped in …

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witness

  May 14th, 2008 by Survivor

Today happens to be my 34th birthday. I have been a survivor of debilitating depression since I was 19. I have forgotten the person I was. After 14 years of severe depression and all of the questions all of the odd looks all of the hopelessness and pain. All of those wasted years and potential. I am starting to feel better. Dr.s seemed to always give me a drug of limited effect in an insufficient dose and left me out to pasture. Higher doses of prescription drugs are what is helping me.
How the heck do I know how normal I should feel now after …

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When Will I Feel Good Again? Where Did I Go Wrong?

  May 10th, 2008 by DyingInside

Basically My Life Story, Reasons For Being Suicidal.

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