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I’m overweight and worry I will fail at hanging myself.

  November 25th, 2018 by Johnsmith8611

Is anyone else overweight and had problems with this?

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Loneliness

  November 25th, 2018 by PurpleCrystal

Sometimes I feel the most alone person in the world. No friends and no one who cares about me. My mother is a fanatic religious who doesn’t accept me as a woman and keeps insisting on treating me a way a hate. She knows I hate it and that makes me feel even more sad, but she doesn’t care. She won’t chance because of her imaginary friend. I tried so hard to be well this year, to feel better, but I keep walking in circles, always ending where I began. Last week I felt that wish to cut myself again after one year and I’m …

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Mouse

  November 25th, 2018 by Mouse

I’m a mouse stuck in human form and I don’t know how to change!

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Completely Lost…

  November 25th, 2018 by Distressed Ostrich

I’m 21 years old and I’ve been suffering from depression and suicidal thoughts for almost 10 years now (I think so at least, I don’t remember much but I’m pretty sure I first tried to run away from my home when I was 11 or so).

I don’t think it’s my dad who used to come home drunk and beat my mom.
I don’t think it’s my suicidal mom, whom I have caught quite a few time trying to kill herself when I was a kid.
I don’t think it’s the lack of friends, or the introversion.
I don’t think it’s the constant lack of money and the fear …

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Zoloft is my friend.

  November 25th, 2018 by NiceGuy2001

A couple of weeks ago I had a major emotional meltdown. Sometimes a minor thing will trigger such things. Anyway, as soon as I got home, I completely fell apart. I didn’t think I would ever stop yelling and crying.

 

I think of my personal despair on a zero-to-ten scale: Zero being no despair, and ten being climbing up into my attic and putting a belt around my neck. On this particular evening I was up around a nine.

 

I knew something had to be done, so I was able to get a prescription for Zoloft (generic name sertraline). I’ve always been very leery about taking artificial …

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Vacant

  November 25th, 2018 by syrinj

I was so convinced I was grateful a few days ago. I’m in FL visiting my mom, and I was so sure the getaway would be a healing one. This morning I woke up in an internal bottled-up rage fit. I’m an afterthought to everyone. Everyone I know is in recovery benefitting from it. For some reason, I feel I’m too sick to save. The benefits of the twelve steps are out of reach to me, and too much time has passed in isolation to make up for any of it now. I want to be taken out swiftly and painlessly. Ideally, a

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WTF is wrong with my dad

  November 25th, 2018 by PatheticMale

My dad is such a weird person I never knew what to make of him honestly. I think he kinda fked me up but it could very well be just an excuse. I am sure that many people had worse parents and managed to have a normal life.

My dad is really odd tho and I am very similar to him (I fking hate it). I dont know if he has some kind of psychological disorder or what. He is a total religious fanatic (catholic). He believes the old testament bibles view on kids which is basically that your kids are like your property and you …

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What a suicidal person looks like. (A meandering rant.)

  November 25th, 2018 by NeverKnown

Who do you imagine when you think of a suicidal person? Age, gender, ethnicity, background, etc…. I figure there’s a lot of different suicidal stereotypes. Where am I getting at with this? Well, I mean, I figure I always knew this, but I just thought about it…

There is no actual suicidal look. Anyone can be suicidal. Anyone, regardless of how they dress, how they talk, how old or young they are… It’s not much of an epiphany I suppose. But would anyone guess that I want to die just by looking at me? How many people around me are suicidal, and I don’t even know …

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Come on, guys

  November 25th, 2018 by EmptyPluto

You know what really bites? When you let a friend borrow a record, and then they bring it back to you all scratched up. I mean, how hard can it possibly be to treat another persons property with respect? Seriously, it isn’t that difficult to get up and put a record back into its proper sleeve. I let you borrow that record to give it a listen, not toss it around like an overpriced frisbee. Normally, this wouldn’t annoy or surprise me all that much, but when said record is now out of print and increasing in value, I’m bound to get a little upset. …

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Mono – 2 Candles, 1 Wish

  November 25th, 2018 by Taf Taf

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  November 24th, 2018 by WaterWorks

I’m losing time again,

Trying to figure out who I am,

Here’s a rope, let’s see if I will sink or swim,

 

I quit my job again,

Trying to figure out if this life,

Is a life I want to live.

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Alcohol

  November 24th, 2018 by Gary555

Anyone notice that abusing alcohol increases your chemical imbalance? I’m luckier than most in that I don’t have a constant imbalance that I need meds for but after I drink too much it makes me depressed and outright suicidal the next two days. It takes me about 3 days to get my equilibrium back. I also notice I’m more chemically balanced when I take a multi vitamin. I think the B vitamins help balance the chemicals in my brain.

Btw this is none of my business but I noticed you ripped into the poster ADoseOfReality. I can see one or two of you stating your opinion …

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memories

  November 24th, 2018 by heartlessviking

I just… can’t get away from the memories.

Apparently my pain and scars don’t meet the definition of trauma,

but what she said, what she did, what I did, sometimes I just want to end it to blank out the memories, to blank out the self accusation and the part of my brain that keeps bringing up shit that it can’t fix

she fucking left, divorce happened 8 years ago this month. I’ve moved on with my life. Then her life went great, new husband six months later, kids about a year after that, grad school success, perfect fucking american life.

me? sick. crashes. 8 fucking years of failed …

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New SP Layout?

  November 24th, 2018 by Black Holez

Just noticed that you don’t see new replies now on this site on the right hand side of the page. Was that a conscious decision among the admins to remove that? Seems counter-intuitive if we want SP to be organic and engaging.

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I dread to wake up

  November 24th, 2018 by Black Holez

I dread to wake up and face the same thing over and over again. I have no job, no friends and no life. My daily routine consists of waking up, moping in my bed all day doing nothing and sleeping. I’m wasting away and unable to do anything about my situation. People I know have lives of their own and I don’t want them to share my problems. I have no one to turn to. I want to face other people but so-called friends of mine have turned on me that I can do nothing about it. My mind is being shattered into a million …

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Engagement dinner of my brother: Partying with “normies”

  November 24th, 2018 by hope432

I want to put yourself this question: Do you think you are a weird person? Do you think you are weird because you are suicidal and lurk on a suicide website? Do you think you are weird because you are different?

I want to show you the true aspect of society. “Normal people” can be more weird than you. At least you can see there is something wrong with the world.

I want to tell you a story or rather a event of my life. You see, I have a brother. He has always been more social than me, made friends, had some girl friends. He is …

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Anger and dishes

  November 24th, 2018 by heartlessviking

I hate food

I hate dishes

why is this so complicated? I just want my fucking housemates to clean up after themselves.

I’m not their servant, it’s actually my house (as in my name is on the deed, my parents pay the mortgage while I’m in school).

I just want to know what their fucking  role is supposed to be in our little community. I get the bills paid, fix things, drive people places, and so on.

They just sit around and soak up my excess energy? Complain that I’m not cleaning the way that THEY prefer? Mention the times they actually did their share and now the chores need …

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  November 24th, 2018 by samesh1tdifferentday

Again.

I wonder when my mind will finally break.

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2,306 days

  November 24th, 2018 by Cause of Death: Suicide

Since I was supposed to kill my self, it was going to be the only greatest day of my life. I can’t believe I failed at the only thing I’ve ever wanted.. I am finally getting around to making my dream come true, but it seems very surreal, so surreal that it’s hard for me to get around to… I’ve been deprived for so long of any choice. I couldn’t kill myself that day because an old whore was in my bed, so I was going to kill myself the next year but I was restricted, so I was going to kill myself the next …

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mouse squeaking sounds

  November 24th, 2018 by Mouse

I’m sorry if this post bothers anyone! This is just for fun

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