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Today’s word: aimless

February 15th, 2018by mindlessgamer619

I gave up on sleep. Woke up at 12:50 am, haven’t gotten back to sleep since.

These last two days I’ve been feeling aimless. Like just unable to really plot out where I’m gonna go and how I’ll get things done. There are people I want to visit, places I want to go, but nowhere near enough money to do those things…

I’m quite annoyed tbh.

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I’m Dying

February 15th, 2018by liz_zie_gla

“What are you doing?” they ask. I’m dying. Why is that so hard to understand?

I don’t want to be dying. It’s not like this is fun. Feeling like dying isn’t normal. It’s not enjoyable. It’s not something I want to do. It just feels like I’m out of options.

In some ways, I’m actually very happy the people around me don’t understand my feelings. I mean, maybe they would if I told them how I felt, but I don’t really want to find out.

The beauty of anonymity, in terms of depression, is that you don’t know who it is that feels this way. You know how …

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Failllllll mums birthday

February 15th, 2018by beautifulmonster

I feel even worthless today. It’s my mums birthday. I couldn’t even gas myself properly. What a fail. Now I have to wait till tommorow.

I’m really annoyed. I’m lying in my bed head hurts. I don’t want to be here another minute. I really don’t.

I cannot believe my own sister did not come to the hospital. So called ‘friends’ pfffttttt. Every dog for themselves. But my own family. Gronks yesterday on shit so they say I’m on G?! I fuvking don’t even like it. Hospital staff so rude. I’m begging them my chest was hurting and she kept telling me I took G. If I …

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WHY?

February 15th, 2018by nobodycares

why should i explain myself to them if they dont believe me at the end? why should i follow what they want? what about my wants and needs? why should i sacrifice my happiness for them? im not happy anymore… why i cant quit my job? why i cant go anywhere without them? why???

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I finally quit

February 15th, 2018by ratlovinggirl

So I posted about dance being stressful and today I finally did something about it. I dropped my solo! I feel super relieved about it.

 

seperate from that I think I need to take my rabbit somewhere for cull… anyone here that might be a small animal breeder knows what that means. Apparently his aggression is a sign he just isn’t happy and thats the best idea, he’s caused me to break down sobbing because he hates me so much and I just want to love him…. so that sucks…

 

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You.

February 14th, 2018by numbo

I don’t know if you still come on here but I still love you.

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try

February 14th, 2018by lonelygirl645

I try so hard to be good at everything I do. When I succeed I get praised, when I fail I get told “I’m not trying”. Those words sting more than anything else that has been said to me. When I’m not trying, I wouldn’t be upset about messing up. When I’m not trying, I wouldn’t care about how I did. If I’m not trying then why do YOU care about how well I do. You don’t know how I feel, or how you hurt me everyday. How your words cut like a knife that was just sharpened. I hate myself because of you. I …

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Does anybody here feel

February 14th, 2018by Cause of Death: Suicide

Like they should maybe already be dead?

Are any of you surprised that you are still alive?

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death is inevitable

February 14th, 2018by hated_tedah

I came here to see ways of committing suicide that would make my death look like natural.But as the site rules are that we are not suppose to give people tips so this doesnt seem to be a right place.

I am suppose to tell my whole life and problems to people who are complete strangers and they will show empathy of some kind.As pathetic as it sounds my religious believe does tell me that suicide is an unpardonable sin by God.The here after will be hell for eternity which doesnt sound great as well.Your believes might be different.

The first thing I ask is I never …

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Hello, I am nothing.

February 14th, 2018by Indiigo

It hurts. Everything hurts so much. I struggle every day and keep on going but for what ? The mask I put on every morning is cracking. My facade I built is fading and people are noticing. I have always been told I am the happy one, that I bring joy but what if I can’t supply that joy any more ? I have no more to give so I can only offer my sadness. My darkest of thoughts which I mistakenly bare for people to see. I shouldn’t have told anyone. I’m not happy anymore, I am hurt. Destroyed. The me that was once …

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Valentines day sucks

February 14th, 2018by Letmyheartsing

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I’m taking a step in and out -> quitting this site, May you all be well

February 14th, 2018by Urm8451n

This site has been my shoulder to cry on, and helped me in a lot of ways.
But even so, this site has helped me to rant out too much, and helped me to feel sorry for myself.
It also back fired by the fact that I stopped talking to myself and thinking out what will be my next steps.

It is funny but the last problem turned out really bad, I sank into depression as quick as a formula car with turbo and 2 nuclear engines on each wheel.

Humor aside – I have to re-start dealing with my problems on my own. I don’t belong here. …

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Another lost soul

February 14th, 2018by Allmostthere

Hi there, i tried to hang myself and almost do it, i did a partial hanging method, tied a rope inside the tube of a closet, sit and in less than a minute i loss my conciousness, the tube fell and my body instanly stand up, i was in shock like, dont understanding why the hell i have a rope in my neck, if the tube where the clothes hang didnt fell, i have died, so fuck up, i will give a try again in a few moments hanging from another place that is more efective, hanging is painfull, but i can tell you that …

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Vday? More like death day.

February 14th, 2018by lovvely

I’ve decided tonight I’m going to try to commit. My mom has locked up my meds so my final option is bleach. I’ve done plenty research and if I drink enough, despite the taste probably being awful, I’ll end up dying. I’m going to do it tonight at 2:00 AM, setting a timer for 1:30, going to bed quite earlier, getting a decent last amount of sleep, and before I drink the awful liquid, I’m going to eat my favorite snack and send a final message to the love of my life, before I kick the bucket. This will probably be my last post. But …

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I don’t think I can continue for much longer…

February 14th, 2018by lovedOnce

Everyday I have the idea, I feel this despair and it’s difficult to hide.

I feel the to end with everything. The nonsense of killing myself is turning to be reasonable. I don’t like to live, I don’t like feel the pain, the loneliness. My friends are gone, the love of my life is gone. The only thing I do now is work. I work 15h-16h a day, seven days a week. Not because my work needs me, but because I need work.

I’m afraid to die. I wish I had made different choices. I wish I have never tell you that I was in love. If have …

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My dog is successfully rehomed

February 14th, 2018by ladolcemorte

Today I found out that my dog has been successfully re-homed. (He was with a good family for a trial run and it looked like they were keeping him, but today it was confirmed that they are taking him and we just need to fill out some adoption paperwork).

On the one hand I am relieved that he now has a good home.  And I’m glad I stuck around long enough to make sure that happened, as opposed to just offing myself and leaving a note behind with phone numbers of people who could assist in finding him a new home.

But my heart is broken.   …

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i shouldn’t have depression, or have suicidal thoughts

February 14th, 2018by Blackdrook

This is frustrating, i don’t even know what to say. I apologize about the bad language ahead. So basically I‘m all fucked up right now because of something incredibly insignificant. My sister just went shopping, asks me to help her unload the car with groceries. So she tells me to be carefull with the eggs, puts them under the hood of the trunk. She didn’t tell she put them there. But i basically crushed them. I told her i didn’t see them nor meant it (god this is just my head – but i think she feels that was the intent). …

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thought

February 14th, 2018by spectralgiraffe

I didn’t see the post where it happened but its sad that someone left because a nasty comment was left on their post.

I’ve had the (mostly) occasional nasty comment on my posts in my 4 and a bit yrs here.

Not saying anyone should suck it up and accept it. Just saying its really sad. The post at the top is right though, there are real people here who have real feelings and can be hurt.

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Say something

February 14th, 2018by ratlovinggirl

Say something happy. Something that makes you smile, something happy that happened to you, something happy you heard.
Say something that will make me smile.

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February 14th, 2018by Blackbear

I just feel lonely..

I hate having this feeling like I’m just gonna end up alone, die alone

Etc

But I know if I do get someone

Idk how long they’re gonna stay with me

How is it gonna end, if there’s even a point because all of the times they would’ve said “I love you and I’ll always be by your side” were a lie something just to pull me into it and then fuck with my emotions..

Having to see an ex almost everyday it’s just taunting, there were no goodbyes

Lol don’t even fucking know what’s going …

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