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You know what might just kill me…

November 7th, 2017by duringmydarkestdays

If I don’t find love by the time I’m 30… I think that’s going to be enough to push me over the edge, the idea of living my life alone, not ever experiencing love where my other half doesn’t abuse me or neglect my feelings…

Heh… right now I can feel myself going mental over the idea… ? ?

I don’t want to die alone… not in this way, anyway…

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:(

November 7th, 2017by lostallhope001

How is this life so great for some and so miserable for others

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Regrets, Eternal Guilt, and Unforgiveness

November 7th, 2017by eternaldarkness

One of the worst things in life are regrets- regrets of not doing something, of not trying something, of not going after something (no, they’re not things I can do now, it’s too late).  It’s feeling shitty about yourself for 1- not having done it and 2- for not having the balls to do it.  Also, 3- because you can’t go back in time and do it now.  It’s too late.

Also, on the flip side, are the shit you’ve done that cannot be undone, that you shouldn’t have done, the mistakes you’ve made that has fucked you over big time and still affects you today.  …

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November 7th, 2017by Robigson

I have to go through some shit over n over
I hope everyone will get what they deserve, myself included
I do not feel bad if i die, i accept it, do not feel sorry anymore, i hope i get away from these monsters called humans (myself included) forever

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too much

November 7th, 2017by Birdsndflies

I don´t want to think anymore

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Old people keep messing with me

November 7th, 2017by lonewolf23

These last couple of weeks have been super upsetting for me. I don’t know if this is a senior citizen thing but i have been interacting with some of the most disrespectful senior citizens I’ve ever met lately. They say the rudest shit ever. And they really try to get me upset. It seems like its on their daily agenda to piss me off just cuz I’m young. I’m 21yrs old and for some reason they target me as someone to bully. I say bully because i can say some horrible things back but i choose not to because i dont like doing that. I …

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I don’t know how to take care of myself?

November 7th, 2017by eternaldarkness

Depressed people tend to not take care of themselves.  We sometimes don’t eat right, don’t go out, sleep too much, sleep too little.  Stuff like that.  We all know that.  But sometimes, we don’t even know that we don’t know how to take care of ourselves.

For example, this morning, I finally turned on the heat.  It’s been cold all week, maybe even since last week.  Why didn’t I turn on the heat earlier?  Then it dawned on me that I didn’t know how to put me first and put my health first.  I was thinking, nah, I can brave it, it’s not THAT cold yet, …

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This feeling

November 7th, 2017by Cause of Death: Suicide

I just have this feeling I’m going to die soon.Not even from suicide. Just from my body/mind shutting down. I wouldn’t do anything to try to stop it. I’ve been sick for a year now and nothing is helping me get better. (Immune system.) As long as I know that is around the corner, I don’t worry about much. For example, just last night I was hallucinating mad. Bunch of nothing figurable. Like a seizure in my sleep. Grand mal.

I’ve been used as bait again. I’m used by immature fools as their bait. They’ll sick cops on me like dogs and they’ve used me as bait since I was 6. …

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rejection and abandonment

November 7th, 2017by johnb991199

im tired of being abandoned. it seems im annoying and a waste of space in this world. im given the benefit of the doubt, no explanations, and left behind. i dont understand. i just want to be dead already .im tired of the pain

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What’s wrong with me?

November 7th, 2017by Androlumos12

I scare myself. I scare myself everyday because no matter where I am, who I’m with, or what I’m doing, I always think about death. If I’m eating lunch with my friends, I consider running up to the roof of my three story school so I won’t break down because I know they hate me. I’m repulsive, so why not? I consider jumping, just so I can stop thinking about how much I hate myself.

If I’m at the store with my grandma, I want to buy a strong rope so I can be rid of myself by the next day. But with my luck it …

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Losing the Fight

November 7th, 2017by WildWolf55

I’m losing the fight. I can feel my mind giving in. I know that death will win. And I can feel my depression pulling me deeper and deeper down my hole. I can tell I’m gonna commit suicide soon. I just don’t know when

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Deleted

November 7th, 2017by Number

So I wrote a long post that I felt proud of.. gave me some relief.

Aaaaaaaand it deleted itself.

Fml

Well it was a good one.. it definitely wouldve changed someone’s life. Haha

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Ever felt the weight of the world on your shoulders?

November 7th, 2017by Black Holez

How do you guys cope? I thought I would be okay. It’s been a year since I’ve been struggling with these feelings of isolation and depression but I’m slowly losing my mind. I thought I could move on, I thought I can survive and power through this like I have so many times before with whatever trials came my way but this one just feels different. I just can’t. It’s really different when there’s nobody there who will support you and help you along the way. My burden seems too heavy to bear for me. I feel all alone with no one to lean on. …

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So much pain

November 7th, 2017by iwouldrathernot

im in incredible pain rn and I was hoping I could flick a switch to make it all stop

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Breaking free from this jail cell called life.

November 7th, 2017by Baked13

My mind is reducing me to this worthless being with an even bigger urge to finally do it.

I’m going to do it.

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Mute?

November 7th, 2017by Laurens

I have attempted suicide before, my brother took me to the hospital. It has been a year. I’m 14 now. And I’m getting in a low point. I don’t want my family to hate me for hurting myself. I really want to know what going mute would do. I’ve thought about it. I mean, I’d be saying little to nothing so it’d be almost as if I wasn’t there. And people only notice me when I talk.Help??

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And yet another updated note… (7 November 2017)

November 7th, 2017by Alice

I never did like doing these, but how else are people going to know why (I killed myself). Though I have made many (suicide) notes before, but I always wanted them to be perfectly informative. They all were different from my first (suicide) note which was full of raw emotion (and plus it was hand written). I wish I still had it with me. It was the only thing I had that was real to me… sadly the emotions I felt when it was made will never be forgotten. After all it was my first attempt (3 January 2015).

For this I will used my name …

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Too tired to pretend happiness

November 7th, 2017by Elcyc

I try to pretend that I am not sad but sometimes I fail to do so. It makes my relatives very sad and that makes everything worse. I need to be more careful and keep the fake smile up.

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I am tired

November 7th, 2017by water

I feel people like me don’t belong in this world. I am very alone. I had something to make me feel fulfilled but I was stripped of it 5.5 years ago. I am currently 22.5. That may be young to you but that is irrelevant since in my eyes, this is a good age to die. I see NO point in living past your prime just to become some old man. It isn’t ME.

 

I am defeated.

 

I am not close to a single human.

 

My parents betrayed me. I hate those fools.

 

Society and its inefficient school system betrayed me (too much emphasis to general ed = waste …

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How do I win.

November 7th, 2017by RoyalHawk

No matter what I do I end up in the same boat. Being alone in my room staring at the wall contemplating ways to slip away into the afterlife and who if anyone at all would care. Some nights I imagine doing it and just hoping that everyone whose ever known me realizes how much they’ve taken my company for granted. Other nights, the exact opposite. I imagine doing so and hopefully no one caring at all. It all started when what feels like the one and only love of my life decided it be best we split ways my junior year. Ever since I …

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