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Fuck this shit I’m out

February 7th, 2018by Lostagain1991

Today we had a competition in which for the past four years my sister has won. I lost all of my events. I can’t even look at my fucking parents. I’m so upset with myself. Idk what to do, I want to cry but the tears won’t come. I want to die, but I’m not brave enough. I want help but I’m to awkward to ask. What do I do?

 

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anyone online?

February 7th, 2018by miszion

is anyone online right now with the spare time to chat a little?

I’m at work with nothing but some inventory to do, and I’m feeling quite lonely and unmotivated. I downloaded KIK for easier messaging if anyone else has it? if not I have access to this site at work as well.

looking to chat about anything really.

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I’m ready to end my loneliness!

February 7th, 2018by Matto-183719

Yes you read that title right! I’m gonna jump off a tall building in about a week. I’m really excited to see if there’s an afterlife or not! If there is I’m gonna be suprised but that doesn’t matter. Now you may think «there has to be other reason to end your life?» well there is! I’m so god damn bored with this life. I do the same thing every day. I wake up, eat breakfast, go to school, go back home and repeat. I see all of these amazing lifes and adventures in these different universes that I can’t be a part of. That’s …

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I’m lost…

February 7th, 2018by blacklacecasket

I’m 17 years old, diagnosed with major depressive disorder, anxiety disorder and boderline personnality traits. I’ve been hospitalized in a psych ward on 3 occasions in the past 5 months, one lasting a month and a half for suicidal plans and attempt. I tried to slit my wrists open.

At this point I’ve tried everything to help myself, I’m on meds, going to therapy, seeking help when needed, but I don’t feel a change. I’m just surrounded by a never ending darkness and basically sinking lower and lower every passing day. The suffering is way too much and everyone around me thinks I’m better and acts …

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A new feeling

February 7th, 2018by itsoversoon6

Usually, my suicidal moments are very emotional… I’ve smiled my way through a few, but the majority was drenched in tears.

But this one.. This is different. I can sense the pain is there, but I don’t really feel it. I can sense that something in me wants to cry, but I don’t feel the tears coming… It’s all drowned in an emotion best described as white noise.

I’m not thinking anything.. I’m not sad nor angry. I’m not trying to justify my wish for death and I’m not worried about the people I would hurt. I guess if I could feel, I would still feel all …

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DEAR UNIVERSE

February 7th, 2018by Letmyheartsing

What are your plans for me?

Why do I have to suffer now?

Why don’t people respect me?

Why am I the only person with these problems?

Why did I have to be black?

Why was I born in a poor family?

What is my purpose?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

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So F***ing Irratating

February 7th, 2018by BrokenAngel8

Sorry this is a rant post.   Ok the weather is freaking shitty as hell where I am right now. My partners work canceled. So he asks if he can come over for a little bit.  I don’t see what the big deal is its dangerous out weather wise ( were under a level 2 snow emergency). Yet when I check with my parents and see if its ok. My father bitches and complains for 10 minutes straight and then he was like I dont give a shit you never ask anyways even though I always do.  He never fucking does it when it comes to …

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February 7th, 2018by Hulk

I can’t believe this fuckin world…

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IM SORRY

February 7th, 2018by Letmyheartsing

So whenever I do anything, no one appreciates it. I mean everything online, at school, at home.

I lost a lot of motivation. I don’t have s**t, it’s too hard to do simple things, some people basically tell me it’s impossible to get where I want to be. Are they just jealous of my ambition at a young age?!?!

My ultimate dream is to own a multi-billion dollar company, and have real estate investment properties all over the country one day. I want the cars, mansions, a wife, gold, diamonds and respect. F**k what everyone else does or say to me. I’m in control. ALL YOU NEED …

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February 7th, 2018by visual eyes

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Hit mailbox

February 7th, 2018by Jean-bean102

After hitting mailbox next door, things get worse. Med don’t seem to help… I just feel I am hopeless piece of shit over a mailbox… I really too cruel to myself…

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I said goodbye and I meant it.

February 7th, 2018by Urm8451n

Many of you are looking for reasons to keep on living.

I wanted to say that one morning, maybe weeks from now, month, or even years, you will wake up without doubting that you have a reason to.

I wanted to thank you all for all the job you are doing and all the stories that are being shared.

I always felt so alone because I never knew anyone else who is coping with struggles like mine.

I would never have survives without you. In my last post I wrote I’m quitting this site, and well, I’m kind of. But even then, I’m coming over sometimes to …

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Reasons

February 7th, 2018by ratlovinggirl

Could someone please tell me why I should stay alive?

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Depreasion Analytics?

February 6th, 2018by LMNO

https://www.google.com/amp/s/qz.com/1198671/depression-warning-signs-pay-attention-to-the-words-they-use/amp/

So I read this and thought it didn’t fit me at all, wonder if it lands with any if you

Backstory on me – I’ll keep it short but you may skip the below  if u don’t care about my story

Depressed about 18 mo. Actively suicidal for about rbw middle half of that. Was a very active reader here and became kind of active for a little while and grew attachments to some. That was about a year ago and when I pop on since  I recognize few names. That said, I’m a guy who welcomes the idea of death but it aint Comin From …

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February 6th, 2018by Iucy

I would be so grateful if anyone could comment something nice right now. I just need to hear some nice words. Please, I just need someone to say something nice to me.

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PLEASE WATCH, it may help

February 6th, 2018by Letmyheartsing

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February 6th, 2018by Hulk

I have no one to talk with about my problems, I have no one to help, no one who understands me. There are humans around me but what is the point if I can’t talk with them, no one is helping or understands. Maybe they can’t. I can’t solve my problems all by myself.

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It’s over soon

February 6th, 2018by itsoversoon6

It’s over soon.
I keep telling myself, just one more day… It’ll all be over soon.
I don’t want it to hurt anybody… There are still too many bonds, but they will soon be gone. Soon I’ll be all alone in this world, free to end it without a single tear being wept. Free to get the peace I’ve desired for so long… It’s all over soon.
I feel like a horrible person, for wishing the people that love me will die from disease as soon as possible… It’s so very selfish of me. Of course I wish them all the best, but I need my peace…
I simply …

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February 6th, 2018by visual eyes

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Yes, I am lost thank you for noticing

February 6th, 2018by falling_soup

It has been a while since I posted here, I like logging on here and getting the terrible things inside my head and on this blog. Yes, I am lost thank you for noticing. I relapsed with my cutting (go me.) and doing anything I can to escape these toxic thoughts. I have been doing somewhat better, I can cope better, I do not feel like the constant urge to kill myself is around all the time. I feel more positive, but my boyfriend weighs me down, my depression, the trauma, etc. all just stupid things I thought were stupid so I would not think …

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