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If someone tried to kill you how would you react?

  December 29th, 2018 by Tellmewhy

Would it scare you?

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Can’t sleep anyone here awake?

  December 29th, 2018 by SuicidalThoughtsButRefuseToKillMyself

I could use only one trazodone not to attempt a second suicide attempt for I know that won’t be worth it but I can’t sleep anyone still here any poems or songs from YouTube that would relate to us all?

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I know I won’t kill myself but can anyone write a poem for me please and thank you I want to read some insightful perspective on suicidal thoughts and the struggle between and living with suicidal thoughts.

  December 28th, 2018 by SuicidalThoughtsButRefuseToKillMyself

Starting with birth,

for I do not know the truth,

whether if I am really a by product of rape,

for if I am or for if I am not,

should I find out,

or shall I remain ignorant,

Am I ready for the truth?

Will I handle the truth,

I know I must stay away from alcohol,

for it truly destroyed me,

I do miss drinking,

It helped me from over thinking,

but now I must ask myself where shall go from this point,

am I nothing but a failure of life and responsibilities of a lackluster man who still seeks purpose?

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Self Soothing

  December 28th, 2018 by visual eyes

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Trazodone

  December 28th, 2018 by SuicidalThoughtsButRefuseToKillMyself

How painful I won’t do it because of fear and remorse of putting my family and friends through a second attempt but since no one will peacefully and painlessly kill me I was just curious I won’t do it because I tried my first attempt and don’t believe I should try my second due to the panic and the regret and survival instincts will kick in like when I tried 32 benadryls the pain and fear even though supposedly I won’t have died on just 32 benadryls.

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my suicide plan that i thought about repeatedly is all messed up

  December 28th, 2018 by tear

So

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I dropped out

  December 28th, 2018 by SuicidalThoughtsButRefuseToKillMyself

Sorry, I decided to drop out of that rehab treatment I’ll just try to stay away from alcohol and other drugs on my own I’ll just stick to vaping calms me down more I felt like I learnt a lot about other people’s stories and what not but I also felt like I was wasting my time and everyone else’s time.

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Random advice

  December 28th, 2018 by princessmousy<:3)~

1. Buying material items may make you happy for a short while but then you’ll find yourself miserable again. Perhaps try something potentially more fulfilling like finding a hobby or travelling if you can afford it.
2. If you feel like nobody at all can relate to you, you must keep looking for that person. They actually do exist. Somewhere, somebody is going to be able to relate with you. Warning: this can take a very long time…
3. Remove toxic people from your life if you have the means to. Same with people who make you feel miserable. You deserve better. Or temporarily cut them from …

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Outsider

  December 28th, 2018 by morado123

I thought that once I put the curtain aside, I might see some light.

No.

There was no light.

Only darkness lay outside.

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How long has it been?

  December 28th, 2018 by confused

When I look back to how things were, I see so many things has changed and how so many things had stayed the same.

It’s funny. Funny. I’m getting married soon. You would think I should be so excited. But I can’t bring myself to feel anything.

There used to be a time when I could not remember a time I wasn’t depressed or suicidal. It came to a point where I felt that these two things defined me, that I would not be me if I was not depressed or suicidal. It became my identity. Now, those times are few and far in between.

And yet, when …

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  December 28th, 2018 by TheOpenRoad

This site is as old as me!

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  December 28th, 2018 by TheOpenRoad

I have old drafts on here. I was such an angry, intellegent, driven child.  It’s all gone now. And my language! Guys, that stuff was breathtaking. I never believed i wrote well. Today i know i did.

What a curse consciousness is.

I’m slow and stupid and miserable now. I know no one reads this stuff. Was a bit disheartening at first. But it’s been a while and I’ve grown, been subjected to new kinds of sadness. It doesn’t hurt anymore:).

 

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PLEASE:

  December 28th, 2018 by NiceGuy2001

Someone reach into my heart and feel around for the switch that turns off the pain.

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She…

  December 28th, 2018 by strawberrycrown

She is supposed to be my cousin – family. She is supposed to be my best friend, my soulmate, the person that makes me smile and the person I can never stay mad at. But I’ve lost her. I would say I lost her yesterday but really I have been slowly losing her for a long time. Every argument starts with me calling her out on something, her getting mad and saying I always cause problems, then I apologise very well, she says it is not enough anymore because it always happens and is always “my fault”. I always am the one t say sorry …

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Thinking

  December 28th, 2018 by Tellmewhy

Is everything predetermined from birth to death?

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Putting a lot of Effort Into This

  December 27th, 2018 by Todamnbad

I’m really going to try to kill myself tonight. These last 2 two years, soon 3, have been hell. I always thought i could find a way out. I can’t. The pain just gets worse. The depression gets worse. I became so anti-social. So alone. My thoughts feel insane. Anybody I ever loved left or won’t help me. I wish people cared about me. But in a sick&twisted world. Those are just words. Nobody shows that they care. I was born to lose So I’ll die to win. I never thought that would mean taking my own life to find peace. Can’t win in life, …

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I’m really depressed. No hope.

  December 27th, 2018 by yuk3119

I’m 29 and I have a son who is going to be 1 year old soon. I have been married for 6 years but my husband has been cheating on me since 2 years ago. us. I have depression and anxiety since when I was a teen. I have tired to kill myself many times. I have no friends. My family is disappointed in me. no one understands and helps me. I want to end my life. If people know all story of my life  I’m sure they would think I’m stupid. I don’t expect anything here but if anyone feels same like me, I …

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I’m Happy

  December 27th, 2018 by shatterediris

That I was smart enough to buy a package of razors when I did christmas shopping…. Now I’m trapped in my home and did have to miss a family thing and and now I can’t see a person who I don’t get to see much. They are rather disappointed too, but I’m trapped in this house now without the ability to go anywhere. It’s bad that I had a really great dream earlier today where I drove down to the store and bought food. at least I have these, they can make the days pass easier I guess.

I guess happiness costs only 67 cents.

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*mouse laughs

  December 27th, 2018 by princessmousy<:3)~

Saw some messages from my ex.
I told him that I refused to talk to him for now and I explained why.
Didn’t expect that from me did you? Yeah well I don’t appreciate it when you told me you loved me in the past but didn’t mean it.
Finally I did something right. I didn’t give in and talk to him! Just shut him out and rejected him! Yeeeehaw!
Finally, mouse has integrity. Finally mouse won’t stand for bad treatment.
I have power over him! Not the other way around! Plenty of others will talk to you though ex, not to worry! 😉

I’ll forgive you in the future when …

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My Contract

  December 27th, 2018 by VentingMachine

I want to share something with you guys.On 19 of december ,which was my litlle sister’s birthday, who is the person I love the most on this earth, I did something that may have a huge impact on my life in the future.I signed a contract with myself  (weird huh).

The main part of this “contract” is that I gave myself 1 year worth of time to complete or at least try to complete 6 life-goals .On 19 of December 2019 I will read that contract again and if I haven’t accomplished a single one of those goals , I will spend the rest of december …

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