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Stuck

  April 16th, 2019 by thehusk

I don’t know how to deal with all the conflicting stuff that goes through my head. So many competing contradictory priorities and impulses, all seeming vitally important in some way. I don’t know which direction to go. People always say ‘listen to your heart’. But my ‘heart’ tells me very different things from moment to moment, and I suspect it may not be a reliable guide.

Much of the time I think it would be for the best to end it, as quickly and painlessly as possible. End any chance of greater suffering. But then that would negate all my other conflicting impulses. And I have [...]
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Fuck them!

  April 16th, 2019 by lonewolf23

Yeah I was drunk but I still did my job better than all of my coworkers despite being under the influence of alcohol. The truth is they’re just jealous that I’m a drunken master. My skills actually improve when I’m drunk so I guess you can say I’m a high functioning alcoholic. Of course I’m using a cheat code. It just sucks how xanax and other prescription drugs are considered the “right” way to fight social anxiety and alcohol is demonized. I made it a point to not hold back once I got back to work all drunk. The looks on their faces were worth [...]
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drained.

  April 15th, 2019 by closetedw0rds

hi, my name is milo.

 

i tend to hide my emotions and bottle them up until i break. everyday i force myself to get up and go to school and do what needs to be done. i’m okay throughout the day but as soon as i’m alone and it’s nighttime i breakdown. i cry myself to sleep everytime i realize that nothing is going to get better. i’ve been in the same spot for over 5 years now and nothing has changed. i was sexually assaulted by my ex-best friend, constantly being blamed for things that weren’t my fault, and my boyfriend of almost 2 years [...]
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School…

  April 15th, 2019 by Akriloth

Again… I didnt go to school. Third day continuously. Im getting scolded again. Im starting to feel sick now . Stomach ache, vomiting, back paining. Went to somewhere far few days ago, to my sister’s graduation. Got 1 day of school skipping. But didnt go on the next 2 days ,too. I have serious depression, but no one believed . Well ,normal to have depression in this site… Huh? Depressed. Vomited .Now going to GH. Hopefully they write me a letter for skipping school . I felt my lung shrink everytime i wake up on my loud alarm .What is that ?Idk … Maybe death [...]
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Nightmares and homicide

  April 15th, 2019 by Azure11

I think all that is causing my issues are my horrible nightmares and the homicidal thoughts that make my nightmares worse. It’s been awhile since I’ve been on here, but then when I woke up I had another nightmare, I’ve had nightmares since I was an infant it’s a thing I cope with, this one was pretty bad I doubt the worst one, so what happened was I woke up and had punched the wall a couple times again and woke up crying, not that bad, but they keep getting worse and I know why. I just hate women, no girls, I hate girls. They [...]
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T minus 15 days…

  April 15th, 2019 by born.loser


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Stray Kids

  April 15th, 2019 by peachuniverse

I’ve been a fan of so many idols and never, have I ever, encountered one who communicates to fans like his fans are his closest friends. Especially last night, he said something like “When you’re feeling depressed or anything, just come to us anytime. Stray Kids would listen. We’ll fix you.” and those tears that I never knew existed for so long just kept on gushing down on my face. The way he said “We’ll fix you.” ignited some hope in me that I could become a better person, but can I really do that? Can I really be fixed when no one else can? [...]
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Save me before it’s too late

  April 15th, 2019 by TheSadAngel

I once decided to end my life at March 15. But then some things have turned upside down and I decided to live. But now, a month after that day, I decided to end my life too. Not now, I say, but soon. Soon. What I have in my mind is after my boyfriend and I’s anniversary, May 17. I just want to feel what it’s like to have a one year relationship. I just want to make him feel loved too, even for one last time. But if things goes out of planned, then maybe earlier. I just need to finish this school year, [...]
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Remember everyone is fucked up in this world

  April 15th, 2019 by rocketman

No matter how they appear they also have problems, your not the only one and that is the way it is suppose to be, your not alone.


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Pondering …

  April 15th, 2019 by Spokestoo

Is anyone else questioning the health and well being of a society where for profit psychological and emotional abuses have become an acceptable form of punishment , not cruel and unusual criminal retaliations ???


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Has anyone ever felt this way?

  April 14th, 2019 by ariusversea

Sometimes, I’ll be sitting down and thinking about something (or not) and my chest will fill up. I’ll feel as if a balloon is expanding my lungs and I’ll be choking down tears. I’ll start crying, but quickly tell myself to stop being such a ***** baby and stop. I’ll continue to feel overwhelmed, drawing in between anger and sadness, feeling so urged to break something I’d have to remind myself that I didn’t actually give in to the urge yet. This feeling will last for as long as it wants to, and sometimes I’ll have enough privacy to record a voice memo about it, [...]
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what did I expect…

  April 14th, 2019 by Wisp

everything has turned to shit again. and I’m not talking about my ex lol.
I can’t really keep going like this and my mum is unreasonable and makes my life hell but I’ve got to take care of her…
now i have to find us another place because she was screaming crazily at night and we have to leave soon… we were told that we have to
just send me to the grave already, I’ve had enough.
I don’t have the energy to do anything anymore.
I haven’t even told my ex this because I don’t want to make him feel any worse…


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The world of chaos

  April 14th, 2019 by Akriloth

I hate this world.

 

This world is noisy. This world is so bright .This world stinks.

 

I want a world with no others, only with my family ,my loved ones .

 

What do the others know ? They know nothing about me .But they kept saying they understand me .Futile ,futil, so futile .

 

They speak beautiful lies that hurt my heart, and fill their satisfaction .

 

I hate it. From now on ,i will be all alone. I have my imaginary family. I will have a great pride that overcome all situations .Who do they think they are ?Acting almighty ? Thinking they are educated better? Stating [...]
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Emotions suck

  April 14th, 2019 by mina711

I’ve been looking for ways to numb myself. I get absolutely nowhere. It’s not fair, I just wanna be numb. I don’t wanna make an effort to even feel better anymore. I just wanna stop feeling emotion.

I hate being brokenhearted over my ex. I hate being stressed about going off to college. I hate that painful lump in my throat I get from crying. I hate the cold sweat I break into when I’m anxious. I hate the fire that burns in my heart. I want to be dormant and freeze my heart up for good.

I want to die, but I fear the afterlife. My [...]
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Don ´t let them stop you

  April 14th, 2019 by PatheticMale

I feel really sad about the fact that some of my “friends” that I used to spend the most time with are starting to dislike me for the fact that I actually feel better these days. Ye. Like people get used to you being their depressed punching bag who doesn´t stand up for himself and when you actually gain some self respect they start to act differently towards you like if you were actually being an asshole to them… You know what? fuck you. I will just find some other people to talk to.. No point in being friends with people that want you to [...]
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Thinking about it…

  April 14th, 2019 by legchal

So hey… Im 23y old, i have been struggling with my depression for about 6 years now… Always when i think im bettter, something happens to drag me down again, im tired, i give up, i don’t wanna try anymore. I have so much rage and sadness stored in me that i dont know what to do anymore… i don’t want to study, or work, or exist… I was thinking about cutting my wrists, think was my best chance, since i can’t do it any other way, but the problem is, i live in brazil, and i never have seen those razor blades from movies,etc [...]
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I just don’t understand…

  April 14th, 2019 by SuicideOverAgony

Everything was going well for a couple days. Today me and my brother josh went to the park and I went with my dad. I wasn’t anxious or depressed at all. Now tonight I can’t sleep and thoughts are racing in my head and it’s sooo painful. I can’t sleep. What’s bothering me is that I’m in a messed up position I feel like. I want to go to school so I can get my diploma or at least get ged. I want a car I want a job. I don’t want to mention my mom although she is blocking me. These thoughts are too [...]
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What do I say

  April 13th, 2019 by Mommy

Hello I am a 43 year old Mommy with a beautiful 4 year-old daughter I also have a carotid artery aneurism. There is nothing that can be done I’m just waiting to have a stroke. I will be a vegetable or dead at that point . I don’t want any one having to make the decision to pull the plug and I don’t want my baby girl to see me like that. One more thing  I have a tumor on my adrenal gland this controls all your hormones in your body that is making me crazy i see things that aren’t there I hear people [...]
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  April 13th, 2019 by GodLike

Have you been to other places? Is life better somewhere else?
Have you ever farted in a crowded place filled with strangers?
I don’t really understand this world, do you?


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  April 13th, 2019 by GodLike

I’m thinking, if l had a gun, would l do it?
Would you do it?
Thinking…I should do it, why keep living..
I’m 29 y. old but l’m like a kid


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