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  October 13th, 2018 by Unimportant

I’m still in the same bad situation as I was 9 years ago.I have to suffer just because I don’t have the courage to end it all. I want to end my suffering but at the same time,I don’t wanna give these people I live with a reason to party.

Is anybody here forced to live with their uncaring,sadistic parents because of being incapable of taking care of oneself?

 

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For I’ve returned, with less pain

  October 13th, 2018 by Mimo

To have been broken and fed to hounds,

Restiched and tossed once more. I must find my own paths alone.

For I am too broken to be man,

Too heartbroken to feel winds,

Too thought provoken to be alive.

I question whether I should attempt once more, knowing very well that I’ve failed countless of times, but what else am I supposed to Do?

After all that has happened, just forget?

Pretend that it never occurred.

I believe we suffer longer than others,

I understand you want to better yourself, but in doing that it moved me eleven steps back.

I’ll act happy to win you back, maybe that’ll work.

Because with my thoughts invoked in …

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  October 13th, 2018 by Tellmewhy

https://lyricstranslate.com/ro/sinuciderea-unui-%C3%AEnger-angels-suicide.html

An Angel’s Suicide

The angel who was guarding me committed suicide today
Driven by the catharsis effect
On those who want to do good.
There’s only me and my inner demons
Maybe they got to the angels’ heaven,
I stayed in the demons’ inferno,
I’m ready to fight until the last redoubt,
I won’t be taken down easily, I’m as ready as a brute,
Still I wonder why he did this,
Why he thought he could no longer face it,
There can be many reasons, clenched teeth,
The angels no longer get their wings, they’re murdered.
We should crucify more Jesuses
To wash away the mountain of sins of some other brothers.
I can see in the dark, fairy-like glowing, …

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Lie

  October 13th, 2018 by Lie

You wer never the person they ever loved.you don’t hold der spirits high.

You are never the one in whom they wanna confined.

You came like an escape,but not as der secret safe.

You can never be the person whom they will love or longed for.

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Dream Interpretation

  October 13th, 2018 by deathisnear

Last night I had a dream where I drove off a cliff. My car caught fire and I got severely injured. My face was all bloody, I laid motionless on the ground, and I felt like I didn’t have much longer to live. A pitch-black woman (as in the color of a hockey puck) then appeared on the scene. She offered assistance, but I just wanted to die at that point. I felt a tremendous sense of relief knowing that death was going to take me away at any moment now.

What was this dream telling me?

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I’m a fucking moron

  October 13th, 2018 by shatterediris

I overreacted now my hand may be broken…. Well parts of it.

I guess it’s a little bit more like me now, maybe after the horrible pain stops I’ll finally feel like it’s part of a body that I deserve.

I hope it’s fucked forever, I deserve this.

 

-wonders if emptypluto is still around- :/

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Birthdays

  October 13th, 2018 by EmptyFuckUp

Someone I used to know posted on Facebook his older brother died. Through a mutual friend I found out his brother committed suicide. I reached out to him because my older brother done the same thing. Talking to him he really appreciated knowing someone understood how he was feeling. Also a coincidence that it’s my older brothers birthday today would’ve been 25 ?

I hope he knows I still love him and can’t wait to see him again

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  October 13th, 2018 by 5ara

Sometimes I feel jealous
People around me are normal
They can handle the same stress which is breaking me down
I’m sad
I’ve always been abnormal

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I probably need to fix my coping methods

  October 13th, 2018 by outinthedark

My brain turned sour tonight when I got jealous. And it wouldn’t go away. I learned I just don’t like the taste of moscato anymore. I also hide my razors in obvious places to myself even though I forget where I put them. But I broke a bit and used them and I forget how much they help me clear my brain oh my god. And then I was texting the one person in the world who I trust the most and just decided to be honest but vague and they were confused which I didn’t want them to know I cut myself and then …

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Im afraid

  October 13th, 2018 by lonewolf23

I know its obvious that if i only focus on the negatives of this world then I will feel depressed all the time but as of lately it seems like that’s all that I’m running into. I understand some of you don’t see it as simple as light and darkness but that’s how i like to visualize it. Pretty much I keep noticing and feeling all the darkness or negativity if you will and it feels like thats all that exists in this world at times like today where everyone i ran into seemed angry, or violent. It could just be my shitty luck but …

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Let us see…

  October 13th, 2018 by rivets

I’m still alive. I dunno how, but I am. I exist. I am not a figment of my own imagination, as that would not make much sense.

If I said I talked to a girl today, would that seem weird? I don’t think it would. I do it all the time. There are several I know whom I really like. Never as anything more than acquaintances or friends, but that feeling may not always be mutually shared. It’s hard to tell. I’m like a cat in this arena. Give me too much attention and I’ll want nothing to do with you. It’s just how I’m wired. …

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  October 13th, 2018 by Tellmewhy

For all my bad, negative moments someone or something had to contribute.
I have endured years of pain, agony, discomfort, unpleasentness, yuck

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:3

  October 12th, 2018 by Atintofgreen

Like my chem teacher used to say “protons are pawsitive”

May your day get better

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pondering and pondering…

  October 12th, 2018 by whitefurmouse

I probably have 2 friends left. I can have a basic conversation with people and joke around, the usual stuff, including online.
I don’t know how much longer I’ll have these 2 friends. one I seem to be able to relate to pretty well, so far…
I’m a complete mess of a person.
I’m no longer friends with my ex, if he doesn’t want a relationship with me, I’m not gonna be his friend. He’s not gonna have it his way. He took this well, at least. I’m not going to sit here any longer and question why he’s with a girl who gives him hardly anything, …

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Surprised me…

  October 12th, 2018 by WITHINtheShadows

My best friend, who is practically my sister, was trying to talk to me but it wasnt working. She was trying to say I think life goes very slow bc I’m always alone but she thinks life goes fast and everything goes really fast and bla bla bla. (Bags of sh*t)

In fact she was trying to say I’m a miserable human being bc I’m alone.

I told her I’m still alive only bc I can be alone most of the time and it’s the time I feel better.

To my surprise she understood me and we reached a level of communication much more honest than ever. And …

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Biology

  October 12th, 2018 by qetuoz23

My biology teacher told me that her class “is not set up for people like you to succeed” just because I asked for an extension on the homework due to severe depression and suicidal ideation.  I had been hospitalised twice that year and had lost my health insurance just a month prior.  It would have made me angry had she just said no, but she also had the audacity to imply that I am weak, lazy and incompetent because I suffer from depression.  My mother was abusive, my father was subsequently murdered and my income is well below the poverty line, yet I am pushing …

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WaterWorks Is Still Here (My trip to the psych-ward)

  October 12th, 2018 by WaterWorks

Well am that guy who lost his scholarship so, I set my date for Sept 25/26.

I had it all planned out and I had said my inconspicuous goodbyes to my sister. I wrote my first post on here (Sept 24), and made up my mind (if you’re wondering: No I didn’t leave a note, coz I didn’t care). As you guessed I’m still here, and I spent all of last week in a Psych-ward in Vicksburg. I opted not to meet God on the dark side, and yes, I was scared of dying, and also of waking up again. Here’s what they don’t tell you …

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sad

  October 12th, 2018 by sadellzy

I wanna be free

I wanna be safe

I wanna have fun

I wanna be happy

I wanna be pretty

I wanna be beautiful

but however I’m just me

 

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  October 12th, 2018 by Tellmewhy

They talk alot and l have to listen without wanting to. It doesnt help me.
I can’t hold on much longer because l don’t have what l need ( let’s say your body needs some type of food and you can’t get it ) and others don’t help me get it.

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not be but in my acknowledgement

  October 12th, 2018 by Yikrens

i may write as if I can do everything.

but others have their priorities. I don’t want to try again to get my access of illicit stuff, because it is always super to refer on experiences in an associable field.

and they said their projects. but there was no urge or type of contracting me to explore.

also can’t I help if I occupied knowledge about or feel like that is not in my freedom.

I refer this when I get known of former who also has the suicide project without the most valuable knowledge.

like as tied to a lobby of which the reality really dies little for those …

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