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What music do you listen to?

  August 13th, 2018 by annon111

Sorry it’s kinda random but music really helps me alot. I never used to listen to music but I finally started listening to music a couple years ago.

My top artists right now are Billie Eilish and Gnash, and I just love them because they aren’t afraid to talk about dark stuff sometimes and their music is so soothing to me.  Like I can just sit back and close my eyes and it helps me feel just a little better. If you haven’t listened to them maybe try it, but don’t let one song end it for you try more than one.

What kind of music do …

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Social Anxiety is an asshole

  August 13th, 2018 by sansfranzdeput

The title makes the theme pretty clear: I have buttloads of Social Anxiety, and it is a living Hell dealing with, ignoring, or confronting it on a daily, and sometimes, hourly basis. I have battled against it my whole memorable life, and I’ve had it up to here- *raises hand to tippy top of head* -with all the bullshit.

I had an amazing day today/yesterday, but all I can think about, all the thoughts I can conjure and obsess over are, “what if I fucked it up? What if the people I talked to and had coffee with in that wonderful, cozy cafe think I am …

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mixed messages

  August 13th, 2018 by spectralgiraffe

Well… yesterday… I went out alone by myself. Yeah. I got brave. I really liked it too.
Me and my ex boyfriend talked for a while online. I did flirt a bit, I shouldn’t had. I talked about the past a bit, he did also but said we shouldn’t talk about this. Sent a pic, he said I looked ‘gorgeous’. But he suggested I try a new hairstyle. He was really proud of the fact I finally went outside alone (its another story as to why I have barely ever been outside alone). He was happy I was trying to change my life.

Today… I flirted… …

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In-between

  August 13th, 2018 by somesadgirl

what does it all mean?
what’s the purpose of investing time in people & things if it could all be taken away in an instant?
People crave all the money in the world to fix their troubles yet some can’t be fixed with riches.
I wish it could all that simple, to let go of my troubles but it’s something that lives within me.
something that’s lived within me for quite some time and it’s slowly crumbling me into the gravel.
some people can fight it, others can’t, I’m trying to figure out where I fit into.
the more time passes the closer I get to crumbling completely but something always …

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Seriously considering blowing my head apart with a shotgun

  August 12th, 2018 by EnslavedByShadows

I’ve been suicidal most of my life and all of my adult life. There’s a shotgun here that I’ve previously avoided because it’s too messy for my taste and I don’t want to leave too much for the cleanup crew. But over the past few days it’s gotten more and more tempting and I’m longing to use it… I just can’t do this anymore. My head never gives me a break and I know I should have done this long ago but I’m too much of a *****… I just can’t do this. I know I’m going to hurt the people who are close to …

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Everyone hates ugly

  August 12th, 2018 by jacky

i Feel Ugly , Wait no . I Know I’m Ugly And I wish I Can Be Beautiful . I’m Ugly I’m fat I shave Acne I Have Scars I Have An Ugly Face And Ugly Hair My Voice Is Disgusting. I AM REPULSIVE. And Unfortunately I Feel Like My Bf Is Obligated Yo Be With Me Because of Our son Or Because of potty . Why can’t I Not Be Ugly . although My Bf Says I’m Not I Know I Am . I Believe I am , I Know I Am .

im Constantly Teased At Work Maybe Indirectly But I catch It , …

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Ugh

  August 12th, 2018 by jacky

Just fed up with everything at the moment my bf and I just argued again and it’s like a never ending cycle but it makes me feel so worthless sometimes . I feel like I can’t make him happy and then when I get more negative I feel like a bad mom even though I know I’m not those thoughts overcome me . What’s the point of continuing trying if I just fail and fail

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It gets better

  August 12th, 2018 by unicornsandrainbows

I am writing this hoping that it will touch someone going through a hard time. I have struggled with chronic depression for a little over 10 years now. From self-inflicting harm to suicide attempts, I have had my fair share of ups and downs.

I also suffer from fibromyalgia, and those who can relate know how terrible it is. For a long time I would come home from work and/or school crying because I was in so much pain all the time. My grades were being affected, my social life was being affected, and more importantly my mental state was being affected. I finally decided to …

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i dont know okay

  August 12th, 2018 by defeatedbyrain

people love asking the question why

friends, family, peers, teachers, everyone always fucking asks you why you do anything

why did i get a bad grade

why was i crying

why would i get angry

why am i like this

and i dont fucking know

i dont know why everyday i stare at my door and wonder if i have enough time to chug a bottle of pills before anyone would notice

i dont know why i lock myself in my room and cry

i dont know why i loathe everything about myself from my looks to my personality to the fact ive been on this website for years

people always say reach out and …

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  August 12th, 2018 by Hulk

Do you understand this life, this world?

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I must learn!

  August 12th, 2018 by spectralgiraffe

I am done with relationships, unless my ex takes me back one day. He killed my interest in them completely.
I AM DONE. I am going to work on bettering my life.
To anyone else, want a relationship? The answer will be no. Shove that question right up your butt and leave it there and don’t you dare ask again.
And you know I’m doing myself a damn favour here. The only one you can rely on is yourself. Relationships just play with your emotions and leave you high and dry. Its a bunch of chemicals. Its sick. AVOID.
Also…
Flirting? Go away.
Dirty talk? Go away.
More than friends? Go away.
I …

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Getting so tired…

  August 12th, 2018 by Disenchanted7

So I got sectioned/committed into a mental hospital and they wouldn’t let me go for 5 whole months. I patiently rode it out and gladly got back home. I thought things would get better at this point but I’m having fights with my girlfriend over stupid little things and i’m continually thinking about death every second. I was looking forward to the new wow expansion coming out to focus on that and numb the pain but my girlfriend has an issue with it saying im selfish and dont want to spend time with her. I want to be dead and i’m envious of all the …

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The Pot Meets The… Garden?

  August 12th, 2018 by rivets

The strange things you find when you click on random youtube links. I either have too much time on my hands, or not enough. I can never tell which. It seems like they both have the same outcome – wondering how the hell I wound up doing what I’m doing right now, and whether there isn’t something more productive I should be doing. But nah. This is just as productive as anything. What would I be producing in my free-time, anyhow? CO2?

So I have a question in my head. If someone dropped a bomb on your house, would you think it was your fault for …

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If you could have only one memory

  August 12th, 2018 by morado123

While wondering about having a fresh start, this question just popped in my mind.

If you could have only one memory of a certain moment in your life and forget everything else, what would it be?

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No hope, just anger and pain

  August 12th, 2018 by TheDyingEmperor

Nobody can help me, including myself. That is a crushing feeling.

I really, desperately want to die. I want to murder this worthless male-thing that I am.

The pain is absolutely unbearable. To be completely helpless and hopeless, while at the same time not yet ready to jump.

People can’t relate and can’t say anything useful. ‘Oh, I’ve been there’. No you haven’t. ‘Oh it will get better’. NO IT WON’T! WHY ARE YOU MAKING SUCH HOLLOW STATEMENTS?! You have no fucking clue who I am, how can you say that it will get better?

This is what people always say. Family? I don’t talk to anyone from my …

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  August 12th, 2018 by visual eyes

 

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  August 12th, 2018 by clipped-wings

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Im curious

  August 12th, 2018 by lonewolf23

How many of you act all cheery and happy at work or school but dont really feel this way inside? Do you do a good job at wearing this mask? Why do you wear this mask and how long have you been wearing it? Is it benefical at times? Are you actually lonely outside of work? Do you try to blend into the crowd to avoid suspicion that somethings up?

Did it take you a while to master this defensive mechanism? I feel as if it comes naturally to some people and so it’s really hard to tell if they are struggling with personal issues. I …

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4:19 Kat

  August 12th, 2018 by LostKat

I just had a complete break down it front of my mirror at 4:19 am.

I got home drunk, as usual, and just stared at my naked body.

God, I hated it. I was so disappointed in myself.

How did I let myself get this way? So.. fat?

My body didn’t make any sense. It didn’t look like me. I was so scared.

No one will like me now, at least I had a body back then, but now… fuck.

I ruined my make up, wiped it off, took another look, and put my clothes back on. I couldn’t look anymore…

I am so ugly. That’s all I can think about anymore.

Every …

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Silenced

  August 12th, 2018 by Alive7

They tell you that they will be their

That they care, but all they do is watch and stare as you fall apart

Once you try they dare ask you why, as if their pain is more important and telling you that you should keep suffering even though you would rather die.

So you sit and cry alone in the dark room in your mind screaming and tugging at your heart holding your mouth shout and continuing to lie

Faking a smile watching them think your better all while your suffering in pain and broken as if parts of you are slipping away.

We just don’t want to stay but …

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