My name is Scott Teller, I am far from a professional, I don’t even know what I’m doing really. However, I am genuinely offering my time to talk to you, or just listen to anything that is on your mind. If you would like to talk to me personally instead of on this forum my email is iwilltalk2you@gmail.com. I hope to hear from you soon.
I’ve never attempted suicide, but I find myself thinking about dying ALOT. Wondering who would care, how would their lives be, who would miss me, if my ex would feel guilty, how would I die, who would be at my funeral. I feel as if these thoughts consume a part of me that is too much to bare. Here I am 9:20 am. I should be in class but of course I woke up today with no sense of motivation, wondering why I woke up in the first place. I fucked myself over again, I failed last semester, &failed this semester too because I have […]
It is ‘down’ town tonight here [on the other side of the world from most of you]
I guess most people realise eventually that they’re totally alone, it’s how much that reality gets to you and how long you have it going through your head.
I’ve had clinical depression on & off most of my life, my wife just doesn’t get it, sharing it with ‘friends’ it ends up consuming the relationship, my kids have seen all their teenage years watching me struggle along.
The only thing I’d like from here is somehow to connect a bit, have some things in common with others, like i feel i […]
FUCK FUCK FUCK.
Why the fuck can’t i ever not fuck everything up.
I guess I’m just confused. I can’t even decide what to write. I don’t feel like cutting anymore, or even killing myself. I don’t even feel like being dead. I suppose this means the cymbalta’s working. I just don’t want to live. I still have panic attacks daily and thats really the only time IÂ actually feel connected to the world around me. The rest of the time I feel like a real person sitting in a cartoon movie – almost like I’m looking down on everything.I keep making mini suicide attempts though (overdosing, ect.) that I know won’t actually kill me. Part of my brain […]
Does anyone know what would happen if you were to snort Zopiclone or quetiapine?
so last nite i was up all nite reading a book called impulse… i really liked it and i felt like i could relate to the pain they were feeling… and if you notice it mostly goes back to their relationships with their parents… it got me to thinking about how all of us in this world just want to be loved by someone…. if we dont feel loved we feel like what is there to live for right??? i feel like that all the time… i always think about how people dont love me and i ask myself who would miss me if i […]
My hangover from the last time I did mushrooms is going away. It has lasted for over 6 weeks. IÂ honestly couldn’t tell if I was ever going to feel stronger and regain energy or not. My energy’s been fluctuating…I hope I don’t crash and end up exhausted and hungry again. I honestly can’t tell if I feel exhausted, drowsy, hungry, and miserable all the time from my hangover that will go away in days, if not weeks, or I’m just going to be like this for the rest of my life.
i started to cut again, the urge in me gets stronger and im just falling apart. i feel like my world that i slowly built is falling down on me. its hard to breath, and i just cant take it anymore. if anyone else found out that i started again i dont even know what they would do to me, they probably beat the shit out of me again. but i just cant take it anymore, im one cut away from taking my own life. im just stressed out about everything, college, work, art, friends, family, my future… theres just no escape… even right now […]
I have no one to trust or talk to. Not even myself. I’m too embarrassed to overview my thoughts with myself. I’m getting tempted to eat because I have absolutely nothing else to do. Psychiatric drugs have devestated my brain, left me in a permanent confused oblivious fog. Post here if you have the time to communicate with me.
who am i kidding im a nobody. im no artist im not even worth calling trash. i try and try but im still not getting any better with my art.. i cant even design my own original characters without it looking like crap. so y should i even bother. im a failure as a human and an artist…
My life is so miserable because my parents are separated and my mom and dad doesn’t care about me anymore…. and I am so ugly that my classmates always laugh at my face and nobody wants to befriend with me because im ugly.I dont have friends and i am very poor and everybody hates me because im too shy to befriend with them and they always tease me and embarass me infront of my classmates.When i look at the mirror i always cry because im so ugly that nobody wants to be with me even my parents laugh at may face, im an outcast.I always […]
I just wanna be happy man. Lifes gotta be so hard doesnt it? ..hmm got so many things to get off my chest by just cant seem to put them to words.. hmm.. like it seems every corner i turn theres just dissapointment. .you actually get up and try do something bout your depression then u get thrown right back in the water due to the world being so F*****. noone wants to help.. evan then what are they ment to do? hand me the winning lottery ticket or something? everymorning i wake up wondering if this will be the day i do it, just […]
It’s really disgusting to hear some successful story of how someone being happy by adopting the manipulation of others.
One instance that, the famous actor Woody Allen broke the trust between being a father and his adopted daughter by engaging in sex, saying that it’s all because of love.
It’s like, while a girl is sad and in need of comfort, by pathetically crying into the arms of a gay flatmate, naked with just a thin bed-lining covered, and afterward boldly announced to others that somehow it was the gay that initiated and
seduced to have sex.
So, wasn’t there a trust already announced solidly at the […]
Multiple panic attacks. Tonight will be a long night, I can’t and won’t sleep. -_- my third post and waiting for my 4rth or thrid panic attack this night. Keep reflecting on my epiphany very bad for me to to do. Oops not again. Fuck meÂ
Haha wow my bestfriend of 3 years let me barrow his facebook so i could check up on someone for him and i read the messages to her and he agreed with her that i was boring and annoying and i couldn’t believe my eyes because i always stuck up for him when the same person said something bad about him. I now know that you can’t trust anyone not even the person you thought you knew…i guess i never really knew him at all….
My girlfriend talks bad about me behind my back and says how im boring,annoying and i don’t show affection and she’s […]
Do you think you could do it?
Never thought I would be on a site like this. But you people would understand the most, or maybe not. You wouldn’t actually know what I go through, or much less what anyone else goes through. You have no idea of what goes on in people’s real thoughts, their real emotions, struggles, and actions. All you can really do is just read along and try to find a connection, a answer to whats ailing you, a hope that the person that wrote this would find a answer themselves, a answer that would cure the damages inflicted on you. But I’ll tell you this, they’re no […]
I’m giving up on going for jasmine and broke it off with her. Not going to talk to her for a while. Probably going to go apeshit sometime soon with my depression. I’m worried, I’m considering myself unstable because my depression may suddenly kick itself up a notch suddenly. Bracing for it… Thanks one_day for giving me that good ole punch to the face my naive mind needed, now I might spiral out of control, and nickname thanks too and I’m sory if i snapped at you -_-
people tell me im ugly that i will never find someone to love because of who i am, for what i am… im actually sarting to beleive them… who would love someone like me? suicidal, always depressed, monster? in this world i am at the bottom i am ugly im a monster. i try working out i tried diets and other stuff that will help me get into shape but no matter what i do im un loved… im already struggling as an artist and trying to get my art work out there but no one seems to actually care for it my friends just […]