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It’s Become A Dream

July 18th, 2010by Codename Dreamer

I have looked through many of these suicide stories. Notes, left from people who were in their final approach to their decisions of suicide. I have read stories of people who have lost loved ones and can no longer go on. I have read about those who have come to the conclusion that suicide is the only way to exit the pain. I decided to share my story. I am now 18. It has been over a year and a half since I had reached my limit.

A few days before my 17th birthday, I had been thinking. You see at the time, I had done …

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Tired of the facade

July 18th, 2010by neila

For years I have not been happy. I put on the fake smile and laugh along with friends and coworkers. I pretend to be having a blast when in fact I feel absolutely alone despite being in a crowd. I hide the cuts and bruises I give myself, or make up excuses (“fell down the stairs again”)

I have always hated my physical appearance. I have never had a serious relationship, likely due to the fact that my father abandoned my mother and I when I was small and I have had little contact with him over the years. I don’t know how to bond with …

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IDK

July 17th, 2010by ckay2

i’m sick of  trying to feel happy and pretending to be happy. I’m just going to go to my f****** doctor and get some depression pills. Maybe they will work can i  even get depression pills at 14 idk but if it dont work I hope i choke on them or i might overdose myself on them.

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someone kill me

July 17th, 2010by maxjib

I can’t believe what is happening to me. I failed my exam for the second time. Why? I’m so ashamed..I worked so hard. I’m so hurt..this has shaken me up really bad. I’ve only got 2 more attempts before I get kicked out. Then I won’t have a job. I’ll be a total loser..even more of a loser than I am now.

How did it come to this? How did my life suddenly spiral out of control like this? I work hard, I try so hard..but it’s not good enough. My heart is broken.

Each day I feel like I’m walking through tar. I don’t want to …

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I tried to commit suicide three times already and need help or advice

July 17th, 2010by lkpuppeteer

I’m going to be 34 soon and don’t ever feel that I will make it. I have this constant fixation on killing myself and cannot afford medications. I have lost my job, have not worked in over a year. I have run out of money, racked up a huge amount of medical debt from being hauled off in a cop car to the hospital and all I want to do is get on medication and get stable. I had to move in with my parents who don’t understand or even really care about my panic, anxiety, depression and isolation. I …

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What would you say?

July 17th, 2010by cloud34156

Another Saturday is here and again I’m sat at this damn computer thinking too much…

One thing that popped into my head with the whole suicide thing is this whole idea of life being a test…If suicide counts as you failing this “test” and when you die your brought before some god or being or whatever what would you say…I personally think I’d try to rip it’s damn head off lol…anything that would make you live your life in pain or depression and then accuse you of failing because you decided you didn’t want to deal with it anymore…well it’s certainly not a god as we …

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I’ve survived three

July 17th, 2010by Juliaslast

Strange thing is I have survived three suicides already….my first big love and my son’s father blew his head off with a 25.06 rifle and then HIS two brothers overdosed within the following year. I took my son from that small town and ran. Been runnng ever since. Can’t run far enough though. They tell me I have PTSD and Anxiety disorder and try to feed me antidepressants but often I can’t afford the damn therapy anyway and no one …I don’t care who they are can ever say they understand. We can never understand each other’s minds. People are all different…like snowflakes. I get told …

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my memorial (not)

July 17th, 2010by loser7

I recently attended a memorial for a woman who died of cancer in her early 40s. She was beloved by the community which was attested by the fact there were over 700 people in attendance. She obviously was a loving individual as you don’t get that many people otherwise unless you’re a celebrity or famous person which she wasn’t.

If there would be a memorial for my demise there would be very few people. This is notable and in hindsight pretty pathetic really when all you ever believed in was to love and be loved. Well I never did figure that out. How to do it …

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toofargone

July 17th, 2010by toofargone

Sometimes you’re just too far gone and NOBODY can help…..it’s been a wild ride but tonights the night it all ends….God forgive me

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There’s nothing wrong with suicide

July 17th, 2010by timetodie

I originally posted this about a almost a year ago and unfortunately I still haven’t worked up the courage to kill myself. Nothing has changed except I haven’t seen a mouse in awhile but if I’m not running the ac, I can  smell dead mice. I didn’t want to rewrite this, so I’m just reposting it. Today is my birthday. I’m 45 today and all I want for my birthday is the courage to end my life.. Or to die in my sleep. My preferred method of death is by drowning. There’s a place not too far my house where I think I could do …

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Alone

July 17th, 2010by anon81710

I care. I care for so many people. But all I’ll get is a fucking dick response no matter what. It isnt easy to wake up with no one giving a fuck about your tommorow, yet I put on a damn smiley fface for everyone, I’m just an accessory to everyone’s ego. Well I’m fucking sick of it. I try so hard to be a kind person but I just get it spat in my face. Even my mom ignores me for that boyfriend. I see her 2 hours a week cause she decided to move in and not tell him about me, and I …

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The nerds were right

July 17th, 2010by LessWorse

I honestly don’t know how to describe how I feel about even posting here. There are so many things going right in my life, and yet I believe that so much more is wrong wrong wrong. I’m married to a wonderful woman, and that is, and she is the highlight of my life. Not one minute before I met her I had “decided” what I would do for whatever my lifetime would be… Ugh this is hard… Anyway, leave it to the Hollywood Conspiracy to make an axiom a funny, “The nerds were right.” I believe the nerds are still right about the …

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Another story for the site.

July 16th, 2010by Nikkiy

Another day of feeling like shit. What can I say I’m good at it? All I ever really here is how bad I am and can do. Here is my story.
When I was little life could do no harm. Ya there were a …

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33 years to self-destruction

July 16th, 2010by solitude_machine

Hello. I was born to self-destruct. I feel crushed. I wish I’d done this a long time ago. I just wish I didn’t have to imagine the awful pain in my wonderful Emily’s eyes. I love you, sweetie. I love you so much.

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Ready

July 16th, 2010by ReNDeR

I am ready, but my girlfriend and my band mates aren’t.

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stupid.

July 16th, 2010by nolongerguilty

so, one day shit got really bad in my house. and my friend was talking about killing himself. he doesn’t know i’m suicidal, because i never told him because i never wanted him to think of me differently. but that night, he was just telling me how useless he thought he was, and it was breaking my heart. at the same time, my parents were yelling at me, telling me that i was worthless and that i should just kill myself. my mother kept saying, “you don’t do anything right. you can’t even succeed in suicide.” soon, my friend said he was going to kill …

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well goodbye everyone

July 16th, 2010by imsorrymom

i had to delay my last attempt to a later date because it was too close to my love of my lifes birthday and i couldnt ruin it forever  so now i close in on my final days. i will gas up my car and take 1 loaded handgun. i will drive 12 hours to my final resting place. thne i will finally be happy. i wish it didnt come to this but it did. i love you L.R.A.  i will forever. i will always be with you in heart. good luck to you all on here. i hope u guys get better. this will …

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What do you do when you don’t care anymore

July 15th, 2010by mutedhorn42

I don’t really have a reason to hate this world. or myself. But I just feel so apathetic to a point I dont understand anything anymore. Why people thinking leaving an impact on society is a supposedly good meaning of life. Why people cling to fame and power. Why living an existence where you have to include other people is essential.

Why we can’t be alone. and why when we’re alone we get the dread of lonliness yet we can’t stand the sight of another human being in my life. I just want to disappear, never be found and do my own thing. I don’t …

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Suicide????????????????

July 15th, 2010by sap515

WAT CAN I SAY I’VE TRIED AND TRIED TO DO THE LAST MOMENT AND SOMEHOW SOMETHING STOPS IT. FAMILY, FRIENDS ETC CREEPS IN MY HEAD AND EVERYTHING STOPS. I REALISE THEY LOVE ME AND CARE. THE THING IS I’VE HAD NOBODY FOR 15 YEARS REALLY AND IM WAT ALMOST 20 I KNOW PPL ON HERE USE AGE AGAINST OTHERS BUT ITS NOT FAIR CAUSE WAT PPL FEEL IS PAIN AND I’VE HAD HELL JUST LIKE ALL OF U BUT BELIEVE ME I KNOW WAT YOUR FEELING WE HAVE DIFFEENT PROBLEMS BUT FRANKLY WE FEEL ALMOST THE SAME FEELING WE ARE HUMAN EH! I CONSTANTLY WANT …

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Excuses & lies

July 14th, 2010by hurtcut

Excuses & lies

I just want to die,
i cut myself every day just to get the illusion.
The same feeling each time,
and i just want to die.

When i’m ready to take the final cut,
i just make up excuses.
Excuses that make me live,
they are just so annoying.

Maybe i got something to live for,
or is the excuses lying?
Because i can’t figure out what i’m living for.

This living paradise is just based on lies.
Lies that make you live.

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