1st of all i would like to say thanks to the almighty who gave a chance to me.i am thankful to my parents for giving birth to me.but am not happy with this life.from childhood onwards no one likes me.ever 1 hates me.am not beautiful an ugly face ever 1 hates me.from childhood i had grew in lonely.i studied well got job but still ever 1 hates me.none of my relatives like me.even my parents are saying the same.no one in this world likes me..if i want some one they reject me…why??????
I don’t think I can live for a few more years. What’s the point anyway? I’m tired of being in this war of life and death. I’ll just let death win soon. You know what would be cool? If someone decided to just kill me. If I were to die right now, I’m ready. People die everyday, what’s one more? Sure I might hurt a couple of feelings but I’m sure they’d forget about me. Most people do already and I’m still alive. Ha. I’m practically invisible. Oh man, life sucks.
I go to a public school but it is a very high-standards school. We take both highschool and college classes at the same time. No, they’re not AP, we actually take them at the local community college. This school is SO stressful, I am just a freshman and almost killed myself in December. Almost all of the juniors are potheads, to deal with their stress. The school is also stereotypical for socially awkward kids but really, we just don’t give a fuck about drama and the social scene. There are about 400 kids total (all of the grade levels 9-12) where the other schools in […]
This is for a friend of mine, who had longed to leave this life behind.Â
Her name was Amber and she was a ray of brilliance. Her life seemed like any other. (not to say it was perfect. Her mum never had never any time for her so, she was at my house often. Once, we even threw her a birthday party because her mum had either forgotten or didn’t have the money) Amber was beautiful and smart, too. She was accepted into one of those magnet schools and was successful in her early years of school. She quit the magnet school, however. I recall her grades […]
what happens in the afterlife to people who commit suicide ?
a metaphysical approach to suicide but mostly food for thought
ever read about the spirit world, spirit guides, soul contracts, exit points etc ?
if you haven’t, it’s better to do some research on those concepts before watching the vid
if you have but don’t believe in those concepts, it will probably be a waste of your time
this is my second post.this time I’m on the edge and the voices in my head are getting harder to resist.”jump jump it wont hurt and all the pain, fear, darkness will all go away just end it now “. little bastards. sorry for the language. I’m going to break soon and nobody can help me. there are 2reasons I haven’t ended it right now.1 my mom. and2 in heaven or hell wherever I go my dad will be waiting for me and if you read my first post then you will understand why.
“There is but one truly serious philosophical problem and that is suicide.”
Albert Camus
This is my story, just need to share.
I was raped (sodomized, whatever you want to call it) a few times when I was a kid by my uncle, my grandpa knew but didn’t say anything about it. Grew up with that hanging over my head, told a few friends but all they said was, “man, that sucks.” I didn’t really expect them to say much, but nothing would be better than that. It’s the reason I don’t have a gf, I’m afraid that that abuse will carry over. My parents got divorced when I was 7, dad remarried shortly after that to a […]
I’m one from a very good life. I’m 20, been in a good relationship for going on 5 years. I have friends who love me and a family that’s never split up and always been tight-knit. So, what’s wrong? Why do I just want out? I’ll go long periods of time where I feel okay. (No, not great and not bad. Simply okay. Like I know I exist and I’m fine with that) yet when I break, its hard. I’ll have the worst mood swings, going from absolutely rude and waspish to bawling my eyes out and feeling alone. Incredibly alone. The past few days […]
is it weird that all of my past will never leave my mind… my childhoood was horrible being bullied. parents fighting….. trying to be happy. my grades are really good like always.. … and then there is him. mr. flirty-shy guy … he doesnt flirt alot. but .. yeaa. idk wat i did wrong. we dnt talk like we used too.. Â ehh.
I still cut tho… unfortunately ive tried to stop but its too addicting… its beeen almossttt 3 yeaarss. that ive been cutting… sometimes i stop for a week. or 2 months but it comes back.. Â any remedies to get over a crush?? Â ANY?????? Â any […]
Well I’m done with myself. I quite literally give up on myself. I can’t stand the shame, and guilt that I keep carrying. So I give up. I see people saying well I got this figured out this death of mine will succeed or not. Well now I’m one of those people. I love this site soooo much. Seeing other stories. But I guess when your own stories just add on. You get sick of it. Knowing the other things you done to people- The faults. It starts to hurt. I got nothing anymore. That’s it.
So ya, maybe talk later. I don’t know yet. I’ve […]
Hi my name is Bernard and in my world I have the best gf ever but I have people who want to fight me for no reason, my whole family hates me and I cut myself to express my feelings now
They all use me. It seems like it, they use me for my car, and everything. they don’t like me. My “best friend” dont even seems like she likes me. She always leaves me in the halllway for her other friends. She tells them more stuff than she tells me, but yet, she’s suppose to be my best friend. We were suppose to ride to prom together but she changed plans and is going with her other friends. I just don’t see why we say were best friends when were really not. I feel like i cant tell her anything because she will judge me. […]
Yeah, i haven’t gone on here for a long time. I thought i was actually getting better, but i just got worse. Also, if anyone remembers, my name here was MarissaSucks. Changed it since it negative and sounded odd. Your welcome.
I finally got the guts to tell my mom that i’m really depressed that i want to see a therapist since that would be helpful i guess. She said ok, but now its been like a month, i’m sure that she hasnt done anything. She thinks that this isn’t serious. I could be dead by tomorrow.
I’ve never hurt myself this bad before. I cry everynight […]
My brother just beat me up just because i had my music on loud… he broke my lamp which had the speakers and tore up my earphones he also took my charger and tore it up and was about to mess up my ipod and laptop. He beat me up and this isnt the first time…ive been getting beaten up by him since i was 5 or probably even younger as far as i can remember. My dad would always be at work and when he came home at like 10 pm i would tell him and he would just say things and give my brother […]
The truth is once you get depressed, suicidal its.hard to turn to normal. People use the word normal like they know the definition, apparently idont fit that group. Truth is people are going to hurt you but got to have strength, for me ihave no strength, no mind and no hope. To everybody society actualy hates us and makes us feel bad about our self and tries to make each individual seem crazy, most take it well but for others like me well you get the picture… :/ Icould try to change but the truth is im staying the same !
I am fat and ugly and 36 and I want to die. I have had suicidal longings since I was 9 years old – I always felt wrong, ugly, humiliated by my size. I still feel the same way, even with over 8 years of therapy, antidepressants, you name it. I am just so exhausted with trying and just ending up back in the black hole again. Now I find out I will most likely lose my job, which is one of the only good things in my life. I feel like tearing myself to shreds. I want to go to sleep and never wake […]
We’re all here for the same reason. But if you look at those words again…..
We’re all here
Why? We don’t WANT to be here. But there’s something holding us back. Is it each other? We found each other for a reason. Do you see how we’re helping each other. Maybe it’s each other that we’re holding on to. We don’t know who we are, and we don’t know our full story. But we know that we care and we know we trust. And maybe that’s just enough to hold us, just for a little while longer.
I’m 15 and my life is over. I feel insane. I can’t really feel happiness anymore. I know it’s there, but it’s like a butterfly with crumpled wings. It will die. Just like me. I just feel violent and terrified like a weasel trapped in a wire cage. I just wanna fight my way out of this life, but there’s no one to fight but myself. So all I really want to do right now is hang myself.
I’m a writer, not officialy since i’m only sixteen, but i consider my self that way. I’m a writer and that is the only only reason that can explain how i confused all my doctors and counselors.
Writing is the only thing that make feel alive for a while, and it does it because i’m creating a whole new storie, sometimes stories of what i wish it was or the truth with some make up and fantasies. I can tell stories since i have memory, i’m a bad lier with little things but my complete life is my best and bigger lie, so much that sometimes […]