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i wanna death

October 17th, 2010by lionheart

how much cynide or silver phosphide can kill me? i am very sick from last 3 years

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Talking to the Moon

October 17th, 2010by Violet Blake

I went to visit my father over the break. I haven’t seen him since the summer but things between us are starting to get better.

Sort of…

The person I was really looking forward to seeing though is my old best friend Jimmy Wilder. We used to be so close when we were kids. We were in the same first grade class and I remember the teacher always scolding Jimmy for being too noisy or too obnoxious or too….Well, like Jimmy is. She would always ask me the same old question every single day, “Violet, how can someone as sweet as you stand to be around someone as annoying as …

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Desperate

October 17th, 2010by unfixable

For what it’s worth, I’m 61.I have battled depression since I was 14. I spent almost all my adult years self- medicating with drugs, mostly alcohol for the last 40+ years on a daily basis. I’ve been in treatment 4 times but always relapsed. About 3 years ago I noticed my cognitive skills and memory we taking a dive. I qut drinking ( except for a few breif relapses).I began seeing a psychologist for 2 years(i’d been in therapy before) . Not long after I started seeing the psychologist, I started seeing psychiatrists, again. I’ve had my regular doctors prescribe medications that did nothing. …

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October 17th, 2010by john.doe

For being such a grumpy bunch we all seem to have quite a lot to say.

I wonder what makes the bit about actually getting dead so tricky.

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One is the Loneliest Number

October 16th, 2010by Violet Blake

I tend to hold in my feelings a lot of the time, and that results in giant outbursts of emotion later on.

I thought that when Aly died things would be okay, that I would be ok, but I can see now that they’re not, I’m not.

Alyson was my whole life, the only person I really trusted everything with, and the next person besides her would’ve been Drake, my guy best friend.

Now they’re both gone.

It’s hard to forget the people who walk into your life, even if they walk out of it just as quickly as they came in, because they leave a scar. I only …

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exit bag

October 16th, 2010by unfixable

I want to us the exit bag as talked about in the final exit. Do I need to add a regulator. Do I need to take sleeping pills while I’m holding the bag open with my thumbs. Once I become unconscious
that prevents me from pulling the bag off even though I’m unconscious

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Using the exit bag

October 16th, 2010by unfixable

I have read the final exit and I’m confused. Does is need a regulator. Can I use the helium baloon kis found at party stores.Do I have to take pill to be unconscious or will the helium knock me out. What can I do tp prevent me from pulling the bag off when unconscious.

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“Suicidal Heart”

October 16th, 2010by Gina12123

   My heart will always feel hurt & be empty, as i will be alone & sad  forever, afraid of life, I will take my own life away from me cause it was never meant to be for me – to be happy in life.

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my sadness as if a bystander

October 16th, 2010by fireflieslite

while Chen was first running for election of Taiwanese presidency, his deportment like a pheasant only laying out a sure short-cut to his benefit if a phoenix-like of presidency he would turn into, soon his corruption leading to his prison for life was never a surprise for me.

And what about a sly monkey-face in the eagle kingdom was to be elected, I then said its people would be in hell of disasters.

There are always tell-tale signs.
It’s just what you are, then what you’ll show on the look.
So ?
Could I alone overturn the votes of the vast majority ? No.
I could only say, when you choose …

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WE ARE ALL COMMITING SUICIDE

October 16th, 2010by LittleLisaMassacre

NO MATTER WHAT YOUR DOING IN LIFE WETHER YOU WANT TO OR NOT WE ARE ALL DYING OF SUICIDE WE ALL DO THINGS THAT CAUSES US TO DIE WETHER ITS IN A LONG PERIOD OF TIME OR A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME SOME OF US JUST WANNA GO QUIKER THAN OTHERS

WHILE IM ON HERE TYPING I DONT UNDERSTAND ALL OF YOU WITH YOUR I WANNA DIE WITH NO PAIN NO MATTER HOW YOU TRY AND KILL YOURSELF ITLL HURT CAUSE YOU AND YOUR BRAIN WILL TELL YOUR BODY ITLL HURT SO YOU CANT GO THE WONG WAY WITH ANY SUICIDE ITLL ALL TURN OUT LIKE …

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nothing works

October 15th, 2010by mar0304

I lost my father to suicide in 1997.  He was 84, lonely, and depressed.  It was not a surprise to me.

I lost my son to suicide in 2007.  He was 24, well educated, intellegent, successful, had just been promoted with the police dept he was an officer with.  Had just bought his first house.  And I still can’t believe it happened.

I am 47.  I have felt different.  Lonely, yet want to be alone.  Always stressed, even over little things others don’t let get to them.  I have been in therapy off and on for most of my adult life.  I have been on many medications.  …

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Dear Love,

October 15th, 2010by brokenlostmisunderstood

I got the call today, from my doctor that is. It turns out my endometreosis has given me a tumor, a tumor that is infact malignant. With my family history and the way my health is currently, things arent exactly looking up. My mom and dad dont know. I could never break my moms heart likethat, i love her too much. As for my dad, well, he can just go to hell. We’re supposed to get married, love, in only two months. But thinking now, i cant. What if, it turns terminal, what if it takes me? Knowing the risk factor in this, i could …

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My truth

October 15th, 2010by Just a stupid kid

So this is it, the truth as I see it; I cannot help any of you, just as you cannot help me.

Everyone thinks I’m so much better and stable now than I was when I was 14, but even though it is evident that I have improved if you took away the anti-depressants that got me here then I would just crumble again. The pills don’t make me happy, they make me more balanced and stable and unfortunately I rely on that and knowing that makes me feel shit, because it reminds me that I cannot cope on my own. Also I can’t tell my family about how desperate I’ve been …

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time to die

October 15th, 2010by rustneversleeps

I want it all to end. I just wasn’t built for this world. For twenty years I seem to have fought a relentless daily battle just to keep going…and for what…to hurt more people? Alcohol,drugs,meds, you name it, I have abused it, the decade or so that I drowned myself being the worst. I have caused so much pain. Nothing takes away the desire to die, it knaws at me from the minute I wake until I eventually sleep. I can’t take it anymore. I have tried in recent years to alienate myself from everyone around me and I avoid relationships, I just feel sorry for my parents, …

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The realization

October 15th, 2010by the mistake

There is a certain age that we reach where we come to the realization about life.
For me the realization was that I’m not special or unique or talented or even needed.There is no prupose in life everything is ramdom.This world is COLD MISERABLE MEAN CRUEL and disappointing.
Everyone exists purely to serve themselves,even the charity givers,they do it because it makes them feel good.
When GOD made the universe it was magnificent,but when he made man
what a mistake that was.I no longer believe in miracles,I longer believe in anything love does not exist and …

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Maybe you can help me?

October 15th, 2010by ohhhellna

Hello I’ve been trying to find the most peaceful way to commit suicide for the past 5 months.   I have read all the book’s by Derek Humphrys on euthanasia.   Yes the first page of every book tells me not to read any further if I am depressed.   Well who cares I am.  Recap:  3 months ago I was sitting in my apartment sitting drinking a beer playing a video game(not a alchol abuser)  and I was astonished by 3 local police officers at my apt telling me that I am under the states temp control and I have to go to a

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someones GOD

October 15th, 2010by LittleLisaMassacre

all i ever do is try and make people love me i get into the most absord relationships every guy i ever date cheats on me or leaves me for a stupid reason the first guy i fell inlove with left me beacuse i kept calling him freaked out because i was raped absord i know and im the idiot the newest love of my life ive been with for almost 3yrs now hes cheated on me more than 9 times with internet dating lines i hate it i feel worthless we have a beautiful daughter who will soon turn a year old and what …

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I wish I was a hero/cool kid

October 15th, 2010by RogueShadow1281

I wish I could be a hero for once. Take a stand instead of saying I’m a do it real soon. Sometimes I wish I could be a cool kid, getting hugs by random girls, and have fun doing cool stuff. I wish I could have my first kiss. Have my first girlfriend. Get the girl of my dreams(Nycolle). But life can never be a fairytale and because of that I will never be remembered as someone great. Why can’t I get drafted at 15 years old instead of 18 years old so I can die for something greater. I don’t want to be that …

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i’ll come down from this trip one day

October 14th, 2010by marc

i enjoy reading these posts ..they really seem to help me feel better…but its obvious that we’re all on the same page..with our illnesses..so we’re not alone..just keep telling yourself that..i want to be a friend to anyone in need..or if you just want to talk about shit..hit me up at marc.gambino@yahoo.com

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The easiest way to die

October 14th, 2010by deadgirl2010

Hello people..

whats the most lest painful way to die i can get medication pills like Advil (ETC..) and i can get a gun and alckohl but im just ready to leave this place ive done my goodbyes and my good deads

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