I was reading on here a couple of weeks ago, and I saw something that someone said and it really stuck with me. They said “I’m not a person who wants to be alive. Im just a person who’s too afraid to die.” That pretty much sums me up. I don’t get a kick out of living. I don’t go to bed at night thinking of all the wonderful things I get to do tomorrow and aren’t I just so darn lucky that I get to just be alive?! No. I go to bed hoping I won’t wake up. But I always do. I would […]
I just want to talk. I don’t want to talk to my friends and I don’t want to worry my family. Please. I could really use some kind words.
I am a 22 year old male currently considering suicide. I have depression, as well as a bout of terrible luck. But I can’t die yet. Not until I’ve at least gotten to spill my guts somewhere. So I’m doing this as an experiment. I can’t vent to anyone in my close circle of friends, because I have constructed such an elaborate facade, I’m not sure if they’d even take it seriously. So I figure doing so anonymously will be just as cathartic.
My parents got divorced when I was four. It is the first memory I have. It was not a pleasant divorce, to say […]
Nobody needs me. Sure my parents might love me. Atleast thats how its supposed to be. My mom and i used to be bestfriends. Now she makes fun of me. How i look or even things i do. Yeah, i laugh along with her but thats how good i am about hiding things. Its too much now. Ive told her that it hurts my feelings. You know what her reaction was? She laughed. I had a serious face. And she didn’t give a shit. I’ve done nothing to deserve this. I’m No bully. I’m that girl that if you hit her or annoy me. I […]
Yes, it’s official, I couldn’t jump and now I have to face the consequence that I might be stuck here until I die of natural causes. How the he’ll am I going to do that?
I’ve told noone about my latest attempt but I had two ‘friends’ with me at the time and as I was standing on the edge they………
Walked away.
I don’t know why I didn’t take the opportunity to end it then and there, though I was worried it wasn’t high enough but there aren’t any higher structures that I can get to.
Time for another google ‘suicide methods’ search I think.
help
I feel like my life has been a blur..a blur I didnt want to acknowledge until I realized its eating me inside and im basically dead already. I am ashamed of myself and I cant speak to ANYBODY about this. I dont want to die.. but i dont want to exist either. I dont want to exist because there is not a day im not reminded of the torture and abuse i had to withstand and have never been able to share with anybody. I was sexually abused and molested when i was a kid..for several years. I was confused. I didnt know what was […]
A few years ago, i was in a dark place. I started to self harm when i was in 5th grade. I stopped in 6th. Im in 10th grade now. I promised myself i would never do it again because it just left scars. But now everything is falling apart. I cry every night. I look at my wrists and tell myself no. I cut my wrist today. I felt somewhat better. i have alot to say but i cant say it all at once so i will come back to this site to share my whole story. This is the first i have ever […]
I left my second marriage after my wife became so consumed by alcohol and pills that I couild not take the neglect and constant trampling of my spirit any longer. Every time something bad happened to us it was because I was a loser, yet she refused to participate in the marriage or any of the important decisions, setting me up for the blame if things dod not work out.
After leaving, I was found by my first wife, who had been the love of my life but had left me 20 years earlier for another man. She had tried to get back with me shortly […]
Hi everyone. This is the first time I’m writing on here. I’m a 24 to man looking just for some chat and maybe some advise. Off the bat I would like it to be from someone older then myself cus with age comes wisdom. I lead a normal life. I’m in school to be a paramedic. I work a decent job and have a good home life. The only problem I’m having is my gf left me rescently. I know it shouldn’t bother me to this extreme. I’ve lost girls before, got upset and moved on. But for the first time in my life […]
I quit my job after 3 days. 3 whole days and i quit. im such dumb failure. Im over-sensitive, and social anxiety, and i couldn’t take the fact that those god awful customers disrespected me like that. i couldn’t bare the fact that i got threaten, assaulted and harassed. im so stupid. Secondly, this guy scared the crap out of me in the parking lot. i have never been so scared before. I was in the parking lot sitting in my car reading something, and this guy comes out of nowhere and parks next to me. He just starring at me, and he winks, and i got […]
From the book “Bowling Alone” (http://bowlingalone.com/):
Apparently this book also suggests what can be done so if anyone has read or reads it I’d appreciate hearing about it……
Meanwhile, the author’s research shows trends of increased isolation in America. Â Also:
Joining and participating in one group cuts in half your odds of dying next year.
Every ten minutes of commuting reduces all forms of social capital by 10%
Watching commercial entertainment TVÂ is the only leisure activity where doing more of it is associated with lower social capital.
Declining Social Capital:Â
Trends over the last 25 years
Attending Club Meetings
58% drop
Family dinners
43% drop
Having friends over
35% drop
im a 39 year old man with no life, no wife and no future.
i just tried to hang myself and failed. why do i feel this way
all the time. did finding my mom in a field with a bottle of
pills do this to me. nobody cares anyway. is it because i
drink like my dad did. i miss mom and dad so much. now
that they are gone i feel so alone all the time. no one
knows how hard it was growing up with a suicidel mother
and a drunk father, but in the end i still loved them. i try to
drink to kill the pain, but always […]
As I sit here, the sorrow sets in. Welcome back! For a second, I thought you wouldn’t return, old friend. The sound of the waves crashing can’t compare to the sound of my heart breaking. This is the second Spring I’ve had to spend feeling the cold stab of abandonment. The summer will grant me the chance to hide my embarrassment. Until then I’ll be in this place, hoping to meet my end. If only I could tie bricks to my feet and be taken away by the ocean.
i don’t know how to continue on with my everyday life. in my family, among my friends, nobody knows how i feel.
i hate who i am, i hate how weak i am, i didn’t get abused by my family or anyone at all, i’ve got both my parents so i keep telling myself im not allowed to feel sorry for myself, so many people is worse off than me. but i still feel sorry, and that makes me hate me more.
i’ve been sad and hurting since i started noticing my mother wasn’t normal, she and my dad are devorced. and my two older sisters never took […]
Through this graceless ravaging tempest
You seek to forsake this pitiful flesh
As you attempt a hopeless and doomed extrication
It clings to you with gladiator determination
You remain grotesquely animated
Choiceless, as your pain throbs unabated
Decaying within a merciless incarceration
Demonic phantoms do a deathly dance in your mind
Creating these hideous nightmares for you to find
On the despairingly glorious doorstep of hate
A gate guarantees elusively infinite escape
Bloodless corpses swirl through the mist
Promising a torture more fulfilling than this
Entranced, you eagerly stumble towards the howling wraiths
There is no hope in hell
No comfort when you fell
But purgatory is […]
It’s been basically a year now. Since I was on this site. I’ve heard many stories of loss and divorce from so many people. Yet none of them seemed to hurt as much as I felt just a year ago. In a year everything can change in a heartbeat. Sometimes for the better. Sometimes maybe not. But in the end change is a matter of life and you can’t shy away from it. If right now you are feeling desperate or in despair. Just think of it as a tunnel. I know you’ve heard of it before. Or you’re saying to yourself but you don’t […]
I want to live, I really, truly do. It’s just that right now, I feel like I’m surviving and life is simply passing me by and I have no idea what to do about it. I mean, I want to die right now because my life means nothing and I’m worried it will forever be like this.
How do you get the confidence to just live? It seems to me that living takes a lot of strength. To me, the difference between living and surviving is simply that feeling of being alive. I don’t feel alive, but I’m surviving anyway. So yeah, I don’t feel alive […]
My mother’s been out of the house for 2 years. She use to drink every second of her life. She’d be passed out 99.9% of the time i saw her. My brother was just cleaning her old room and found 3 of her empty vodka bottles. You have no idea how much i want to find her and punch her. She ruined my life. I have no feelings towards her.
My name is ShiAnne Osborn, I am 17 and currently a senior in highschool. When I was three years old my parents divorced and my dad was rewarded custody of me therefore I never got to see my mom. Even though she was out of my life I was still a normal and Happy little girl. I would spend most of my time at my grandmothers as my dad worked and then go with him places when he got home. I guess you’re wondering why I’m telling you all this cause it sounds like my life was perfect but this is where it begins to […]
This is the first time I am putting this in writing much less saying it to anyone. I have been suicidal ever since I can remember. I first tried to commit suicide when I was in grade 5, I think that would make me 11. I had heard in news about a guy who wanted to commit suicide by over-dosing but ended up killing his niece and nephew when they consumed the desert he had made for himself with plenty of sleeping pills. I was young then so I didn’t know just how much “plenty” meant. I asked my maid-servant (I am from Asia and it’s normal […]