These suicide thoughts are becoming overwhelming. Im done, I can’t do this anymore. No one cares no one will listen. All he does is keep hurting me there’s no point anymore.
so this is my first post on this site, im not really sure what im expecting from it, iv been in counseling for 2 years and i have gotton worse i have severe clinical deppresion and its feeling like something i will never get rid of more and more each day, truth is im tired, of feeling like i want to die, of talking about ways to cope and what triggers my deppresion when theres nothing left i havent thought or said before, ive attempted suicide in december, and still my only regret is that i hadnt succeeded, there have been some difficult situations […]
I really dont.
I guess after everything is said and done all you can do is light up another joint, take another shot and hope today wont be as fucked up as yesterday.
Come on kids – pull it together. Wait until you are homeless, bankrupt, and have cancer before suicide is an option
im starting to get scared. Im so sick of the constant anxious feeling and thinking that everyone thinks im disgusting and worthless and ugly and fat and useless and weird. I just dont know how to get better…Ive tried everything. The meds made me even worse and peple just dont want to acknowledge anything. I cant remember a time when I didnt feel this way. I dont want to keep going if this is all thats ahead of me. Im only 21 and already despise the thought of living until Im old. I just want it over, sooner rather than later. Nobody wants me and […]
I tried to kill myself a year and a half ago. After I got out of the hospital, it was easier than it is now to be hopeful. I could think about the future, imagine the sky was the limit. I could reinvent myself completely. I could forgive myself for the things I used to say and the way I used to be. But…a lot of time has passed since then, and in so many ways I’m not different, and I’m not better. I still feel completely alone most of the time. I still haven’t really found a place in life I belong. I don’t […]
Tomorrow afternoon. Â I’m scared.
Earlier today in the town right next to where I live, a kid committed suicide. He was only 17. I went on facebook today and a “Friend” of mine was acting entirely childish about the entire thing and posting comments about how “if he was gonna off himself he should have done it with a gun or hanging himself at least”. How dare someone. How can someone even begin to make a comment like that on such a serious and awful topic? I didn’t know the person, but I can only imagine how much pain he must have been feeling to resort to that. He […]
there, I said it.
took long enough too
sometimes I wonder why I bother at all trying to chase my petty little ambitions. especially when i’ve flagged myself to fail before i’ve even started. and then one day i’ll just die and everything i ever did will fade anyway.
same for every other guy out there.
story of human life. appear for a spell. rot. and then the earth will be burnt up by the sun.
maybe we’ll escape that (doubtful). so we go hop galaxies or something.
but then maybe one day the universe will run out of stars.
and then everything will go cold.
what the hell is the point.
I’m dying from the deacest where I I I been earring longer. than expected…….it’s excepted
And my life is eating me alive cause I yet to meet someone that we show me that they can see and hear the way I so simply think so I can learn how they think.
And everything is like you’ve been taught
From yourself unless you choose ignore me
By speaking my next point.
And for me everything means something else
But I didn’t say I didn’t understand you
See
When your a teenager going through so much
Pain
It’s like a pain with no answer
And when you […]
I all the time feel lost.
Day by day I feel like it’s work to try to be friends with people. I feel like everyone around me is hypocritical and fake. I talk to my mom all the time about how one day my friend can be gossiping about someone non-stop and the next they’re going on a trip with that person and acting like they’re best friends.. I believe in forgiveness and I believe that if someone does wrong to you over time you need to forgive. I also believe in being true to yourself and making it clear to people who you are […]
Im tired of thinking things will be better. Im tired of hoping to find a guy who is nice and likes me for me. Im tired of being burned by people i trusted. I tired of waiting for happiness. I tired of waiting for someone to hold my hand, hug me when i feel like crying and kiss me in the rain. I havent been on here for awahile cuz i hoped that i didnt need it anymore…obivously i was wrong because my life will never be better and i tired of sticking around waiting for the impossible to happen…guys are assholes and girls are […]
Why did he ignore me?
Why didn’t he talk to me when I left a post-it note on his door?
It was just one question? If he’d be at church on Sunday?
Why does he spend so much time with ‘her”?
Why was he mad when I asked for 5 minutes of “her” time when he spends four hours with her?
Why won’t “he” and “her” watch a movie with me?
Why don’t they look happy to see me?
Why can’t I be loved?
Why does it get to be fair for them and I’m left on the outside crying for help?
Why don’t I […]
I am constantly changing, going to and throw to and throw from a bad place and maybe an
overly good good, does that sound like bipolar to you? I am sick of having nobody understand me and not being a part of something, my friends dont really know me, well one of them kinda does but mostly ive just been trapped inside with my personality unable to show, Its Like ive been a big balloon full of something expanding and expanding about to explode. Ive talked about good and fighting for the good but I do fall down and this is one of those moments! […]
It is scary, that I use to find comfort in the idead of being able to die, well, no, kill myself. But now, I am able to find comfort that I am going to work, save up money, and just leave this city, this state, this country and move somewhere else. Just leave everything, all this mess. No one will be able to follow me. No one will be able to find me. I will start fresh, somewhere new. Somewhere else…
I hope everyone is doing good and find their freedom from pain, just not through death. Not through death.
What do you do when you want to die but you don’t want to kill yourself
do I have friends? If I come out, they look at me differently. Weird looks. Is she crazy? They don’t know what to say, so brush it off, cause they don’t understand or really don’t care. Some of them show a glimmer of fear. God stopped listening, cause I am still in limbo, with no where to go. What have I done so wrong for the world to turn it’s back to me?
Yeah I’m a new member here so I just wanted to get this out. I’ve been feeling trapped and useless and a buch of other things. I’m sorry if it seems like I’m just complaining but everything seems screwed up and I feel like its all my fault. I just don’t see a future or a point to it anymore and it’s not like I’m going to hurt myself but sometimes I just wish I’d get hit by a car and die or have to stay in the hospital. I don’t want to tell anyone about this because they’re just gonna think its hormones or […]
“Breathe, breathe in the air.
Don’t be afraid to care.
Leave, don’t leave me.
Look around, choose your own ground.
Long you’ll live and high you fly.
Smiles you’ll give and tears you’ll cry.
All you touch and all you see,
Is all your life will ever be?”
I so need to sleep. I can’t. I wish I could close my eyes and never open them again.