Over the past few years, all ive wanted is love… somebody to care. My family is never here for me and never really was. They have no idea who i am. So i’ve been looking for the right girl and its failed me. My past 4 girls have failed me… Girl number 1: Fine and dandy, then found out… i got cheated on. 2nd girl dated for a few months, randomly breaks up with me… No reason at all. girl number 3: Broke up with me for somebody who i know is just using her because he talks about it, ill let him because that […]
It’s been awhile since I’ve written about myself, though I still pop in regularly to read. Lurking, mostly.
It has now been 3 1/2 months since I attempted suicide on December 2, 2011. Exactly two months since my misadventure with my employer. Here is how things are, having made it to Spring break….
Neither the Dean nor the Director act as if anything had occurred, which I suppose is a good thing. I have been afraid to look at my Survey comments, because even though I keep a brave face and act reasonable, in reality, criticism hits me very hard. Maybe after I post this I’ll go […]
Its ironic really, Ever since my family died (my daughter died of leukemia) i have been battling with depression and have tried to kill myself a few times, i was only just able get somesort of life back this year, but now the optinion of life has been taken away from me.
I have bone cancer, stage 4. im as good as dead. So i guess this will prob be my last post.
Im glad really, all this time i have wanted to die so i could be with my family again, and my prayers have been answered.
I will prob make out my will this week, i […]
Death is but crossing the world, as friends do the seas; they live in one another still. For they must needs be present, that love and live in that which is omnipresent. In this divine glass they see face to face; and their converse is free, as well as pure. This is the comfort of friends, that though they may be said to die, yet their friend ship and society are, in the best sense, ever present, because immortal.
i told him why, and again im the one left with the knife to my wrist but it doesnt matter they dont care for me like they do for her im just that girl whos there. no meaning, just taking oxegon all i will be remebered for is that emo chick who hangs out with iris.all i will be rembered for. of course i told him. he told me to stop being depressed how can some just stop being depress
ok ive only told this to one person. but i just cant stand holding this in!!! i think ive slightly mentioned it before. but heres the complete full on story! :”(
I was in 1st grade. the teacher called my name, and told me that i had to take a reading test in the hallway with her helper! her helper was a boy.
brown hair, and blue eyes, i remember he was tall. i walked with him out into the hallway. i stood at the wall, but he keot walking. he yelled at me to follow so i did. i knew it […]
So you think you know me and you only knew me a couple months. My siblings aand parents don’t even no me and you wna act like you do?
it makes me so angry the way people expect me to respect them and be honest with them, but there always disrespecting me or lieing to me, im a humane to,and i may be a mistake but im still made of the same material as every one els, there for i am still humane, and i dont care if i wasnt humane, i dont go around saying ill be there or i promis something if i know i cant stick with my words or if i know im lieing,just to be a jerk,people shouldnt expect peace when they go around trying to intimidate others,my […]
It filled me to the brim with emotion, it was the last out of six random compliments i got on that day even though i woke up depressed.
It funny because i wake up smiling every morning and im happy, and then the day is just sad. But yesterday i woke up on the wrong side of the Bread and just felt like shit.
Then it was euphoria =]]Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â It was amazing to hear that someone feels like i am God. I didn’t stop smiling for a while.
I’m so angry. Â Angry to the core. Â No one understands. Â No one listens. Â I am holding on by a dwindling string. Â I told my dad and my close family friend about my problems. Â My mother told me I was being foolish and made a mistake by sharing my situation with my father. Â He wants to drag me to memphis, a very unhealthy place for me since a dysfunctional childhood there which i can never escape when i go. Â I don’t have anywhere to go. Â I can’t go to memphis, it would kill me slowly. Â I can’t stay here, it is killing me quickly. Â I can’t […]
It seems like anymore when i try to reach out for help they sll just say it will get better i promise. I even have a friend who struggles with depression and all she ever seems to tell me is it will get better. Idk if anything will really make me feel better but telling me it will get better over and over is driving me insane and making me want to cut off communication with evreyone i know.
Two Japanese movies concerning life and death.
Suicide Club just covers a general ideas and people and Noriko’s Dinner Table gets deeper into the ideas and mainly covers a family. At first it seemed like a totally new approach but within a short time I figured out it was just a new expression of old ideas.
It was rather interesting to me for purely entertainment value as well because I own quite a few Japanese/Korean/Chinese horror/suspense movies and am used to the flow of it. May wierd some people out but if you are in the mood for something different and you have never viewed this genre, try […]
Hey, I’m Zoe. Im 15 years old. When you look at me you would think I’m happy. I have friends. A boyfriend. It’s an okay life as of now I suppose. But due to my past, I’m going through severe clinical depression. I have an addiction to cutting. I have for about 4 years. It stuck with me even when times were getting better. They put me on zoloft.
The first time I attempted suicide, I was 11. Why? I was sick of being bullied because I was overweight. So it started out with eating disorders. Bulimia. Then I started reading poetry. And writing. […]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VL4YceTBxz8&feature=g-all-u&context=G23399f5FAAAAAAAAMAA
“Babe, you’re so complicated
The way you’re putting me down
And when we go out with your friends
You act like you don’t want me around
And I get so frustrated
Of everything ended in a fight
Why bring out the candle
When you don’t even care to see the light
And every time you make me cry
Every time you make me cry
And every time you make me cry
I love you a little bit more
And every time we started to fight
We never seem to get it right
And every time you make me cry
I love you a little […]
Feeling really lonely.
If anyone would like to chat please email me.
Or if anyone needs anyone to talk to, don’t hesitate!
im_a_goofy_gooba_yeah@hotmail.com
(hate my email but i’ve had it for like 12 years and can’t be bothered changing it, deal)
Back in August, ,my sweet younger brother was diagnosed with complication of the intestine. He was then due to constantly have to have bowel movements from a colostomy bag and eat trough a tube. This boy, until then, had collected a teaching degree and was on his way to gradutate with a nursing degree that peaked his interest due to his own illness. Brilliant as he was , knowing the civil war inside and out, a plethora of friends,a beautiful but down to earth girlfriend,no one saw it coming. ONe moring he checked himself out of the hospital, went to my […]
I always keep putting things off. I am so scared of what can happen that I keep things bottled up until they get really bad. I wish I had someone to comfort me and hold me and tell me it will be alright. Sometimes I feel like just running away. This money proble, is eating me alive.
Mainly again to the youth because their stories are just so harsh. And they usually can do nothing but be victimized because they are not old enough to legally leave, not able to sustain themselves, or the authority personnel will not or cannot help them.
Which means their lives consist of what others do to them. And they have no recourse except to just sit there and take it. Even through their efforts of trying to escape or get the situation handled better.
The reason I am aiming at the kids is that many of us adults have caused our own problems. That does not exempt us […]
Hey everyone, I want people to join my facebook group for people who feel “out of place, or unloved, or ignored totally.”
Hit me upand join my group if you like
the group is called Moving Forward
and my name is Nia Braithwaite
 I am the Nia with the tulips or yellow flowers
If you die, just know you could be worst off especially if you don’t believe in anything.
There is nothing wrong with being suicidal, but acting on it is.
It is okay to want to die!!
But just know, you prob, feel that way because ou felt unloved or hated by the world, but we have each other.
And, you know what screw the world.
If you think about it some people in the world who arenot suicidal are more messed up than us.
It’s ok
We just have to know our lives aren’t just for us, we love for Jesus and truth and love and all things good, but if you don’t believe that you can die!
And you may not […]