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I deserve to be extinguished

July 20th, 2009by caligirl01

it’s evident because I am 30 years old and still live with my parents..  even though I am a female, that doesn’t make it any better…  I have been diagnosed as bipolar 2 and I am on social security..  That makes me a complete and utter leech on life’s resources..  I hear the eugenecists want to kill me because I cost them money and am a useless eater and unfortunately, I can see where they are coming from…  I once loved and lost because the guy realized what a loser I really am and he kicked me to the curb after using me for sex…  …

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A Poem I wrote to: Life

July 20th, 2009by Boondockrod

 

To: Life  

 

i wept gently at the sound of her call
i always favored that wide eyed grin
the time they said is now at hand
time for her rest to finally begin
suffering no more, for her at least
letting go all the pain and heartache
i’ll stay with her til the very last moment
for her heart was the claim i did stake
let go i say…please just let her go
theres nothing i can do to change
over and over til i see every color
the memories drowning the pain
can i go on?…do i even dare try
when half of one is one less tear
every part of living our dream
is half enough to even care?

i …

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I fear the end is near

July 20th, 2009by Boondockrod

my name is Rod, i am suicidal..i am diagnosed depression..i am crying as i write this..i am in so much pain..not just emotionaly but physical as well…i want to tell my story but i feel no one will care anyway..i guess i came here to find hope and all i really find is people either worse off then me or people with so much pain i can feel it in my own heart …i hate when people try to tell me its ok and will get better…it has only gotten worse as years go by…i am at my end..there is nothing that can seem to

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if you wanna end your life read this

July 20th, 2009by im gonna do it

i have thought long and hard about the option and finally figured out a way to do it whilst not letting anyone know i killed myself, im going to get a job get my bike license buy a fast machine and go into the back of a truck as fucking fast as i can full fucking stop no one will know i killed myself it will just look like i was reckless and riding to fast well i hope this idea help those of you who are serious see you all on the flip side

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….

July 20th, 2009by emily25

I’m 17 to start off with. My parents are divorced and my mom remarried. I am depressed. I don’t really “cut” or anything. Though, I don’t stop from letting an accident happen if it would hurt and make it bleed out. I could most of the time, but I just don’t. I kind of just get really relaxed when something like that happens. It’s proly not good, but oh well. I have ODed once not too long ago and was sick for like four days. I didn’t think of anything though I did feel like shit. It was my fault I did though. I thought …

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July 19th, 2009by gini

hi there I’m 28yrs old and don’t know what to do anymore i have 4 kids which at the moment i don’t like I’ve been told that due to depression which Ive suffered for years since being a kid all i want to do is end all this for me and them as i know that as long as I’m here there not going to be happy and i no that wen i go they will all have loving happy places to go to life is so shit i just don’t know how to cope i no how im gonna do it i already told …

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Life and questions

July 19th, 2009by jeff24353

im 16 my name is jeff, i am depressed and dont know why, my mom and dad got a divorce when i was 5 and i live with my mom, i am a christian, i hav a fairly good relationship with both of my parents, i’m actually not a bad looking kid, but i havent had a girlfriend in like 3 yrs, i feel very along bc ppl say they are there for me, the they arent. but speaking of girls, there is this one, and i dont know about you other guys (PLEASE TELL ME IF YA’LL DO THIS) but every time you think …

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Its always darkest before the dawn right? Where did the fucking Sun go?

July 19th, 2009by Stoshua18

Well it’s been an interesting time in my life. I’ve spent almost 2 months of it in a mental hospital separated with a girlfriend of almost 3 years, mother of my third son who will be 2 tomorrow.  Started a relationship with another woman who I have to say, I love dearly.  I just don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I can’t bring myself to live a ‘normal’ life where I am a responsible adult and 9-5 and family one weekends. I left out in disability in December of last year about 3 months after FINALLY seeing a psychiatrist and being diagnosed with …

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Offering Hope

July 18th, 2009by Struggling To Survive

Fellow Sufferers:

I’ve lived with Bipolar Type 2 since I was 12 years old.  It is a form of manic-depression in which you don’t usually have psychotic problems, but you do have major mood swings — mild “ups” (hypomanias) followed by normal periods, and then crushing depressions.

I was not diagnosed until my middle forties.  I attempted suicide three times in my early twenties. I still have sporadic suicidal ideas when I go through bad periods in my life. I’m nearly sixty now.

Since Bipolar Type 2 is genetic, it pervaded my family. My childhood was not good, to put it very mildly.

I know that when you are …

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been through so much at my age

July 18th, 2009by belly

i am 18yrs old and sometimes i feel lik i can’t take it anymore, i tried to comet suicide at 15 but they hospitalized me. i thought i was over everything  but i just seem to notice that my life is hell i am living wit my parents and my babies father, but he seems to not even care about what i feel or how i feel. i feel like i am so used to being put down i really don’t care anymore but the pain has caught up to me & i just feel like i’ve had enough i really need help not just …

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i hate my life

July 18th, 2009by nook242

no one needs to read my sorrows. they have their own. but i need to spit all of my out. i play a lot of tennis. i play every day and work hard but i cant beat anyone. everyone keeps telling me that one day i will win and i have lots of talent. but i dont believe. my dad expects me to win. my parents like me the days i win in tournaments and play well but dont like me when i lose. they are constantly dissapointed. today i lost to a girl that i should have beaten and gotten yelled at. i think …

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The Hours…

July 18th, 2009by susan5

I sort of don’t want to write here, because whenever I read other people’s posts, I realise that I have so little to really complain about.  But, at the same time, I just find it so hard to continue living my life.  Again, and I know lots of people write this, but I don’t really want or expect any kind of comments on this post, I just need to say these things, because I have no one else to say them to, and I’m tired of the same shit just cycling around my head all day and all night.  So here I go, getting it …

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A Traumatic Life

July 18th, 2009by lebotnov

 I’m forwarding you this just so you can understand a little of what I’m going through right now. I don’t want you to do anything with this, it’s just to help you understand. 
 

My life has been a life of trauma. My mother sent me away(I reminded her of him too much) for many weeks, at 8, when my brother was crushed by a brick wall. I saw it all. I was not allowed to cry over his death. I was forced to pour soil over his urn. We had always been stuck together like glue.
 At 14 I was gang raped in broad daylight by …

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life is crazy

July 17th, 2009by aspersion

My post probably won’t mean a whole lot because I do not know how to put my experiences into words. It’s simply not worth trying to end your life. There is so much to look forward to, even if you’re pretty bad off. Life is too beautiful and it has many things to offer. Don’t do what everyone else wants you to. Especially don’t do what society wants you to. Live your life for YOU and nothing else. I’m happy now because I have figured that out. I have tried so many times to end my life from OD’ing to slitting my wrists. None of …

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Eighth grade and more hell along the way :)

July 17th, 2009by X bf calls me suicide

“No one is worth your tears…… Then why do we cry when we lose them?”

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I did this to myself, and my family.

July 17th, 2009by Coyote

This will probably be somewhat incoherent.  I apologize in advance for that.

I am 25 years old, and just graduated from a university with a degree in music.  I took out nearly $60,000 in private student loans to get the degree, to say nothing of the federal loans.

My job prospects now are no better than they were when I was in high school, and are in fact worse, thanks to the economy and my foolish, self-indulgent decision to get a music degree.  The worst part is that my family cosigned on the private loans, and they’re going to destroy their credit along with mine.  I could …

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just have to say it I guess

July 16th, 2009by betterlucknextime

My relationship with my partner of 12 years has failed.  I gave up my family and my culture to be with him in another country.  Somehow, I have managed to end up with no job, no career, no money and no prospects, with a 4 yearold and a 2 yearold in my care.  I have struggled with depression and the care of 2 kids while hubby kept going with his fancy career and now he wants the kids. I have nothing to offer – there is no money or recognition in being the mother of my children.  All the court wants to know is how …

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age of content

July 16th, 2009by mynameisjonas

I have not cried in a few days, that is because i have set the date.  I feel a great relief.  I’m not waiting for a “magic” word or even a great experience.  I have done as much as i can with this life.  The only regret is not being able to have children.

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lost forever

July 16th, 2009by X bf calls me suicide

people people pls

hear my tears ive cried

Im 14 and living with my mom brother and dog

i have a scar on my arm im contemplatin to cut open again ive cut my wrist 3times took 8 advils and choked my self with a belt twice

life for me is hell im scared to die but im ready

i hope someone here  i dnt care how old what gender suicidal or not I NEED HELP

Someone hear my heart i cry in my sleep i lost my great grandmother been heartbroken three times twice  by the same guy i cry alot

smile less im so ugly im scared to look decent …

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It’s almost funny

July 16th, 2009by Aleshya

people love me. My family, my amazing boyfriend, all my friends. but they don’t understand me. I just get sad. I had a hard childhood of bullyin. now I’m headin for highschool, and i guess I’m excited. but I come from a poor family so I need to work my ass off to get scholarships and stuff. the pressure is awful. one slip, one lil mistake of a grade or somthin and I won’t be able to stay in the world I am right now. and I cut. it feels good. my bf though has no idea how to react, he is soo sweet and …

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