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The rivers destiny is ours too ♥

February 10th, 2011by BrokenAndDestroyed

Last night, I’d had enough, I was tired, upset and suicidal. My family were pissing me off, I kept going off into my own world and if they spoke to me, and I didn’t reply they’d get angry and throw insults at me. I never expect my family to understand how I plan my life out, or how they expect me to do well, because they don’t agree with who I’ve chosen, who I want to be with or my future career with horses. Yeah, I’m a horse rider, I’ve been told I’ll go far, I have natural talent and that I’m a talented …

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please explain

February 10th, 2011by penombre

I am 19, I’m in med school, I have a family that loves me, some good friends, and I used to be very socialy active (voluntary work, tutoring…). I have all I need to enjoy life, yet I am intrinsically incapable of doing so. I think it has to do with my genetic heritage (depression in the family) and my life experience (war, verbal and physical abuse…). Now I moved and all is good, except I am not the same. I don’t beleive in anything anymore, I have no dreams, almost no feelings, nothing to live for. I have tried for years to change and …

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i;ve had enough

February 10th, 2011by lost419

i am a 40yr old woman and i have had P.T.S.D for 5yrs.4yrs ago i jumped off a cliff to kill myself but landed on a ledge 100 foot down and survived.ever since then i have regretted not dying that night.i have been in and out of psychiatric hospital and have a whole load of mental health professionals,housing support,alcohol support and work support and of course friends and family supporting me on a daily basis yet i still cant manage to feel any better.i gave up drinking 162 days ago and i assumed i would feel better but i dont.i am on the brink of …

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So you think you’re a loser

February 10th, 2011by FatFailure

Believe me, I get it.  I know you think you’re a complete loser.  And quite possibly the biggest of them all.  But sorry, I take the cake.  You don’t even know. 

I’m 46.  I’m obese.  I am financially crippled (who still borrows money from their aged parents at 46?!).  My health sucks.  My health sucks because I don’t take care of myself.  I have diabetes and a number of other health issues.  After being laid off in Sept. ’10 due to my big mouth and shitty attitude, I was unemployed for three months.  Got a new job.  Turns out it’s a really terrible job.  I should …

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i dont want this anymore

February 10th, 2011by mjkontz

i cant do this anymore. everything that can go wrong in my life, is going wrong. i moved out of my parents house to live with my girlfriend of 3 years. my parents did not approve and have cut me off completely. they barely even talk to me anymore, and the only times they do, its to tell me what i regret i am. my girlfriend is the only person i had. shes the only one i lived for, and a few nights ago, i got really angry about her hanging out with a guy alot, and so i started drinking. i got really drunk, …

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Suicide rantings

February 10th, 2011by LongDropBelle

This is my first time here, I have been suicidal for…most of my life, when I was 7 i tried to stab myself.  I have tried many times since then, and as I am in life a complete failiure.  No doctors have helped me, but then I don’t consider myself to have ‘Mental Health’ issues, I just don’t like life. Just like some folk don’t like tomatoes.  I have tried and tried and like everything else I have failed.  I didn’t have a great child hood, I have had two mentally abusive relationships, and the last one has turned me to ice.  I am now

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February 10th, 2011by lost_soul

is it possible to die of loneliness?

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Borderline Narcissistic

February 10th, 2011by z

Borderline Narcissistic. I’m the borderline. I detest narcissists. My sibling happens to be the narcissist. I want to vomit….

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The end seems so close…

February 9th, 2011by HellBoundToBleed

Life is becoming a dead end,in the literal sense of that phrase…maybe its for a reason…

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bad day

February 9th, 2011by i dunno

 

Today is a bad day, or was, it’s almost over. I don’t know why I am writing this, here and now.

Everything that has happened this week has been depressing to me, even though most of it is not of a depressing nature. It just is what it is, but I have been taking things too seriously. Perhaps it is stress.

Today I saw a tv show from the 60s, with these young ladies who were falling in love with this handsome young man. It depressed me because I am not handsome and never had young women fawning over me. It was a tv show I know …

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So Tired

February 9th, 2011by Journey

I used to write… a long, long time ago. In school I took Honors and
Advanced Placement classes. Now it’s like all the thoughts and feelings are scrambled together. Can’t think straight, let alone put it into words for someone else. So, so tired. Now all I want to do is sleep, sleep forever. I just want to forget that I ever was.

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Nobody can help me

February 9th, 2011by Paradoks

Hello. My name is Chris, im from Poland. Soon i’ll turn 20. I have a lot of problems and im alone. My mother and grandfather died when i was 7. I didn’t even know my father. My grandmother is very sick, so she needs help from me and besauce nature of her disease is very painful, she oftem screams, even in the middle of the night. But dont think she’s just old poor woman, shes a devil. She lies like she’s trying to beat a record she cheats me on regular basis. I tried commit suicide first time after my uncle came, together with him …

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My Story

February 9th, 2011by corina

I was 17 years when i had my first attempt. i was just having enough of the stress from my parents my best friend told me when she was stressed out she would cut herself to relieve her pain.. i started cutting myself alot.. then i just started thinking it would be better if wasnt here at all and felt no pain at all.. so i went to my bathroom took 7 trazdones (sleeping pills) got 3 pairs of leggings and tied them both ways around my neck. i pulled until i passed out.. i woke up in ICU.. i was so upset that i …

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even more scared

February 9th, 2011by aureyslasthope

I just attempted what I had planned before. I filled a bag with helium, exhaled then tied it tight around my neck. It started ok, after maybe 20-30 seconds I couldn’t breathe in anything, I tried to distract myself from it by crawling around, but panic took over and I ripped the bag off.

I’m guessing either I couldn’t get enough in the bag to make me pass out first. It was risen above my head even when I took the bag off, but I couldn’t inhale anything. I’m going to say I botched this attempt…sad, it was the first one in years. I feel …

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I MISS THOSE DAYS

February 9th, 2011by justpushplay

i want to go back to the times when i was younger when , my parents would lie just for me not to know the sad and bad things in the world. those days when my parents would ask me if i was happy and i could answer truthfully with a ‘yes’. when my parents would hide the bad things the world from me. the days when they wouldn’t fight.

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Lost all hope…last resort

February 9th, 2011by WhyBother2012

While i may be only 20 i know enough and see enough to bring me to ending my existence. I have found no hope in humanity as shown to me by my so called friends. I live 30 minutes away from all of them so it’s a little drive but i don’t mind. I’m left out of all activities with them. No phone calls, texts, emails, facebook messages, nothing. The only time i see them are at concerts and local band practices and even then i’m left out and treated as if i don’t exist. I do many things for them and get exactly shit …

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a glimpse of hope

February 9th, 2011by apfriedm

I have just recently found this website. I navigated around on it a little and decided to make an account. For now I don’t want to share my full story but maybe one that will help bring at least a little hope to some people out there.

Ever since I was younger I had depression issues. I remember the times where the worst when I was probably in 8th or 9th grade. It got to the point where I would play games with myself, I convinced myself that no one cared about me and therefor my existence was pointless. I would go to school and actually …

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fml..

February 9th, 2011by peitingtan

why oh why……. life is miserable.
i have always been a fat fuck since young.
i began the victim of bullying in school, and all i knew was to cry everyday.
i have no one to speak to because i would only get the same response of “you are who you are, you can’t blame the rest for laughing at you”.
but i couldn’t lose weight.
things got a bit better when i move up to secondary school.
still, life wasnt any better because the criticisms just got nastier as the proficiency of language moves up to a higher level in the people around you.
maybe i am petty, but what did …

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February 8th, 2011by oswold

I just want to take tablets and fall asleep for good,  I need to know the best tablets to take so its quick and painless.

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miserable, misunderstood, and depressed.

February 8th, 2011by Aj

well this has been going on for somewhile and ive tried to stop but whats the point? it just doesnt work for some people, like me. im just looking for a way out as you could say ive been planning things for when i got out of school and im sure that my plan wil come through. ever since i was 12 maybe 13 i started to cut, at first it was shallow cuts but then i started to do them deeper and since then ive been cutting noone has found out except my best friend and my other friend, ive known my best friend …

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