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My story

May 1st, 2008by Mary

I write because I am hoping that by simply writing, this intention will fade. Thirteen years ago, my father mmitted suicide. Soon afterwards, I made my first suicidal attempt. Two other suicidal gestures followed the attempt. At that time, I was seeing a psychologist twice a week. Now, years later, I not only do not have the financial means to seek psychological help, I feel less inclined to want to seek it. I have recently relocated to a new area. I am near sixty years old. My motivation for moving was to be closer to my …

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My story

May 1st, 2008by Mary

I write because I am hoping that by simply writing, this intention will fade. Thirteen years ago, my father committed suicide. Soon afterwards, I made my first suicidal attempt. Two other suicidal gestures followed the attempt. At that time, I was seeing a psychologist twice a week. Now, years later, I not only do not have the financial means to seek psychological help, I feel less inclined to want to seek it. I have recently relocated to a new area. I am near sixty years old. My motivation for moving was to be closer to my …

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Suicidal Again

May 1st, 2008by Failure59

I’m a 50 year old man. Very high suicide group. Alcoholic. Learning disability. Frequent depression through the years, anxiety disorders and so on.Have been suicidal since sixteen. Am now jobless and deeply depressed. Am trying to think of painless, peaceful ways to suicide.

I think that I’ll try a compressed inert gas, such as compressed CO2 or nitrogen, in my car. It won’t be messy or smelly for the landlord that way. Maybe I can make it look like an accident for my relatives. Welding accident… the valve was opened accidentally while he was transporting it…

People shouldn’t have so many children, you know. There would …

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friday its only days away but it feels like a lifetime

April 30th, 2008by deadfriend3

Well I suppose 2 days is a lifetime at the moment its kind of funny to hear about suicide via hanging… My advice is do research on what ur gunna attatch the rope to, I have been for the past few days and when i can go n buy my rope to make my knoose friday afternoon I will get to prove that it really is strong enough… Ya know it is great to be able to write on here where no one knows you or where you are because this way I can say whatever I want and i dont have to worry about …

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Fuck it

April 29th, 2008by sean

well, i really dont know why im still living, ive had enough of this fucking world, i figured that out when i was 7.

saw my friend hanging from a rope and dangling from the ceiling, worst thing ive ever seen in my life, and every single day from that point on, ive always wondered why did he do it? it seemed like a good idea to me, it really does, ive even tried it before. well i did once, but the thing i was hanging off of just broke and i fell ot the ground, and i layed there for about an hour just crying …

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Stop the Bullies

April 29th, 2008by StoptheBullies

I wouldn’t be the first or the last to commit suicide because of bullies. I’m intelligent. Talented. Get along well everywhere but in the office. My boss, a freak who was fired from a job 20 years ago for molesting dead bodies in a funeral home likes to send me out to accident scenes (I’m a journalist) to take body photos. He’s sick. It’s bad enough I have to go to fatalities, fires, murders, shootings and brains on the street but when I come back all they do is laugh and joke about it. None of them have to go. They sit around and joke …

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How to say goodbye

April 29th, 2008by deadfriend3

For many years I have been very suicidal I have always found ways out of my depression. Infact I have found my own ways with out medicne to cope with my depression and suicidal thoughts/tendancies but now I dont have those abilities anymore. I dont have anyone to talk to and I cant get my family to listen to me. I have no more hope or care for this world because I have found the truth in life and knowing this is what is making me give up. I dont have very long left but that is not a bad thing infact I can say …

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Will I make it out.

April 21st, 2008by DePressMe

It is good to finally have a place to post what I am really thinking and feeling. So many other sites don’t allow suicidal posts. I understand why—that could really make a lot of people worried. In a sense, this is not a suicidal post because at the moment, I am sitting here writing instead of getting the gun out. Oh, the gun is already out. It was left out from last night. Mainly I sit around thinking or fantasizing about shooting myself. I feel like a failure—like nothing I have done in this world has made a difference. I just got out of an …

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Balls.

April 19th, 2008by Ox

I’m not a social person. I don’t like being around people. Most of the time I think they’re judging me, thinking I’m weird or going to talk about me behind my back. I know they won’t but I think it anyway. So I avoid any kind of social situation. I just sit in my room all day…

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hey

April 8th, 2008by tashi

hey guys, im not exactly new 2 this, but ive never actually writen anything 2 post other tan comments and stuff, but im just saying tht im here 2 help, and tht i think tht the ppl who actually write on this are very brave for putting themselves out there for something like this, but if u r suicidal, think about things b4 u do anything.

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Love sick made me emo

March 20th, 2008by Skull_Boi

🙁
emo_boi

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6 or 7 weeks ago

March 15th, 2008by mad4him4eva

6 or 7 weeks i cut myself. i wouldnt be here if it wasnt for two friends. they told me that this world would miss me. they told me that suicide is not the answer. i believed them. while i was talking to them my ex-boyfriend got on. i talked to him and i forgot all about it. now im really happy i didnt commit suicide! i have a wonderful b/f!

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I am a disgrace and I am going to kill myself soon.

March 6th, 2008by mail704

I’m a student. all through high school and university and when I go around I am frequently approached by fairly attractive females. I send them all away because I am so frightened of them. The female teachers hit on me too as well as male homosexuals. I’ve never had a girlfriend and am still a virgin. I’ve spent a lot of time practising playing the guitar. Now I am pretty good. However I never go play for anyone because I’m so frightened. I played some songs for groups of people at school, college, in clubs etc. and was good. However I am just so frightened …

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Finished, Had Enough, and Tired

January 11th, 2008by clintw317

My life is pleasantly comfortable and I can’t complain about anything. I have a dream job and the money is great. I’m in a wonderful marriage with my lovely wife. We have a huge house and nice cars and stuff. If I were to ask for more, I’d be greedy. Sure I can hold out longer for a boat, a nice trip to Hawaii, or even just to see how the kids turn out, but why?

I guess it’s fair to say that self-termination is unfair to those around you and selfish in itself. I will never take that route but sometimes I think about it. …

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Pain Has Stolen My Life…

January 2nd, 2008by a00013

I had a good life: I am intelligent and ambitious. I have a great family, used to love life and lived it to the fullest. My career soared as well. I moved up from an entry level to a SVP in only a few short years. I was fortunate enough to meet a wonderful wife, inheriting a 3 year old step-daughter and later, a daughter of our own. Our dream was to enjoy life with our kids, have a nice home, travel and perhaps start a business venture of our own eventually.

And then…eight years ago, out of the blue, I began experiencing some …

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Respect for the dying

December 30th, 2007by Ender

I visited relatives this Christmas, it was nice to see everyone but naturally I had a few too many drinks one night and let the veneer slip. So at least one other relative knows how fucked up I am. I really have to remember not to drink, it brings me nothing but misfortune. The trouble with being suicidally disenchanted with life is that it’s hard to cover it up, I’ve made choices in the past couple of months that have given away my secret motives, and so now I have jittery relatives worried about what I might do. I regret that, I should have been …

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losing sight

December 18th, 2007by jumpdance16

I get in stages like this, In my life which just seem so wrong. I hurt so many people, with no happiness with myself. There are so many things that I want to leave. But so many things I want to move to, but they are so far, there is no point. So I wake up, without a reason. I walk without a back. Why do I stay?

good bye

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third attempt

December 13th, 2007by coverinthebases

The cut was small.
And then it became deeper
and deeper
and deeper
The shiny white tendon in my arm began to burn as the blade took one nick after another.
The vien, like a hose, shot steady streams of blood onto the ground of my balcany like a pool.
Putting out one cigarette after another into the mirror of crimson liquid.

My cat walked by in the yard below, and all I could think was “Who is going to feed you if I die?”

Do any of you know what it feels like to have to clean up your own blood from a bathroom floor?
Do any of you know what it feels …

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nothing

November 26th, 2007by cloudedeyes

i know i wouldn’t kill myself. but i feel like disappearing. just for an hour, maybe for a month, maybe forever. so many things are piling up on me. i don’t know how i feel anymore. the only girl i ever truly loved just hurt me ever so deeply. my parents aren’t bad parents, but it seems that everything that they try to do to promote a good relationship isn’t helping. my friends don’t really respect me anymore, and I hardly get any sleep from the amount of work I have to do.

I just want to sit down, take a deep breath and just vanish. …

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It Came Back.

November 4th, 2007by Grey.

It came back. That cloud. The heavy, dark, consuming cloud of hopelessness. I have tried to kill myself on two occassions. Both using medication used to treat depression. Both times would have been successful had I not been found terribly drugged up. The second time I had a seizure as a result and lost a bit of my memory. How I wish I had lost more. I was in the hospital for months, “getting better.”. Then I got out, got another job, started upgrading some courses, even started having dreams again. That was a big sign for me that I had made it. I had …

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