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Advice needed. Title: did I find him?

  March 1st, 2011 by xxneongirlxx

I am thirteen years old, made fun of constantly. A little while back about a year ago I met a boy from a town close by at a local theme park. One day we were texting, he was with his friend Joey. Me and Joey started talking for a while’ added eachother on Facebook and became close. We have been talking for quite some time now. About a while back he asked me to play “21 question” with him, if you do not know what this is, it is when you ask eachother 21 questions of your pick. He asked me how far would I [...]
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im gona kill myself, HELP ME

  March 1st, 2011 by trist3

Im gona die very soon or later coz im way too depressed deze days beacuse of the problems im goin through. words are not enof to mention da pain im suffering . i wil try to hung myself , if i failed ill definitely stab myself for sho. i dont mind changing my decision if someone can  help me go through deze probs.

wana help me survive – contact me

benpark.providence@gmail.com


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I’m alone.

  March 1st, 2011 by xxneongirlxx

Do you ever feel so alone that you just want to curl up in a corner and cry? I feel like that almost every day. I’m that girl who grew up and was obnoxious and was not afraid to be herself. I completly regret that now. I am constantly made fun of. I’m that girl who hangs out with the most popular girls and does not get any guys to like her. I feel like I’m ugly, fat, and unwanted. I cry everynight. I don’t even care anymore. Boys won’t like me because they find me annoying. I have no one to go to, because [...]
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I can’t stand it anymore

  March 1st, 2011 by itsjustme

I hate my life.. I hate feeling like this but I can’t help it…Every morning is more and more difficult.
I’m 18 and I’ve never really had a boyfriend except of the 5-days “relationship” when I was 9.. funny right? I’ve never kissed a boy, I’ve never felt the warmth of a hug from that “special one”, I’ve never held hands with someone.. These small things seem unimportant for the most of the people but not for me.. I want to be loved..not the kind of love your family gives you but the other kind..
I never express my feelings. I keep everything inside..That’s bad, [...]
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Pain is pleasure

  March 1st, 2011 by Rocky90

Can anyone of you associate with that?

It is said that self injury is just a way of trying to get attention but somehow i think there might be more to it.

Like when all you have ever known is pain, i think at some point you begin to love the only thing you know and it simply becomes pleasure, like reversing the poles. Instead of developing a love for life you love death and everything that symbolizes it. I love vampirism so much and I’d love to act out on it some time with myself and others.

In my childhood and in my youth I had these [...]
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Who’s unemployed

  March 1st, 2011 by n o o m

and unable to work due to their mental state.I’m on esa benefits,but I think they are trying to kick me off now


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losing myself

  March 1st, 2011 by xXBloodyRoseXx

nothing feels right anymore. happiness comes and goes. but at night.. i feel like im falling. i wish i could rip my heart out and lock it away so no one will ever hurt me. im in a state of depression that scares me. i cut up my leggs so my mom cant see my cute. ive carved “hopeless’, “worthles” “slut” and “no one loves you” into my leggs over the past month. the person i love doesnt love me. the family who said they would always be there for me never is.  my mom crys everynight. she doesnt smile anymore. my house is full [...]
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Why is pulling that trigger so hard?

  March 1st, 2011 by BrokenDevil

  Obviously, I was not done raging against the dying of the light. Unfortunately, the light is not done raging aginst me.

  I’m so tired of disappointing people, and myself. And here I am again, whining about how life’s too hard. Sadly, I see that there are so many other people who wanna end it but also lack the courage to shoot themselves. Gee, I guess I’m not special at all. That makes me feel really fuckin’ good, let me tell ya.

  I think my wife’s heading towards cheating on me with a guy she works with. My daughter’s been disappointed in me since day [...]
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my story and why i wanna give up on life

  March 1st, 2011 by foreverloser

Okay, this is probably going to be a lengthy rant. I am a college student, 23 years of age. Every day, all day long I think of nothing but how to end my life. I know I will be missed, at least I hope people care enough to miss me, and i know if I go through with it people will be hurt. I know that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, but I still just want to go through with it.
I have had a heart problem for most of my life known as vasal vagal [...]
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I wish things were different.

  March 1st, 2011 by AboutMe

I’m on the right track – a 4.0 GPA student, I’ve saved over $10,000 working since I was 16 (I’m 18 now and recently quit), I have a good family, I love my cat Tiki, I have a dependable car and safe roof over my head. My boyfriend is amazing and his family is wonderful to me, as well. I could literally go anywhere I wanted in life, take any path I wished to take. I’m pretty, I know I’m a great writer and artist. People tell me I’m funny and overall good to be around. I don’t drink, I don’t smoke cigarettes, I’m fairly [...]
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I Want To Die Now!!!

  March 1st, 2011 by hani3

Fml I have lost all hope and confidence today was outright hell. Going to school and coming home to my same problems. I wish I ordered the nicotine patches to come today instead of Thursday cause I would’ve killed myself a long time ago! I can’t wait til Thursday to die I want to end this now.


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Sometimes I just want to give up.

  February 28th, 2011 by floaton

I need to vent. I need to let it all out before it continues nibbling on my insides and destroys me. Last time I spilled my insides to anyone was so long ago. I’ll guess I’ll start from the very, very start. It all started at a very young age. I had a babysitter because my parents were always too busy for me. She was this loud, eccentric middle-aged woman. She was pretty nice. But, as the time progressed I learned that in her house I had no freedom. I wasn’t able to express myself without feeling judged or without being yelled at. She made [...]
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I just want to disappear

  February 28th, 2011 by lonely girl

I used to think that I was a pretty strong person, until recently. I don’t know how I got to where I am now, but I just can’t find the strength or happiness to go on living anymore. I am a smart, tall, pretty good-looking girl, and ever since college, I’ve usually had a boyfriend. My boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me a few days after New Year’s this year and it’s been debilitating. I never thought that it would be this hard.  We used to talk about getting married, having kids, and settling down, and when he broke up with me it [...]
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10 suicide attempts in 10 months.

  February 28th, 2011 by sadlisa

I first began getting suicide thoughts in 2008, I had worked as a stripper for 4 years and those 4 years were a slope into depression. I was smart, and I hated what I did, but I was poor and money had always stopped me from ‘living.’ It invariably became my near death.
I wasn’t on drugs, I hadn’t even touched them. So lets just clear that up as the stripper word comes with its judgements.
I also want to say that it was my choice and greed that led to my downfall, people did help me along the way, taking what they [...]
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Gracefulexit

  February 28th, 2011 by Rocky90

I just wanted to let everyone know about this channel, it’s quite encouraging material, where Mr. Inmendham argues how this sick society is trying to impose life over those who are suffering and who are not willing to live and how everyone has the moral free choice to take one’s own life.

http://www.youtube.com/user/GracefulExit#p/u


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Hola…

  February 28th, 2011 by Midnight_Dreamer

Hey, I’m glad I found this website… amazing what you can find on Google…
It feels good to know now I can right everything that happens to me down now; It’s been a year since my suicicdal thoughts starting popping up. It used to be worse, but I’m so scared they’ll come back again. What’s even worse is that, when I do feel depressed, I feel like it’s right- it brings me some kind of shame and glory I can hardly begin to describe. I’m just a teen- not saying my age, don’t want anyone to be able to look at this and say, “Hey, [...]
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Can’t Think of a Title

  February 28th, 2011 by Anna

I haven’t posted for a while… today though I just need someone to listen. I was going to tell my housemates, but then thought they’d just think I was an attention seeker, which I’m not even sure is that far from the truth. Hence, this post. You don’t have to read it because it’s probably very silly. I just have to write it.

I went to University today and submitted my assignment. I then had an hour and a half’s wait until my three hour seminar. Usually I’d stay and maybe get some lunch or something, or go and sit in the library. But today I [...]
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I really do not want to live anymore

  February 28th, 2011 by mamacat

I guess it all started back in 2004 when I was overlooked for a promotion which was then given to another employee who had been there half as long as I had.  She did not have more experience or education than I did; she simply got paid from the “right” fund and I got paid from the “wrong” fund.  I found out in a staff meeting in front of many of my coworkers that the promotion went to the other employee and then had to sit through a presentation with my coworkers of how I got screwed and she got the promotion.  I was humiliated, hurt, [...]
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My dilemma

  February 28th, 2011 by Rocky90

I’m from Germany and my age is 20. Last year my mom threw me out of home, having the cops arrest me and tried to put me into mental hospital after I had declared that I was going to end my life due to her cancelling the flat we lived in and force me to get work but I was smart enough so I got out after 24 hours. My dad picked me up and let me live at his home since. My mom decided she wasn’t going to let me in again.

Imagine your room, your beloved home, you lose it all in a day [...]
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  February 28th, 2011 by pxckll

melatonin isnt effective at all. i took 20 hoping it would put me in a coma or kill me, but of course it didnt. i was pissed off.


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