I hate living i wish that my mom.would just let me die already ive been suffering for years now and she seems not to care she avoids the situation until i try something then thats when she notice i need more help then what shes giving.but the truth is i dont want.anyones help i just want to be left aline so that i could just die by myself what so hard about that you know i prayed and prayed that this world would end in 2012 like is was supose to but i guess i didnt prey hard enough because here i am writing […]
the urge to kill myself is stronger than
it’s ever been…… just the thought of it makes me happy. I’m not selfish my family is selfish! they want me to stay here to keep them happy but I’m not happy.! I’d be happy if I was dead I’m done trying to placate people I’m going to do what makes me happy…… I have a plan
I’m at the point in my life my 23 year old life…Where I’m wondering is this world a state of my own design…Have I created this person that lives inside of me are is it as they say “Clinical Depressionâ€â€¦I’ve been this way for so long that I don’t know what happiness is…To the outside world have
everything a person could want are need but to me it’s like something is always missing…I’m always seeking that small unattainable piece of happiness that never seems to come my way…I push away people even though I need them more then air…I can’t work are go to school […]
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Most of the times I feel like I say the wrong things at the wrong time and cause more problems in my life! I feel like I can’t do anything right! I have to pretend I am happy most of the times! I don’t wanna pretend anymore! I have almost commited suicide 4 times already :/ every time I try either a friend runs in and stops me or a thought of a loved one! I don’t wanna go through hell anymore 🙁 so many terrible things have happened in my life! I can’t take it anymore! I don’t know how much longer I can […]
Natural or unnatural death. Which one?
Thank you so much for turning my tears into smiles. Wish it could be that way every night. Hope someone else feels the way I do tonight.
Guilt is eating me away. Guilt over hurting my family, even when they told me they would rather have me die than to live with me depressed. Guilt over feeling this depression and suicidal thoughts are just because i’m weak. Guilt over hating my life. I’ve only cared about other people since i was little. Even though i give great advice and talk people out of a lot of shit, i cant seem to take my own advice. I’m trying to stop only caring about other peoples feelings to much. But who knew it was so hard to stop guilt from eating you away…
The past 2 years have been hell for me, I cut myself, purged, and binged. The more I did it, the more I realized what I did to myself only made my problems worse. I hit rock bottom when I tried to kill myself… but a song saved me. I realized how stupid I was being and went back to writing music– something I’ve done as long as I can remember. As of today, I have dozens of songs written down and I have 12 about those 2 years that I’m actually going to record and put on an album someday. It really does get […]
I feel like im in this all by myself.no one cares about me im like so close to take these pills that i have hiden in my purse i cant do this i just need to get out of here i just feel like dieing i cant stop crying i dont want to hurt my mom but then again im hurting myself just staying here what should i do i just feel so lodt and alone in this world
Today’s my birthday. It doesn’t even feel like anything special…my own dad forgot, and as selfish as it sounds, nobody got me anything. I always hated having my birthday so close to christmas, and new years, but this year really sucked. My boyfriends mom has been sick, so he’s been forced into staying at home, and he’s sick too. All in all today SUCKED and doesn’t make my already depressed and slightly suicidal mindset attack my brain any less. All I really wanted was to spend time with the people I’m closest too, and I can’t even get that. 🙁
All the fake bs on […]
I am wondering, there really is nothing after you die right? It is not as if you will see your relatives that have died ?
Hello, I am 15 years old and I have tried to kill myself 17 times already.
My Dads a murderer, I don’t get my mum anymore, I’m scared, she’s so empty, so angry. You see my mum suffers from borderline personality disorder, I’ve been brought up around so I should be use to it by now surely? But I’m not, I’m petrified, my Mums also physically ill however won’t go to the doctors. I’m afraid she might have cancer.  It’s like she’s in denial, like she refuses to acknowledge her ill health. It’s hard, I’m lonely, I have my friends, but thats not my mum. Its always been me […]
7pm on Jan 2, 2012.
I’m alone, in my room – lights off. Just me, and the music I’m listening to. This is the first time I’ve felt.. alone in a long time. I thought I had gotten use to the feeling. But no, apparently not. My Grandpa is in his room – right across the hall.. yet it feels like miles between us. I’m scared. Of my mind; the thoughts swirling around in the chaos.
To be honest, my life isn’t horrid.
I’ve thought about killing myself multiple times. I cut – but nothing serious. I don’t know if I want to die.. or just […]
Hello,
I’m new here and just want to get some things off of my chest. I am so exhausted, I don’t know what to do anymore. All I think about is death. I know I am to weak to do it myself, but sometimes I wish it would happen in different ways. I have asked my husband for help and he acts like there is nothing wrong. Isn’t it bad to constantly think about death and how happy everyone else would be if I were gone? I know the only reason I am to scared to take action myself is because I have 3 children that […]
Greetings from William Tell!
As you ponder the fact that life has dealt you a shitty deck of cards- maybe you could take a little time to consider an IDEA.
Now as you chase the seemingly unobtainable, frustrated that the course of your life has become unsustainable.
Maybe it is time to look at a system that runs on possessions and material status- while built on a lie.
You were born with nothing and there are people who want a decent honest future and would like you to be part of it.
WE BELIEVE IN YOU, the colour of your skin, the amount of money you have, size shape […]
you know when you say you hate someone, and then everything they do seems to annoy the fuck out of you?….well thats where i am in my life right now. im at the point that i hate everything i say and do.
 i hate the way i speak, my voice seems too boyish to be a girl. was i meant to be a man?
 i hate the way i walk. was i born with a fucking stick up my ass?
 i hate the way my breasts make my shirts tight. i just wish i was flat chested like everyone else in my family!
 i hate the way i look. […]
Shouldnt they care you just cussed out your sister? Slammed your door shut and yelled ” fuck life”?? Put on depressing music and has refused to eat for two days now? Do they know i want to die? They should by now. Im sick of this shit. Im trying again. Its time for me to go. Hope life lets me go. Fuck life.