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Isnt fair!!!!

August 9th, 2010by peterjames

Trying to explain the things I carnt say

Getting it rite but in the wrong way

Trying to free the love we sheared

Spiralling out control going no where

Bleeding hearts going no where

Ripped out – left limp on the floor

Breathless feeling – endless pain

Dieing slowly – was it a game

Bright lights and angels every where

A sudden realisation this isn’t fair

I had a dream that was far away

Now im in heaven a place to stay

Love is a word that captures your soul

Should live with you till you get old

If it should break and darkness falls

The strong live – the weak ones fall

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Tools ‹ the suicide project — WordPress

August 9th, 2010by peterjames

Tools ‹ the suicide project — WordPress.
Heavenly Tear

Tears fall from my eyes,

As your tiny hands fall from mine.

A few days is all we had with you,

It seemed a full life time.

I dreamed how we’d played,

In the sun-snow and rain.

How you would grow into a man,

Making me proud everyday.

The dull sound of the alarm,

As doctors come rushing in.

Angels flying above you,

Heavenly children sing.

I see you leave your body,

And glance down at me.

There’s a sudden realisation,

No pain-your totally free.

Now my son in heaven,

Safe as safe can be.

Heavenly tears are falling,

From him-two-you-to me .

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IN MY MIND IVE NOWERE TO GO

August 9th, 2010by peterjames

Dear reader

my name is peter im from leeds in westyorkshire united kingdom im 44 yrs old and need help

i suffer with post traumatic childhood stress syndrome

explosive personallity dissorder

o.c.d

I wont write pages to explain what happened all i will say is from the agess of 10/16 i was sexually abused and have only now found the strenth to talk to the police about it.. ive tryed so many times to die thinking if i was dead the pain would stop but then i wake up in hospital and it starts all over again

ive never been able to keep a relationship going for to long and im …

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Here, just not sure for how long…

August 9th, 2010by G1974

Hey all,

Kind of struggling just now with feelings and am just not sure what to do. I have Complex PTSD and this week has brought new challenges since being diagnosed a few months ago. Not sure of next steps…

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there IS still Hope,..try to find it!

August 9th, 2010by niki

I am a Christian who has turned into an agnostic (and up to this day, I still honestly can’t find a single valid, reasonable reason to go back into ‘pure’ Christianity again,..though I’m always remain open-minded),
and from my own observations & experiences, & also seeing others, I can tell you this:

God, whatever It is, usually means HOPE.
People need hope, to keep living in this world. otherwise, he’ll find many & any kind of reason to end his/her life (because he/she feels NO hope anymore).
It’s that simple.

Now although I’m very much still questioning whether God is a “He (Him)” (and why does it have to be …

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for those who wants 2012 (or end of world) to quickly come

August 9th, 2010by niki

I have to tell you that I feel you all who wants 2012 to really come true (no matter how much “B.S” you might think about this. we’re talking about FEELING here, not THINKING scientifically or whatever!).

Seriously, when I’m just fucking tired with what’s happening in this so-called “real world” and all its ‘ugly’ hypocrisy, backstabbing, cheats, tricks, lies & more lies, pain, and how ‘hopeless’ humanity in general might seem,..it becomes VERY easy for me to hope, even PRAY for 2012 to really come,
for the comet or meteor to come and wipes like 3/4th of the Earth or whatever, to make these goddamn ‘dirty’ …

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Is anyone else suicidal as well as happy?

August 8th, 2010by vantaylor2010

Unlike most posts on here, I have no real problems that I can talk of. My life is pretty good actually and I see good and beauty everywhere, but I do also see the bad. I laugh a lot, pretty much everyday I can see the funny side to most things. I am also deeply compassionate and can cry at a sad advert! 

But I have been suicical for most of my life. I have tried it a couple of times but made mistakes. I have studied a certain method well and have ensured that on my final attempt that I will succeed. 

I read the posts …

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How I’m feeling

August 8th, 2010by cloud34156

You know I’m kind of wondering why four months have gone by since I broke up with my ex and yet I still feel like this…but I think I worked it out tonight…I didn’t just lose my gf I lost my best friend…I mean sure I have other people I call friends but I’m just not close to any of them…can’t talk to them or confide in them for so many reasons…and being in uni I have years to go before moving out and having my own independence or the chance of a new life becomes any sort of a reality…

Basically I just needed to …

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Me and you

August 8th, 2010by egg

I dont know why I stayed
Stayed your friend
I needed something/someone
You loved me and I loved you
But my love is diffrent
You found someone else
I hated you
I cut myself
You left her
8 years on the same has happened
I still love you
But you love her
You will still be my friend no matter what you say
But I cat have you if you have her
If you have her I have to go
This pain is killing me
You say you are my friend why do you not txt me?
Cos you are not really my friend

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August 8th, 2010by Phil the Sadman

Hi. My name is Philip Yarbrough, age 19. I suppose I should share some things with you all. I live in a very rural community, full of people that are unkind, cruel, and spiteful. I moved here when I was 15. Ever since I’ve moved here I have been treated like an outsider. I was beaten repeatedly in highschool for just being the new kid. I guess, wouldn’t been so bad if the wanted my money or something besides giving me pain. I did fight back once, threating to kill them and I was nearly arrested. Something that should have happened to those kids, but …

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PLEASE READ

August 8th, 2010by panda_pop101

 

TO ALL THOSE WHO ARE THINKING OF SUICIDE I DO NOT KNOW YOU BUT THERE ARE PEPOLE WHO DO AND YOU MATTER TO THEM YOU MATTER TO GOD YOU HAVE A PURPOSE FOR BEING HERE WE’VE ALL MADE MISTAKES IT JUST MEANS WERE HUMAN IT MAY HURT TO BE HUMAN BUT KILLING YOURSELF WONT DO ANYTHING TO HELP ANYONE ESPECILY NOT YOURSELF INSIDE EVRYONE IS A PERSON WHO IS SCARED AND CONFUSED  YOU HAVE TO HELP YOURSELF ONLY YOU KNOW WHATS GOING ON INSIDE. THERE ARE PEPOLE WHO CARE.

sincerely Nikki

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Need someone to love me

August 7th, 2010by sam254811

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They shoot horses don’t they?

August 7th, 2010by jonny333

I just watched this film for the first time. It’s about a dance contest that last over 1000 hours non stop and the suffering and lies that the contestants have to go through in order to entertain the viewers is a wonderful description of life. It’s a very clever film, old, but brilliant! Just listen to the lines in this film, if you have the same dark view on life like I do, believe me, you WILL pick up on these lines. 

Jane Fonda kills herself at the end of it, and that’s exactly what I would have done and that’s exactly what I am going …

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Keep believing

August 7th, 2010by Mello3

This isn’t a stupid message to try and stop being from commiting suicide. I merely wanted to write my story, hoping that someone may be helped by it.

Life started out fine. An older sister and then a younger sister and brother. Being in the middle never bothered me. I was a perfect child. Never kicked up a fuss, always tried to please everyone. I never got into arguments or fights with my siblings, and just did my best at school and helping around the house.

Things slowly turned sour when my elder sister was diagnosed with depression. My mum had had it growing up, and still …

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I feel so alone.

August 7th, 2010by HelloAaron

Today, I looked at the date and noticed it was already August 6th, closing in August 7th in California.

School’s going to start and all hell is going to be unleashed.

I already have some mis-formed soiled reputation for simply playing Pokemon where I tend to ramble about tournaments. It’s a hobby, and it’s not like I’m obsessed with it. People ask me how to build their Pokemon in their lame downloaded HG/SS then call me a nerd who’s obsessed with Pokemon because I don’t feel like helping them. In class, they’ll also make …

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enough

August 7th, 2010by andi8172

i think its time when i tried before i was drunk both times doing this sober gives me a chance of getting it right.iv been on so many sites trying to make friends but noone wants to know me and i dont blame them i think everybody hates me because i bring them down.im already dreading the thought of another xmas alone and new years eve praying someone will call and wish me happy new year but they never do so i just aswell not be around anymore i should have finished this off along time ago ive tried the samaritans all they do is …

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What should i do now? Please help

August 7th, 2010by amethyst97

I’ve tried cutting, i don’t see what people see in doing it. I doesn’t make me feel any better. In fact it makes me feel worst. And getting a hold of a gun isn’t very easy. My story isn’t as bad as some peoples but here it is anyway:

:I was born kinda poor but average i guess, well my mom and dad were never married and so they split while i was young, very young. Anyway, I’ve had to move with one parent or the other at least 1nce a year, so i cant settle very well i move away from friends and my parents …

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My story…plz dont judge me

August 6th, 2010by so_very_tired

Let me start from the beginning. I had a terrible childhood like many other people so I won’t go there. Then, I was kidnapped by pimps and prostitutes across the whole country which to be honest with yous I have no idea how  I got out of that one (another long drawn out story). A couple years after that I met my husband and had 2 children now 7 and 8. We bought a house and I just graduated college as an ultrasound tech. Ok, we have major financial problems and are losing the house because I still cant find a job and my husbands …

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hope

August 6th, 2010by reyna15

Here is my story… it is intended for those who feel lost and alone, hopefully providing that glimmer of light where it appears as though there is only darkness..
I was a perfect little girl. Really. Obedient to the core, I loved my parents with all of my heart and spent every day trying to please them. As their only daughter, I could see the dysfunctionality of their relationship and wanted to make it better, wanted to be the glue that held it together. Most of all, I didn’t want either of them to leave me. So I did everything a parent hopes …

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The Bridge

August 6th, 2010by bayareaguy

Last night I watched the documentary film The Bridge. I was riveted. Somehow I know I will one day be a part of the Golden Gate’s legacy. I see it every day driving to work and from my place of business at it’s foot on the Marin County side. In just a few short years I will not be able to support myself or afford the meds needed for my heart. So, I ask myself, what am I waiting for? Why delay the inevitible? I will only be a burden on my family.

I felt such a kinship, a …

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