Tears streaming down my fave my hands shake as i pick up the cigaret from the ashtray.i have all these differentt thoughts running threw my mind do i deserve to die or is that just the devil inside.i gt up tears coming harder because i know what im about to do.i race toy room, nothing can stop me from what iam about to do.i look for my pills there they are right on the dresser as they were before.i open them up and count them out loud,theres only fifty but im about to swallow them down,im done i did it now i have […]
Not everyone can do this but i do admire him …. a lot! The fact his father didn”t pay attention to his own kids need & help, and that is not great parenting. I do like his older sister. And the kid makes A LOT of sense ie he is picked on because he doesnt resist.
Bullies ‘think’ they are tough but are they? They pick on people weaker or those that dont resist? Strong people face strong people not weak people?
Well done Casey … i “like” underdogs …
http://www.thebridgemaker.com/how-to-stop-a-bully/ ~ other helpful links ….
I was so happy that my helium arrived this morning. I had the house to myself and my bag was prepared (although it’s a bit tight). Unfortunately my helium cannister has a crappy valve where it has to be pressed down to release helium 🙁
So I’m still here…. FUCK LIFE ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH
the second I come home from school it’s like my parents hold in and save all their yelling energy to take it out on me right when I get home. they wonder why I’m afraid to come home and I hate being home. they don’t realize what the do to me actually hurts and effects me. they think oh I can handle it I’ll be fine. yeah right. I’ve been dealing with it for so long and I’m sick of it. just shut the fuck up and go on with your lives and stay out of mine. cuz they just keep making it worse and […]
Okay so most of you guys see me posting storys of how i hate living but not really knowing why.well here you go starting when i was in kindegarden i got picked on in school but from there all the way up to 6it was only about my hair and clothes i was also sexualy abised by 3of my cousins and there dad.then when i got to middle school i got made fun of because everything my weight my hair clothes where i live how i looked etc.since 8th grade ive tried to kill myself over 50 times ive been in and out […]
There’s this funny little contraption in my chest.
Right here, on the right side of my body below my neck. I can feel it pumping blood through me, beating life into my veins, but that’s all I need to FEEL.
It’s called a heart.
I’ve never understood how this thing works. It’s just a part in my body, it doesn’t have a mind of it’s own, it’s not its own seperate entity, and yet It makes me feel emotions that I shouldn’t have to ever feel.
WHY???
Take love for instance. When your in love with someone your heart knows it. It swells with this creation of a thing I like to […]
I saw people posting their suicide stories, so I decided to post mine. I’m an only child, come from a broken family, and started a relationship at only 11 years old with my cousin. I haven’t cut yet because it would be too obvious – my skin doesn’t heal for years. My dad was never around during my life (I’m thirteen now), and when he was he would abuse me and my mom. I would try to fight him or tell my mom to report him, but I think she hopes that he will change. When I try to fight him, he points a gun […]
I’m suicidal again, four years I’ve been depressed as far as I can remember. Had low self esteem for longer and I kept hearing and reading things WILL get better. I understand everyone is different, but I can’t go on hoping I will find happiness. I don’t want to wait another year, so unless I think otherwise or something along the lines of my not suiciding because I never take chances (by the way, I never take chances). I will probably ***** out, because I am afraid of taking my own life.
I was watching No Strings Attached and decided to stop watching near the […]
I feel like the only reason i’m still here is because i’m so worried about everybody else’s feelings. No one gives a sh*t about my feelings, but here I am, trying to stay alive for these assh*les. I’m just sooo tired of having to pretend that i’m okay, for their benefit. I can’t wait to be FREE!
everynight… I have to go to sleep with this image in my head tht makes me wish I was never born… Nd sometimes I wonder, was I born to be torcherd ? Does god hate me, or is there a god??? Because if there is… He ain’t helping me… Nd I have faith, nd I pray… I just don’t get it..
it’s just hard to tell other ppl about my situation
Cuz they may not believe me or understand what I’m goin through…
So it would just be a waste of my time to tlk to someone
Tht really doesn’t care..
i just gotta let all of this off my chest, it hurts so much. it’s been 40 days since i last cut, since my father said that the next time i cut, he would do something about it, he would put me in a facility that would help me, unlike my mother. i know, not cutting is a good thing, but you have no clue how much it helps. everyone has drama, at home, at school, whatever, but i just got to tell someone, even if no one reads this sh*! and i gotta tell u, it’s long, but if you could help me, i […]
I cant keep going threw this life pretending lke its not killing me just to be here, i cry everytime i get some alone time because it hurts me so bad to know that im hurting, this place is like hell you.know they say misery loves company andim the first on its guest list,evrything i so i feel like i failed at i cant do anything right.i juust want to be dead
Does anyone want to join me in my journey? I’m afraid of not doing it right. I’m in Florida.
not to long ago i was asked if i could take a pill that would end my life painlessly would i do it…. i was on the phone with my girlfriend… i said no…. im not so sure now.
Why do I still try? Everything I do is wrong, nothing is right! I hate my life, everyday I think god why am I still here! I would rather give my life to someone who deserves it, not me! I try following what my heart wants, I try thinking happy thoughts! That doesnt work :/ Why should I keep trying, no one cares about me! I think to my self, why was I ever born, why must I live the life I live! where I am depressed! Only one person makes me feel like I am special! He loves me and I love him! Sometimes […]
I feel as though i just drift threw life no feelings no nothing.I dont even thimk im me anymore.i dont feel as though im here i feel like like nothing is real.theres no point in being here if i cant feel anything anymore.gosh i just want to say f it and kill myself.thres nothing to live for anyway
I cant put into words how much i hate living.life really suck.nobody likes me,me friends dont get me and i feel so alone in this world i always wake.and wonder whats the point in life.I ask everyday why do god wake me why must i suffer eberyday.i blame myself for this deep depression if i had just ended my life the first time i wouldnt feel this way.its hard living this life
sometimes I wish I wasn’t here.. I wonder why I was even born or why I haven’t bothered to die yet.. why have I stayed even though sometimes in life I’m so close to being gone? everyone says you look so tough and that you have no issues your life is perfect. you get everything you want. well no. my life isn’t perfect. I strive to be perfect I strive to be what everyone wants me to be and I fail. deep inside I’m weak. I’m not strong. I wanna run up to people and curse them out for all the mean and hurtful things […]
Me, when are you going to realize, no-one is coming to save you. I want to love you so badly; and when I try to you say you don’t deserve it. Why won’t you let me love you? I want to so badly, you need it. Accept it, don’t turn away-please. I think I can love you, just let me in. It’s okay. I know you stay for them. You love them.