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Jealousy

  October 26th, 2010 by Maria94

I can’t help it. So much pressure. It feels too much. I hear on the internet of people who commit suicide, leaving their family and friends behind., and I cant help but feel jealous. They took the chance they had, they had the guts to do it. And I wish I were them. To be the one laying in the coffin, buried under the ground. To have taken too many pills or drained all the blood from my body.

Throughout the day, I find different ways of how to kill myself, accidents or self-lead, and all bring a smile to my face. but I just cant …

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Nothing Else Matters…

  October 26th, 2010 by dieformetal665

Hi, my name is Zak and I don’t want to live anymore. I don’t fit in. Nobody respects me. I don’t have any particular talents. I used to think I could sing, but quickly realised that I couldn’t after being “booed” off the stage at a school talent show. Music is my one and only escape, but nobody likes my music (Metal) thinking that it’s “just noise”. Sometimes I come home and cut myself. I constantly lie to my girlfriend so that she doesn’t get worried about me. She knows I’m suicidal. I just think the world would be a lot better if I was …

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Really?

  October 26th, 2010 by aremel

Really? That’s about all I ever hear from the one who should know better. All I can say is yes.

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Enough is enough

  October 26th, 2010 by lostbutnotfound

People wonder why I feel suicidal, why I want to kill myself. There isn’t much I can reply except that enough is enough.
I posted on this site a few weeks back, then attempted suicide, before being caught in the act and rushed to hospital. Something else that I failed at.
The thing is, even though I’m an adult now, I’m still haunted by the things that happened to me as a child. Haunted by how the things that happened to me made me into the person I am today.
I didn’t have the best childhood, and from a very young age was abused in almost every …

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It all ends here.

  October 26th, 2010 by the_world_is_over

This is all so ridiculous. I have registered. I append my suicide post. I make a bid for death. And lo, some do-gooder with a human instinct for life saving pops up to talk me out of it. And if anyone thinks that you are serious, then an authority MAY, PERHAPS trace my email address and have me sectioned. Dear God it makes me want to spit fire. Let me alone, and I will not cause you, any of you an iota of trouble. Why I am posting here? Because I want to tell you all how sick of the Human Race I am. My …

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I hope…

  October 26th, 2010 by almostthere

So today is day 1, I think…  I told my boyfriend yesterday that I need help, because I want to die.  I don’t know, he was busy or something, and told me no you don’t, lets go to the cinema, the kids are waiting (his kids not mine by the way).  So after that, the day got worse.  I went to visit my parents, and was feeling better, until my partner came to pick me up, he told me he likes visiting my parents as my mom knows how to “deal with me”

By the time I got home last night I was ready, I wanted …

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flying

  October 26th, 2010 by lost_soul

whenever I’m in the car driving to location x, I always think about what would happen if I got into a car accident. Would I finally be relieved of this weight that is my body, or would I survive and have to deal with even more shit in my life? I get so tempted to just drive off of the bridge and plunge to my death, my freedom, but I never do. Mainly because the car is brand new and we haven’t paid it off yet. Why let all that money spent go to waste? But whenever I see cliffs I always think about jumping …

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Humanity, Reality, and Hope

  October 26th, 2010 by niki

“In a world of inhumane reality, it is the only humane sanctuary left. That is dream” ~ Paprika (a 2006 sci-fi anime)

Reality is fucking harsh.
We, as pure normal human beings, would certainly want to get better in Life, and always seem to have HOPE (without Hope, we might as well not live, ‘cuz we would just be simply *existing*, a madness soulless shell indeed!).

But ‘unfortunately’ (though this word itself is arguable), REALITY just simply IS. It’s harsh, ‘cold’, in the context that it simply doesn’t *care* much of whether we will cry, or wail, or scream our voices to the sky,..Reality will simply be just …

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The Best Suicide Method

  October 26th, 2010 by Caleb87

We all know that overdosing on today’s medicines doesn’t work and cutting your wrists isn’t likely to kill you.
You could jump off a bridge or shoot yourself but that doesn’t sound pleasant does it?

Euthanasia is what we are all looking for to releive pain and suffering not induce more of it before we die.
Back in ancient Roman times people would usually use a concotion of herbs one to induce death and the other to null the pain before it.

So how do we go about finding that? Do i have the answer? I Have part of it.. but to come up with a …

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I just want to leave…

  October 26th, 2010 by DarkerKat

It’s terrable, and I know that… really I do, but I just don’t care any more I don’t want to be here. I hate this damn school. I’m 18 and I don’t even know myself anymore. I’m sleeping with a guy I can’t stand, lying to my best friend about it, while stringing two other guys along (one of which is my TA) all while the man I’m actually in love with is on the other side of the country with a new happy life… and I still don’t have to guts to tell him that I lost his child, the whole reason we broke …

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Tomarrow

  October 25th, 2010 by marisaa.murrder

I believe that everyone has their chance at hope, and when you’ve tried several times to hope and pray someone or something would be good in your life it falls, it gets crushed, or taken from you. its hard to believe that someone like me, a well brought up bubbly happy good grade getting girl who has all her family their if she wants it would have these thoughts, what you call suicidal thoughts for the past few hours i’ve been picturing ways to end this life i so live. And my story isnt because of parent abuse, loss of people to …

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wanna die

  October 25th, 2010 by gg

point blank things keep getting worse…and life aint worth livin….i wanna die cause im not worthy of love and im nothing but a burdin…and everythings my fault…im ugly stupid and its pointless to live…should i take pills? probly not

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RELATIONSHIPS…LONLEYNESS

  October 25th, 2010 by gg

everyday gets worse! im tired of ppl sayin have you taken your medicine and its gonna get better when it never does! i have thought about suicide for a long time and i have been through theoropy, support groups, and even medicine! everything that is offered but nothing helps! it all gets worse! they tell me im afraid of abandonment! maybe i am, i am a 22 yr old female, who was in a lesbian relationship! she told me she didnt want me anymore cause the controlling was too much to handle! all i asked from her was to love me and she only ignored …

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I Can’t Escape

  October 25th, 2010 by schatten84

this is gonna take awhile… I can’t escape my past, and yet I’m terrified of my future. I suffered through 16 years of a severely abusive childhood, ending in my father committing suicide in 2000; it left me with a paralyzing fear of abandonment, making it next to impossible for me to connect with anyone. I met the girl that I would marry in march of 2000, just 2 weeks before my father died; we just had our first child in February of this year – and here’s where the future comes into play. I’ve been subconsciously pushing away from my wife for the last …

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it not about me

  October 25th, 2010 by its not about me

in all reality when i try and think of the reason i am suicidal i can’t think of anything. im 19 years old, i still live with my parents, i dont have a job, and the love of my life is with someone else. to me none of this in context gives me any right to feel bad for myself or dare i say kill myself concidering the hardships majority of the people on here go though. i want to do it becasue i hurt her. i left her when she needed me and im never going to forgive myself for it. if it would take …

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No reason to go on, but…

  October 25th, 2010 by lostlife

My whole life has been a waste.  I have a lousy job, out of control debt, and a wife who doesn’t stop buying.  I have no future, no friends and no reason to live. I want my family to be better off and they will with me dead. But the only way that can happen is for me to die of natural causes or an accident so they can get my life insurance. I don’t want to live but can’t kill myself. I am in a loss-loss situation.

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Thoughts

  October 25th, 2010 by Anna

On occasion, my state of mind is regarded- commented upon- by persons that I know, and too my choices of literature and music find their way into the analysis of someone who is neither a doctor nor a psychologist, but merely somebody that I have known. I am told at these times that what I choose to read, watch, listen to ‘probably doesn’t help’ to lift my spirits or prevent me from contemplating what purpose I am serving by merely existing, or as to whether ending my life would grant me any more respite than the closeness of the dark does at the end of …

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stupid question

  October 25th, 2010 by unfixable

I originally came to this site in hopes someone may know a means of commiting suicide due to circumstances that aren’t related to personal depression over events such as my mate left me, I’m failing at school, etc. I’ve noticed the vast majority are teenagers. I was a teenager 50 years ago. My problem is a brain that has malfunctioned. Doctors can’t find a remedy. It’s gone on for years and now it’s become unbearable. I’ve tried everything, therapy, my psychiatrist has tried everything available.Tried naturopathic, acupuncture, exercise, etc The list goes on. EVERYTHING. I know people are paranoid that the police are monitiring this …

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drowning

  October 24th, 2010 by ashlelynn

I was always the girl who was told how much potential she had. I feel like over the past year I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’m 21 this should be the best times. not sitting at home wondering what the point in life is anymore the bad in my life is 2-1. it over powers any good iv had. I can’t even tell you the last time iv smiled. I’m so lost and hurt. iv told my family and friends but they brush it off like nothing. I know that physically I can’t do it anymore. I’m drained. I don’t see what’s …

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I want to die but am to chicken

  October 24th, 2010 by almost dead since 1968

I say the word chicken but not meaning it at all because I know nothing about chickens! but what I do know about is pain not just any pain but full blown long term pain with very micro rays of light here and there but to far apart to create some type of long term happiness! So many ppl can’t talk and they run from what is eating away at them until it’s far too late for help some ask right away for help but the help comes at a super high price which the person can’t afford! I understand pain to the highest level …

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