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Who am I ?

January 30th, 2010by annadawn

I’ve thought about death. I haven’t thought about killing myself yet but i’ve thought how it would be like after i die. I don’t want to kill myself but it feels like the only answer I’ve got. I’m not happy. I’ve tried smiling at everyone but it just seems like a waste of time. It does not make me happy. My grades have dropped . My friend s think I’m stupid. I’m useless. I love God but I don’t have the insurance’s that his there. What if my Gods not real. What if Jesus is not there? I feel terrible even thinking about these things. …

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PLEASE LET GOD HELP YOU

January 29th, 2010by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

“Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” – Jesus, Matthew 11:28

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life

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It’s too difficult.

January 29th, 2010by Selfish

This task is just too difficult to complete. I honestly see myself dying old and alone if I keep on living. I’m the youngest person in my immediate family. I Refuse to bare children and pass on my fucked up genes to some poor child that has no chance of being normal with me as a mother. Coming from a family that isn’t very close to begin with I would most definitely grow old and become one of those poor old people that society just throws away. I’m close to being there already at the age of 22. It’s just that my parents wont give …

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What now?

January 29th, 2010by littlegirllost

I am nothing, I have nothing to offer myself or anyone else. I am socially inept. I can’t imagine what would make me useful to myself, my family or society. I feel like a permanent outsider. I just want to be like everyone else. I have no idea how to do that. I just don’t know what to do. I feel paralyzed by the knowledge that everything I’ve done seems like the wrong thing. How do I do I hope that I might ever do the right thing?

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Just Drunk Enough To Say This…

January 29th, 2010by painterofmusic

When you tell people that you’re drunk, they tend to turn away. But I can’t keep doing this by myself… I’ve lost my friends, my son, everything. God, here comes the tears… I just can’t do it anymore. I’m drunk enough to post this, but sober enough to be honest. I need help, and I can’t do anything. I really think I’m drunk enough to kill myself. I can’t do it anymore. I can’t do it anymore. I can’t do it anymore. Please, someone help. I can’t do it.

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death

January 28th, 2010by stoopidgirl

I have been kicked out of school…there is no where to go, everyone think i’m the best…im the ideal person. How do i tell anyone what im going through? it so hard. i’m not perfect..im fat, im single, i don’t have anyone to call my own. I feel like dying is the only way out. does anyone agree with me? i feel like this is it… what do i do? I work so hard for everything. so hard and everything goes to waste…everthing…why?

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With apologies

January 28th, 2010by Janelamb

I am fifty years old. Ten years ago I was diagnosed with breast cancer. It hasn’t come back. My husband started an affair a year after the diagnosis, and legally separated from me three years after that. We have two children, 11 and 14. We split custody. My husband is an excellent father and financially secure, though I am not. To make money I substitute teach, and I’m looking for a job as a full time teacher.

There was a time, before the cancer and the divorce and the financial crisis, when I was a happy, lively, outgoing person. I look at the future, and see …

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Just me

January 28th, 2010by SleepingintheNothing

I don’t want to be anyone or anything. I don’t want anything out of life. The more I learn the more it seems that everything is just a thoughtless process. I don’t like coffee, or beer, or cigarettes, or art, or sports or social activities. I actually find these things so useless that they scare me. I try to research these things and find out why people do them. To try and not be scared. I research how to interact with people. I observe. People laughing, people hugging, people crying. And I try to imitate them. Try to be human. Try to find a …

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I cant take it

January 27th, 2010by BrokenSpirit

im tired, worn out, dont feel like going on. no one cares, they simply hide behind false smiles. i put on this facade everyday that im alright, but then i just sit and laugh as people go about their daily lives, seemingly care free. i was depressed, and sent to a rehab center, and there i was molested by a security guard, everyone thinks it only happens to girls, that B/S. i just want the nightmares to stop, for the pain to go away, and there is only one thing that can take it away. im just tired, i want this to be done. im …

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I Don’t Know Anymore.

January 27th, 2010by thisgirltanna

My life has been so hard.Mom’s boyfriend molested me.My father beat.My mother didn’t love me.Then I fell in love with a guy who beats me and tortures me.I want to be a good mother but I can’t because I don’t feel like a good person if I was a good person people would love me. I just want to give up now.

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Close

January 27th, 2010by colaboy888

I’ve been on the edge, I suffer from Depression, and several other types of sicknesses. I’m close to just igniteing the charcoal in a closed room. If one thing I’ve learned from life, and philosiphy, it’s that this life has no importance (heaven, or no heaven, life still has no meaning). If I’m to go to heaven when I die, then so be it! If I am to die, and nothing happens, then I’m glad I’ll never know. If I die, and get reborn, I hope I have a better life.
The only words I have of wisdome, and truth, are stated above.

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January 27th, 2010by wishicould

im fed up. i cant kill myself and ironically that makes me want to do it more. im fat and ugly and horrible and useless and this whole fucking world would be better off if i was fuckibng dead.

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please let me help you

January 26th, 2010by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

“Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” – Jesus, Matthew 11:28

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life

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Not “Life vs Death” anymore. Me vs Her.

January 26th, 2010by steveagain2

She’s evil.

I’ve never hated someone more than I’ve hated her, simply because of the fact that she is the most evil woman I’ve ever known.

Before I go out, I’m taking her lover. I won’t take her. That’s a cop out. She needs to understand exactly what it’s like losing love.

I’m not sad anymore. I’m angry. Depressed, yes, but more angry than I’ve ever been in my life. And it’s her fault.

And I’m going to make damn sure she pays for it.

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life never okay..

January 26th, 2010by Weirdscenekid123

I’ve been there.
A place no one wants to go.
Not ever.
Being touched in bed at night, to being beaten unconscious.
Life never gets better for me.
I now lay awake at night scared of him coming in.
Scared to close my eyes and I’d open them and he’d be there.
That pain never goes away in my mind.
I have scars from all of the pain he caused me.
Cutting is my main coping resource, suicide running through my mind everynight.
The want to just end it all makes my brain freeze in time.
One day it will be over, and I’ll be gone. maybe soon.
Its all i hope …

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These Darkened Streets.

January 26th, 2010by GetLive810

I walk these darkened streets.
Full of death and deceit.
Every smile holds a bold faced lie.
Nothing is real.
This facade will surely be over soon.

I walk with an emptiness inside me.
A pain too great but I have to let it be.
Someone has to save me from myself.
But there’s no hero in this town.

This pain is all to real.
Sometimes it’s too hard to deal.
Everyday just passes by.
I just want to forget my name and say goodbye.

I open my eyes and look around.
Nobody is there.
So, alone and so scared.
I try to run but all I do is fall.
I yell but nobody hears my call.

Why did I deserve this pain?
All …

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Lost auto job feelings of worthlessness now

January 26th, 2010by Jason80

Hey Everyone,

I just lost my job in the automotive industry.  I have seen this coming for a good 5 or 6 years now but have not done much about it.  Some people I work with have become aware of a co-worker who recently offed himself by jumping off the roof of a casino when he lost his life savings after also losing his job in the auto sector.  It is so depressing because we don’t make anything much anymore in America.  I ran into this website, http://thecomingdepression.net, and it really opened my eyes.  It looks like a lot of other people are experiencing …

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my boyfriends mum …

January 25th, 2010by kayleel2008

My partners mum drove to a field in the middle of nowhere, covered herself and her car in petrol and set light. She did not live. This happened around 4 months ago and my partner was doing ok and i think things have now started to sink in. He is (understandably) a complete mess. He doesnt drink now he is out every night, he goes missing for a few days now and then and i dont know what to do for him. I thought maybe if i could find someone who has been through the same tragic ordeal they could talk?? does anyone have any …

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Just why?

January 25th, 2010by electriclollie

Okay so at first look one would obviously think I’ve got it going good. I’ve got a beautiful son a husband and lots of friends. I’m still maintaining a job even through out this terrible recession or whatever you want to call it. There are just some things I can’t seem to get passed. And now my husband has found that his father for all intensive purposes has cancer that would normally kill a person 3 years after diagnose and he has been laid off so I can’t talk to him as he is already depressed.  Hopefully this will help.

I’ve always been the upbeat never give up kinda girl …

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Everyone has their own reasons

January 25th, 2010by Ethan

I am a 21 year old male college student. At age 16 I was very depressed and thought suicide was a way out. After some counseling and some time, I was “better.” Then I went to college and met the woman of my dreams. Quite literally, I had this image of the perfect woman and she fit perfectly. It took a lot of effort but I eventually ended up dating her. This was the happiest I had ever been in my entire life. Don’t think me so naive, I have dated women before, but this time it felt RIGHT.

She met me when I had no …

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