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Suicidal

  October 24th, 2010 by ElizabethMarie

I’m young, but I’m not going to tell you just how young beause I’m ashamed of the thoughts I have been having. Ever since my father hit me I’ve had suicidal thoughts. I’ve even tried O.D with tylenol. Stupid right?
But I could’nt help it. I feel like no one knows I exist. I feel like I’m worthless and like I don’t have a place in this world. I never really fit in with anyone, I can’t say I’m an outsider but inside I feel like I am because no one knows the real me. They only know the side I let them see. No ones …

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Find a Way

  October 24th, 2010 by loreildarksky

I’ve been suicidal and depressed for years. But now I think I may have a way to start healing.

My mom just brought home a kitten, and we’re going to try and save it. It’s so tiny… I want to help it, to grow.

I think having this little kitten may be the thing I need, because it’s a purpose. I never had one before.

If you’re suicidal, maybe you should consider getting a pet and raising it. At least try it once.

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geez

  October 24th, 2010 by NothingToYou

why is the world the way it is? it makes you wonder how we really got here. I feel like im the only person with problems, in reality im not. my mind is my enemy, my worst enemy. everyday is a fucking struggle.im trapped inside my body, ive cut myslef off from my friends…family next. i hate this world, makes me wonder whats on the other side…but thats only when I actually give a shit about dying.

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Letter from a Reject.

  October 24th, 2010 by silver

Dear Sir, do you see how tough I am?
I swallowed all these pills and was barely fazed.
Took a match to my skin and told myself it didn’t hurt.
I stopped being me, so I was wondering:
Do you love me yet?

Hello there, do you see how strong I am?
I’m strong like you now;
I learned to block out the cold.
I like to feel the freezing air on my bare arms.
I had no food today or yesterday or the day before,
Because I can be strong without it.
Are you proud?

Dear Sir, I always admired you.
I’m just like you now;
I’ve learned not to let anyone see me.
Not even you.
I was a …

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hate myself

  October 24th, 2010 by jason108

im 14, im adopted, ive tried to kill myself twice and i cut myself, i wake up everyday with a fake smile and ive thought alot of suicide b/c i just cant take everything anymore. my friend killed herself and so have a few others and i saw one of my friends die. My friends try and understand but they dont. ive also had a hard time beliving that god loves me. i guesse whatim trying to say is i trully hate myself

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Ill listen

  October 24th, 2010 by CankerSoar

Hey, I’m a 15 year old boy and I used to think about suicide all the time. School was fine, but it was just my home life. My mother and father didn’t give a shit about anything I do. My sister was always the one they loved. The more things i did wrong the more i got scolded. It just hurts when they scold me . But what I’m here to tell you is that, if you need a friend or helping out with a problem, I’ll just let you know that i’m here for you. Every life is worth alot and i know it …

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and so the world keeps spinning

  October 24th, 2010 by hattie

for a long time now, ive found that everyday of my life is just something else to ‘get through’ i make little goals for my self and slowly but surely i get through my days, weeks, months. i think, “today, i have this and this and this, then i can sleep, and i have to wake up and do this and this and this… then it wil only be 3 days till the weekend, where i can hide away in my room, and be shit at life.”

i have mile stones, like holidays, or a long weekend, that i have even bigger count downs to… but …

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still around….sadly…

  October 24th, 2010 by courtneyxoxox

i posted awhile back, not much has changed.
i’m seriously considering calling the suicide hotline tonight, can’t decide tho, i’m nervous /;

i can sum up my problems in a nut shell: self injury, EXTREME anxiety, paranoia, haunted past, things i cant get over, depression that always lingers, and suicidal thoughts and tendancies.
just wanted to say i’m still alive…and i made it to my 17th bday, which was 3 days after my original post on Aug 24.

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A semi-poetic train of thought.

  October 23rd, 2010 by Mad Vulcan

Let’s take a walk among the stars
We haven’t wings with witch to fly
We take a tour of the cosmos’ scars
Our dreams of grandeur, with us, die

The destination is not clear
I pity those who will never know
I think of them, and shed a tear
The spread of truth; forever slow

What is it, that lies in the void?
Some say there is only death
All things finally will be destroyed
Succumb to the universe’ lifeless breath

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The First Step Anyone Should Take in Committing Suicide

  October 23rd, 2010 by mist

This is only for people who are really seriously considering suicide. I’m serious about suicide, and I believe in it as a person’s right. If I was going to finally off myself I would make sure I had a fail-proof method (I have it). But for now, though I’m utterly alone in the world; not a success; been terribly depressed for 2 years, which keeps me unmotivated to do any but the most absolutely essential tasks; in pretty constant emotional pain; suffer from excruciating terrors that ruin my most intimate relationships; and often feel that life is beyond my endurance–I’m still not ready. But I …

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Wondering

  October 23rd, 2010 by Kina

For the past 5 years of my life i have been suicidal and a self-harmer. It seems that my family and friends have all given up on me. I know they are just waiting for that day that they will have to go to my funeral. So why should i not just give them what they want? Recently i have stopped eating and have had horrible stomach and nausea problems, its not that i dont want to eat its just that my body doesnt want it. I havent been depressed for a while but i know where this is all leading. No one wants to …

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for those of you who are struggling with your current damn society or country or government

  October 23rd, 2010 by niki

I know it’s probably easier said than done,
but lately, after seeing similar threads all seem to pointing especially towards the fucking corrupt unright inhumane things U.S government and “the feds” etc seem to do to some of you here that literally  make u almost gone insane and losing ur humanity quality, I feel like want to say: screw U.S.
ur life doesn’t have to be fixated in that one damn country that seems to extort innocent good people nowadays. I say fuck it, if it’s really being that greedy wolves predating and sucking out every bit of ur money. You deserve better.

I say, gather some bits …

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Life Just Suddenly Got Worse

  October 23rd, 2010 by rachel96

Honestly, I’m scared to die. I’m scared to live.

Everyday I try to kill the thing inside me. I’ve felt like I’ve died on the inside and I’m in autopilot. My grades suck because I’ve stopped trying. My parents think that I’m making bad grades because it’s a teenage thing. Open your eyes, I’m extremely suicidal. I have to paint a smile on my face everyday for everyone, it stops all the questions. I’ve never had a real friend before, one that actually cared. I just want someone to talk to about all this.

Skype: rachel_andress

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Just tired

  October 23rd, 2010 by jmagic0802

I’m 61 years old, never married, no kids, closest family members have passed away. I had a very good career, owned my own home, etc. Over recent years have lost about everything, Can’t find a job. No one wants to hire me because I’m too close to retirement age, insurance would probably be pretty expensive, and with my experience, it’s cheaper to hire someone else fresh out of college. I owe some big taxes from better times and the feds are coming after me for that. I can’t pay. I can barely pay my rent and bills on a part-time, no-benefits job. The feds say …

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Trooper

  October 23rd, 2010 by AlabasterAngel

This was Trooper. You can read a little about him in the last post I wrote. Don’t be fooled by the white face, he was actually fairly young. I hope he’s in a better place.

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ME :P

  October 23rd, 2010 by marine105

I dunno, for anyone who wants to know me a little better, here’s some pictures of me.


or

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in limbo

  October 23rd, 2010 by lost_soul

I feel like I’m not really living this life; like I’m just the puppet and someone else is controlling my body. I want to die because that would be the only thing I would have a control over in this life. But I don’t know what will become of the people I leave behind.

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How to Overdose: via Online Purchase

  October 22nd, 2010 by Caleb87

Can anyone tell me what i can order online that will be sure to kill me? maybe a sort of plant? Wolfbane maybe? I’m looking for something Lethal and maybe something to ease the pain.

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Suicide and Its Effects Upon Life Insurance

  October 22nd, 2010 by jasminehutchinson

Making sure that family and other dependents are financially protected is the overwhelming reason that people take out a life insurance policy. In the event of the policy-holder’s death, a monetary payment helps to ensure stability.

In such contracts, the death of the policy-holder is supposed to occur through either natural reasons or through an accident. Someone taking their own life would not normally be considered as falling into these categories. This, of course, is scant comfort to the beneficiaries of a policy. They are going to be left every bit as financially vulnerable in the event of a suicide as for any other reason.

Although insurance …

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Lifeline

  October 22nd, 2010 by AlabasterAngel

Hello, I don’t really know if I should reveal my real name on this thing or not… You can just call me AlabasterAngel. After all, that is my username. Haha……. I shouldn’t make jokes. Most people who are on this site are probably not in the mood for a laugh. Unless you are. Then I thank you for the laugh.
…. I’ll get to the point.
Let me just start with my parents. My father is a great guy and spoils me whenever he can. My mother on the other hand is extremely abusive and forgets to tend to me unless there’s something in it for her.
I …

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