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please help!

August 3rd, 2010by Christina

oh wow not only does nobody help you in the world, i go onto online help chat people and nor do they help either, now i feel like this website nobody understands or cares either, im 2o years old and i’ve been depressed, suicidal, and hurt for 8 years now and i keep saying this but i mean it everytime, i cant take anymore i really cant but i feel that there is literally nobody that can help me so i honestly dont know what to do i want to kill myself but am still trying to figure out a good way to do it, …

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i feel low

August 3rd, 2010by nickynicky

I had so many friends at school, I was sporty and one of the best rugby players. family life was happy, i was content and I was strong. I was always caring, at times on my own even as 7 year old I remember crying for Africa and the hungry, I cried that one day my grandmother would die,I cried that one day my parents had to go, i cried for all the suffering people endure over the world. grans dead now, she died as my brother lay on his hospital bed, close to death. I always had this depth inside of me. When I …

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Ugh

August 3rd, 2010by HopelessLittleGirl

I want to strangle her. That’s how angry she makes me. Slowly suffocate her and unable the air to reach her lungs.I know I should think killing your own sister is wrong, but right now (and many, many times before) nothing made more sense.

That manipulative, fight causing, egocentric whore.

Once again today she had been taunting me nonstop. Not speaking a word to me unless it is to offense me or accuse me of things I didnt do.

Things she did.

Slut.

I refuse to cry. Even though I feel those annoying pricks that state presence of an upcoming waterfall. Crying is he sign of weakness. And besides that …

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I don’t know what to do…

August 3rd, 2010by love13

If  you ARE READING THIS THANK YOU. MY CAPS LOCK IS STUCK AND I AM WRITING THIS ON MY IPOD IF YOU WERE WONDERING. IM 13 AS WELL. I HAVE BEEN MOVED ACROSS THE COUNRTY AWAY FROM EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING I LOVE. I WAS SENSITIVE IN THE FIRST PLACE AND ALREADY GOIN THROUGH THINGS THIS LED ME TO DEPRESSION, SUICIDAL DEPRESSION. I HAVE A LOT MORE GOING ON THEN I CAN SAY, ONE THING IS I HAVE A VERY BAD CASE OF EPILEPSY AND TODAY I COULDN’T MOVE. THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO KNOW ABOUT MY SUICIDAL THOUGHTS ARE MY BROTHER AND MY TWO BEST FRIENDS …

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Help…

August 3rd, 2010by love13

If you have read my other one you will get this. And please comment to both you could really help. I am 13 years old an dI am seriously considering suicide and I am cutting myself, not my wrist but my arms. My brothe is the only one who knows in my family so I talk to him.  My thoughts are getting way worse and more serious. Thus I need someone to help me, mymom goes into denial everytime I try to tell her im depressed and calls my a drama queen but she has no idea how much pain im in and she has …

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The guts to do it.

August 3rd, 2010by LastTry

I won’t be melodramatic, or over dramatic. I’ll be truthful and to the point.

It really doesn’t motivate anyone to read “I’ve always wanted to die.” because I’m sure we thought of living a little longer every time, and that’s why we’re able to read this or write this.

I’m trying to stay strong through the things I’ve been through, looking up and looking for goals and keeping busy. In the end though, I find myself just lying about everything. Finding reasons that don’t exist reasons that are too petty, but then I guess saying that would show my jaded side or ugliness of my personality. Perhaps …

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All day…

August 3rd, 2010by jennyafrank

If someone comes to you and says to you that you’ve hurt them, no matter how small or insignificant it may seem to you, it is for whatever reason something that affected this person in such a way that they had to tell you.

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Too Much Too Young

August 3rd, 2010by Koojiru

So, for the 50billionth time in my 18 years I have a plan to kill myself, again.

You think that after having religious revolations, and beliving in Karma and re-encarnation I would have given up on suicide attepmts. No, it seems my inner deamons havent had enough of my heart and keep chewing.

Let me paint you a picture here, on a giant 5’3 canvis. Picture a woman sitting, wondering how shes going to “fix” this canvis before it grows to what it really is today. She holds her pain brush up to it, then dips it in mold green, vomit yellow and black. That woman was …

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if only.

August 3rd, 2010by amityxoath

If only she knew I havent commited suicide yet was because I get to wake up every morning next to her.

If only she knew what this meant to me.

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my love

August 3rd, 2010by amityxoath

i want the fear that my girlfriend has in her eyes when i talk about suicide. But she left me today. She hasnt been happy for a while. Now i want to get back at her, by making her go to my funeral. I have no friends or family.

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A is for Always

August 3rd, 2010by Violet Blake

FOREVER.

Strong word, isn’t it?

When I was little I thought it meant that you could never stop loving someone, no matter how hard you tried because nothing could ever tear you apart.

Turns out thinking like a little kid means your unaware of reality.

“I’m never going to leave you Vi, friends forever”.

That’s what Alyson said to me the day before I went over to her house. I told her I had made her a friendship bracelet at camp, one of those stringed ones with the beads on them. It had one letter in the middle, one little letter.

an A.

“Hello?” the door to Alyson’s house was cracked open, the lights …

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Death Is Among Us

August 2nd, 2010by harry188

I am 15, and i know you’ll probably think this is some teenage tiff but just cause I’m 15 doesn’t mean that the feelings aren’t real.
My mum and dad were never together but my mum did marry a man who decided to adopt me and became like my second dad but in 2006 they got divorced and my 2nd dad met another woman and had a child, and well basically when I’m at my mum’s and when I’m at my dad’s I’m just a ghost in the background, I’ve went through my life without a real father figure, to be honest all I’ve learned from …

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August 2nd, 2010by annie208

I just saw something really horrible, by mistake. I was searching for a horror movie that I couldn’t remember the full name of, so I Googled what I thought it was and after searching further I came across a link that I assumed was a horror movie – it turned out to be real footage of an horrific crime that happened in the Ukraine. It was 3 boys that went around smashing people to death with hammers and they recorded their crimes, some of it got leaked onto the net and I just came across one of them.  Before I watched the video there was …

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Is earth hell?

August 2nd, 2010by wedgewood

Let’s leave aside the arguments about the existence of Heaven and Hell, God and Satan for a minute. I’m not religious, but a religious person could as easily make this cultural observation. Virtually every religion with a belief in reward and punishment zones in the afterlife places Heaven far above Earth, and Hell deep within it. That says that the quintessential human idea of suffering is to stay near this world, and the quintessential idea of reward is escape from it. Is this cultures across the globe and across time way of saying that this world sucks and we should want to leave it? Is …

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Cyber-ed.

August 2nd, 2010by meganflips1024

So. Sometime of February of 2010, I was playing Runescape, to bring back old memories. I got a message from a guy I knew, named Jake. He is 16 and lives in Michigan. I was simply excited that he remembered me after a year of leaving Runescape and he simply made me happy that day. We started talking a lot. I gave him my phone number, which was a stupid mistake I made. For a couple of weeks we talked over Runescape, until he got his phone back, because as of the time his phone was broken.

Sometime towards the end of February to the beginning …

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Endding

August 2nd, 2010by Li

I feel stupid, I feel retarded even…I can’t forget anything even now since I’m living with my mom now…She treats me very nicely but I still hold this anger…this grudge..I don’t know I feel like a nut something wrong. Even the things I do I don’t understand.

I hate my mom…for some reason, I hate her. I don’t even know why…She was always nice to me…But I hate them both..my mother and father. My father he’s a horrible person..he lied to me as well..He got re-married and was cheating on my mom..At least that’s as far as I know. He didn’t even tell me or my …

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HerE, Laugh if you Please, but i’M in neEd!!!

August 2nd, 2010by TheJokerisedJoker

Hello there,

I am 17 years old and am fairly depressed at the moment. My life has been going up and down and  I fear I have a little bit of a split personality…

I have ruined friendships because of this and at school, I am always a different person than that at home.

I have been considering suicide for about four to five weeks now, but my family is all that can hold me together. However, I am also at a boarding school, which means my family is further and further away from me than I had hoped.

It feels good to let someone know about this, because …

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Death to birth

August 2nd, 2010by seeker09

From rape to right in, to real to live
should I lie down or stand up
And walk around again?

My eyes finally wide open up
My eyes finally wide open shut
to find the found of sound
That hears the touch of my tears.

Smells the taste of all we waste
Could feed the others
But we smother each other
With the nectar and pucker the sour

Of sugar sweet weather
blows through our trees
Swims through our seas
flies to the last gasp we left on this earth, oh ohh

It’s a long lonely journey from death to birth
it’s a long lonely journey from death to…
it’s a long lonely journey from death to birth
oh, it’s a long lonely …

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What am I to do?

August 2nd, 2010by Redbluegreen

If anyone reads this whole way too-long rant, thank you for putting up with this sad display of self-loathing and sadness. I should value my life more. I know. But I just don’t. (I do hope someone reads this. This is the only way I can actually say what I think and feel to actual other people).

I’m 19 and in college, a good college. I’m about to have a good living situation with people I love to be around, good friends. I have supportive parents and a loving little sister. I have friends at home and at college. I’m relatively smart (even though I seldom …

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History repeats itself….

August 2nd, 2010by kushpata

The person I loved treated me as shit. He left suddenly after a year’s relationship. Then he came back after 6 months and I accepted him. The biggest mistake of my life?- well not really but one of the worst for sure.
We were happy. He introduced me to his new group of friends @ MBA class. Once he joked about seeing a beautiful girl in a university programme. “I wanna flirt with her if u dont mind….,” he said. Then on January 30th, I was playing with his phone and noticed a “heaven” saved. He argued its a girl who keeps calling him, bothering him. …

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