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Who Knows

  February 18th, 2011 by charlotte_intheskywithdiamonds

I am alone

I am without

I am crying

But  I know

That life on earth

Is changing

For the worst

I want to leave

But I am tied

I need you

But you can’t help me

So leave

I’ll miss you


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This is how it happened…. the night I found my dad!!

  February 18th, 2011 by Hollyb

MY POEM

The way it was

9 years ago things seemed good to me,
You had a wife with your children, the way it should be.
We loved you so much,
You were are rock,
But that last Monday at home,
Time seem to stop.
With the telly on, me and mum sat out side,
We started to chat, the usual confide,
A horn from the road, Wesley was here,
Little I knew to come was fear.
I still hear the music you played in my room,
I got up to go,
I was going out soon.
Kissed mum goodbye as I turned to the door,
I [...]
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  February 18th, 2011 by Jordan2599

I understand what it feels like. Five years ago my sister killed herself and then I tried because I didn’t know how to deal with the pain. I got help and I want to help others. I will never judge you and I will understand. Sat whatever you want to me, I understand. Email me:
jordan.elizabeth.summers@gmail.com

don’t be shy I am here for you. You can yell at me, scream at me, and just get it all out!

Love,
Jordan


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Random things/questions

  February 18th, 2011 by silent survivor

I heard in the radio that people are dieing from suicide every 15 minutes.I was just wondering does anyone know if that’s true or are thet just exagerating.SPRING BREAK’S HERE!!! im pretty sad about that cuz now i have to stay home  all the time wich really sucks cuz my mom and her craooy boyfriends there (my sister’s went to my grandparents house)My mom threatened me yesterday she was like i can change your schools you know and i can send you off to your grandparents to live so better for me.Im not afraid of the future or the past or the present i really [...]
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Would you?

  February 18th, 2011 by 3_bringitback

If you could see me now, you’d never have left in the first place.

‘All of my friends have someone to love them, so I’m no longer needed here’

You couldn’t have been more wrong. It’s been almost a year, and I havn’t stopped waiting for you. Never.

Back when we first met, we were so different. I was so happy, bubbley. You were depressed, the typical ’emo kid’. Hmmm. Now…well now I’m just like you. I even dyed my hair black.

I think you’d be suprised how similar we actually are. And you probably thought I was this ignorant, little kid.

If you could see me [...]
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Living with suicide

  February 18th, 2011 by Karen

My father commited suicide in 1999 and not a day goes by where I dont think about him.  He abused my mother and my brother and sisters and I so my mum left and took us with her.  He killed himself 5 days before my sisters birthday, knowing that he might have been buried on her birthday. My mum made sure that didnt happen.    Even though he is gone I still have days when I am angry at him then days when I miss him so much. I am still asking why. I guess I will never know.

I am 24 and have suffered from anxiety and depression [...]
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Ruined my own life

  February 18th, 2011 by confused83

I’ve ruined my own life and now I want to ruin it for good. I can’t stop thinking about it. I do more harm in this world than good, I’m a disapointment to my parents, a burden to my friends and the to the person i’m in love with. They’re better off without me. I wish I could explain this better but right now I can’t. My thoughts are far too fast and they’re showing know signs of slowing down.


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Worried about you

  February 18th, 2011 by Tina Bryan

I really hope the person posting here last night did not go through with their plans to die.  I have been thinking about you all day.  I am a stranger to you and this is how much your posts have affected me so just imagine how it will be for those who know and care for you.  Please come on line and tell me you are still here.  ‘ I’m going to die tonight’ I sincerely hope you didn’t.  A stranger who cares enough to ask.  Tina. x

http://www.facebook.com/tlbryan


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I am still alive

  February 18th, 2011 by lynette0

I found this blog only recently, but have been contemplating suicide for a while already.

The reason why I’m still alive is because I am afraid of going to hell eternally. While I can’t say for sure that hell exists, I also can’t say for sure that it does not. What if hell exists? If it does, it’s definitely going to be more painful than anything I’m ever experiencing.

For now, staying alive is the lesser of two evils. It is tiring to keep my head above water, but it is still the lesser of two evils. Its hard that I have to choose to live.


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Please visit my facebook group.

  February 18th, 2011 by Hollyb

I have already left a post here. I want to keep leaving it until people take a chance and just have a look.

http://www.facebook.com/?sk=lf#!/group.php?gid=7383862180

This is my ‘Families dealing with suicide’ group. x


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Choose life…

  February 18th, 2011 by curious1

I am not suicidal, nor have I been directly affected by suicide itself, but i do know some that have been and seen the effects it has had on their lives.
I came across this site and as my nametag suggests, i was curious!
I am shocked by some of the things I have read on here, people offering ideas on how best to commit suicide for instance.
I’m not sure I agree that the act of suicide is necessarily always the ‘easy way out’, its impossible to know the reasoning in someone else’s mind. But having seen its effects on those left [...]
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Much better…

  February 18th, 2011 by meksb3

I have a much better way that won’t require me to wait… I’ve stopped taking my insulin.  Should be dead in a couple of days 🙂


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  February 18th, 2011 by z

“Tell us your habits, your facts, your fears
Give us your address, your shoe size, your years
Your digits, your plans, your number, your eyes
Your schedule, your desktop, your details, your life.

Show us your children, your photos, your home.
Here, take credit, take insurance, take a loan.
Get a job, get a pension, get a haircut, get a suit.
Play the lottery, play football, play the field, sports on toot”

~ A. Freeland

Will the madness ever cease?


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Glamgirl :(

  February 18th, 2011 by darkloner74

Hi guys, I just wanted to say that I think Glamgirl went through with it (for those of you who saw any of her posts) Her ‘brother’ has commented and stuff and I thought I’d just post and say that I hope she’s in a better place and not so sad. It really sucks she did, I was kind of shocked when I noticed.

R.I.P. Glamgirl.

Here’s some links btw –

http://suicideproject.org/2011/01/doing-it-tonight/

http://suicideproject.org/2011/01/partner-in-us/

http://suicideproject.org/2011/02/theres-got-to-be-a-way/#comment-58102

Also remember, we can never really be sure that she did, since it’s based solely on her apparent brother’s comments, so she may very well still be out there, but, honestly, I doubt it.


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Afraid for the future

  February 18th, 2011 by Jean Bean

I walk across that bridge atleast once a day. Every time i wonder if  i’ll do it. Never seem to probably because im always walking with people and dont want to put them through that. Guess im not ready yet.

We climbed to the top of these trees saw a beautiful sunset got some great pictures, i lost my grip on one hand and let go with the other. just got banged up. My best friend saw and came running after “are you okay?”  “Dont ever do that agin, or ill kill you myself”(all that good stuff). I was ready that time, but i realize now [...]
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There’s got to be a way

  February 17th, 2011 by meksb3

I REALLY need a gun… help me please.  I posted this last time and no one had any good answers.  I know some one on here knows how to get one, especially if you don’t have any relatives that have one to steal.  Please don’t give me advice on why I shouldn’t do it… I don’t want to be talked out of it.


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I’m Scared.

  February 17th, 2011 by Hannah

I need help. I’m fifteen (turning sixteen in a week) and i have nothing to look forward to. i feel so lost and alone.

my sixteenth birthday is in a few days. I have no party planned, no friends to invite, and my brother won’t bother to reschedule an SAT test to come home from boarding school with me.

I feel like such a failure all the time compared to him. I didn’t have a birthday party last year either (yet again, no one to invite) and his friend threw him this outrageous surprise party. i’m spending my birthday with my parents who i can’t stand and i [...]
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Comment on please, curious as to what your answers may be

  February 17th, 2011 by 3_bringitback

how many scars do you carry?

for me it’s now 56 from cutting and 8 from burns. but the burns I don’t generally count as they’re not really visible unless you stretch the skin. and most that I did didn’t scar so.

where do you self harm?

I used to most frequently harm on my left shoulder, but I kinda ran out of room where it would be hidden my a t-shirt. So I’ve switched to my right theigh (sp. it’s 3am give me some credit xD)

What’s your timeline?

by this I mean, like, when you started and what you did. scratching, burning, hair pulling, cutting etc.

for me, [...]
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akai sora

  February 17th, 2011 by 3_bringitback

my subtle etched dreams.
you comsume me
with a beloved grin,
diluted with the productions of my own.
but you are mine to conceal;
forever more
or shall the hindering bludgen
with a tweaking of my own.
I soar.
I crumble.
I falter.
ecstasy in it’s moment,
guilt for weary eyes to glanse.
but not to state,
stereotyical hate
because I see now
you know me.
because unfortunatly.
You are Me.


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What kind of sensations will I have to endure if I am to suicide by pills?

  February 17th, 2011 by disconsolate

The title explains the question I am asking here. My other option I allowed myself is hanging; what kind of pain will I expect their? I’ve given myself a few more days at most to live. I preferably want stories of those who survived these two methods (pills, hanging) to describe me what pain I will face. Please; any help of any sort will be sufficient.

P.S. What kind of drugs is suggested to kill myself? I know asking such questions are rather taboo, but I’ve simply grown tired; I rather don’t care anymore. I will swallow whatever pills I’ve gathered currently by midnight tonight [...]
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