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nobody knows

  September 5th, 2010 by lost_soul

the truth to why I act this way. They can’t see that I’m just a robot saying and doing everything they say. Why I don’t see the details, just the outlines and why I look unresponsive and cold. Nobody knows because nobody cares.

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Life’s little ironies…

  September 5th, 2010 by Anon13

I posted a few days ago about my situation. To keep it brief I won’t go into all that again, but basically I’m considering suicide and if it comes to that, it’s likely to occur within the next 2 weeks or so; or when my money runs out, whichever comes quickest.

A few things occured today that I find, ironic for lack of a better word. My mom picked me up and we’re driving to pick up my sister. She turns down the stereo to tell me a story. An old friend of hers, Gloria, called her last weekend and had some sad news. A very close …

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  September 4th, 2010 by Tobias

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The experiment

  September 4th, 2010 by schiller

If you put 20 mice in a cage, and each day shake the cage and jab the mice with sharp pins as they run past. Around 3 of the mice will refuse to eat, and prefer to die instead of putting up with being tortured, aren’t they the smart ones?

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  September 4th, 2010 by a new laptop

Thanks, Stragers, Comrades in arm!

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Reasons to go on Living

  September 4th, 2010 by tinali

What are you reasons to go on living?

Have you attempted suicide?
Did you choose life?

If you answered “yes” to both questions, we hope you will help us with our research.

I am posting this on behalf of the team behind The Reasons to go on Living Project. We are collecting the stories of people who have attempted or seriously contemplated suicide but now want to go on living. The Project will study and share these anonymous stories for research, education and inspiration.

Please visit the website ( for more

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my dad always calls me fat.

  September 4th, 2010 by careex

i started to believe him.. now i don’t want to eat anymore.

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  September 4th, 2010 by man-from-earth

Hi Jenttar, I noticed your reply to niki on another post, I responded to you but it is waiting in moderation, so I thought I would post my reply just for you 🙂

Being suicidal doesn’t always have anything to do with your circumstances, many wealthy people kill themselves. I think it depends on how realistic you are about life, weather you’re poor or rich, if you are smart enough to to have a realistic view of what your future holds, and you don’t like it, that can make you suicidal. Whilst I agree to a certain degree that we never really know what our future …

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Why am I this way? Why was I not born happy like everyone else?

  September 4th, 2010 by disconsolate

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A Vision

  September 4th, 2010 by Mad Vulcan

She walks up to me, a cold white dust on her coat. She looks me squarely in the eye, a tear falls from her cheek to the blade she holds. The snow crunches beneath her feet as she imparts upon me a final embrace. “Good bye” she says “I’m sorry”. She holds her dagger over her left breast. Unimaginable grief adorns her face. The dagger plunges into her chest, into her heart. A brief cry of anguish escapes her lips. She falls to the ground blood flowing freely from her wound, turning the snow a deep red. …

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Childhood Sexual Abuse and the Toll It Takes…

  September 3rd, 2010 by geckojudo

Having been sexually abused as a child, I can safely say that I believe that all of my gender-related parts need to be surgically altered/completely removed.  Knowing that I cannot pay for such surgery, my alternative, instead of suffering with that my entire life, seems to be suicide.  That would be the one sure way to deal with it so that I did not have to feel anything about it anymore.  Beyond that, my military combat experiences do not help my mental/emotional state or views of myself.  As a matter of fact, a bullet in the brain sounds that much better because I never anticipated …

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My near-suicide experience deep in the desert outback of September 1st, 2010

  September 3rd, 2010 by vlfradio

My name is Steve and I will be 47 in October – and after my recent experience, I feel so grateful I am still here and might likely see age 47 come to pass…

I’ve always been a wilderness lover, and as such, tend to be a loner because few people I know feel so comfortable in the  “boonies” as I do. In fact, it is my preference to pass-away, when the time is really right, deep in the wilderness, in a peaceful, lovely setting of a few chosen spots I have found during my lifetime of wilderness camping and hiking – like a
native person.  I …

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What is the alternative to suicide?

  September 3rd, 2010 by jentttar

I want to stay alive because I love laughing and dancing, I love music, the weather, the river and the garden. There’s so many films I haven’t seen yet, so many books I’ve still to read. I love traveling really early on a Saturday morning when everyone’s still in bed and the roads are clear, and I’m escaping to somewhere remote for the weekend. I love sitting in sweet little coffee shops and watching the world go by; the world that I hate in the main, but now and again I see the movement of a kind person and it touches me to tears and …

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The Illusion

  September 3rd, 2010 by Iriega

They told us what life’s about,

Grow up, do well in school, and don’t act out,

Make friends, find love and get employed,

Marry, get a mortgage, be overjoyed,

Have kids, watch TV, don’t forget to vote,

Go to church, find some hobbies, congratulations you’re afloat,

Donate to charity, go on vacation, but ignore temptation,

Grow old, retire, spoil the children, and thank your democratic nation,

Reminisce, be at peace and look forward to the afterlife of your choosing…


Forgive me for snoozing.

I can’t help but think how fucked we all are,

If the above is the ideal then we’re all screwed,

We’re told from birth “this is the plan”,

Society sets this norm…builds this pedestal,

There’s no …

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Hope it helps

  September 3rd, 2010 by asprin

if you are suffering and also interested in getting better, I have some info to offer that may or may not help.

first and foremost my email is If you ever need someone to talk with email me, I’ll even give you my number, we can chat at odd hours.

Second is for those of you who are depressed because of economics, I can offer the subsection of a website called reddit, called frugal These guys are the best, simple  to advanced tips to stay alive in hard times. They also have a community about suicide,

Third is the information that depression has physical links, …

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Working class hero is something to be…

  September 3rd, 2010 by niki

“As soon as you’re born they make you feel small
By giving you no time instead of it all
Till the pain is so big you feel nothing at all
A working class hero is something to be
A working class hero is something to be

They hurt you at home and they hit you at school
They hate you if you’re clever and they despise a fool
Till you’re so fucking crazy you can’t follow their rules
A working class hero is something to be
A working class hero is something to be

When they’ve tortured and scared you for twenty odd years
Then they expect you to pick a career
When you can’t really function …

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just a moment of escape from reality

  September 3rd, 2010 by LoosingFaith

I’ve been degraded and maltreated many times. I did wish a hundred times that I am dead. They thought I am snappy and proper and many says I am too modest to be here. Some of the immaculate seem to like me, some of them didn’t notice me and some of them hate me. Those who has gripes on me made my life miserable here inside the academy for the past five months. Yes I did thought of quitting once when I experience hazing. I did take risk on writing this because I need to or else I’m going crazy keeping all the sentiments inside…

Know …

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Oh God, I’m crazy.

  September 3rd, 2010 by hatemeplease

Do you ever have those days when you feel insane? Like, mood swings, where you jump from “I should go to the hospital so I don’t kill myself” to “I am on top of the world!”? It’s not bipolar because he mood swings are way to sudden, but it’s something. I woke up this morning convinced that I was either going to hit up a friend for 20 vicodin or finally go to the hospital and bite that bullet (in a lot of ways, I think that the hospital would be worse than suicide because I would still be alive to have to face all …

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“What they say”

  September 2nd, 2010 by Iriega

My dad once said-

“Elle if you don’t have your health…

…you don’t have anything.”

He was right.

“We can give you 50 years”

I don’t want 50 years, I want forever.

“Check your sugars Elle”

“Take your insulin Elle”

“Have you checked your feet Elle?”

“When’s your next appointment Elle?”

“No relationship can survive contempt”

That’s what they say.

They also say ‘mental illness’

…when the impacts are all physical.

“Cheer up Elle, the world isn’t gonna move for you”

“What doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger”

“Ugh do you have to inject in public?”


And this is what I say-

“They live in their perfect little boxes…

Shock and horror for anything outside of ‘normal’

And melt away at the …

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  September 2nd, 2010 by Anon13

I’ve been lurking around this site for quite some time without posting my own story/words. I’m going to try not to ramble right now but if I do, forgive me. I have no one to talk to and I’m hoping that finally writing this will alleviate some of this pain.

Instead of starting with explaining my past, I will start with the now. I am a female, 28 years old. This past Tuesday I was fired from my job. It is approximately the 15th job I’ve lost within the last 8 years. I was only there a year and a half. I just went through this …

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